Nadss journal!! | The Therapy Center | Page 1

jagged spruce Mar 25, 2025, 8:49 PM

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YAAAY

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I HAVE JOURNAL

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im so happy

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tomorrow i have history test and I forgot to study

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like

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i was studying

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but

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i cant focus on that

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😭😭

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I literally tried my best

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but i can cheat on test

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😈

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also full day I cant focus on my classes

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I cant stop thinking about one thing

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that makes me exhausted

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ALSO

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GUYS

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I WAS BIKING TODSY

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pretty

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o<

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my legs hates bike

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😭

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I have to wake up my friend at 23:00

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girl

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i want sleep too

thin hemlock Mar 25, 2025, 8:57 PM

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jagged spruce i cant focus on that

Tried out classical or jazz-music? Maybe binaural beats?

jagged spruce Mar 25, 2025, 8:58 PM

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honestly? I've never tried to study with music

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so I have to try

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does it help? seriously?

jagged spruce Mar 25, 2025, 9:21 PM

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ugh my grades are starting to get low

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://

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I got 2 from physics

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I cant focus

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i will try this music

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WE CANT STOP THE MUSICCC

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I LOVE YAPPING

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LIKE

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REALLY

jagged spruce Mar 25, 2025, 10:05 PM

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Im going to sleep

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goodnight yall

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stay safe

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😛😛

thin hemlock Mar 26, 2025, 4:22 AM

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jagged spruce does it help? seriously?

For most people it works.

fathom stone Mar 26, 2025, 4:52 AM

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jagged spruce

Love the field

jagged spruce Mar 26, 2025, 5:39 AM

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HEYEYYE

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GUYSS

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i woke up

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and I still dont wanna go to school

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😭

thin hemlock Mar 26, 2025, 5:54 AM

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jagged spruce and I still dont wanna go to school

You will be successful today!

jagged spruce Mar 26, 2025, 6:05 AM

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thin hemlock You will be successful today!

I have history test so im not sure😭

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but thank you hamster

thin hemlock Mar 26, 2025, 6:06 AM

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jagged spruce I have history test so im not sure😭

Maybe one failure, but 10 successes.

I believe in you! Just think about what you learned in history.

thin hemlock Mar 26, 2025, 6:07 AM

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jagged spruce but thank you<:hamster:1243091630420922389>

You are always welcome!

jagged spruce Mar 26, 2025, 6:07 AM

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thin hemlock Maybe one failure, but 10 successes. I believe in you! Just think about what yo...

Thank you soo much🫂🫂

thin hemlock Mar 26, 2025, 6:09 AM

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jagged spruce Thank you soo much🫂🫂

Don't thank me for noticing and reminding you of something obvious. You are able to be successful everyday - if you learn from your previous mistakes.

jagged spruce Mar 26, 2025, 7:44 AM

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I had a test

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I was trying to cheat

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idk

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I have hope to get good grade

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from that

jagged spruce Mar 26, 2025, 11:32 AM

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im getting the worst grades

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in this week

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im worried about my gf and I cant focus

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Im overthinking about everything

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literally my mental state is terrible

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Im always tired and sleepy

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I want to sleep 24/7

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just lying down in my bed

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thats what I want

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and dont talk to anyone

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my mom is getting mad bc i have bad grades

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thats my fault

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I never talked to her about my problems and how I feel

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I dont how to start

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talking about it

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so im just quiet 24/7

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also my teacher are so demanding

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Also i have exams this year in june

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I always told my mom i want to focus more on exams

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Because it depends on whether I pass this year

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but she cant understand that

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6 – Very Good
This is the highest grade, indicating excellent knowledge and skills, with no significant mistakes. The student demonstrates full mastery of the material.
2. 5+ – Very Good Plus
This grade is between “Very Good” and “Good” and indicates a high level of mastery with minor gaps or mistakes.
3. 5 – Very Good
The student has mastered the material excellently, with only a few minor errors that do not affect the overall grade.
4. 4+ – Good Plus
The student has mastered the material at a good level, with a few minor gaps that do not significantly affect the grade.
5. 4 – Good
The student has a solid understanding of the material but has some important gaps in knowledge. This is considered a satisfactory grade.
6. 3+ – Satisfactory Plus
This grade is between “Satisfactory” and “Good” and indicates that the student has met the basic requirements but has some areas to improve.
7. 3 – Satisfactory
This is the minimum passing grade, indicating that the student has met the basic requirements, but has significant gaps in knowledge that need to be addressed.
8. 2 – Unsatisfactory
This grade means the student has not mastered the material to the required standard and has not met the minimum requirements for passing. The student may need to retake exams or do remedial work.
9. 1 – Failing
This is the lowest grade, meaning the student has failed to meet any of the requirements and has not learned the material. A grade of 1 results in failing the subject, and the student must usually retake the subject or take a remedial exam to improve their grade.

