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serene slate
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I loved you

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i need you

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i only want you

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and no bodys gonna know if it's true

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i know you can see through me

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i know you can see through my lies

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why pretend trust in me

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but i think i might know

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you rather this than be alone

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cos i loved you

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and i need you

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i only want you

serene slate
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and if u want go again

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You can always talk to me

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Cos all we ever do is love

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Open up your mind and find the love

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don't you forget

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don't you worry about a thing

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Wel be everything u need just believe

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when your hair is a mess

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u look so depressed

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And ur filled with a regret

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And u feel like u gotta go home

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but these nights go quicker than the days did

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I got a test for you

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you said u want my heart

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U can have it all

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there's just something i need from u

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it's to meet my boys

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and they can make u right

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there's enough to pass around

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you don't have to wait in line

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And the clocks don't work u don't gotta check the time

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and uve been going hard

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And u gotta alot u wanna show off

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All my writings on the wall

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thought id fall

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u said u want my heart

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and u can have it all

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where were u when i needed you

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I bet u miss me now

serene slate
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she's so beautiful

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the most beautiful by far

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you see how much i need her

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I've been living for the thrill

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i deserve this

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so if u ask me what i do

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i do what i want

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you're my everything

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you're my heart

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You're my everything

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you're my life

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I thought i told you

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along time ago

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don't you fall in love

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don't make me make u fall in love

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but won't you fall in love with a bird like me

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like me

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can't you see

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it won't mean a thing to me

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I've been doing this for so long

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I felt it all

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So Il try if you try to play along

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but there's no one to count on if u fall

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So don't make me make you fall in love

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because I'm just another bird

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you try

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u tried to warn me

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But im warning you

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girl il show u this is no game

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youl be falling to a point of no return

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don't you fall in love

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im just a bird

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im just another bird

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I know its got a hold on you

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i know you want to

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but don't you fall in love

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don't make me make you fall in love

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because I'm just a bird

serene slate
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who else has to pay for my sins

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my love is fabricated

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it's too late to save it

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i am ready for the end

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let me fall out love

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i beg you il give you anything

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I see that she's beautiful

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the most beautiful by far

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but you see how much i need you

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you see how much I care

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aspirations all i want

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so i deserve this

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you've been running my head

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What do i do when i need

ancient oracle
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Wait, so this about you wanting to fully disconnect from your ex? (Also did you steal my idea?)

serene slate
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this is my toxicity

ancient oracle
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Also, why is every line a new message?

serene slate
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love is just like a poem

ancient oracle
serene slate
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il let you show me his moves

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let you reminisce

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anything to get you into your zone

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I'll stay up all night

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wish you could see yourself through my eyes

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forget what you want

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cos when im finished you won't want to go outside

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all the pain that you feel you can tell this isn't love

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but if you pretend il pretend

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lets make it seems we are all we need in the end

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go outside

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blame it on the night life

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just don't blame it on me

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cos i get it

ancient oracle
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PLEASE, before you write think it out

serene slate
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you're built like a goddess

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and if you want to go again you can always call me

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cos all we ever do is love

ancient oracle
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@serene slate please listen to me

serene slate
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open up your mind and find the love

serene slate
ancient oracle
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just type in 1 message

serene slate
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no

ancient oracle
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use shift+tab to go down a line

serene slate
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i love it when your eyes are red

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lust over love is your mindset

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but all we ever do is love

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open up your mind and find the love

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so don't you ever forget

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so don't you ever worry about a thing

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Wel be everything u need just believe

ancient oracle
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let me just comprehend this for a sec

ancient oracle
serene slate
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its nothing

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just random words

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we don't need attention

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open your hands

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don't be scared

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Im right here

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even tho

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you don't want

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trust me girl

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you wanna be

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i just want to take you there

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he doesn't have to know where

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let me take a picture with your lips

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and no one will stop us

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and il give you what you feel

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he's what you want but im what you need

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you're in my world now

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you can stay

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but youl belong to me

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if it hurts to breathe open a window

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and your mind wants to leave

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but you can't go

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this is fine

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just don't blame it on me cos u wanted to have fun

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i got my heart right here

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I got my scars right here

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listen il give you all i got

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i need confidence in my self

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i need all of it to myself

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so tell me you love me

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even tho you don't love me

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i got you girl

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i forget what you mean to me

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i hope you remember what u mean to me

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i always want you when im coming down

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im all alone

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i always want you when im coming down

serene slate
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and i don't care about nobody else

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I've been on this too long

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kill another seretonin

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girl I still got you

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and i hope youl listen

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but until then

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i hope im different

serene slate
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they say they want heaven

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they say they want God

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I say i have heaven

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i say i am

ancient oracle
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Can you give me a tldr?

serene slate
teal thistle
serene slate
teal thistle
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Then idk, they’re just asking for a summary of what u said

shut shard
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Holy yap

teal thistle
shut shard
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It's true tho

teal thistle
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Let him have his poetry moment bro

shut shard
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Alr let him cook

teal thistle
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Future Shakespeare 🤞🤞

serene slate
teal thistle
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Oh?

