#Please help...

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copper bramble
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I lost my close friend of 3 and a half years 3 weeks ago because im mad that the mods in another server and their friend group which i also wanted to be a part of banned me because they accused me of being a stalker without even talking to me about the accusations and using screenshots of somebody else's alts that were blocked by their victim as proof and they also accused me of using AI while agreeing with them about their anti-AI takes and i've been venting about all of this in my instagram stories all throughout last month and this month...

And i tried to tell my close friend about them accusing me of being a stalker for 3 weeks after they banned me up until he blocked me and said "im done i want nothing to do with you anymore dont try to contact me again" without him responding to me saying they accused me of being a stalker and banned me... I lost him and i also lost my other close friend when i made a community post about him on Youtube after i tried to tell her he blocked me and she justified him blocking me... And then i joined another server seeking advice and the mods of that server banned me because I didnt like what they said to me...

My manager even threatened to fire me from my job a couple weeks ago because i had a mental breakdown about all of this thats been going on SINCE APRIL...

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And i got banned from another venting server last week because when i tried to seek advice the people and the mods in there told me "move on" "they dont want you to contact them dont contact them" "you can't make them hear you out or be friends with you" "they will never come back" as if any of those are gonna make me feel any better...

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Or "youre gonna find new friends"...

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One of the mods from that server told me that night to say i wanted to be lied to and then i was like "ok i want to be lied to" and then he said "didnt i say last night that you wanted to be lied to" and then thats when they banned me from the server...

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And thats when i came back to that server on multiple alts spamming the same thing over and over and over and over...

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"You cant make me leave you alone either you dont get to tell me who the fuck I am or decide who I am based on what somebody else says about me"

copper bramble
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fallen mesa
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shit man you're not wrong for wanting to be heard, to be defended, to be understood. It sounds like you’ve been cornered again and again without anyone really listening.
you've just lost a friend you cared about deeply, and that fact that you're hurting proves that. It's not as easy as "move on" and you're not wrong feeling strongly.

you're not required to fix it all in one day or even one week or even a month. The pain is likely to linger, but don't stand still. Start small. Start by just letting yourself feel everything. The grieve, the betrayal, the pain of acceptance. Then slowly learn to accept it, no matter how slow it is or how long it takes. just keep going. You can do this.

copper bramble
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Im sick and tired of people telling me to "move on" like my issue doesnt mean anything...

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Like i dont WANT TO hear "move on"

copper bramble
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This is fucking annoying...

copper bramble
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I have nobody to talk to about this...

snow blade
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Do your best

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And just, separate yourself from all of this

ember needle
copper bramble
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Why are you asking if im autistic my disability has nothing to do with this

ember needle
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@copper bramble before deleting all of ur apps, I want u to think this while you're autistic. considering the phrase 'move on' feels dismissive to you, especially as someone who's autistic, because you're still stuck in the pain and trying to process it emotionally

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you're not really listening to your inner voice, you’re just doing what feels comfortable, and it’s only making things impossibl in the long run

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despite ur autism, you're having a hard time comprehending the phrase 'move on'

copper bramble
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I am having a hard time comprehending when people say that to me

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And its for a reason

winged pine
copper bramble
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What

oak shore
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Hi! I can relate to this severely but not as deeply as your situation is honestly i was banned from a server i was on for like 3 years because someone accused me of hacking, i didn't fight back because i just dgaf uhm and i tend accidentally offend people alot so I'm banned and blocked by alot of people and servers all because im desensitized 😂 uhh, hope we can be Broski's 🔥

uncut idol
magic reef
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I Wouldnt understand...