Mels.... Journal? Maybeee!!! | The Therapy Center | Page 2

warm imp Jun 5, 2025, 4:06 AM

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She was very slow

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But she was very kind

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We use to play tag a lot

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I miss her

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Uhhh

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I tried to continue talking to them

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But it was kinda awkward

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So I stopped

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The only reason I started thinking this was when I was showering

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Got a lil quiet

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Ummmm

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I don't hold grudges

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Not for long at least

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They were fun

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I have some good memories

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I think I'm easy to talk to

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Others might not think that

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But I do

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Sad things had to end this way

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Now that I think about it

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Do you feel the same way that we'll never meet again

warm imp Jun 5, 2025, 4:10 AM

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warm imp Do you feel the same way that we'll never meet again

Sorry I was listening to of us

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Had the urge to sing

warm imp Jun 6, 2025, 1:06 AM

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Okay

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So

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I have no sheets

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No blankets

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Absolutely nothing

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My bed is naked

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And I have no clothes

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That are clean

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Today we were supposed to do laundry

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But the laundry mat was closed

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And we was not about to walk to a different one

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Because it's too far away

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So now

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I'm sitting on the couch

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Painting

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Knowing I am not gonna sleep good

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Because

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Sadly

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We are gonna have to do it on sunday

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That means

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Two days with nothing

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Watch me jump

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Uhh

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I'mma go to my dads house tomorrow

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I'mma have to take out all my laundry because we were supposed to do it so the clothes I wanted to wear were in there

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But now we not gonna do it

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And I have nothing good

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So

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I'mma have to find and take rm out

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HamsterStare

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nooo

warm imp Jun 12, 2025, 9:28 PM

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Okay

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So

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I should NOT have came today

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I hate school

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I'm so glad it's ending

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I hate drama

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I hate acting

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In front of people

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I can't do it

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When they Suddenly called up my group I started shaking

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Everyone else was so good

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I couldnt do it

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I got so angry

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It got to the point

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That

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I couldn't hear anyone

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I felt my cheeks turning red

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My whole body was burning

warm imp Jun 12, 2025, 9:31 PM

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warm imp My whole body was burning

Burning BURNS JUST LIKE JANNS NEW SONY

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bro

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I'm convinced that he wrote burns about me

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There's no way

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To the instrument or whatever to the lyrics that's literally me

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Anyways

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I was shaking

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I tried hard to stay focused but I couldn't

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I got overwhelmed

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I never wanted to be a Capluet

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I would of much rather not be anything

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I hate this

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I felt the stickyness of my blood

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I literally bled through my pants

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Since for some reason I just had to start my period at school

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Thankfully I wore blackish thick jeans

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I felt so disgusting

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The heat

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Got me all sweaty

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I felt so dirty

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I wanted to puke

warm imp Jun 13, 2025, 9:25 PM

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It's been a year since my dads been sober

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And I can't even see him today

tribal sierra Jun 13, 2025, 9:26 PM

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warm imp And I can't even see him today

whys that? if I can ask

warm imp Jun 13, 2025, 9:29 PM

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It's because my mom needs me for something tomorrow which is the day I go out with my dad

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Since he doesn't have work

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Today I would usually sleep over but I can't now

warm imp Jun 19, 2025, 7:28 AM

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Okay

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So I keep seeing edits of immigrants being taken by icee

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An now I can't stop crying

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Because I'm just thinking about my family

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Especially my grandma

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I miss her

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I keep thinking of ice taking her

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I genuinely hope they don't take my family

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Because

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I would probably put a bullet through my head if they did

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I'm not even joking

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I'm very sensitive when it comes to my family

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They mean the world to me

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And if anything happens to them

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I wouldn't know how to live anymore

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I can't function as a human being if I know they are not by my side

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Just the thought of growing older knowing I can't always rely on them to be with me hurts so bad

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I hope everything will be okay

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I will never understand how people can be so cruel

warm imp Jun 29, 2025, 6:46 AM

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OKAY WHY TF IS MY GLORIOUS BUNNY KING JUNHAN FROM XDINARY HEROES RACIST???????

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HE SHOULD HAVE KEPT THAT TO HIMSELF NOT GO ON A WHOLE RANT ON BUBBLE

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WHY DOES EVERYONE I LIKE BECOME PROBLEMATIC????

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Bro

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The other members like Ode Jungsu Gaon Jooyeon Gunil better be safe because if not

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I'mma shoot myself in the heart in the middle of the street an cause traffic

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I'm not even kidding

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Idc

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I'mma still listen to their music

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It's so peak

warm imp Jun 29, 2025, 6:50 AM

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warm imp OKAY WHY TF IS MY GLORIOUS BUNNY KING JUNHAN FROM XDINARY HEROES RACIST???????

