Jho's Bizarre Adventure | The Therapy Center | Page 2

fallow violet Mar 20, 2025, 11:46 PM

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WHAT DID YOU SYA

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HELP

carmine pine Mar 20, 2025, 11:46 PM

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I really only need three, happy, sad, and msd

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So I said that

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Then I started getting questiondd

fallow violet Mar 20, 2025, 11:46 PM

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WH AT

carmine pine Mar 20, 2025, 11:46 PM

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Then I started spilling

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My emotions

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Then locked up

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And was like

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I don't want to talk about it

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I panicked so bac

fallow violet Mar 20, 2025, 11:47 PM

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oh my god

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DUDE

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💔

carmine pine Mar 20, 2025, 11:47 PM

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I'll explain it to her tomorrow morning or something

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It's just

fallow violet Mar 20, 2025, 11:47 PM

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carmine pine I don't want to talk about it

im about to give you a Aaron

carmine pine Mar 20, 2025, 11:47 PM

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Painful to open up

fallow violet Mar 20, 2025, 11:47 PM

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ohh

carmine pine Mar 20, 2025, 11:48 PM

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fallow violet im about to give you a Aaron

NO

fallow violet Mar 20, 2025, 11:48 PM

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carmine pine NO

YES BRUH

fallow violet Mar 20, 2025, 11:48 PM

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carmine pine I'll explain it to her tomorrow morning or something

you better

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you can't just switch up guys 💔

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you were too deep in

carmine pine Mar 20, 2025, 11:48 PM

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I'm sorry it wasn't my best moment

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I just

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Didn't want to get hurt y'know

fallow violet Mar 20, 2025, 11:49 PM

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carmine pine Didn't want to get hurt y'know

Yeah no no its understandable!!!

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But guys

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If she was really willing to listen

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That probably means she was willing to help too

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you feel me!

carmine pine Mar 21, 2025, 7:00 AM

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Oh

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100

carmine pine Mar 21, 2025, 8:40 PM

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Forgot this morning

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25 j

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25

carmine pine Mar 22, 2025, 2:15 PM

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25

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Very painful because I was I fcking tired

carmine pine Mar 23, 2025, 2:14 AM

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25

carmine pine Mar 23, 2025, 9:43 PM

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25 twice

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Getting ignored again

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WAHOO

carmine pine Mar 24, 2025, 7:54 AM

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Guess I'll just talk about monster's

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This is gore magala

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Which is baby of Shagaru Magala

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But if he gets stopped during the evolution he turns into chaotic Gore magala

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But if malzeno

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Givez him his vampire leaches

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And he gets over it as Shagaru

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He becomes risen shaguru magala

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carmine pine Mar 24, 2025, 8:24 AM

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25

wet pasture Mar 24, 2025, 3:10 PM

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carmine pine 25

26

carmine pine Mar 24, 2025, 8:49 PM

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25 again

wet pasture Mar 25, 2025, 3:24 AM

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What it means

carmine pine Mar 25, 2025, 6:32 AM

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Pushups bro

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Oh

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That girl confessed and I asked her out

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And now I have a gf

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44

carmine pine Mar 25, 2025, 10:42 PM

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25

carmine pine Mar 26, 2025, 12:56 PM

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25

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She held my hand

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And

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Hugged me

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Then I hugged her

carmine pine Mar 28, 2025, 3:44 AM

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25

carmine pine Mar 28, 2025, 3:43 PM

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50

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She kissed me again

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And held my knees n shi

carmine pine Mar 28, 2025, 4:04 PM

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So I nonchalantly froze up

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Oh yeah

carmine pine Mar 29, 2025, 2:15 AM

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25

carmine pine Mar 29, 2025, 11:36 AM

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Jho's Bizarre Adventure

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Part 3 end

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Part 4 start

carmine pine Mar 29, 2025, 11:45 AM

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carmine pine Guess I'll just talk about monster's

