torpid flower
so, me and my girlfriend finally met after being long distance, and honestly, it was the best 4 days of my life. we stayed at a hotel together, just the two of us, and it was AMAZING. every second with her felt perfect, like nothing else in the world mattered. we laughed, cuddled, held each other so close, and for the first time, the distance wasn’t there. i got to wake up next to her, feel her warmth, and just be with her. but now… she has to go home, and it’s hitting me harder than i ever expected.
idk how to grieve this pain of not being next to her. it’s like a part of me is missing now. i loved how her hands touched my body, how she held me so gently yet so tightly like she never wanted to let go. the way she kissed me, the way we fit so perfectly together, like we were meant to be. and now that it’s gone... i feel empty. i feel like crying. i just don’t know what to do with myself.
we’re meeting again in 2 weeks, at most 3, and this time she’s staying longer, which makes me happy, but right now it feels like forever. we’re saving every bit of money just to make sure we can meet as soon as possible. if, for some reason, we can’t in these 2-3 weeks, then we will in may, but i know we’ll make it happen. there’s no doubt in my mind we will be together again.
we’re trying to find ways to make everything feel better, to make it feel like we’re still next to each other even when we’re miles apart. it’s NOT that bad because the love we have is so real and so strong, but the distance is still there, and it just hurts.
so please, if anyone has been in a long-distance relationship or has more experience with this, how do we make the time pass faster? how do we deal with this ache of being apart? any suggestions or advice would really mean a lot.
naive geode
cosmic glacier