#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!
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Indeed!
today isnt a good day
π
everything was going good
and then I sit on the toilet and I realized I genuinely got sniped today
why did I have to get my period today
not just that
mind you im already somewhat late
and now I gotta change all over again
because of my period
and its late
so late
I done started crying
And my mom kept rushing me
and now thos is the 2nd time im bouta be absent
and the ladies at school give me nasty looks when im late

I genuinely fell off so bad
I was so much happier back then when id write in this journal
now I just write about poey thingsπ
I miss how things were back then
you'd catch me on the game everyday
or on discord everyday
talking to mel
and new people
in this gc
well
server..!
but still
i was always on here
always typing
Now I barely hop on here..
I only do
sometimes
to rant
Id also send a bunch of pictures here back then
But I kinda stopped a while ago
Half of the reason being because I dont take pictures of my outfits anymore
since I dont have time to..
and
also because I genuinely kept getting targeted back then
π
But I was genuinely so stupid back then
I still am
but im more woke now
I think
^_^
But dude
anyone could message me
pushing 20+
and it never occurred to me that I was getting targeted
Whoops
got snatched up for a sec but im back
but yeah
I thought life was all sunshines and rainbows
And then I genuinely got traumatized
Had to learn my lesson the hard way
at least
5 times
By the 5th time I finally locked in
but genuinely I thought this one person was so nice and sweet
buddy noπ
tried giving me money for stuff
π« π« π« π«
boy no π
like i was genuinely so stupid back then
like I knew it was coming
but I didnt wanna admit it was happening
genuinely would tweak whenever id mention the guy I liked back then
He genuinely deleted all his messages when he got caught too btw
and
I dont know why my playlist is being so depressing right now
its not making me feel any better at all
and I got no notifications
everyone hates meβ β
ok im lying lol..!
but yeah
ive locked in more
somewhat
plus I dont respond to really anyways messages
Well
At least not anymore
if I know them ill answer in 1.3 seconds
If I don't know them
if learned to just ignore them
I feel like
I keep bringing this up
but I genuinely will never forget how stupid I was
idk
like
it just really taught me
how even the sweetest people
or the people that seem the sweetest
can be the weirdest two faced people ever
And its so frustrating
Like I genuinely cannot interact with people online without thinking im abouta get slimed out
π
But at the same time
ive meet pretty nice people here!!!
MET*
met*
although some of them
no
most of them
wait
let me rephrase this
I've met some pretty nice people here
but
ive stopped talking to most of them
β
Like either we kinda just forgot to text each othwr
or things happened
or etc
I wish I would've spoken more to some people I met here
because honestly I kinda stopped replying to people like
A good 4 or 5 months ago
I got really busy with school
and my social battery done got drained within a single 10 minutes of texting
Off topic but I keep doing the checking dms method
its embarrassing
like I just keep doing the method
but I know this birdie isnt gonna hop online
π« π« π« π« π« π« π«
im such a loser
πΏ
I wish things would go back to how they were
I keep saying this but I truly mean it. I wish things would go back to the way they were.??? Last summer was perfect on everything I love. I was always on discord, calling my friends, playing roblox, and constantly texting the same 3 people.
I was having so much fun
I miss it so much
It will never be the same though
Never
Bond isnt the same
π« π« π«
different timezones
β β β
always busy now
β β β
But
I hope during the summer
things get better
Honestly
Im only wishing for one thing
and its for all the people
all the friends
I stopped talking to or stopped talking to me
we would all text together
and that limeey would reunite
and we could play together
And be in call
and just share every little update of our lives with each other
I was so outgoing back then
But now??
I'm just kinda a awkward chud
β β β
plus I think i was kinda prettier back then
β β β
Well
My skin was clear
lol!!
kinda
wait im lyinπ³
okay
but yeah
honestly
I've been just looking a hot mess lately
β
In the mirror I think i look okay
on camera
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I kinda stopped taking pictures after that
pictures of myself
face a hot mess and room a hot mess but I think im still tea lol who agrees..!
oh ok and the crowd says no oh ok lol I don eien cur..lol.!
sorry
im just talking to myslef
Ellie is very Ellie
sorry minor tweak fest
β
what
what
what
what's up guys π³ β
the crowds goes silent and starts throwing tomatoes at me oh ok lol..