Part 4 ending 💔

carmine pine Mar 29, 2025, 11:45 AM

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carmine pine That girl confessed and I asked her out

Part 5 start

carmine pine Mar 30, 2025, 2:33 AM

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50

carmine pine Mar 30, 2025, 1:18 PM

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17+8

carmine pine Mar 31, 2025, 10:06 AM

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25 from yesterday

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25 today

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Seeing my girlfriend

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Today

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Oh

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Oh

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Oh yeah

carmine pine Mar 31, 2025, 10:07 PM

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25

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It went great

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I hugged her

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Unknowingly lifting her up

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I was really excited

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We held hand

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Hsnds

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Hands

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And she kissed me like 3 times

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So today

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WAIT

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I also got hang out with her because our buses were delayed

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So I was just with her

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For an extra hour and I loved it

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For an extra hour and I loved it

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She put her head on my shoulder

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It was awesome

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I loved today

carmine pine Apr 1, 2025, 12:12 PM

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25

carmine pine Apr 1, 2025, 9:11 PM

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25

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Vro

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These teachers are so gay

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We hugged this morning and the weirdos said

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That's DA!

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Like damn

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I'm not grabbing her ass or anything it's just a hug 💔

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Yns come here smelling like drugs but oooh I hug my girlfriend and I'm the bad guy

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Anyways

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I kissed her again

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I'm feeling great

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My head hurts a lot though

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SHE DREW THIS OF ME

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I'm so happy

carmine pine Apr 2, 2025, 12:21 AM

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BRO I GOT BANNED AGAIN

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Are we so fr

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I said some mean things

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For being nice

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carmine pine Apr 2, 2025, 9:49 AM

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25

wet pasture Apr 2, 2025, 1:32 PM

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do 30

carmine pine Apr 2, 2025, 10:31 PM

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25

carmine pine Apr 2, 2025, 10:31 PM

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wet pasture do 30

Next week

carmine pine Apr 3, 2025, 9:52 AM

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25

carmine pine Apr 4, 2025, 1:36 PM

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25

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25

carmine pine Apr 5, 2025, 4:16 PM

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25

carmine pine Apr 7, 2025, 1:40 AM

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25

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32

carmine pine Apr 7, 2025, 4:56 PM

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30

carmine pine Apr 8, 2025, 2:01 PM

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30

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From yesterday night

wet pasture Apr 8, 2025, 2:01 PM

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Sheesh

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Nice one bro

carmine pine Apr 8, 2025, 2:02 PM

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30

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Just rn

carmine pine Apr 8, 2025, 2:02 PM

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wet pasture Nice one bro

Thanks man

carmine pine Apr 9, 2025, 1:48 AM

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30

carmine pine Apr 10, 2025, 1:25 AM

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30

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30

carmine pine Apr 11, 2025, 11:47 AM

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30

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From yesterday

carmine pine Apr 11, 2025, 5:16 PM

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30 this morning

carmine pine Apr 12, 2025, 12:54 AM

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30

carmine pine Apr 12, 2025, 12:40 PM

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30

carmine pine Apr 14, 2025, 9:39 AM

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30

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30

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30

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Cool

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Gotta come to here more often

carmine pine Apr 14, 2025, 10:24 PM

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30

carmine pine Apr 15, 2025, 8:35 AM

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30

carmine pine Apr 16, 2025, 3:41 AM

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30

carmine pine Apr 16, 2025, 9:25 PM

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Missed my bus 💔

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carmine pine Apr 17, 2025, 9:59 AM

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Alright

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30

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In the grass

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With my bookbag for extra weight

carmine pine Apr 18, 2025, 10:02 AM

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I did another 30 in the grass yesterday