Shoulda knew when he had those braids in... 💔

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Well

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None of this matters he was my least favorite out of the whole group anyways💔

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Why

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Why

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Didn't he keep those 2 am thoughts to himself

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Sometimes it's better NOT to talk

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hamster

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HamsterStare

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nooo

neat tundra Jun 29, 2025, 10:47 AM

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WHATTT

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I say as I tear up

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wait

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WHATT

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Like slushynoobz sound effects

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WHATTT!

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hold on

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NY PHONES ABIUT TO TRB OFF

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okay im bacj

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"WHAT!"

warm imp Jul 7, 2025, 2:02 AM

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Okay

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So recently I've been very happy

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Obviously

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Been playing roblox more

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Watched a lot of shows

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The only bad thing was me not seeing my dad or even going outside since school ended

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But whateva

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Everything's been so cool

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And I am very happy

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Excited

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In 2 days it's gonna be my aunts birthday

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Which is awesome sauce

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She's gonna turn 15

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Imm buy her lots of presents

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Probably won't be able to give them to her

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But that okay

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PeepoHeart

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I hope my mama decides to go to their house so we can celebrate

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But most likely not

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But I'm praying😼

warm imp Jul 9, 2025, 7:06 AM

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Okay

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So

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For sum odd reason I keep thinking about what my future will be like

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And I'm scared

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I'm terrified even

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I don't want my family to get old and die

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I can't bare the thought of that

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I would much rather go first so I wouldn't hav to see the day my grandma dies

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But I know I can't go

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Because who will take care of my brother?

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My money said that in the future she will make a bank account for my brother so he will have money

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Sum like that

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She will give most of her money to him

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Since he probably won't be able to get a job if he doesn't get better

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And when she dies

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I'mma have to live with him

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Which is the problem why I can't go first

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And that thought is messing with me

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I can't take grief

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I can't do it

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I cry over the smallest things

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I still remember the kitten I got back in 2016 who Ive only known for a month

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I still think back on her

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I still cry over her

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I wouldve had two cats by now

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But I dont

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I can't do this

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I just cant

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I don't want to get old

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I don't want to see my love ones go

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I don't want them to forget me an move on with their lives far away from mine

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I just want to live with my whole family again

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I don't want to worry about anything

warm imp Jul 9, 2025, 8:12 AM

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I'mma be honest

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I don't find jokes about mental health that funny

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Especially with people who have disabilities they can't help

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Who were born with it

warm imp Jul 9, 2025, 11:50 AM

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Okay

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So

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I'm tired now

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I got a few mosquito bites

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Feel disgusting

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I'm hungry

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When I get back to school I'mma be 600 pounds

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Whatever

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I don't care about my weight

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Much less really care about my appearance

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I don't need people's validation

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As long as I'm fine with myself that's all that matters

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No one else

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Butterfly added to my collection

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It's my spirit plushie

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I haven't gotten a new one in over 5 months

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Which feels weird now that I'm thinking about it

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Yesterday was a pretty good day mainly

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I ate French toast

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And McDonald's since that wa the only store that I liked

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My sister and he boyfriend ate Wendy's

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My mom picked us up since it was raining by the time we finished our food

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My mom and little siblings went to the beach

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I ate the last popsicle

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It was yummy

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It was my aunts birthday

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In 3 days it's gonna be my baby sisters birthday

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Okay

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I'mma head to bed now because talking in my journal makes me feel schizophrenic

warm imp Jul 10, 2025, 12:56 AM

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Just played work at a pizza lac for an hour

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With my big sister

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Feel good now

neat tundra Jul 10, 2025, 2:19 AM

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warm imp Feel good now

YAYYY

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rooSmush

warm imp Jul 10, 2025, 2:48 AM

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Kubz scouts is THE best YouTuber and no one can tell me otherwise

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No one can compete with his level of humor

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Even with the most boring games he just honestly makes them fun

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I stand by my opinion

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Just watched 5 of his videos in a row while playing roblox

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hamster rooSmush

warm imp Jul 10, 2025, 10:23 AM

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Okay

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I just cried for 20 minutes straight

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Mainly because I saw a video of a baby crying so loudly

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For it's mom

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And now I'm just really thinking

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Damn

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I love babies

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I just have the urge to give all my love to them

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Most people hate when they cry

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But I know I can handle it

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I've done it many times before

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I know I can take all the uglieness of raising a baby

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But the thing is

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I know I'm genuinely not emotionally healthy

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For one

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That's why I never picture myself having one in the future

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Especially if I push one out

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The thought is disgusting

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So horrifying to me

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But I do like taking care of kids

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No matter what

warm imp Jul 10, 2025, 6:52 PM

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Okay

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I think I'm done with my life

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I do not want this shi anymore

warm imp Jul 10, 2025, 7:33 PM

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Ooh shi

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My mama and big sister are arguing over how much money me an my big sister have to give back to her

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She saying I gotta give 80 dollars back

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Y'all this is sum bull

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All because my big sister don't got money I gotta pay the higher amount HamsterStare

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This why I be saving up

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I only spent 30 dollars on my charger I brought cause mine broke pensivecowboy

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Im being screwed over here

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I sent my aunt 34 TikToks and she only answered 1 I don't think she cares for me anymore rooHurt

warm imp Jul 11, 2025, 12:38 PM

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Okay this is bull shiii

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I just got my ahh jumps in ant war by the golden team

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1:13

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Guess who lost

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ME

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I STOOD NO CHANCE????