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thats my grades if someone dont know

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I got today 1,2,2 and 3

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😔

thin hemlock Mar 26, 2025, 12:45 PM

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Sometimes a door is closing and another one opens.

Same for your grades. Now you have less good grades. But now you learn what you can change from it and keep on improving.

If you worry about your girlfriend, talk to her about it. In some cases, it's just a misunderstanding and you can solve your worries. Depending on what your worries are.

In the worst case, you should go separate ways and concentrate on yourself first, before trying to love someone.

Did you think about your consumation of more healthier food? This could be another reason for your missing energy and being tired.

Try to start doing sports or listen to energetic music, to stay motivated and force your body into a state of being awake and conscious.

Talk to your mom as she probably will understand.

jagged spruce Mar 26, 2025, 4:03 PM

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I dont eat too much so maybe thats why I cant focus

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I really like sport but my injury is blocking me

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Im listening to energy music 24/7

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but I dont see energy in me

thin hemlock Mar 26, 2025, 4:34 PM

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jagged spruce I dont eat too much so maybe thats why I cant focus

Probably - change that and see if it works.

jagged spruce Mar 26, 2025, 6:23 PM

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im bored

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I can understand german

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atm

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bc i have test tomorrow

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but

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like

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When I write this test I will forget everything

thin hemlock Mar 26, 2025, 6:55 PM

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I am from Germany.

jagged spruce Mar 26, 2025, 6:56 PM

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OH

thin hemlock Mar 26, 2025, 6:58 PM

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jagged spruce When I write this test I will forget everything

Probably anxious?

I know a technique - maybe you did too. It's from military.

4 - 6 - 8
Inhale 4 seconds.
Hold breath 6 seconds.
Exhale 8 seconds.

Reduces nearly every stress. Normally used for combat-situations.

jagged spruce Mar 26, 2025, 7:05 PM

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thin hemlock Probably anxious? I know a technique - maybe you did too. It's from military. ...

I will try that

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thank youu

thin hemlock Mar 26, 2025, 7:06 PM

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You are always welcome!

jagged spruce Mar 26, 2025, 8:56 PM

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maybe I understand this german

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😭

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im not sure

jagged spruce Mar 26, 2025, 9:54 PM

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im going to sleeeep

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goodnight everyone

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sleepwell

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stay safee

thin hemlock Mar 27, 2025, 5:48 AM

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You will succeed today!

jagged spruce Mar 27, 2025, 10:12 AM

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thin hemlock You will succeed today!

thank youuu!!

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I have german test

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im keeping fingers crossed for myself

thin hemlock Mar 27, 2025, 10:40 AM

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jagged spruce I have german test

I know, that's where you will succeed.

jagged spruce Mar 27, 2025, 11:34 AM

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thin hemlock I know, that's where you will succeed.

I dont ate that😭

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This test was so hard

thin hemlock Mar 27, 2025, 12:29 PM

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Nevermind - hard doesn't mean impossible or unsuccessful. Challenges are great. And if you fail, you learn from it.

jagged spruce Mar 27, 2025, 9:36 PM

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I FEEL SO EXHAUSTED

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ABOUT THIS DAY

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but

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tomorrow is fridsy

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friday*

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so im thinking about weekned

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weekend

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I need more sleep

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ngl

jagged spruce Mar 27, 2025, 10:27 PM

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im worried about myself

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im literally thinking about not good things

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my friend told me im acting like having a paranoid

jagged spruce Mar 28, 2025, 8:53 PM

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heey guuuys

keen stratus Mar 28, 2025, 9:50 PM

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hello

jagged spruce Mar 28, 2025, 10:11 PM

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OEH

jagged spruce Mar 28, 2025, 10:11 PM

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keen stratus hello

OOP

jagged spruce Mar 28, 2025, 10:11 PM

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keen stratus hello

heyeyeyy

keen stratus Mar 28, 2025, 10:11 PM

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jagged spruce OOP

what?

jagged spruce Mar 28, 2025, 10:12 PM

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keen stratus what?

I thought you wouldn't come here but it's still sweet that you're here :33

keen stratus Mar 28, 2025, 10:12 PM

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jagged spruce I thought you wouldn't come here but it's still sweet that you're here :33

yeah, i might leave tho. want to let you keep your apce

jagged spruce Mar 28, 2025, 10:12 PM

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NO NO

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NO BE HERE

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BE HERE

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PLEASE

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😭😭

keen stratus Mar 28, 2025, 10:13 PM

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jagged spruce PLEASE

okey😭

jagged spruce Mar 28, 2025, 10:13 PM

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I'm on yours so you can be on mine too

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:3

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guys im thinking about going on bike tomorrow

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for clear my head

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but yk

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my legs after last time really hurt

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😭😭

keen stratus Mar 28, 2025, 10:30 PM

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jagged spruce guys im thinking about going on bike tomorrow

nadia...