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And did 30 getting home

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And just did 30

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So

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9 yesterday

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3 today

carmine pine Apr 18, 2025, 9:25 PM

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30

carmine pine Apr 20, 2025, 9:06 PM

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30

carmine pine Apr 20, 2025, 10:55 PM

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40

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20

carmine pine Apr 21, 2025, 8:43 PM

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30

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30

carmine pine Apr 22, 2025, 11:17 PM

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30 pushups

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10 squats

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30 pushups

carmine pine Apr 23, 2025, 10:08 AM

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30 pushups

carmine pine Apr 23, 2025, 11:02 PM

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30

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Push ups

carmine pine Apr 24, 2025, 9:57 AM

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30 pushups

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40 pushups

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30 bookbag weighted, outside on the grass, pushupss

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100 in one morning

carmine pine Apr 28, 2025, 10:01 AM

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30

carmine pine Apr 28, 2025, 10:01 AM

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carmine pine 30 bookbag weighted, outside on the grass, pushupss

Of these

carmine pine Apr 28, 2025, 11:21 PM

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30 regular

carmine pine Apr 30, 2025, 10:06 AM

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40*2 regular

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Yesterday

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31 today

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I will push my limits.

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Mfs do ANYTHING besides the work

carmine pine Apr 30, 2025, 10:08 AM

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carmine pine

This happened yesterday

carmine pine May 2, 2025, 10:03 AM

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60 regular yesterday

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30 regular today

carmine pine May 2, 2025, 3:23 PM

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MY GIRLFRIEND KISSED ME

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TWICE

carmine pine May 3, 2025, 3:37 PM

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30 yestday

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I've been listening to his new song and it's making me so happy

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"Lady" by Modjo

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Ts so peak

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I'm also at a friend's house

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carmine pine May 5, 2025, 1:30 AM

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carmine pine May 6, 2025, 9:05 PM

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60 yesterday

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I got my girlfriend a seal plush

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30

carmine pine May 7, 2025, 1:12 AM

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40

carmine pine May 7, 2025, 9:20 PM

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30

carmine pine May 8, 2025, 10:12 AM

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30 yestday

carmine pine May 8, 2025, 10:12 AM

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carmine pine 30 bookbag weighted, outside on the grass, pushupss

30 of theses

carmine pine May 8, 2025, 9:18 PM

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40

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I'll give a life update soon

carmine pine May 9, 2025, 10:07 AM

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carmine pine 30 of theses

30 of these again

carmine pine May 10, 2025, 2:46 AM

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30 regular

carmine pine May 10, 2025, 2:47 AM

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carmine pine I'll give a life update soon

So yeah it's been pretty good so far

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I have been in nature more often

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I love snakes

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I got to hold them today!

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My life has been pretty awesome

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I have everything

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Friends

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Money (Kinda)

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A lpiv

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A loving family

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And a loving girlfriend

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carmine pine May 10, 2025, 11:57 AM

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Thanks man

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I will do!

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Yep

carmine pine May 12, 2025, 9:04 PM

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30 this morning

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50 this afternoon

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And another 20

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100!

carmine pine May 13, 2025, 10:49 PM

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60 this afternoon. Was WAYY too exhausted to do them this morning I'm sick

carmine pine May 14, 2025, 10:08 AM

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30 on some rocks

carmine pine May 15, 2025, 4:01 PM

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30 yestday

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30 today

carmine pine May 16, 2025, 10:21 PM

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60

carmine pine May 17, 2025, 2:08 AM

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40

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Another 100 dau

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Day

carmine pine May 19, 2025, 9:15 PM

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30 this morning and 30 a bit ago

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Can I have nothing in life

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Like actually

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I get into a happy relationship

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This person is perfect

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They love me for me

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Rhw

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They show that they love me

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And I love them

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But then

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Her dad forbids us from dating

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Ok

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Minor setback he'll get over it soon and nothing will come of it

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She starts arguing and now it's a countdown to me or her family

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We daid

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Said

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Fuck it

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It'll happen when it happens

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We barely see each other during the day

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Alright we savior the time we have

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And talk at night

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I start ALMOST missing school bc we stayed up late

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We have to stop late night calls

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Cool it's wtv we get out soon

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She

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This wonderful girl hurt me so much today

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For a full month she kept the fact she's changing schools after break from me

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Because she didn't want to hurt me

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DOES SHE KNOW?