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MY TEAMMATE WATCHED ME GET TORN APART ALIVE

warm imp Jul 12, 2025, 11:56 AM

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Today is my baby sisters birthday

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She is 3 years old now

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I'm happy but at the same time I'm kinda sad

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She's getting older

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I still remember her 1st birthday

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I can never forget it

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How can I?

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I still cry thinking of that day

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I would cry every day and night a whole week after

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I thought my life was over

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But sadly it continued

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I remember walking in the rain with all my siblings

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My big sister and mommy were crying

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I knew what happened

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I heard it all while I was in the bathroom

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Scared to come out because I was to afraid to face the reality of everything going on

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There was a bunch of yelling I even heard things being thrown around

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My moms eye was puffy and bruise because my big sister threw a soda can at her

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I remember my mommy crying to my grandma while my big sister was talking with my older aunt

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I tried to stay silent

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But ofc I couldn't

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My mom asked me if I knew anything about this

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Ofc I did

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I stay up late at night everyday

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Praying not to hear my bedroom door open

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Not to pretend sleep as someone walks into me, my big sister, and my brothers room

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We were meant to have a party in my backyard

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For my baby sisters first birthday

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We never got that party

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Every single Ballon was popped

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It was a strawberry themed party

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My whole family was supposed to come

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I was excited

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I don't get it

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I never will

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Every day I feel uncomfortable

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I hate wearing tight clothes

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It makes me feel so dirty

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I hate it

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I look into the vent in my bathroom

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Knowing that they tried watching us made me want to puke

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They still live with us

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They pay the bills

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My little sisters love them

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How can they not?

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They are very innocent

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And I hate it

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I envy it so much

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I have the strong need to protect them from any evil that will come their way

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I fantasy about being a super hero everyday

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Hmmmm

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It's very strange

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To feel uncomfortable around one person everytime I am home

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My mommy knows

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Everything

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The camera

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The watching us while we slept

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Strange right?

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Me and my siblings are kids

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They are a grown adult

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It was weird

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Very very weird

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I feel horrible for my big sister and mommy

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I love them

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I wish I could save them

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But I can't

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In my dreams I do

warm imp Jul 12, 2025, 6:40 PM

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Wtf is this...

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It was my baby sisters birthday

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She's three now clearly

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My aunt and cousins came

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Which was only four of them sadly

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Well five since a baby is on the way

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But whatever

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Anyways

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She got 3 gifts

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Which was lots of playdough

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Ummm

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The same cake as usual that we have mainly every birthday

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A cappuccino cake

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Yknow what?

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I'mma play any war

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Get my mind off things

warm imp Jul 13, 2025, 2:46 AM

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I love The Summer Hikaru Died

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Yes I did read the manga before the anime even came out years ago

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hamster

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rooSmush

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hugheart

warm imp Jul 15, 2025, 10:35 AM

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Okay

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So umm

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I'm crying rn because I wanted to see what some of my other family members were up to since I miss them all

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And now thatI think about it

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They probably forgot about me

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Probably don't even remember I exist

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Which hurts a lot actually

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But it's fine

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I haven't talked to them in 5 years probably more even

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And the last time I went to a party with everyone

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I felt so uncomfortable

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So alone

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I remember seeing one of my grandma's whoI loved so dearly

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And I only talked to her when I was leaving

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Which hurted a lot because when I tried saying hi to her

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She didn't seem to care and told me to help my mom

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Which I get since she needed help with my siblings but like it genuinely hurted so much

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I brushed it off as still grieving over my uncle

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Which would make since because she seemed less alive

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I miss it

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I hate getting older

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I want to be 6 again

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I would rather take the torment of my family always insulting me but always the center of attention

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Rather than having no one talking to me and being ignored as if I don't exist

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It's hurts my heart so much

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I can't let go of the past

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I just can't

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It's impossible

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That was when I was the most loved

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When my life was still fine

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I never worried about anything

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It was just me my big sister and brother

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Just the 3 of us

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I try so hard to focus on the past

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Because I'm so scared of what will happen in the future

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The responsibility will go all on me after my big sister leaves

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It's already happened

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Even though she's still here it will only get worse

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I hate this

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I can't keep living like this

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I feel like I'm going insane in this house

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And I can't leave

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I don't want to pick between my mom or dad in the future

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Infact

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I don't want to do anything except sleep