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dont

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😭

jagged spruce Mar 28, 2025, 10:31 PM

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keen stratus 😭

HAHAHAH

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okay okay

keen stratus Mar 28, 2025, 10:33 PM

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jagged spruce okay okay

good

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:)

jagged spruce Mar 29, 2025, 2:40 PM

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im trying to run away from my overthinking

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so im taking a naps

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my hands are shaking for 5 hours

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idk

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thats weird

jagged spruce Mar 29, 2025, 7:58 PM

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Im bored

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😭

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skibidi

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I love this lyrics

fathom stone Mar 29, 2025, 11:29 PM

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jagged spruce I love this lyrics

This is hella true

keen stratus Mar 30, 2025, 10:17 AM

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jagged spruce I love this lyrics

YESSS

jagged spruce Mar 30, 2025, 12:49 PM

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gusy

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guys

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storytime

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yesterday

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permanent marker

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just blow up

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in my room

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AND

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MY ROOM

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looked horrible..

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also my wall

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BUT

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MY MOM

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GIVE ME

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THINNER

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AND RN

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EVERYTHING LOOKS BETTTER

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I only need to paint my wall

jagged spruce Mar 30, 2025, 5:56 PM

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I WAS OUTSIDE TODAAY!!

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cutie

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my friend dog

keen stratus Mar 30, 2025, 6:04 PM

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jagged spruce I WAS OUTSIDE TODAAY!!

Did you touch grass?

jagged spruce Mar 30, 2025, 6:05 PM

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keen stratus Did you touch grass?

Nooo

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but i touched dog

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me core

jagged spruce Mar 30, 2025, 7:38 PM

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I FEEL LIKE DYING

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MY FULL

thin hemlock Mar 30, 2025, 7:38 PM

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Oh I feel the same, don't worry.

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You are not alone.

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@jagged spruce

jagged spruce Mar 30, 2025, 7:41 PM

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thin hemlock You are not alone.

but my muscles are tense and I cant walk😭

jagged spruce Mar 31, 2025, 7:18 PM

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UGH

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IM WAITING

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FOR MY MRI

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A LONG TIMEEE

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I need to call to hospital

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😔

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but im scared

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so maybe never i will get mri

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my knee is getting worse

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BUT DW ABOUT IT

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i have pe tomorrow

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BRUH

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OKAY

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THANK YOU

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i cant send gifs

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nvm

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my knee sometimes is bleeding idk how

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thats crazy

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also im starting walking less

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bc i can feel pain

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maybe my knee is dying

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idk

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😭😭

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LITERALLY

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IM CURIOUS

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WHAT HAPPENED

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TO MY KNEE

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BC MY ORTHOPEDIC

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SAID

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THATS OKAY

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EVERYTHING IS OKAY

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girl you sure?

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how did you get that job

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😭

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I cant standing normally

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my leg is ,,breaking down”

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changing topic

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GUYS

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HAHAH

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I LOVE THIS EUROVISION

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POLAND IS GOING TO ATE

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THAT

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SHES SINGING WHEN SHE IS IN AIR

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I LOVE IT

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im in love wirh this song

jagged spruce Apr 1, 2025, 5:49 PM

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😝😝😝

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mama is coming back fortnite

jagged spruce Apr 1, 2025, 7:35 PM

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I got red eye

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ugh

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:/

jagged spruce Apr 1, 2025, 8:38 PM

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im literally thinking i did smth wrong😭

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my friend wants to told me april fool

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(shes offline)(im still waiting)

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IM WAITING

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FOR

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UM

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4HOURS

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shes crazt

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damn

jagged spruce Apr 2, 2025, 3:34 PM

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Im mad a little bit

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ugh

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idk whats going on

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but I cant be mad on that person

jagged spruce Apr 2, 2025, 6:15 PM

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im trying to making rules for myself

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ugh

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hamster hamster hamster hamster

jagged spruce Apr 2, 2025, 7:12 PM

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I want to make joke

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but i dont have idea

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MY FRIEND HAVE A DRAMA

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OH YES

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DRAMA QUEEN

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roast

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I literally want to vent

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but thats not good moment

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being quiet

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uyayaya

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WII WII

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BTW

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today i was raping

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rap is my life

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/jk

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random words

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ofc in polish

jagged spruce Apr 3, 2025, 6:51 AM

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BABAUAOAOAPSPZPSLSMMWMWMWSMMD