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I'M IN AGONY RN

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I have finals all week so I told her I'd talk to her about it afterwards but she wants to have the audacity to start the conversation with OH

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And it's like

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She told my friend before me

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WTF

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He told me

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Because he was concerned about us

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Anyways

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I'm like

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Tell me how long you've been keeping it from me and she goes

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"oh"

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DON'T OH ME

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YOU DID THIS

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YOU HID THIS FROM ME

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YOU HURT ME

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Then she tries explaining and saying sorry and I say cut it out.

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Because how dare you.

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How are you going to FUCK me then say sorry a month later

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All those times I talked about next year and our new classes was me being a dumbass apparently

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My fault

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Then after I tell her I'm not talking about this she changes her note to some song about I'm sorry and shit

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Like

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NO

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You don't get that

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How dare you act like you're supposed to be in pain ehen

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When

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I'm the one suffering

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All my life I've been betrayed by those I loved

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Not even my own mother keeps her promises to me

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And now this girl I love with everything also fucks me

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Why can't I win?

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What do I do to get these shitty dekfs

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Decks

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Am I just supposed to take it?

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Until I'm a husk that only knows sadness and regret?

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What is the next move here?

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What really pisses me off is her asking if I'm angry then fucking off when I say yes

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Liike

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NO SHIT

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God

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GZod

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GOD

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I think

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I can't win

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I grow to love life as it starts to leave

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I loved it at school bc I had my gf and my friends

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And now it's just gonna be me alone at my mom's house

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I'm alone right now

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I hate myself

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If I was better maybe people wouldn't hate me

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Maybe they'd care

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Maybe they'd keep their promises

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But it's whatever

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I'll just cry it out

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Not actually

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I refuse to cry

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I'll man up and think it over

fallow violet May 20, 2025, 12:51 AM

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genuinely hope all this gets solved! stay strong vroo ❤️

carmine pine May 20, 2025, 4:05 PM

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We talked it out

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30

carmine pine May 20, 2025, 10:19 PM

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30

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Uh

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carmine pine May 20, 2025, 10:20 PM

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fallow violet genuinely hope all this gets solved! stay strong vroo ❤️

Thank you bro

carmine pine May 21, 2025, 12:58 PM

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Her dad showed up outside of my house 💔

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A

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At like 10 pm last night

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I was dead asleep so he left

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I PRAY he doesn't go in for round 2

carmine pine May 21, 2025, 6:32 PM

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Let's fucking go

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I got a

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96 on my business final

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91 on my science final

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And 100 in engineering

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Now all I got is my tech finla

carmine pine May 21, 2025, 9:45 PM

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30

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My girlfriend got grounded for a month because her dad didn't like me talking to her

carmine pine May 22, 2025, 8:20 PM

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I wrote a letter to her dad so now we wait

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Hopefully he doesn't SHOW UP AT MY FUCKING HOUSE this time

carmine pine May 22, 2025, 8:21 PM

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carmine pine Now all I got is my tech finla

Made a 97 on this

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That means

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ALL A'S ALL YEAR BABY

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OH YEAH

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I'm not getting anything for it but it's nice

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It would be nicer to have like s celebration but my grandpa is tired and my grandma is away so

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Sorry for the lore drop

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Anyways

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It's my brother's birthday

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Hopefully I get to see him this weekend

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Or summer

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I miss family

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I miss my girlfriend

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And I'm starting to miss my friends

carmine pine May 22, 2025, 10:08 PM

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Anyways

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Last day of school tomorrow

carmine pine May 22, 2025, 11:25 PM

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60

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60

carmine pine May 23, 2025, 10:04 AM

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30

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Final day

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Maybe this summer won't be so bsd

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I'll try to tie loose ends

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Meet new people

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And I'll see if I have to break up with my girlfriend today

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Most likely yes

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But there's a piece of me that wants to say no

carmine pine May 23, 2025, 5:01 PM

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No

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I lied

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We didn't break up but it still hurt

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She's switching schools

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So I'll never see her again

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Her dad said no to my letter

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And I can't talk to her till June 2nd

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20th*

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Idk

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Long story short

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I think I'm going to cry

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It's all coming down now that

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The girl of my dreams is possibly gone forever

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Because who's to say she doesn't move on

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Or her dad still hates me forever

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I don't know

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But

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When she left my arms and I went to my bus

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I said some corny shit

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"It's not goodbye it's farewell!"

