#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!
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Im just standing there against a railing
yeah
nothing
I walk around with my mom
literally nothing
I try texting jizelle
No answer
Id text hector but hes mid game
And his phone probably died
Since he said his phone was on low battery
Like
Around a hour ago
So
im just there
Until I get pissed off and just leave with my mom
For most of the way back shes just lecturing me
saying stuff like how she told me love never lasts
And she started talking about how hector and his family have always let me down
like
okay
to be honest
There has been times where we were supposed to hang out
me and jizelle
jizelle and her sister
or all three of them
but never did
Why?
because ig they just had to switch up last minute for
some reason
And I was always just left there waiting
whether I was stuck waiting outside the school
or at the park
or if we planned something
I spent money
day came
we never went out tg
and all that money was spent for no reason
All that excitement just quickly gone
So my mom kinda has a point
but
it just got me even more frustrated
Because she was rubbing it in my face
How they always switch up last second
How i should've just stayed him
How I shouldn't trust him
Like
it just got me really really mad
like no one understands how frustrating it was
and she was being loud too
so loud
and why?
because she can be loud
but I cant
i cant say anything back
I cant be mean back
I cant defend myself
why?
because she will tell my dad and start crying to make me seem bad
she always cries
and always snitches to my dad
and anyone reading this probably thinks im talking about a little sibling
or little cousin
but no
its my mom
my mom acting that way
π€¦ββοΈ
And im not saying she cant cry
and im not saying she doesnt have a right to tell my dad this stuff
but she always exaggerates stuff
and its just really frustrating
But
yeah
and for the other half of the way home
we ended up getting a sweet treat..
and went to buy some food
and
we passed through the park
And honestly
I was mad already
Like yeah
I had a nice time on our way home
but I was still mad
in my mind im thinking hector gave me the wrong address or something
Omw home
just as im about to get home
About to CROSS the road
To get home
My phone just starts going off like crazy
and im genuinely hoping its not him
because im mad
I check
hes texting me
spamming me
and every second
im getting a call from either him or jizelle
and honestly
im now home
phone still going off
genuinely
I just turned that shit off
β
sorry not sorry.!.!
then
im on the toilet
my phone starts going off like crazy again
and its just him texting me like
Saying he tried waiting for me
because I guess he thought I was there
and I felt bad
but buddy I just left a while ago
I tried texting jizelle telling her I was gonna leave
No answer
For a entire hour
So I just deleted my messages because im not about to look stupid
so honestly im sorry but
π€¦ββοΈ
and then I replied to him
Asking him where his game was
because I went to a park
because
That's what I was expecting no?
he never specifically told me where
He just gave me the address
And honestly
That's kinda my fault
I shouldve asked for the specific place
but buddy
any person would think a soccer game would be in some sort of field
or park
not some random building π€¦ββοΈ
But no
The game was in some building
and he didnt tell me
so
buddy
and then after a bit of talking about it im like
its okaayy
like
yk
im telling him its okay and its whatever
because in reality
Its whatever
Ok
Like yes it got me mad
but its whatever
because it was just a miscommunication
but no
he keeps apologizing
And I feel bad
but I really dont want him to
so im just reassuring him
but he keeps apologizing
so I genuinely get mad again
π
And then we change the topic
Hes like
"How was ur day.."
and I said
Good
And I ask him it back
i think shi is sweet now π³ π₯Ί
he says bad
because he thinks im mad at him
and he feels guilty
I called it a day after
that
π€¦ββοΈ
Like
idk
and people probably gonna think im being mean
but its so frustrating
for someone to keep apologizing
When you already said its okay
or want to forget the whole situation
but no
they just keep bringing it up
like
okaay man
and he probably told his mom
so
321
and she hates me now
π³
But
This is like
a estimation
I guess
since we dont really know when he was born
but when we went to the vet
they did put his date of birth being the first of June heh..
06/01/2025
We got him when he was arounddd
2 months old maybe
Or 3
Yeah
Around 3
Because i remember getting ready for the first day of school
In September
And he took a nasty shit
And it stunk up the room
They put his full name
as
Bon Bon Martinez
wait
heh
wait a second..
Hes a lil chopped but I love him
Unfortunately
I will be supporting my mommy's coca cola addiction
Ima start buying
because I really want to collect all those stickers...!!
I already have 3 of them
i need them all..!!!!
oh
right
cuz ur crazy
I could go to the deli and get this for 2 bucks
Where i can buy coca cola from
and for how much..!
but buddy who is paying
2.99
or 3.19 for a cola
get outta here..