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WPAPSPSJWNWJWKWOOQOAKSJJSJWW

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OWOWJWNWNWKAOAPDODOW

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MY SHAYLA

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MY HEAR ME OUT

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BIG BIG BIG

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OB YEEESSSSSSSSS

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LALALALALALALALALA

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YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY

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SHES SO GOREFOUS

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GORGEOUS

jagged spruce Apr 3, 2025, 3:41 PM

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NO MY BABY

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BUT SHES ALIVE

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IM EXCITED

jagged spruce Apr 3, 2025, 4:55 PM

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I need that song

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rn.

jagged spruce Apr 3, 2025, 8:50 PM

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😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

jagged spruce Apr 4, 2025, 7:56 PM

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im in fnaf fandom for 9 years

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that is so big number

jagged spruce Apr 5, 2025, 7:36 AM

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guys

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i love sleeping

jagged spruce Apr 5, 2025, 6:53 PM

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I cant explain how much i hate myself

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im trying to do everything to make everyone happy

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but im not thinking abt myself

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im scared having my own opinion

jagged spruce Apr 5, 2025, 7:12 PM

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i need gif perms here

jagged spruce Apr 5, 2025, 9:08 PM

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ugh

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I literally cried

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I cant looking at myself normally

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im scared asking for help

patent jay Apr 6, 2025, 10:15 AM

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jagged spruce i love sleeping

Me too!

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But I can't sleep.

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Been coding instead.

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I got a lot done though.

jagged spruce Apr 6, 2025, 11:53 AM

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patent jay Been coding instead.

ooo

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coding what?

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:))

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btw welcome to my silly journall!!

patent jay Apr 6, 2025, 7:16 PM

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jagged spruce coding what?

#1353529936106750002

patent jay Apr 6, 2025, 7:16 PM

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jagged spruce btw welcome to my silly journall!!

Thanks!

jagged spruce Apr 6, 2025, 9:01 PM

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patent jay <#1353529936106750002>

oooo

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i was trying to make a game

patent jay Apr 6, 2025, 9:02 PM

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jagged spruce i was trying to make a game

I feel like most people give up at the coding part of it.

jagged spruce Apr 6, 2025, 9:02 PM

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patent jay I feel like most people give up at the coding part of it.

real(I literally gice up at the coding)

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I was trying to coding in c++

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or python

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but I forgot everything

patent jay Apr 6, 2025, 9:03 PM

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jagged spruce real(I literally gice up at the coding)

It's the hardest part of it.

patent jay Apr 6, 2025, 9:04 PM

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jagged spruce I was trying to coding in c++

I'm doing Lua.

jagged spruce Apr 6, 2025, 9:04 PM

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patent jay It's the hardest part of it.

thats so real

jagged spruce Apr 6, 2025, 9:04 PM

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patent jay I'm doing Lua.

i never hear of that

patent jay Apr 6, 2025, 9:04 PM

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jagged spruce i never hear of that

It's similar to Python.

jagged spruce Apr 6, 2025, 9:05 PM

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you can see diffrence between python and lua?

patent jay Apr 6, 2025, 9:05 PM

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Yes.

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Can't you?

jagged spruce Apr 6, 2025, 9:06 PM

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nah ah..

patent jay Apr 6, 2025, 9:06 PM

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jagged spruce nah ah..

Wow.

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Do you have any suggestions for the new menu?

jagged spruce Apr 6, 2025, 9:08 PM

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what is the theme of the game?

patent jay Apr 6, 2025, 9:08 PM

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SCP.

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The game is out but it's still in Beta.

It's not paid access or anything though.

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This next update will be the first official season of the game.

jagged spruce Apr 6, 2025, 9:19 PM

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hmmm I dont have idea tbh

jagged spruce Apr 8, 2025, 7:48 PM

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skibidi

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im getting worse

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thats why

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im so quiet

jagged spruce Apr 10, 2025, 5:03 AM

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I had a lot

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of

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energy

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yesterday

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but the night was a nightmare

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I had a dream about my friend

fathom stone Apr 10, 2025, 5:40 AM

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Are you okay nadss

jagged spruce Apr 10, 2025, 7:41 AM

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fathom stone Are you okay nadss

heey

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naaj

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naah

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im not sure about it tbh

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im never sure abt my mental health

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wbu? you okay matt?

fathom stone Apr 10, 2025, 7:42 AM

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jagged spruce wbu? you okay matt?

Eh some stuff happened

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But I’m chilling rn

jagged spruce Apr 10, 2025, 10:57 AM

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fathom stone Eh some stuff happened

you want to talk about it?

fathom stone Apr 10, 2025, 6:13 PM

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jagged spruce you want to talk about it?