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To not cry

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And when she looked me in my eyes and said

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"Will I see you again?" I nearly cried there

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I had to say "guess we'll SEE!"

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I had so many of my firsts with her

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She practically took over my life

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I got more social with her

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I love my life

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I even loved school because of her

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And now

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Now she's gone

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I feel the tears

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Fuck my life

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I wish I wasn't black

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Or that her dad would just let her be

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But that'll never happen

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I'll never see Joslyn again

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I loved her with everything

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But in the end

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It seems I'll be left with nothing but pain where her love once was

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Anyways

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I gotta clean my clothes

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I might kms

carmine pine May 23, 2025, 5:34 PM

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Alright

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We're good

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Put my clothes in the washer

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Cleaned my bathroom and almost cried

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If me and her story was a movie it would be like a sad romance

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One that has an ending that everyone knows but refuses to acknowledge until

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After...

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For the part in the movie where we first started dating there would be a montage of us with the song "Lady" by Modjo playing

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Then for the ending credits/scene it would go over the entire story with "Out of my league" by fitz and the tantrums

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I just want to cry right now

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I know it's not that serious

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Just the best relationship I've ever had in my life gone

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I should get over it but

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I miss her already

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40 pushups btw

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I told myself to savor the time I had with her and to not worry about the goodbye

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So I did

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And now

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That goodbye hurt more than ever

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Ah shit

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Tearing up

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I'm done talking about this

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For now

carmine pine May 23, 2025, 6:34 PM

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Well now I can officially say this is the end of the cool school girl arc

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Nothing ever goes good for me

carmine pine May 23, 2025, 6:54 PM

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These were fun days

carmine pine May 23, 2025, 6:54 PM

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carmine pine Well now I can officially say this is the end of the cool school girl arc

End of Cool School Girl Part 2

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Well it's my summer vacation

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Let's have fun

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Start of summer recoup arc

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 1:47 AM

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I still mean it 💁‍♀️

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 8:32 AM

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fallow violet I still mean it 💁‍♀️

I always thought since March you hated me

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 10:02 AM

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This server proves to me that being an intelligent lifeform is increasingly harder and harder

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No way this guy staged a freak out just to potentially get me muted

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This is how bad my luck is

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These might be fake though

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We'll see

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 10:49 AM

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They weren't

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I got worned

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Warned

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Muted for 3 hours

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Had to speak to the best mod in this server, Mellow because Melody was out for me

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But it's alright now

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Everything is settled

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Hive is ogne

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Gone

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And I'm finally not under attack

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 12:13 PM

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carmine pine I always thought since March you hated me

why would you think that?

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 12:21 PM

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fallow violet why would you think that?

You stopped talking to me and even ignored my dms

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So i thought you just didn't want to ever talk to me again

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I think you stopped talking about me too

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It's whatever I'm just being dumb

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 1:08 PM

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carmine pine I think you stopped talking about me too

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🥀

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 1:10 PM

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carmine pine It's whatever I'm just being dumb

its not, but alrightty

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 1:30 PM

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fallow violet

I

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I always thought you kinda just got over me

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Oh

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You're sweet

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Thank you

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 1:35 PM

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yw

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 2:04 PM

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Do you wanna play games

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 2:16 PM

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im playing with my sister vro 🥀

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 2:49 PM

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fallow violet im playing with my sister vro 🥀