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I'll sleep forever if I have to

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I just don't want to wake up living this life

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I just need my dad

warm imp Jul 17, 2025, 3:53 PM

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Okay

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I've been up since 7 PM

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I haven't slept at all

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I was playing Honkai StarRail for a bit

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Ended up pulling phainon or whateva

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Which I was happy about

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Than I decided to go oon for a bit by reading

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Which is what I've been doing for the past 2 hours

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Just reading

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This is so peak tho

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I'm going crazy

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I'mma head to bed after I finish the story

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Which I'm almost done sadly nooo HamsterStare hamster

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Okay

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My favorite artist just posted on Instagram

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He looks SO FINE

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SO BEAUTIFUL

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but

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What were those moves he was doing... HamsterStare

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Ummm...

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#supportive!!

warm imp Jul 20, 2025, 9:26 AM

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Fun fact!!!

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Every single one of my fantasies end with me dead

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I just find comfort in it

warm imp Jul 22, 2025, 8:43 AM

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I made a horrible mistake

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I had the sudden urge to look at old photos

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And now im crying

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Because im seeing videos of when my whole family would do stuff together

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Whether is was going on trips or celebrating birthdays together

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I miss those times

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When we would sit all the way in the back and duck under to make sure police didn’t think we were kidnapped

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It was amazing

warm imp Aug 20, 2025, 6:26 AM

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Okay

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So

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Now that I'm thinking about it

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I don't think my dad sees me as his baby anymore

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Which hurts

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But

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I am already grown enough

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So it's whatever

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On Saturday when I was so sick

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I was throwing up, dizzy and my stomach hurted so bad

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I was on the verge of tears

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My dad didn't really seem as worried or effected

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He didn't immediately rush to hug me or put me to bed

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He didn't even pat my back or anything

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All he did was give me hot tea and tell me I'll feel better later

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I felt so sick

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And my heart hurted so baf because I couldn't bare the dizziness I was feeling

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Maybe I really am over reacting

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But all I want is for someone to care about me like I care so much about them

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I cried for my dad whenever I didn't get to go out and see him

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I don't care about the stuff he buys for me

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All I want is to see him

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But

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For him not to immediately comfort me when I was sad and sick

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Idk

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It just hurts

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I'm not the best with words

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I've always been very sensitive

warm imp Aug 24, 2025, 12:37 AM

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Okay went through old pictures on my moms phone

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And I knew I was chopped but not THAT chopped...

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HamsterStare nooo

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Pulling the trigger

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💔

warm imp Aug 26, 2025, 6:27 AM

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Genuinely why are me and my sister so funny

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hamster

warm imp Sep 7, 2025, 5:10 AM

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Okay

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So

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I hate everyone

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Bro

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Why does my family have to be so insensitive

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I'm so done with all of them

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Especially my brother

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I hate him so much

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I know this is problematic

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But idc

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I hate him so so much

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He's so disgusting

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He's so stupid

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Why did he have to exist

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Why

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He is so useless

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He only make things worse

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I feel so bad

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But I can't seem to care

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Yes I do care if anything ba happens to him but other than that I dont

warm imp Oct 1, 2025, 2:07 AM

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Okay

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I'm not strong at all

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The whole time I was at my grandma's house I felt like crying

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I hate this so much

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I hate the fact that I don't feel attached to my family members anymore

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How is it that I feel more comfortable around my dads side of the family when I barely see them?

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It's a shame

warm imp Oct 13, 2025, 8:01 PM

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I MIGHT be dramatic but who cares its whatevaaa

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Anyways I got hyperfixated on Dc again

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hamster

tribal sierra Oct 13, 2025, 8:26 PM

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Hiii, how are u feeling todayy?

warm imp Oct 13, 2025, 8:26 PM

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I'm doing fine!! hugheart

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How are you..? hamster

tribal sierra Oct 13, 2025, 8:28 PM

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warm imp I'm doing fine!! <:hugheart:1322460751419539547>

I’m so happy to hear that b016_pinkheart

tribal sierra Oct 13, 2025, 8:28 PM

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warm imp How are you..? <:hamster:1243091630420922389>

I’m alright!! just this day was lowkey painful hahah, but im better now kuma_love

warm imp Oct 13, 2025, 8:29 PM

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tribal sierra I’m alright!! just this day was lowkey painful hahah, but im better now <:kuma_l...

Okay it's good that you're feeling better now hug

tribal sierra Oct 13, 2025, 8:29 PM

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Yesss

neat tundra Oct 14, 2025, 1:13 AM

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warm imp Anyways I got hyperfixated on Dc again

YES YOY LOVE IT

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heh

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i think fhats pretty kewl..

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 1:13 AM

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Bro it's getting a lil too deep now😕

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Can't stop reading...