serene slate
teal thistle
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Who is L

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I’m so confused

serene slate
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it's from an anime called deathnote

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light is trying to cosplay a fictional character on discord 🥺

teal thistle
serene slate
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mbmb

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but L was always better

serene slate
teal thistle
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Alr

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Nah I’m too lazy

serene slate
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has Tiktok also ruined your attention span

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ugh if only an XO looked at this

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they'd know

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let me falllll out of loveee

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before you

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i begged pleaseee

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il give you alll my

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il give you all that i need

teal thistle
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You spelled I’ll wrong by the way

serene slate
teal thistle
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K well that’s new

serene slate
teal thistle
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Derealization depersonalization

serene slate
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omg

teal thistle
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It doesn’t feel like anything is real

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And it feels like something is controlling u

serene slate
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ive had that phase

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When i quit the carts 💔💔

teal thistle
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Okay wait

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U pmo

serene slate
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derealization

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when you don't even feel real

teal thistle
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Smt like that

serene slate
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u got it naturally?

teal thistle
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But dpdr is a mental disorder, not a phase

teal thistle
serene slate
teal thistle
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I think 😭

serene slate
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it's also a common side effect of excessive use of ||THC||

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wrong one oops

teal thistle
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Lol

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Yeah I don’t do drugs so deffo not that 😭

serene slate
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no if it's a disorder

teal thistle
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Uhm

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😭

serene slate
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it's different

teal thistle
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Whopsies

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Not tetrahydrocannabinol

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😭

serene slate
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it's weird tho

teal thistle
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What is it 😭

serene slate
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derealization

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it's the same feeling i get in dreams

teal thistle
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THC

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What is thc

serene slate
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it's a chemical compound found in cannabis

teal thistle
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Yeah so I was right

serene slate
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which creates that sense of euphoria

teal thistle
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I’m so confused

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tetrahydrocannabinol

serene slate
teal thistle
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😭

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Wait I’m wrong I miss understood ur message

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Mb

serene slate
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its alr the point is i went through that shii

teal thistle
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Yeah

serene slate
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i feel u bro ❤️

teal thistle
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❤️ thanks bro

serene slate
teal thistle
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Yeah sorta

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My therapist said I probably have it

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So like

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No

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But

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Yeah

serene slate
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how bad is it

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does it have cycles? where sometimes life feels more unreal then normal

teal thistle
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Uhhh when I’m stressed abt something it gets super bad

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And any memory I have of any stressful situation is always in the third person

serene slate
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I guess my advice is to try to connect with the world physically

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basically meditation

teal thistle
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Yeah

serene slate
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but feeling water always made me feel better

teal thistle
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It’s been fine recently

serene slate
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Like id just wash my face with cold water

serene slate
teal thistle
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Where I used to live, there was a kind of meadow that just like sitting down in was super relieving

serene slate
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secluded bits of nature are always the best

teal thistle
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Yeahhhhhhh

serene slate
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but yeah bro that's all the advice i got for dp/dr meditation

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meditate

teal thistle
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Yeah lol

serene slate
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boring advice tbh

teal thistle
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Nah it’s alr

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I couldn’t think of other advice tbh

serene slate
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I think the worst derealization shi i had

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is when life doesn't feel real and then it's coupled with negative thoughts

teal thistle
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Yeah

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How do u do a spoiler message

serene slate
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||

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||

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and put the message in-between

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but like together

teal thistle
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||I almost jumped off a bridge bc I felt like there was nothing holding me back||

serene slate
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yeah bro i feel u

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i had similar incidents cos i just wanted to feel something

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but trust me derealization isn't only negative

teal thistle
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Yeah honestly I’ve had good experiences

serene slate
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one thing that i did when i felt extra unconnected is acc just give therapy on the server

teal thistle
serene slate
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it's so easy to understand everyone when ur in 3rd person

teal thistle
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Wait ima make a pros and cons list

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Pros

  • easy to understand ppl
  • you have time to kind of just be blank and have a moment to yourself
  • (in my experience) kinda feels like being high, depending on the circumstances
    Cons
  • can’t control when it happens
  • can barely control impulses
  • (when you’re new to it) it’s very confusing and scary
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I’m tired so those were kinda bad

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😭

serene slate
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it's okay

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over time u control impulses more don't u think

teal thistle
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Ehhhhh

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Idk

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Yeah I guess

serene slate
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it has its moments

teal thistle
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Yeah

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Ups and downs…

serene slate
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idk if this part with derealization

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But do u ever feel like everyone is judging you

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like those eyes

teal thistle
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YESSSSSS

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I also feel like things on me change

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Like I feel like my hands or arms get rly big

serene slate
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yeahh for me it's different but i see the perspective

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for me it's more like i feel like im giving off the wrong vibes

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By accident

teal thistle
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And I also feel like other ppl know what I’m thinking

teal thistle
serene slate
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yeahh

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tbh idk if it's insensitive to say but im glad i had it

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i think overall it made me into a better person

teal thistle
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In my opinion it just makes me seem like a better person to other ppl

serene slate
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yeah but people sometimes have issues on different takes..