Oh my bad

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 4:02 PM

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its okay rooSmush

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 4:41 PM

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#

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dio-the-world-1000-x-1000-wallpaper-h1gnb6tolm2vwpcc.jpg

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YAY

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We should play games sometime

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And catch up

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Well

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Welli

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Not much to catch up on if you read my journal but idk if you did so maybe

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Anyways

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I'm playing dbzf

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 5:14 PM

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carmine pine May 24, 2025, 5:18 PM

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fallow violet

You can see the pain in his dih

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 5:23 PM

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holy shit that sucks man

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 5:43 PM

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Is it bad that whenever I check my phone has no notifications I think it's lagging till I check and realize it's the fact nobody likes me 😭💔🦞

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 6:11 PM

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carmine pine May 24, 2025, 11:26 PM

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fallow violet

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If you see me out in Fortnite say hi but if you see me in Roblox I'm not a talkative guy

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Maybe play duos and remember good times

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And you know when I low I leave, make em cry

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Lots of loser try to be toxic to me

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But I know they just crushing on me

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They're even worse than the mods in the ttc

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Next day I'm laying down

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Broke my controller it's my fault

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Now there's a hole in the wall

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And yeah I know did wrong it's my bad

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But you don't get it because I'm sad

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Anyways

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I'M BEING DROVEN INSANE

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My brother is singing not like us

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Like shut up

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 11:33 PM

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carmine pine

I pick yes

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 11:34 PM

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carmine pine If you see me out in Fortnite say hi but if you see me in Roblox I'm not a talka...

I cant tell if this is a reference but if its not and if your actually crashing out mb 🥀

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 11:34 PM

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carmine pine Like shut up

Let the little man sing..

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 11:34 PM

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fallow violet Let the little man sing..

He's my older brother💔

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 11:34 PM

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Let unc sing..

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 11:34 PM

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It's alright

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 11:34 PM

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fallow violet Let unc sing..

Ok bro 🦞💔

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 11:35 PM

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fallow violet I cant tell if this is a reference but if its not and if your actually crashing ...

It's the Peter song

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If you see me out in quohog

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Say hi

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But you if you meet me in the clam I'm a talkative guy

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 11:36 PM

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fallow violet I pick yes

What if tic was called freak and licked people

fallow violet May 24, 2025, 11:39 PM

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what 💔

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You really ARE going crazy

carmine pine May 24, 2025, 11:44 PM

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WAIT

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That wasn't me

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I promise

fallow violet May 25, 2025, 12:04 AM

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freak 🥀

carmine pine May 25, 2025, 12:28 AM

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fallow violet freak 🥀

No

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I'd never be a freak

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That's icky

fallow violet May 25, 2025, 12:30 AM

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what about a creep

carmine pine May 25, 2025, 12:47 AM

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fallow violet what about a creep

I'd never be a creep either

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Creeps were weird to you

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Why would I want to be like them

fallow violet May 25, 2025, 12:48 AM

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I was gonna do a reference

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creep

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radiohead

carmine pine May 25, 2025, 12:51 AM

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I'm a creep

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IM A WEIRDOOOOO

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What am I doing hereeeeeer

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I don't belong her

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Oh

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I don't belong

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That's in the book of life

fallow violet May 25, 2025, 12:57 AM

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#singer

carmine pine May 25, 2025, 1:03 AM

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Toro I am humble

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For tonight I understand

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Your royal blood was never meant to desicrate this sand

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You sufferes great injustice so have thousands before you

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I offer you an apology in the form for a tune

fallow violet May 25, 2025, 1:29 AM

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interesting reference

carmine pine May 25, 2025, 1:54 AM

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It's from the book of life as well

fallow violet May 25, 2025, 1:54 AM

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O

carmine pine May 26, 2025, 9:48 AM

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My dream was crazy

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I woke up

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Paralyzed before going to bed

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Then I was wolverine

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Then I started causing chaos in my school

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It ended in me jumping off a 700, feet drop

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And hitting my head

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Then I woke up with a headache

carmine pine May 26, 2025, 3:57 PM

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40

fallow violet May 27, 2025, 1:51 AM

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popular with the ladies I see

carmine pine May 27, 2025, 9:39 AM

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fallow violet popular with the ladies I see

My fanclub is growing!