YUM
Ellieeeee, your journal is so full of life I love it 
Heh
THANK YOUU
so much fun today with my sister.!!!!
Heh
Hey
Hey
Hey
Hey fuys
I spend
Like
Maybe 20 bucks today
Or a lil more
Andd thats it
cuzz
My daddy paid for most of the things
Like
80 bucks
He soent
spent
lol..!!
And I showed him what I got
And he said tmr hes taking me to buy more clothes
And i haveeee
Church tomorrow..!!
my friends are leaving me
To go to a trip in Washington
@turbid cloak @summer sinew
so they hate me lol..
so its just gonna be me and melly
and then
Tuesday I think
They come back
On
Wednesday
ITS GONNA BE MY BIRTHDAY
I was gonna get a credit card
but ima wait never year
cuz yeah
I got 72 bucks now
Andd
its gonna stay that way
unless I spend some of it
but yeah
first purchase for when I get a credit card
maybe
album π€€
or idk
im probably gonna save it or try and not spend till I get a job!!
I wanted to get one for this summer
but my parents said no
And my siblings said im genuinely about to blend in with the kids so
maybe next year..!!
what ekse
let me think..
Honestly I think may is gonna be a pretty awesome month..!!
June is gonna be great
Kitten turns a year old
AND AUGUST
will definitely be the best
idk about july
A bunch of birthdays
also
peanut turns like
5 yes old
yrs
or y
6
Heh I forgot
but yeah
im so happy..!!!
From yesterday
I was playing badminton with my daddy and sister!!!
I have to post on Instagram too..
im only posting on my main
so
Heh..!
ALSO
okay
some places I really wanna go to
this one restaurant
Omg
The best
and they had these really good milkshakes
but they are gone now..
but
another place
Industry City
Omg
I dont really watch anime
or read like
anime
and
mangas
but they have so much anime merchandise there
Its so cute
Its where I got my Yuji Itadori
thingy
I love it
and I wanna explore more there
i wanna buy makeup from there
And try food from there too..!!
I miss it
Heh industry city
I wanna go back to the park
To play in those sprinklers too..!!
WHERE ELSE
hmm
rainbow
and five below
π€€
Omg
Atlantic too
Only Atlantic pic i found
And it was from
2023 or 2024
So yeah heh.!.!
From Spanish class..!!!
my stomach kinda hurt
lol.!.!
from eating
too much
IVE ALSO BEEN PLAYING THIS VOLLEYBALL GAME A LOT
So
Heh yeah thats fun
y are these guys at my table actually funny
happyy birthdayyy elliiii!!! 
And honestly
Ain't nothing going my way
and I didnt even pull up to school
But that ok
lol.!
everyone's happy birthday wishes are making me so happy..!!
thank you guys!!!!

Making me cry
Ok this isnt ok
ok
ok
im scared hector might leave me
But I deserve it π
but
ima thug it out
Hopefully my mommy doesnt stay mad at me for too long
I want to feed the stray cat I found yesterday
321
And im spending my birthday money on the cat
sorry bon bon
wait this isnt okay
oki hi guyd
hey guys im getting burnt to a crisp but I dont cur
The bees are out
Cute.!!
grr im big mad
minor crashout
π€€
A bunch of ants just jumped me
321 and im cleaning!!!
Heh
and my sisters and papa and mama
said happy birthday to me already
and my auntie
π
π
AND LING TOO
heh gee thanks guys.!!!!
π³
Ok
I thought shi was sweet
everyone is mad
whole house madπ€¦ββοΈ
The door rings
from the apartment building
I run over to the door
about to open it
before im like
Heh
Mommy told me not to open the door for anyone
so I highkey just step back
to see who coming up the stairs through the camera
ok wait
cut the cameras
And honestly I love everyone

Okay
but
My mom and sister come in
and my mom genuinely slimes me out for not opening the door
So no correlation
He a lil ugly but I love him
Very happy birthday :D
THANK YOUU 

Taxi driver talking about how the government made up covid
ok king π³
we about to be so late to our appointment
π³
vro i hate dumb people
π€€ π³
cuz
im heading to sit down right
heading to my chair
kitten just so happens to be in front of me
and runs off
cuz he just came out his poopie box
bru
why my sister talking about "dont bother my cat"
π³
right cuz I was tryna get him
Like??