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Got baggged like twice for it on the server

teal thistle
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Yikes

serene slate
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it's good

teal thistle
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Idk

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My issue is the inability to control impulses when it’s happening

serene slate
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yeah i get it

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well you are only 13

teal thistle
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Yeah 😭

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I forgot that that info is there

serene slate
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with age comes maturity and more depth understanding of things

teal thistle
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Yup

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Back to the topic of solutions

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Overloading a sense is a good solution, like holding ice, or smelling something nasty or flashing a light in the eye

serene slate
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yeah

teal thistle
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The last one probably don’t do unless it’s getting rly bad

serene slate
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when it comes randomly it's like a gush of water

teal thistle
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Honestly I don’t usually notice when it comes

serene slate
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if you don't quickly adapt chances are u will drown

serene slate
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those ones are the worst iswtg

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like when it happens mid convo

teal thistle
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Yesssss

serene slate
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or you are just walking with someone

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and then u look at them

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And the silence

teal thistle
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Omg

serene slate
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and it's like this guy is deffo fake

teal thistle
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You just like realize the significance of like what’s happenin

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Yeah

serene slate
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and conversations just turn into words

teal thistle
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But I totally feel like everyone else other than me is just like an npc

serene slate
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yeahh

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Il leave my description of fake ambiguous

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cos that'll give it more justice

teal thistle
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Yeah lol

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Moral of the story, it’s fun when you have it under control, but otherwise, not fun

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I think I also have adhd too which makes it worse

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I don’t know if I do

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But I might

serene slate
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ask your therapist

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Also where you from?!

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Cos if your from America then...

teal thistle
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Uhm

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Then what 😭

serene slate
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Idk how to feel with your therapist

teal thistle
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Uhhhh my therapist is good I think

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I am from America by the way

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😭

serene slate
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America has like the highest amount of therapy shi for youth

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but interestingly enough the rates for ykk in America are rising

teal thistle
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Yeah

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I used to live in Japan

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Which is like the 3rd highest yk rate I think

serene slate
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yeah

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china has one of the lowest

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and it's on a decline too

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which is interesting cos of how America paints china

teal thistle
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Where u from?

serene slate
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The UK

teal thistle
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🔥

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Actually no

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Tell ur ppl to stop being asshats

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😭

serene slate
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icl British society>>> american society

teal thistle
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Probably

serene slate
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America is just so superficial

teal thistle
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Yeah

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July fourth Is the only day I like America 🤑

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🇺🇸

serene slate
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😭😭 u probably go to an American high school

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broo why are they so funny

teal thistle
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Man I’m 13 😭

serene slate
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why do people acc play stereotypes

teal thistle
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I don’t even go to high school

teal thistle
serene slate
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middle school

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Idk

teal thistle
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High school musical is real

serene slate
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I read diary of the wimpy kid when i was young

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that's what i see American schools as

teal thistle
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I never did 🤑

teal thistle
serene slate
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i just wish the best for u bro

teal thistle
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😭

serene slate
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hope you don't fall into the herd mindset

teal thistle
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Nah I won’t

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Trust

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Actually I might 😭

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All boys private school in Ohio 🥀

serene slate
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lmaoaoao ohio

teal thistle
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Rich white kids

teal thistle
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😭

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Also America is so high calorie

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Like the air is 100 calories per breath 😭

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I’ve only been back for 2 weeks and I litterally haven’t eaten anything different from what I woulda eaten in Japan and Ive gained more than 5 lbs 🥀

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Not that much tho lowkey

serene slate
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damn

teal thistle
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I’m underweight so I need it probably

serene slate
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yeah

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But what type of weight do u want

teal thistle
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Idk man

serene slate
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protein max

teal thistle
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I’m a twink

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🤑

serene slate
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who cares bro

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ur a kid 😭😭😭😭

teal thistle
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Yeah no one cares

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😭

serene slate
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muscle growth will happen laterr

teal thistle
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Yeah

serene slate
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just try slowly integrate a healthy routine

teal thistle
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Bro my friend is literally also 13 and jacked

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😭

serene slate
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well then u have someone who can help u

teal thistle
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😔

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I don’t need help I’m not even tryna do anything

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Ima just hope and pray I don’t get fat

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💜

serene slate
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frr

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me too tbh idc about being jacked

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i hate everything superficial

teal thistle
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Real

serene slate
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materialism ❌

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consumerism ❌

teal thistle
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Bbl ✅

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Chat my sister is sofa king lazy

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🙄

shut shard
serene slate
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ughihml

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why do we live in such a consumeristic society 💔

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why is everything now for someone else

serene slate
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I swear i loved you girl

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and you probably went and fuhed the world

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But see the shit ive only just begun

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but baby I've been alone for almost all my life

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and expectations never do me right

serene slate
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if you tryna feel sum come my way

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she talking bad to me take it slow mo

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makes me wanna hit the low notes

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and she blogs its like it's Myspace

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cos im really feeling this girl

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and she wanna and i wanna