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Now that's 2 members

carmine pine May 27, 2025, 9:40 AM

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carmine pine 40

30 yesterday

carmine pine May 27, 2025, 8:10 PM

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30

carmine pine May 27, 2025, 9:15 PM

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30

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I'ma sound like a loser

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But at this point I might as well be one

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I'm so annoyed at myself

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I'm sitting here

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Watching everyone be buddies and be buddied up

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While I have to be alone

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I'm straight back to square 1

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I finally had something and now

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Now I'm back to being all alone

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Maybe

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I'm destined to be alone

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Everytime I've felt like I've been happy with something

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It lefted

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J.A.M. (My friend group!) Met up last year for Thanksgiving

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I haven't seen them since.

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Many friends I've made on discord kinda fucked off after a bit

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And even csg left

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The only constant I have in my life is me

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Everything else I lose or see for such short amounts of time that in the grand scheme of things I never really saw it.

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With nothing to lose shouldn't I be stronger than ever

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Shouldn't I be free

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So why do I hurt the most I've ever hurt in my life?

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If I'm so unlucky

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Should I do everyone else a service

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Should I end this run short and see if I get a better one next time

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Will there be a next time

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What if I die and come back and I'm not me

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Who is me?

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Am I the situation I was made in or the struggles that followed?

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Humans are odd

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I wish people would read thjs

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This

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Understand me

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Understand my mind

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And help me

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Just a little

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But that'll never happen

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I'm too dumb to be a super smart kid

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And too smart to be normal

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I'm a freak.

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Honestly there are days I think dying would be the best action

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Should I?

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Just go into the kitchen

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Lock myself in the bathroom

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And get it over with?

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Hmmm

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Ew

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Discord mod

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It's wtv

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Suffering breeds succes

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I'll keep losing things I love and growing

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I'll be the beacon of hope for other people

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If I'm taking a whole lot of suffering that means someone else isn't

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Maybe I'm not useless after all

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Maybe this why nobody reads my journal

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I seem too dumb

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Sorry

carmine pine May 28, 2025, 4:31 PM

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I don't believe you.

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30

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I get that maybe things will get better but

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You don't

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Thank you for your words

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I just don't believe some of them

carmine pine May 28, 2025, 9:18 PM

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30

carmine pine May 29, 2025, 11:37 PM

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30

carmine pine May 30, 2025, 6:06 AM

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30

carmine pine May 31, 2025, 3:06 AM

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39

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30

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ALLEGEDLY my mom is picking me up tomorrow

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I pray to God she comes

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I just want to be home again

carmine pine Jun 1, 2025, 4:20 PM

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Im HOME

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Im HOME

carmine pine Jun 6, 2025, 11:56 PM

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Me and my friends met up

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It was awesome

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30+30

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Y'know

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I was feeling good

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Then I read other people's journals and

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It's like

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Damm

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Guess I'll go die then

carmine pine Jun 15, 2025, 10:44 PM

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Met up with me friends again

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It was fun

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We watched vita carnis and grey lock

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Shit was crazy

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30

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Okay

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To be honest I'm sick seeing this journal

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It hurts me

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A bulk of this journal was written sloppy, about someone who either I pushed away or they pushed me away, or just me breaking down

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This journal is only filled with things that make me sad.

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This is the start of my final retrospective before I stop updating this journal and start a happy one

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Starting with part 1.

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I loved it.