The girl I like has a bf and she’s sleeping with him

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Well sorry the girl that I "liked" but not anymore

jagged spruce Apr 13, 2025, 6:35 PM

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OH I THOUGHT

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SOMEONE

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DELETE THAT

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IDK WHY

jagged spruce Apr 14, 2025, 1:43 PM

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I need help but im scsred to ask someone

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😔

jagged spruce Apr 14, 2025, 8:20 PM

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someone wants to

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write

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text

jagged spruce Apr 16, 2025, 5:25 AM

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ummm

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idk what happened to ke

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me

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everyone told me

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,,you look like umm, youre thibki about something”

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yes?

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yes im thinking a lot bc im worried

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so maybe thats why

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I hate questions like that

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literally

fathom stone Apr 16, 2025, 5:46 AM

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jagged spruce yes im thinking a lot bc im worried

What are you worried about nadss?

jagged spruce Apr 16, 2025, 6:05 AM

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fathom stone What are you worried about nadss?

Eh I have exams this year

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and im worried about it

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also abt my gf

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but im always worried about her

jagged spruce Apr 16, 2025, 8:46 PM

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literally me

jagged spruce Apr 17, 2025, 6:32 PM

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jagged spruce Apr 17, 2025, 10:01 PM

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I feel like I'm overstimulated

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idk what happened to me

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again.

jagged spruce Apr 20, 2025, 1:25 PM

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I feel a little bit better

jagged spruce Apr 21, 2025, 11:15 AM

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TRAFIK

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jagged spruce Apr 23, 2025, 5:57 AM

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yall

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i wanna go home

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spring break is over

jagged spruce Apr 23, 2025, 10:09 PM

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well

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literally

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my mental stare

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state

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got worse

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I get panick attack

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and im scared ask for help rn

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so i have to fight alone

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im crying so hard so i got a headache

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migraine

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im thinking about everything

jagged spruce Apr 23, 2025, 10:43 PM

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umm

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my mom

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hear me

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crying

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im cooked

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im okay mom

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de

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dw

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literally

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btw

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duolingo is not satisfying like before

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XDD

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😭

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okay yall

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im going to sleep

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bye yall

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OH WAIT

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NO

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YALL

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OH MY GOD

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I have puffy eyes

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😔😔

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you what that means?

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my friends are going to ask me what happened

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I CANT CRY AT SCHOOL

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LITERALLY

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UGH

jagged spruce Apr 24, 2025, 5:42 AM

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today is school

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i dont want

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I want weekend bc

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I can just disappear

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for a long time

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and no one will be worried

jagged spruce Apr 24, 2025, 7:51 AM

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I really want to go home, my friend saw on my face something is wrong bc my eyes are swollen ://

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from crying

jagged spruce Apr 24, 2025, 4:39 PM

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im trying to really feel good

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but thats impossible

jagged spruce Apr 24, 2025, 5:21 PM

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The blood vessels in my eyes are bursting…

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I look horrible 😭

jagged spruce Apr 24, 2025, 7:22 PM

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having breakdown in that moment is the worst thing ever happened

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I literally want to vent

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but ig thats not a good moment

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i have to learn how to solve my problems alone

jagged spruce Apr 24, 2025, 7:52 PM

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I can feel

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one part of me

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is just

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killed

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I cant feel emotions

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I cant be myself

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maybe I deserve it?

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I hate reels

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😭

jagged spruce Apr 24, 2025, 9:09 PM

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im crying for 1 hour

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i will look like this

jagged spruce Apr 24, 2025, 9:09 PM

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jagged spruce I hate reels

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again

jagged spruce Apr 25, 2025, 5:53 AM

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jagged spruce Apr 25, 2025, 1:26 PM

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today i got hug

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from my friend

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nikola

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she literally huged me so hard

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I feel like this healed me a little bit

jagged spruce Apr 25, 2025, 7:27 PM

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she said i can hug her whenever i want

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😭

jagged spruce Apr 25, 2025, 8:07 PM

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I miss old me

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I literally got killed

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I want old me but atm thats impossible

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I cant feel happiness anymore

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I forgot about that emotion

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but maybe I deserve it

jagged spruce Apr 25, 2025, 9:18 PM

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im crying again

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ugh

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I hate it

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my eyes are so tiredXDDD

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umm

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well

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I’ll just send that at the end of the day

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I miss old us ngl

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I can’t explain how much i was happy with her

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happier than ever

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but rn?