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 5:17 AM

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Okay

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I thought about it

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And I think I'm ready to move on

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I'll stop thinking about all the childish memories I have

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I am ready to move on

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hamster

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:16 PM

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Bro

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Everyone is wasting my time today

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Shoulda just opted to staying home atp

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My sister decided to be a lil I cant say that and push me

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Now i’m sitting alone

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Bro

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Im a better person and I will not wish violence upon her hamster hugheart

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HamsterStare

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This is why her dad left her

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Idc anymore

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:45 PM

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warm imp My sister decided to be a lil I cant say that and push me

Welp

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:45 PM

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Hey what happened…

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:52 PM

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warm imp Hey what happened…

?

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Siblings can be a bit annoying

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One reason why I never wanted one

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Or had one

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:53 PM

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I have 6… nooo

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:53 PM

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minus the bribing to get advantage of them like taking snacks from the fridge at 3am

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:53 PM

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warm imp I have 6…<:nooo:1187623708634914846>

WAHT

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😭

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:53 PM

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Yup lets just say my momma got a lil busy…

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:54 PM

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That's so much gurl

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:54 PM

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hamster

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:54 PM

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warm imp Yup lets just say my momma got a lil busy…

HamsterStare

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:54 PM

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We were all mistakes but lets not talk about that hugheart

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:54 PM

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Yes

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Since we were all mistakes

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Don't let one take you out

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😭

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:54 PM

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Thats the energy we need!!!

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rooCookie

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:55 PM

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Today I banged my head on the edge of a sharp mirror 💀

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Good I didn't get any bleeding

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:55 PM

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Okay thats good

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:55 PM

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And a week back

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:55 PM

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Or else you might have to get stitches

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:55 PM

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I set a tissue paper on fire

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:55 PM

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And get a bald spot

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:55 PM

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EHEHEHHE

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:55 PM

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warm imp And get a bald spot

No I don't wanna become like my dad 🙏

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:55 PM

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ashen robin I set a tissue paper on fire

How was it…

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:56 PM

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warm imp How was it…

Fun and hurting at the same time after my mom sensed the smell and made me eat a slipper

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:56 PM

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ashen robin No I don't wanna become like my dad 🙏

You might have to follow in his footsteps one day hamster

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:56 PM

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warm imp You might have to follow in his footsteps one day<:hamster:1243091630420922389>

NOOOO

#

nooo

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:56 PM

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ashen robin Fun and hurting at the same time after my mom sensed the smell and made me eat a...

Momma why nooo nooo nooo

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:56 PM

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hehahhaha-

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Btw you still at your cousin house?

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:57 PM

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She wanted you to taste the pain…

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Nah

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:57 PM

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Mhm

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:57 PM

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Thats was only for one day hamster

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:57 PM

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1 day???

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:57 PM

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Yup

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:57 PM

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ONE DAY???

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I only stay 2 hours at my cousin house

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:57 PM

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lil hang out you can say rooCookie

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:58 PM

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Mhm

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:58 PM

#

ashen robin I only stay 2 hours at my cousin house

Dont worry me too… HamsterStare nooo

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:58 PM

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Also where ru from

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:58 PM

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Barely last an hour if theres no food

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:58 PM

#

PeepoThink

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:58 PM

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rooCookie

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:58 PM

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Ouuu

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:58 PM

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I guess you can call me biggie…

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:58 PM

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Ima tell u my weight

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45 kg

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 8:58 PM

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ashen robin Also where ru from

I was born in the usa but my family from mexico…

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 8:59 PM

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warm imp I was born in the usa but my family from mexico…

Wowee

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I'm born in Saudi Arabia but I am Filipino Pakistani

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My mom is filipino

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So she's strict

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But not really That strict

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And also I'm homeschooled

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 9:00 PM

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Oh wow

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 9:00 PM

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(That doesn't mean home is a prison cuz I usually go out a lot on the winter)

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 9:00 PM

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Ive only been to public school

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 9:00 PM

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Same

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Once in kindergarten only

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After I got bullied I dropped out

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Most of the Arab kids there were racist

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 9:01 PM

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Someone shoulda whooped those kids

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 9:01 PM

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Even though I am brown

ashen robin Oct 14, 2025, 9:01 PM

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warm imp Someone shoulda whooped those kids

Yes I agree

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 9:02 PM

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People are so dumb for being racist

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HamsterStare

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Genuinely believe imma be here for the next 4 hours😕

warm imp Oct 14, 2025, 9:33 PM

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Nvm I'm boutta just walk home cause this taking too long

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Idc anymore

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Once my airpods die I'm dipping

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Tbh

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I'm boutta start crying for fun

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That's how bored I am

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HamsterStare

warm imp Oct 15, 2025, 2:08 AM

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Okay

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Maybe I give my family more credit than they deserve

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Bro

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I get so excited to see my dad just to be disappointed

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I know what he's like yet I still can't get over it

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I hate this

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I hate my sister

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So so much

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I wonder what did I do to deserve this