And im like telling her I didnt do shit to her cat
And shes like "omg relax its not that serious"
But now it is
cuz why you wanna do the most while im tryna explain to you
I didnt grab him
π
And im arguing back in forth with her
She call me lazy??
so I call her
names
π³
And she goes into the room
#gottemmm
and as shes going in she threatens me shes like
idk
but she threatens me not to touch the cat
And i tell her "okay do something then"
π³
Take a wild guess who got pissy and went into the room
hint
not me
π
so yes dent head i will do whatever I want like this my cat too
π³
happy to look a mess
And guess what
kitten is next to me
so riddle me that
clearly he wanna be near me
like
its not clocking to youπ
oki im happy
I love melanie
A lot
like
i put her gift in my wallet
Melanie doesnt tell me she loves me
but
i think its the little things like these that maybe
just maybe
means she loves me
I love her a ton
like
if she asked me to drop someone
id probably do it
like
I love her like
for example
Well I cant say it
But
a different example is
if she genuinely had to fart
id fart louder to cover hers
π³
Like I just love her a lot
locked in
for
maybe 2 or 3 years
best years of my life btw
Elementary and middle school
was
Somewhat tough
elementary was easy though
and making friends
even easier
After i graduated elementary though
RIGHT
BECAUSE
GENUINELY EVERYONE JUST HATES ME
YOU GOT 2 OTHERS CHUD DAUGHTERS
WHY AM I WORKING
I JUST GOT HOME
Just pull the trigger
ok
and like I was saying
Middle school was hard
it was hard making friends
at least
the right friends
It wasn't easy
I found a few
And ive left a few
But now
I have great friends
i met melanie and jessica earlier on
and jaylah
i met during gym
i love them all
and jizelle too
Honestly life might not be that bad. Mid school year, I honestly thought everything was gonna suck and go down hill. Now im just a few weeks away from the trip of my life, I have the greatest friend group ever, with some of the sweetest girls in the world, and I have the cutest and most thoughtful boyfriend ever. Im going into a new chapter of my life in a few months, and im about to finish sunday catholic classes. August is just around the corner, and thats where everything was perfect. Summer was the best, and i was always on call or playing with my best friends. Now... Summer is coming up, and people I barely talked to in the past are now talking to me, and im texting new people too! Maybe the good times are coming back.!!! I can only hope. But soon enough, I will wake up and realize its summer break, and my friends are already texting in the group chat to play 99 nights in the forest.
π
Take me back 
Ginger
π³
Im in bed praying I dont get slimed put
out
@granite gull ooou shii we not pulling up
π€€ π³
When serenity still had baby bon bon
This was i think a day before we picked him up
Serenity is the cutest lil thing ever
π³
I just woke up
Guys im kinda a chud
but im a happy one
lol!!
im gonna
I think maybe clean
then
hop on delta math
I've gotta get that grade up..
π
this but everyone says yes
π³
I really love melanie
π
I love all my friends
let me think
i love all the memories I have with them
for example
Heh
maybe whenn
I was talking about the guys I liked with mel
I think
IN 7th grade?..
I was listing them off
and then while we were talking near the swings
dust genuinely jumped her and went in her eyes
Or when I got on my knees on the ground and I think
barked for this onw person
π
Wait end me
but um
let me think
when we made salsa in Spanish
Melanie wasn't there unfortunately..
But we made salsa
and we kept eating all the chips
Heh here
Me
Jaylah
Jessy
And Ashley
Heh!!
Or when i was filming on my computer during gym
Happy to look a mess
The camera was NOT picking up my lil eyebrows
HRLPP
Ice cream with melanie lol.!.!
yummee
wait
im gonna go through my gallery
"He donβt know you lil girl"
right
because why was i getting clocked left and right
So funny
LOL
I really like this video
Shes very addicting
yeah you're that addictive
sorry
referance
who caught it
oh no oje
ok
Im supposed to be in bed
This song makes me cry
I dont know how im gonna react the day my cat dies
I really set myself up
he will die one day
π
Im probably gonna cry for a while
Just now
i heard the sound of my cats toy bell
and i felt something somewhat heavy hop onto my bed
I reached my hand out to pet what I thought was kitten
it was just my plushie
π
I miss him
Hes like
10 steps away from me but
I miss him
Okah
Goodnight
people
I love ypu guys
All
30 of u
Apart from one
π€¦ββοΈ
hpe the guy no one invited
β
But for now
i will be going to bed
i love
all
29 of you guys
lol
including me
π³ β β
Good night
heh hi..!!!
Whats up GUYS
ok
I woke up at 5
and
now ima feed kitten
hes so cute when he wakes up
cuz hes all needy and so cute
And then after hes fed he hates me

Computer
Should i text this guy back
"no"
ok lol
hi guys.!.!
