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I’ve been struggling with depression for years… I’ve never brought that up to my family because my father passed a few years back and I knew they already deal with enough as it is… but recently I’ve started looking at how off I am- it’s one of the reasons I was so depressed… I’ve always been so different- I thought it was a good thing but now I think it’s a bad thing… I’ve questioned disorders. AuDHD, DID, and/or PTSD. I brought up maybe having autism to my older sister, she asked why I thought that but honestly I didn’t really know… I just blurted out basic symptoms I had heard- she said that didn’t mean I had autism- I knew that… but I didn’t know why I felt so off- later I finally brought up maybe having ADHD to my mom, (I went back and forth with questioning for a bit) she said no, I still didn’t fully explain- she didn’t really let me even try- later, on a bad day she even randomly shouted at me, that I wasn’t autistic- I didn’t tell my mom about autism… I couldn’t fight back though- I was already having some anxiety/panic/meltdown thing- now I understand a bit more but I still don’t know how to express myself… I’ve always been bad at explaining but I’m trying my best 🥴 there’s one person I feel can and will try to help but I’m to scared to ask him- I’ve tried- I don’t know what to do anymore… life is only getting harder- when I was younger I was oblivious and just automatically was a rug to be walked on but now it’s so much harder because I have opinions now- I hate that I do- they’ve only hurt me… I always feel ignored… maybe I’m weird- maybe it’s depression- or typical teenage behavior… but why is it so hard for me-

I cut that a bit short- I didn’t explain well- I’ve tried coming on here many times but I always went to long then I’d delete it and not retry cat_cry

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