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I genuinely try so hard

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I think its cause I have high expectations

warm imp Oct 15, 2025, 2:32 AM

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It's not even a nice thought

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I just don't see myself at all

ashen robin Oct 15, 2025, 6:40 AM

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Oh...

warm imp Oct 15, 2025, 7:16 PM

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Let just day I was being dramatic

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rooCookie

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I'm feeling all right now

warm imp Oct 16, 2025, 5:40 AM

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Bro

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I can't wait to watch the black phone 2

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Bro

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I had the BIGGEST hyperfixation on tht movie

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Watched it over 20 times

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Never once got tired

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Been waiting for this day

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Well

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I'mma watch it

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And it better be peak

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Either way I'mma love it

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TRUST

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hugheart

#

hamster

ashen robin Oct 16, 2025, 6:37 AM

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Wouuu

warm imp Oct 16, 2025, 10:33 PM

#

So today was such a good day

#

It was honestly do fun

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We watched a beautiful lady and my old teacher dance

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For like some Hispanic heritage month or whateva

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Pretty awesome

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And while we were going up the stairs to our next class

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One of our classmate slammed the door on me an my silly lil friend

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And we could NOT stop laughing

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I was genuinely dying

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Everyone had it out for me today

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Got hit on the back of the head twice

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Twice mentioned..!!

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hamster

#

rooCookie

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Anyways

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I am NOT pulling up to school tomorrow

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Because I don't wanna and also I'm kinda sick... hamster

neat tundra Oct 17, 2025, 7:57 PM

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warm imp And we could NOT stop laughing

DEADASS

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STOP I ALMOST SHED A TEAR

warm imp Oct 26, 2025, 2:46 AM

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I ended up getting a duplicate

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So now shes a holder

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I love my babies

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hamster hugheart

#

warm imp Oct 26, 2025, 10:54 PM

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Been home alone for 5 hours straight

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Been eating candy since theirs absolutely NO FOOD in this house

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Im so hungry my bellya growled 6 times in a row

warm imp Oct 27, 2025, 12:00 AM

#

My mom ordered dominos

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Finna eat this whole pizza myself cus aint nobody here

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My big sister doin to much

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She was gone for 6 hours and expected me to wait

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She just ordered mcdonalds and wants me to pay because she didnt know my mom brought dominos

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Like I am NOT payin for that not my fault you slow 😂🙏

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No one said she was the smartest sadly😔

#

HamsterStare

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hamster

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rooCookie

warm imp Oct 27, 2025, 1:35 AM

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Okay

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My sister and mom are arguing

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They mentioned me a few times

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This MIGHT be a sign imma get beat

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😕

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Imma update y’all if I do…!!(holy schizophrenia!!)

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I infact will be paying just so I dont get beat😕

neat tundra Oct 27, 2025, 2:21 AM

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warm imp I infact will be paying just so I dont get beat😕

Did u get beat

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Lmk..

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Heh

warm imp Oct 27, 2025, 2:21 AM

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Thankfully not

neat tundra Oct 27, 2025, 2:21 AM

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LOL

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Dodged a bullet...

warm imp Oct 27, 2025, 2:21 AM

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Bro I forgot the science hw

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The coloring sheet

neat tundra Oct 27, 2025, 2:21 AM

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We dont have it tomorrow anyways

#

hey what coloring sheet..

warm imp Oct 27, 2025, 2:21 AM

#

Bro

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Reagents

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My mama aint picking me up

#

nooo

neat tundra Oct 27, 2025, 2:23 AM

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HELPP

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omg

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I frogot

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Ims ask her to pick me up

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LMAO

warm imp Nov 13, 2025, 7:40 PM

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Okay

#

I feel so bad for my grandma

#

She is the only one cleaning around her house

#

She does everything

#

I wish the best for her

warm imp Nov 20, 2025, 3:48 AM

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I hate my brother so much

neat tundra Nov 21, 2025, 11:39 PM

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Poo smell mid 99 nights

warm imp Nov 22, 2025, 4:58 AM

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Bro

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I hate my brother

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Done ate my whole waffer packet

#

Better pray I'm not the one taking care of him in the future

neat tundra Nov 24, 2025, 2:49 AM

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Bro slime his ahh 🤤

warm imp Nov 28, 2025, 2:19 AM

#

Maybe I do need to grow up

#

But like

#

I don't really want to

#

Maybe I do needa start doing makingup and get into a relationship since that's all my family seems to talk about

#

But I'm not into any of that stuff

#

Probably never will

#

Who knows

#

Maybe I'mma grow up and mature later on

#

Than I will get into all that stuff

#

But for now

#

I'm not mature at all

celest mural Nov 28, 2025, 2:56 AM

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warm imp Maybe I do needa start doing makingup and get into a relationship since that's a...

