#someone could've possibly died.

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slender wren
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i have had been carrying the weight of having my old friend being probably dead.

idk what to do knowing she went into trauma deeper than i can explain

for context she was assaulted sexually by her own father at 4/5

and got pregnant at 13 by her step father also without her acceptance

so i believe she suicided because she doesnt respond.

heard she went to the hospital by a worried message from me

and never ever again

i am trying my best not to cry about it but i just lost someone who was there for me for over 3 years

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realized posting this without the most context isnt an option soo

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ok she did have to go and have abortion (no pills no doctor she slammed herself onto a table til she passed out)

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she cut off all of us for 2 years because she wasn't sure of what to do with her life and to gather herself at 18

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before she turned 18 she came back to in contact with me

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about 4 months before that

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i have to admit i was focusing on my game development career instead of helping her

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she had a bf who according to my bestfriend was a complete - - - - -

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straight up an - - - - - -

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i kept messaging her thru out the months randomly to let her drop an update

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she always mentioned exhaustion

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but said she was fine

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i understood how much it got on her when she told me she had to go to the hospital at one time i asked for updates

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and i asked for what reason

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no update.

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asked and begged for a single update

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nothing.

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not even a single message.

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so i just don't know if it was my fault for neglecting her and not making sure she is fine daily

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i mean i have had depression before and if i find out that she killed herself i am going to be so heart broken and depressed again

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i dont want to feel the lose of her because i really find her a good and loving person

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loved her as family

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imma leave this and just let yall know if the case gets further i am going to make sure i stay as well as i am rn

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because i literally just left my depression after the most dead 3 years of my life were

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no real dedication in school no real goal

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just was sad because i had no friends what so ever

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for 3 entire years

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anyways this isnt about my past depression i just want help because there is clearly nothing i can do at the moment

ornate phoenix
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dont lose hope

slender wren