IK there's a loneliness epidemic especially rn, but here me out, over the past 12yrs (im 18), I've tried to be the most caring & loving person i can be to make my mom happy, she always said to me that "when your nice to others they will be nice to u" boy was she wrong. even when i tried being forgiving and well mannered (even now) people(adults/teachers/principles/family/so called friends) could find a reason to hate on me for no reason and can get away with it even when i reported so so many times about this and they did nothing , where's the justice (even my mom reported on it and they didn't do anything :( ). Over the years people have bullied me for no reason, they didn't even have a logical reason to do it and they can do it because they could (like i could be minding my own business not even looking at them or even talking and they would hate me for that to and everyone thinks its funny like what did i do to you ?!?!?!?!?!), and this has my relation with people in general so null (i feel no sympathy) that i don't care for anyone anymore. i really just need advice because its affecting my body and health like I'm depressed that i can communicate/relate/interact/bond/be happy with anyone and i feel I've disconnect with people so much that i tend to have voice cracks often for how rarely i speak ( caused by lack of communication with another person), idk what you people see in me but i don't wanna be like this forever, my had hurts, my body feels emotionally drained for so long without caring people in this world since all u people like is $@X,DRUGS,VIOLENCE and they say homophobic/racist/stereotypical/harassing comments to me. I don't wanna be narcissistic and unfortunately that's the path I'm going down, i care for people i wanna protect my friends from harm but with that disconnect idk if anyone would give 2 $8!T$ about me anymore. they ruined what was once a good kid with dreams now struggling to communicate with the most brain dead people
#everyone hates me (probably u 2)
lost mauve
reason why i posted this was from an interaction i had , i went out to a cosmetic store to get something with my mom for my mom and my genderfluid @$$ and a sales clerk said that if we want to try a product, she then ask to touch my hair (w/ consent) i dodged her by saying no, my mom hyped me up and i did it and i liked it, she then for got how to describe he product and i answered her and she said quote "yeah , that what im talking about, see, you dont have to get yourself all worked up, be proud and bold of myself" (my mom -> 'see not everyone u see is a bad person')after that experience i thought when i got home, "has my mentality with people cause me to be this antisocial ?" idk if i need actually help, but all i want is support becasue i cant and dont want to live like this for the rest of my life (IT ACTUALLY TAKES A TOLL ON MY BODY) [NO DMS PLZ THX]
pure flax
reason why i posted this was from an interaction i had , i went out to a cosmeti...
If I can say what my whole family has said to me many times to you. It would be. Be who you wanna be. There are some people who will judge and others who will care and understand. Just find the right people and you will be set for life. Let the past be the past and write yourself a new future. You got this.
lost mauve
If I can say what my whole family has said to me many times to you. It would be....
thx you so so much that was comforting :)
its hard to move on from shit like but i do understand. this had me like this for years, well i am trying some hobbies now to get rid of the problem like making 3d voxel art which takes up most of my day and my mom is supportive of my identity and ambitions so i guess thats 2 steps ahead right. even if i can run away from my past, i really wish i could forget it but then again it kinda made me the person i am if you think about it (creative/outgoing/not like other boys or girls/unique and passionate)
olive crest
IK there's a loneliness epidemic especially rn, but here me out, over the past 1...
thats all people really are nowadays i swear people are all on a low supply of common sense
lost mauve
thats all people really are nowadays i swear people are all on a low supply of c...
well at least im /the people who are trying to be compassionate are trying 