I just woke up
again
oh ok
ong
omg
I stand up and i genuinely feel it
this isnt okay
ok guys im scared
im not that religious to be honest
My family is catholic
Just not me I guess..!!
and my sisters dont really wanna be catholic either
my sister
Stephanie
She genuinely be posing up with that cross for Instagram though
and she has a verse in her bio
so
but I dont really know what to believe in
I dont really think im the religious type
but for my parents
sure I guess
and worst part is
hector is pretty religious
and im not..!
and i think he is starting to realize that
but yeah
I mean a while ago he would be reading the Bible daily and he would tell me some verses
or he would show me his progress
and at one poijt
point
like maybe a month ago I was like
im not really religious
or like
I said I dont believe in God
And he kinda left me on seen for a hour
π³
but he respected it i guess
like
he didnt ask why
or tell me i should be
he was just kinda like
ok π³
So idk
my dad is very very very religious
but he dont even go to church
Sometimes I be hating my papa
hes the very religious type
and
The type to put women down
he likes to call himself the king
and he calls my mom a servant and stuff or he body shames her
So i might have to put kittens litter in his coffee soon
π
Just kidding..!!!
he would beat me up
But this is why I pull on his arm hairs
or his beard
Hes not very nice to my mom
So
he can highkey get it
sorry..
NOT
sorry
gottemm!!!
Who miss me
"No one"
ok lol
Just end me
π
grr
This isnt okay
grrr
its too early
but
okay.!.!
Im tearing up
I was kinda funny back then
I like reading people's journals
i relate to half these people
But I genuinely dont ever say anything in their journals because I think ima get jumped and doxxed
so
π³
Honestly
Next monty
is gonna be
awesome
apart from the tests
omg just edn me ain't nobody study for that
At least im happy to know
im passing
only one of them
π
@granite gull we are not about to pass that math one
I might pass it
Iβm not passing the science one
I gave up science the second I walked in
opposites attract π³
Been doing that the whole year
My grade wouldve been failing on the packet if I didnt steal those two answers from Tiffany
Might call it a day and just not pull up during those testing days..
Ihascupquakeks
Got a rival I have to kill
Ima start using the notes ling sent from all those months ago
Please notice me senpaiβ¦π₯ΊπβοΈ
We probably not even up to that shii
Heh she is so cute
I used to watch her with my sister
π³
But buddy we not making it to the big leagues
they blocked our numbers
I wish I could join the big leaguesβ¦ππ
Damn I wish I could be in the big leaguess...π
Oh and they ignored us
Ooouuu I just wish they would let me innnnnn....
Okay
HELP
oh anddd there goes college!
Omg
I did everything but delta today
Just end me
STOP
I did everything but Delta, math packet, reading, science work
whenever he mentions deltas he looks at us
Buddy guess who lock in on g00njngππ
Brother just another me π³
HELPP
Just found my twin
LIKE THE ITADORI PICTURE I SENT
No because I was hesitant on sending a random pick I have
But they canβt know the level Iβm atππ
We are such chuds
i remember last week
I think it was
Or I forgot
monday??..
when they all left us
Buddy all we talk about is g00ning
OMG
HESS
YES
DURING LUNCH
Omg
Happy to look a mess
Sweating
And talking about the streak
π€¦ββοΈ
Mind you we could've been studying
No shower streak, low grades, and talking about g00ningπ«©
Holy moly we are so fat and nasty
Well actually you lost me at the no showering streak but yeah
brother just another me
No washing hands streak
π
Ima tear up
Noβ¦
But like it could be worse
And you reading those fan fics in class
Remember in prime when they randomly called out someone not showering
I was bored
they smelled us
Havenβt drank water since the heat btw
I really thought you said candyπ
bro we such fatties
Didnβt realize you said kaylee
No because the amout of time kaylee has made me think of something else is crazy
i keep getting flashbacks of when you would raise your hand they would ignore you
Stop
No because they actually hate me
Why does no one come when I need themπ
are we outcasts
Three of my favorite things combined..!!!π₯Ήππ«Ά
I think everyone knows thatπ
they ain't sending my ass to that six flags trip
And if i do pull up to it
buddy
im eating all that food
321 and whole stock of chips disappears
No because if I see people like big Alex or anyone who constantly get in trouble
Iβm crashing out
Those sodas disappearing too
And suing the school
HELP
STOP
WHEN YOU SAID ALEX
IK U ARENT TALKING ABOUT OUR ALEX
BUT IT REMINDS ME OF ALL THE TIMES HE GOT LOST ON TRIPS
HELP
BUDDY
WE LOSING HIM ON THE ROLLER-COASTERS
He falls offf
Wait am I gonna get banned for this..?