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idk

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im empty

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I miss that cute messages when I was feeling bad

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rn im talking to myself things like this

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but im glad shes better now

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I want her to feel good and comfortable

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shes such a good person

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beautiful person

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ig shes reading that

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hey girl

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I also reading ur journal

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dw

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I want to say I love you again ://

jagged spruce Apr 25, 2025, 9:32 PM

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jagged spruce I want to say I love you again ://

but i have it only in my heart

keen stratus Apr 26, 2025, 12:49 AM

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jagged spruce

and in this life we will still love eachother, still be there for eachother in the ups and the downs. in the same ways but with different meanings. you will find the partner you deserve. and i will be there when you mary them (unless if theyre not right for you then they wont even get the change to ask you to be their partner:)).
we will still be happy together, we always will be. it will take some time nads but im still here for you even if it doesnt feel like it sometimes. that we didnt work out romantically doesnt mean that we wont work out as friends🤍

jagged spruce Apr 26, 2025, 6:13 AM

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keen stratus and in this life we will still love eachother, still be there for eachother in t...

yeah…youre right

jagged spruce Apr 26, 2025, 8:57 PM

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today I had a hard day

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but im getting a little bit better

jagged spruce Apr 27, 2025, 11:03 AM

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I got a beer

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hmm

jagged spruce Apr 27, 2025, 12:03 PM

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that is scary

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you can see in my eyes

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how much im tired

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my mom asked me what happened

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girl

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0 answer from me

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im not telling you

jagged spruce Apr 28, 2025, 4:47 PM

#

#

🛐🛐🛐

jagged spruce Apr 28, 2025, 9:57 PM

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eh

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im eating less

jagged spruce Apr 28, 2025, 10:16 PM

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I feel like

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the parts of me

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are dying

jagged spruce Apr 29, 2025, 8:04 PM

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I miss calling her my love

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I feel so diffrent

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maybe im not deserve being loved

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that is sad

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i miss red hearts

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in our conversation

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idk

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jagged spruce Apr 30, 2025, 5:44 AM

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I HAVE GRILL WITH MY FAMILY

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ON THURSDAY

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and guess who is getting alcohol

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hamster hamster hamster

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me

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HAHAHAHAHA

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TEAH

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YEAH

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I HAVE TO CLEAN MY MIND

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I FEEL MORE TERRIBLE THAN ALWAYS

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CLEANING MY MIND

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IS THE BEST CHOICE EVER

jagged spruce Apr 30, 2025, 9:39 AM

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IM BORED

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IM IN SCHOOL

jagged spruce Apr 30, 2025, 4:14 PM

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I feel

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weird

jagged spruce Apr 30, 2025, 5:45 PM

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I feel being ignored

jagged spruce Apr 30, 2025, 7:07 PM

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my friend broke up with her bf

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im her mental support

jagged spruce Apr 30, 2025, 9:42 PM

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well

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hamster

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idk

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i forgot

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I cant lose feelings

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I can say rn im loving too much

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my heart still hurts

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I literally want everything back

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but thats impossible

jagged spruce Apr 30, 2025, 10:32 PM

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that feeling is too strong

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but in good way

jagged spruce May 1, 2025, 8:10 AM

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well

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last night

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was so hard

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for me

jagged spruce May 1, 2025, 7:14 PM

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watching heartstopper with dutch

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omfg

jagged spruce May 1, 2025, 8:12 PM

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hey yall

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im thinking about going

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on extra classes for drums

jagged spruce May 1, 2025, 10:04 PM

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im worried abt her

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goodnight

jagged spruce May 2, 2025, 12:21 PM

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NEW UPDATE

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FORTJJITE

jagged spruce May 2, 2025, 8:27 PM

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helping my friend😋

jagged spruce May 2, 2025, 10:03 PM

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eh

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I miss the red hearts

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on that conversation

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but pink hearts are also pretty

jagged spruce May 2, 2025, 10:42 PM

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HUYS

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GUYS

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GUYS

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my fav photo

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I prefer coca cola

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but stoll

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still

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that looks funny

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IM SO TIRED

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I HAVE TO WAKE UP

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IN 7 HOURS

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I CANT DO THIS

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IM COOKED

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UMMM

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I HAVE TO EAT BREAKFAST

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😋😋😋😋

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😋😋😋😋

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😋😋😋😋

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little rain

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is over

fathom stone May 2, 2025, 11:03 PM

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jagged spruce I prefer coca cola

I could use a cold one rn

jagged spruce May 3, 2025, 7:20 PM

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I

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saw

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a

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spider.