You don’t have to rush getting into make up and relationships mellyyy, you’re on the right track. You’re still young, you should focus on whatever’s making you happy now and those things you can think about later on when you’re ready ^^
Literally so proud of you PeepoCookie

warm imp Nov 28, 2025, 2:58 AM

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celest mural You don’t have to rush getting into make up and relationships mellyyy, you’re on...

But I wanna get along with my family Ling hamster

celest mural Nov 28, 2025, 3:00 AM

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warm imp But I wanna get along with my family Ling<:hamster:1243091630420922389>

hamster I understand melly but I feel that you shouldnt be doing something you dont like to get along with your family. Relationships are a big commitment..

warm imp Nov 28, 2025, 3:01 AM

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I don't need one it's just what if thought hugheart

#

rooSmush

celest mural Nov 28, 2025, 3:01 AM

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kekW I got you

warm imp Dec 26, 2025, 7:55 AM

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Bro

#

I got too deep into dc

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How did this happen

#

Idk

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But its pretty awesome if you ask me

neat tundra Dec 26, 2025, 6:29 PM

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I like watching you read those dc things during class

#

Heh

#

Lil cutie

neat tundra Dec 27, 2025, 12:59 AM

#

Hey where did my journal go..

warm imp Dec 27, 2025, 9:28 AM

#

Yeah no romance just aint for me

#

Been thinking to myself

#

Trynna see if I would fit it

#

But like genuinely the answer is no

#

WumpusGrin

#

I might have taken all the bad genetics in my entire family

#

But hey thats okay..!

#

I got enough self love to fine beauty in them

#

So we chillin

#

WumpusCozy

warm imp Dec 27, 2025, 11:44 AM

#

Went back to my old hyper fixations

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Now I cant stop

neat tundra Dec 27, 2025, 1:36 PM

#

Before I met hector I was thinking about pulling a jizelle on you

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Just a tiny lil smooch

warm imp Jan 1, 2026, 4:22 AM

#

Took one look at my cousins drawing

#

Damn I'm really not that talented

warm imp Jan 4, 2026, 10:20 AM

#

Okay

#

Just realized sumthin about me

#

Maybe im TOO nostalgic

#

Or

#

When I do finally truly like someone

#

I get overly attached

#

Like in talking I involve them with everything I think about

#

Hmm

#

Also

#

Highkey problematic

#

Wait

#

I dont remember what I was gonna say

#

Nvm

#

But anyways like I was saying

#

I notice that

#

I still think about my friend from elementary

#

But anyways

#

I see her in my reagents class

#

She sits behind me now

#

But I never stopped thinking about her

#

I might have gotten overly attached to her

#

Or

#

Im just a creep

#

Maybe both

#

Huh

#

Guess I never really thought about that one..!

#

But yeah

#

I do yearn alot

#

But dont we all

#

hugheart

warm imp Jan 13, 2026, 8:16 PM

#

Yeah

#

Its not me

#

I know it now

warm imp Jan 14, 2026, 10:05 AM

#

Somthing really problematic about me

#

Trigger warning!!

#

Yknow

#

Anyways

#

I use to always wanna go to the hospital or a mental institution or asylum

#

Whateva

#

Just

#

I wanted to always be medicated

#

Think my mommy passed something down to all of my siblings

#

Thats why we’re all special in some way

#

But yeah I use to strangle myself, cut, and hit myself to leave as many marks as I could

#

Yeah

#

I have serious issues

#

But anyways

#

Umm…

#

Hmm

#

Dont know how to feel

#

But nah I was very crazy

#

I use to stay up all night not always on purpose

#

But i did it because whenever im so extremely tired

#

I start seeing things and turn very dizzy

#

Basically how I think being high feels like

#

It was fun

#

I will never do drugs or try to drink alcohol

#

Because my daddy did sum and look where that got him

#

He went through psychosis

#

Now hes overly religious

#

And believes that demons are coming after him

#

He even said my mommys going to hell

#

And for what?? She’s genuinely the best

#

I use to starve myself alot

#

Thats cause I went through major depression

#

Im talking straight up filthy chud

#

Still am one tho…

#

But I slept through the whole day and woke up at night

#

My food would be cold to the point I couldnt even eat it

#

I cried especially when my grandma would come over and she made it for me

#

I felt so awful

#

But I didnt do anything about it

#

I miss her

#

I want to go to her house and see her

#

She is the person I admire the most

#

Shes beautiful, kind, caring, funny, loving and all the other beautiful things

#

I only ever truly woke up everyday to see her

#

Since at that time my mom was actually working

#

So she came over to take care of me and my siblings

#

But since we gotten older she doesn’t need to anymore

#

Umm

#

I have eating issues

#

I know that

#

My family would say I was too skinny so I ate so much I would always be nauseous

#

My stomach would hurt so bad

#

But now

#

Think I might have ate too much…

#

HamsterStare

#

I dont need food that much

#

I could handle going without for hours

#

I just eat for fun now

warm imp Jan 14, 2026, 1:54 PM

#

My leg hurts so bad

#

Take me out now

celest mural Jan 15, 2026, 3:07 AM

#

warm imp I just eat for fun now

you should eat regardless and take care of yourself melly, your health matters most!

warm imp Jan 16, 2026, 4:18 AM

#

I am!!!

