Laylay

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I fucking hate myself for no reason rn

Great... i love depression. I love feeling like shit

||fucking wanna relapse in a way||

[royal depot]

no🥺 i'm here

yiu can do it

it will be alright

everything will be alright

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Ik

Dw about it

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i care about you so i worry🥺

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||it doesnt hurt enough to numb me...||

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🥺🥺

cutie

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||you are not alone🤗🤗 if there is a problem tonight or you are jsjt feeling lonely call me pls 🥺||

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||I hate myself so fucking much, everything about me||

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🥺 there is nothing to hate

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I cant find anything i dont hate

At least in the state that im rn

🫂

[royal depot]

and that makes sense..🥺
you can't find anything because you are feeling bad.. but there are manyyyyy good things aboit you

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🩵

I love you sweetie

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love you too 🥺🤗🤗

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||I want to feel the pain again.... but ik i shouldnt think like that||

Fuck this is so messed up

[royal depot]

no🥺
i'm here

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Fuck this shit

Ik im still myself rn

But idk how long this will last

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i'm here🥺

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Sadness creeping innnnnn

Ahhh how I hate it ^^

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heyy i'm here 🥺 anything i can do ? distraction

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Its just the nights depression again

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well then lets be depressed together? 👀🥺

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Im so fucking tired. Idk whats wrong with me lately... I sleep so little but i also wake up so early every morning.
And tomorrow i have work so early😭

[royal depot]

awe i'm so sorry🥺

talk with a doc about it

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My head hurts so fucking bad... damn it idek why

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nooo😭😭 is it better?

[regal peak]

Tired af

And 10 hours work to go

Damn😅

[royal depot]

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I feel so dead inside

Im so tired

Idk how to survive work tomorrow

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i'm here 🥺 try to talk to me

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Didnt expect to break down like that.

I think i feel a bit better after crying tho

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please talj to me🥺

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Close to relapsing

And im at work

This is so fucked up

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I hate people

I hate people so much

I hate fucking everyone

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cutiee 🥺 i' hwre

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[royal depot]

what happened

🥺🤗

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About to pass out

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noooooooo what happened 🥺🥺

take breaks

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Will tell you in DM later

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i'm here for you🥺

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I dont think ive had a breakdown like today in ages

I dont feel myself anymore

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i will dm you

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Love you

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love ykj too

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I feel so bad for all the people that text me but i dont text them back ... its not that im ignoring them... its just... I cant

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I need a break

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i'm sorry🥺

if you need a break take one

people get sick or whatever

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I fucking hate people

I need a break from this bs that i go through evrryday

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I feel like i cant move and like everything is so heavy....

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I hope everyone who fucked with me and led to what happened burns in hell. Fuck you people and fuck supervisors like that

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Headache is killing me

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i'm so sorry🥺

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Tired af

Dk how long i can keep going like this

[royal depot]

whats going on 🥺

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Work and well... yeah

Work

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taalk to me 🥺 when you xan

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I wanna go home

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I hateeeee workkkkk

I hate the people here

[sleek grove]

Real

[sleek grove]

Real

[regal peak]

Damn i wanna be shitty to the people here but im too fucking nice to do that. Ahhhhhh

[royal depot]

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A car almost crashed into mine today. It was one of the scariest things i experienced as a driver.... ik i didnt do anything wrong and this fucking idiot ran a red light... but still... im glad i was able to react this fast. Bc otherwise that would have been a really bad accident.
I felt the anxiety in my bones the whole time as i continued driving... and fuck.... I really hate people🙃

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omg layla 🥺🥺
i'm so glad you are okay

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🫂

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I love it when I feel like everything is collapsing. Its really nice

I fucking hate my life

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i'm here🥺

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People are sick and disgusting....

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Im really scared rn. Idk what to do

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I feel sick thinking about what happened. I really dk how to handle this situation. Idk what to do or say. I tried my best. I tried to do everything i can but nothing seemed to be good enough. Im so tired of people. And socializing. I really dont have the energy to deal with those things. My life is already a mess... wtf am i supposed to do?

[royal depot]

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Thank you @royal depot for being such an amazing friend🩵 i really appreciate you

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thank you too🥹

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i'm so proud of you ❤️

always

and forever

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I wonder... is me sleeping so much lately bc ive been exhausted for a long time?

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probably

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Im sorry for all the people that i care for. Ik i havent been active on discord lately and i feel like its only getting worse. I just dont have the energy rn for anything

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Im tired

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im here

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Its getting bad again

I hate this

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I feel like drowning

[short moth]

oh god.

what happend again?

i just read this whole book

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oh layla 🥺 is there anything i can do?

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I just need rest ig

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Fucking depression hitting again. I just wish i could sleep through it

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Im scared to lose

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you are one of the strongest person i kbow 🥺you won't lose, i believe in you

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I hate talking to people at my work

Its so fucking draining

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i love youu

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I havent been here for a while

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i agree 🙄

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👀i miss you!

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Im sowwyyyy

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Miss you more🩵

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nope 👀☺️

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Im so tired... damn wth

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wjats wrong 🥺

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Im just physically exhausted and i feel like i still havent recovered fully

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🥺

you need your rest

[regal peak]

Close to a breakdown for such a stupid reason

I hate how things can effect me

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whats wrong 🥺

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Dw about it . It will pass

Love you

[royal depot]

i still saw it🥺🥺

sorry for my lae reply

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I get that people are trying to help me by showing me the positive side of things. Ik they have good intentions and ik it makes sense. But if im talking about how smt shitty is making me feel... how frustrated i am or what makes me mad... fuck... its not helpful what they do. At least not in the moment. Ik I shouldnt be so pessimistic about stuff... but sometimes I cant help it. And all I want is to let it out without feeling like i need to minimize the effect it has on me in that moment