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panic

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GUYS

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GUYS

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FROM SUN

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I HAVE MORE FRECKLES ON CHEEKS

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YAYAYAYAYAY

jagged spruce May 3, 2025, 8:50 PM

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bruh my

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friend

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is having

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a dutch surname

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😔

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im scared

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the netherlands everywhere

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LITERALLY

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TODAY I WAS ENTER

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TO MY FRIEND ROOM

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AND SHE WAS GUESSING FLAG

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AND GUESS

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WHICH FLAG I SAW FIRST

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😭😭

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THAT IS CRAZY

jagged spruce May 3, 2025, 9:44 PM

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that day

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was

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good

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but hard

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in the same time

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I have hope shes alr

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I will be always worried abt her and everything

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that is scaey

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but I found that cute in one way

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goodnigt

jagged spruce May 4, 2025, 11:14 AM

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I throw away my medications

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hamster

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I dont want them

jagged spruce May 4, 2025, 8:06 PM

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I HAVE

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NITRO

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FOR

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ONE DAY

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new personality

jagged spruce May 6, 2025, 9:11 AM

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hamster

jagged spruce May 6, 2025, 3:56 PM

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im making my own

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billie community

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with my friend

jagged spruce May 7, 2025, 5:24 PM

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ig im losing myself

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somehow

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again

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I just feel alone

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im thinking abt making music

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for clear my mind

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and head

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btw

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being in prime era

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is

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crasy

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crazy

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everyone can recognize me outside

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literally

jagged spruce May 7, 2025, 7:14 PM

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idk how to feel

jagged spruce May 7, 2025, 8:14 PM

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OGMGMGMGMMG

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THE NETHERLANDS WANTS TO GIVE US 12 POINTS ON EUROVISION

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OH YES

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AND GREEVE

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WE HAVE TO WIN

jagged spruce May 7, 2025, 8:55 PM

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im scared

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what if I will never heal?

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god damn

jagged spruce May 8, 2025, 3:07 PM

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OH MY GAGA

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GAGA

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GAGA LOVE YOU

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RAH RAH RAHAHSHDHDHS

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GAGAAAA

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GAGAAAAaaaAAAAA

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WE LOVE YOU TOO MUCH GAGA

jagged spruce May 8, 2025, 9:24 PM

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today

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I had

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deep talk

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with my friend

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from class

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damnn

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ig I needed this

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also

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ALSOOOO

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my bsf

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broke up

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with her bf

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WE ARE LITERALLY IN THE SAME SITUATION

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SHES FEEL THE SAME

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AND EVERYTHING

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WHEN IM LISTENING TO HER

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MY MIND IS LIKE

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,,wtf thats totally me”

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ik what she feel atm

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I told her if she need me im here and she can find me at school every single time

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just for talk

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I love helping my friends

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but I cant help myself

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and thats the problem atm

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BUT IDC

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my bsf is more important rn

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shes like my sister

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unbiological sister

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our friendship is so strong

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i love her my shayla >o<

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hamster

#

ofc as a bsf

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I have to upgrade her my life

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but thats not a good moment

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shes still dont know

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I should tell her but at first she have to heal

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I know what she feel

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I started crying

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😭

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that switch

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is

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crazy

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I really want

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someone

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who

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really

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can

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understand

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me

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my feelings are too strong

jagged spruce May 8, 2025, 10:29 PM

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I care about her, but I'm afraid of how she'll take it

jagged spruce May 8, 2025, 10:50 PM

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OH MY GAGA

#

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im cooked

jagged spruce May 9, 2025, 3:07 PM

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well

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im confused

jagged spruce May 9, 2025, 5:54 PM

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when your feelings are so strong and ur heart hurts physically

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my heart hurts for the first time

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so I can say I finally have a REAL REAL feelings to someone

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I still have it and I will have it for a long time

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im scared text her

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but staying quiet

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is also not good

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idk what to do

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am I the greatest?

jagged spruce May 9, 2025, 9:50 PM

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I got panic attack

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only one person can help me with that but im scared to ask

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I can do this

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alone

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my eyes

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swollen

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breath uncontrollable

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idk

jagged spruce May 9, 2025, 10:30 PM

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that

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was

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a

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nightmare

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never again

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my panic attack finally ended

jagged spruce May 9, 2025, 10:52 PM

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I love asking people abt them well being bc i know no one will ask me about it

jagged spruce May 9, 2025, 11:07 PM

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I got smile emoji

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I smiled to my phone

jagged spruce May 10, 2025, 1:02 PM

#

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I CANT EXPLAIN

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HOW MUCH

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I LOVE THIS SONG

jagged spruce May 10, 2025, 8:55 PM

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I love sharing with her my story times

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from the day

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but

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idk

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if she likes it

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break my heart again by finneas