#

I'm not that much of a fan of chocolate

#

I prefer sour stuff

#

Well they say is sour

#

Like sour patch kids and watermelon

#

I really enjoy gelatin an flan

#

Top 2 favorite desserts

#

Anyways

#

I now cope or whatever

#

By watching youtube

#

Daydreaming

#

Sleeping

#

Or going on the go_n streak

#

hugheart

warm imp Jan 17, 2026, 3:38 AM

#

Wait why am I so geeked out

#

Okay

#

I GENUINELY think im a chud

#

Bro

#

I redecorated my backpack yesterday

#

And

#

Now that I think about it

#

Why am I such a nerd

#

Not even the smart kind

#

HamsterStare

neat tundra Jan 17, 2026, 3:42 AM

#

warm imp I GENUINELY think im a chud

Its okay we are

#

rooSmush

warm imp Jan 17, 2026, 3:43 AM

#

I really think im gonna end it soon

neat tundra Jan 17, 2026, 7:08 PM

#

no my little pumpkin soft caramel cookie

#

rooHurt

warm imp Jan 18, 2026, 1:09 AM

#

I genuinely

#

Feel like crying

#

Why am I the cleanest one in my family

#

Other than my mommy

#

I shower everyday

#

I regularly clean my bed

#

And my window

#

I sweep the floor

#

I take my soda cans out

#

I wash my hands

#

Yet

#

My siblings are the total opposite

#

Genuinely almost stated crying

#

Bro

#

Who ordered this???

#

#

Anyways

#

I was sitting eating chocolate chip cookies

#

My little sister comes oyt

#

She puts her hand over my eyes so I dont see her taking some

#

She removes her hand and scratches her bum with that exact hand

#

Not even a second later

#

HamsterStare

#

Imma get pink eye

warm imp Jan 18, 2026, 1:15 AM

#

warm imp Why am I the cleanest one in my family

This is just basic things btw

#

Why is my family so special

#

This is why I have major ptsd

#

From everything

#

Not even joking

warm imp Jan 18, 2026, 8:52 PM

#

Holy mood shift

#

My mommy just yelled at me and my sister

#

Bro she just killed my vibe

#

Im not the one who wants to do arrangements my whole life

#

Im willing to get a job

#

I just dont care for flowers

warm imp Jan 22, 2026, 7:25 AM

#

Buddy

#

Im not lying when I say im not making it pass 20

#

I genuinely believe that I wont

#

And if I do

#

Im probably not gonna be happy

#

Like

#

I know the type of person I am

#

I wont change

#

Maybe change for the worst

#

But even than Ill still have the same mindset

#

So

#

All this struggling and stressing

#

Would come to an end soon

#

But for now

#

I should probably just focus on things I like and truly care about

#

I wont be forcing myself to do things I dont wanna do

#

Idc if I upset people now

#

hamster

#

Im not a healthy person obviously

#

So I have serious issues when it comes to my health

#

Like for example I overly eat sugar

#

Probably gonna get diabetes soon

#

Ummm

#

I barely drink water

#

Barely exercise

#

The most I do is walk

#

Im surprised im not 300 pounds yet

#

Im only 108 on a good day

#

113 when I eat

#

So

#

Im pretty light

#

Im not skinny tho

#

Idc

#

Hmmm

#

I guess i really am just a lazy chud

#

But like im said

#

Im not healthy

#

And dont really plan on being healthy just yet

celest mural Jan 22, 2026, 2:47 PM

#

warm imp And dont really plan on being healthy just yet

im happy that u said just yet lol

#

hamster

#

go get it mellayyy

warm imp Jan 24, 2026, 3:47 AM

#

Think all the phone radiation is getting to me

#

Maybe my dad was right

#

But

#

I dont want to

#

He was never the smartest but that’s okay

#

hugheart hamster

warm imp Jan 24, 2026, 11:52 PM

#

Sometimes

#

My big sister has to shut up

warm imp Jan 25, 2026, 2:14 AM

#

Reason why I said this is because

#

My mommy was mad she didn't clean the cat litter

#

And it was full

#

Stunk up the bathroom

#

And this happens every single day

#

My sister is a very lazy person

#

She doesn't clean at all

#

So

#

She kept arguing with my mom

#

Which she is obviously in the wrong here

#

Like bro just clean or else get a job

warm imp Jan 27, 2026, 8:39 AM

#

Guess who decided to watch Gachiakuta...

#Mels.... Journal? Maybeee!!!