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Probably when I was the most happy second to CSG arc 3

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Everyday felt so alive

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Waiting till Tic woke up and talking for hours

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Playing games

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I still have our Minecraft world

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It was so much fun

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I can't stress it enough

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I wish for those days to come back

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I loved the little things she'd do for me and the fun we'd have in general, whenever I complained to her about being banned, whenever I went on rants about creeps

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It was

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Amazing

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Life felt so vibrant

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Then there's part 2

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I met the girl and started talking to her

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Reze will be her name for simplicity

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And it was awesome

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Because I got to get another friend who liked my bands as well

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That might have been the peak of Tic and Jujubean content

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NO

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Part 3

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Was crazy

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She was super kid

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Kind

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And helped me through my weird brain

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Tic die

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Did

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She stood by my side and talked me through all my crazy rants

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Like a w friend!

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Then part 4

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The second to worst part

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When the Tic left for the first time

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And we stopped talking

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It was me being more busy with school and talking to Reze and (I think) Tic pulling away that led to this

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It hurt me then and it still hurts now

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Then part 5

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When me and Reze actually got together

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That was the peak of my life

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I had a reason to get up in the morning

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To be alive

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I finally filled the hole

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I was happy

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I had friends

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Esck

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Wacky highjinks

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Whatever I wanted

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I was alive

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But as always

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I lost it all

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My girlfriend was set to move schools and didn't tell me but told someone else so we fought

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We madeup but then she got grounded as summer started so we haven't been talking much at all and it's getting heavier and heavier on me

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We'll dive deeper in part 8.

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Part 6

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Summer Recoup Arc

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It was sad.

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I tried to get up on my two feet and lie.

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I lied and said I was happy

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That I'd be okay

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But more and more I started losing myself

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I felt weaker

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Sadder

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Useless

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Death looked like a viable option but I turned away from it

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Then a flicker of hope appeared

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Tic herself reappeared

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But that didn't last for long

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She felt more standoffish

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And not the same welcoming Tic I knee

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Knee

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Knew

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Even calling her Tic feels disrespectful to her.

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But it came to a head when I blurted out something dumb when she tried to reconcile

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And now Formly Tic has left permanently

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So then it just turned into surviving

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I stayed in my room

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Barely even talked to my family

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And hated myself more and more until I stopped for a second and hopped off the social media and just played games

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Seriously, blinding myself to all the hate and happiness I did or didn't have helped me realize that I need to be better

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That's why Monday I want to restart

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Part 8 btw

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I want to restart and learn from the pain I went through

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To not hate myself

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I'll work as hard as I can to be a better me

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No x

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No slacking

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I'll work hard to make myself a version that Jujubean would be proud of

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Tic would be proud of...

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But

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I don't think having a girlfriend that's long distance would help me with that goal.

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Maybe we can be friends but

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I put a lot of time and money into that relationship just for her to leave

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I do love her but hurting myself to be with her is sueysidal

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Her dad is racist

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Her grandma is racist

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Her grandpa is racist

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She lives with the racist

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The racists won't let me be with hrr

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Her

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And if that's how it is

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I think I may have to broaden my horizons

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Can I say Tastuski drew Reze's forehead really large in this panel

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Anyways

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This isn't a goodbye to me

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I WILL NOT BE DOING ANYTHING TO MYSELF.

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I'm just closing this journal

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Not closing

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It'll be here as an archive of happier times

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But

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I'm starting a new journal

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Wait

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I gotta think of a name and arc scheme

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Maybe Guy Peice?

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Guy Ball Run?

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Jho Ball Run

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Jho's Bizzare Adventure: Alloy Sphere Race

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JBA: ASR

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Cool that works

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Sonih

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Uh

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How do I finish this?

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Got it!

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I love you all if you read this far

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Thank you for being there

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All of you

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Tic

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Reze

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I know some other guy was commenting on my pushups

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Shout out to him

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/her

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Idk

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Not assuming

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But this is goodbye to JBA: Old Universe

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And hello to

carmine pine Jun 15, 2025, 11:44 PM

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The new

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Or not

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Wait

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Damnit

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channels/662341325353385985/1383952342944317480

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Alright

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//discord.com

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Put the links together

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O

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Or you can just go to my new journal

#Jho's Bizarre Adventure