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agsin

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on my spotudy

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damn i love that song

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make you listen

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I apologize

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life is different

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just try to listen

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to me now

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I LOVE

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I LOST A FRIEND

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I remember

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when she was talking abt

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shes missing little updates

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and story times

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so im literally

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giving

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updates

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and everything

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but idk

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hamster

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I was happy for a while

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I miss our old texting

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idk

jagged spruce May 10, 2025, 9:32 PM

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okay that hurts

jagged spruce May 10, 2025, 10:53 PM

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NVM

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IM HAPPIER THAN EVER

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YAYAYAYA

#

hamster hamster hamster hamster hamster hamster hamster hamster hamster

jagged spruce May 11, 2025, 12:01 AM

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literally

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that

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day

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was

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that night

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was the best for you

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I literally need that

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I cant explain how much im happy

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to fall asleep with smile on my face

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goodnight

jagged spruce May 11, 2025, 10:35 AM

#

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🥹

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I need this song in my veins

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I will be 18 in two years

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im searching tattoos

jagged spruce May 11, 2025, 10:54 AM

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OMG

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OMG

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OMG

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OMG

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MY MOM IS BUYING HAPPIER THAT EVER

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DELUXE

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CD

jagged spruce May 11, 2025, 11:39 AM

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ygh

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ugh

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i dont have idea

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what type of tattoo i want

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and after exams

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I want to start learning for driving license

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damnnn

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study + gym

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crazy

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and dont forget

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about making

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youtube videos

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with my friend

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Im literally in internet since 6 years old

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i was recording

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everything

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but a lot of my channels are deleted

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but rn im streamer

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Im going away from recording

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on youtube

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I dont have time

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for that

jagged spruce May 11, 2025, 12:59 PM

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new

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pfp

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bc

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yes

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i love billie red roots era

jagged spruce May 11, 2025, 8:16 PM

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missing old us? yeah

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but i think

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rn that looks more healthy

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that friendship

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still hurts

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but

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idk

jagged spruce May 11, 2025, 9:25 PM

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sometimes

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I have to cry

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without saying someone reason

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no one is worried abt me

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so literally

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thats good

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but

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not good

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at the same time

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idk

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I want to vent

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to her

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but thats not good moment

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and

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no

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im looking happy

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so

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staying quiet

jagged spruce May 11, 2025, 9:55 PM

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when you want to vent to her but you cant bc thats somehow abt her

jagged spruce May 11, 2025, 10:23 PM

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im panicking

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i got panic attacj

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uhh

jagged spruce May 11, 2025, 10:53 PM

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yall she asked how I feel

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I was in shock

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im still

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in shock

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I told her truth ofc

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but i dont say everything

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bc

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ig

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that would hurt her

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I have hope shes feel good

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bc like my well being is ruined bc of that one situation

jagged spruce May 11, 2025, 11:16 PM

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im crying-

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okay

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that was hard

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but

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like

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I feel

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diffrent

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somehow

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idk

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weird

jagged spruce May 12, 2025, 12:04 AM

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Somewhere I can disappear

#

.

jagged spruce May 12, 2025, 5:37 AM

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uh

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monday

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the wordt

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worst

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day

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can we skip this day

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?

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😭😭

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what was I a made for?

jagged spruce May 12, 2025, 1:37 PM

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my full life is will be like

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me

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watching tv with beer in hand

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yes

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that is how I see my future

jagged spruce May 12, 2025, 5:41 PM

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shes the only

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person

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she can

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understand me

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but im too much scared to vent again

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yesterday I was talking with her

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how im feeling

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I cant do this again

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I just have to wait when shell ask me about it again

jagged spruce May 12, 2025, 6:20 PM

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hamster

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my life is terrible

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I FEEL LIKE

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IDK

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JUST

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EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING

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LIKE

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THE SAME

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TWO YEARS AGO I HAD THE SAME SITUATION

jagged spruce May 12, 2025, 8:11 PM

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jagged spruce but im too much scared to vent again

update

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im still scared

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maybe next time..

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or when my mental health is gonna be worse

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than now

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shes trying to get it out of me

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ig

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oh well

jagged spruce May 12, 2025, 8:51 PM

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right person, wrong time

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ouch

jagged spruce May 12, 2025, 9:26 PM

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uhm

jagged spruce May 12, 2025, 9:55 PM

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hamster

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MY

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FRIEND

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is

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having

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today.

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exams

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in primary school

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im literally

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stressed

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for her

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SHE CAN DI THUS

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I wrote that exams 2 years ago

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I know what she feels

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rn

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DAMNNNN

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SHES GETTING OLDER

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I remember when I met her

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she was so young

#

..

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but rn shes having the worst choices

#

eber

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she have to

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pick

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high school

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I cant waitttt

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I feel like a mom

jagged spruce May 12, 2025, 10:42 PM

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I CALLED

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HER

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BBG

#Nadss journal!!