JAUT
JUST
end
ME
I accidentally put lotion on my hands
instead of like
the cleanser
I use
had to wash all that lotion off
just end me
ref
π«
Heh
lets just sayy
Im a changed person...
π³ β
Letd just say
I've been on minecraft
ok
can a girl not game... π³ π³
okay
to anyone reading my journal
i hope you guys know im joking when I act like
this
please dont think im weird
π³ π β
ok
tried to convince my sister too
toooo
cover the camera in my room
cuz I gotta change
she said no
Andd
me being the pop rising star artist I am
π³ β
I sang a little for her
sung
sang
wait I think im making up words now
π³
Ignore that
but I decided to sing for her
a lil
I was singing Happier
"So ill goooo.. Ill gooOoOoo... ill gooo.. gooo.. goo.."
And she said
shes gonna goo after that
so um
YEAH
yeah
she didnt cover the camera..Lol.. don eien cur
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I think this is why people dont talk to me
I think im a outcast
wait im lyin
I AM a outcast
but honestly fuh those popular girls β
Apart from violet
π
π
π
I might be a chud
wait
im lyin
I am a chud
π³
lol.-
l-lol..
but im gonna embrace it
anddd
eat pizza
π³ π€€
Whoever reads this
please think im cool lol.!-
321 and the next Sabrina carpenter is back lol
the crowd goes wild
π³
My dad said im a fat chud and need to lay off the pizza so
im lyin

but pizza is for in fact later..
So
no pizza for me
yet..
I've also been reading people's journals
love tjem.!.
wh-wh-wh-wh-wh-
what's up
π³
never got to say this here
but genuinely
this guy
I HATE SM BTW
tried pressing hector
like
EVERYTHING WAS FINE
HECTOR WAS WITH HIS FRIEND
AND HIS FRIENDS GF
LILE THEY WERE ALL THERE
HAVING FUN
then this guy that everyone calls meatball
JUST PULLS UP
rolls on over there
AND STARTE CALLING HECTOR ALL THESE CURSE WORDS
AND SAID HE ALWAYS GOTTA RUIN SHIT
no correlation btw
cuz wth did hector do
like im confuzzled
π
and hector calls him
a fatass
sorry for my language..!
but he calls him that
and the guy gets mad
and tries to press him
Mind you hes twice hectors size
and im not talking about height
im talking about width
If i was hector I wouldve just taken that beaten
but no
HECTOR
gets up in his face
cuz the guy was getting up in his face
so hector does it bacj
they about to throw hands i guess
teacher comes in
slimes both of them out
And then during soccer practice the guy keeps stroking hectors neck
who is you π
MY boyfriend btw
like genuinely who is youπ
and hector keeps telling him to stop but no
he just keeps stroking and rubbing his neck
like
buddy
get your hands off him
GET YOUR HANDS OFF MY DAIGHTER
DAUGHTER
get it
anyone?
no?
ok lol..
I wanna send my reference
but I cant
I THINK
kt has too many curse words
can I put a tw over this and call it a day
tw speed using strong language and crashing out π³
but yeah
why he stroking hectors neck
π
Ima start barking like a dog
that pizza is here
IM READY
IM READY
321 and the queen is signing off.. lol..
321
AND IM BACJ
im on the toilet
Genuinely
The cramps hurt so bad
I wanna cry
and its cramping the worst
where the sun dont shine
like
nena no
π³
I cant even poo
π«
I actually cannot imagine how bad it hurts to give birth
And thinking about the fact im gonna have to do it at one point in my life
π
Unless I choose not to have a baby!!
guess whos playing Minecraft
π³
WHO
WH-WHO WANTS TO SEE
MY MINECRAFT GAMEPLAY
"meee"
oh okay
Heh..
Said everyone btw..
These cramps are genuinely
getting worse
This actually isnt funny
im crying in the toiket
toilet
Someone save me
Okay I feel better now
I put this gel on my face
its for acne
hopefully it starts to work
my dermatologist
told me to rinse it off in the morning
so
will do!
321 andd lets just sayy
IM BACK
im on the toilet
high key
hurts
but thats okay
Had to thug it out!!!
whopps
sorry had to do something
321
AND IM BACJ
Whoops
HAD TO FEED KITTWN
but
kitten was fed.!!
now
I gotta brush my teeth
I washed whatever was remaining
ima put it back on like
at night
But now
ima brush my teeth
AND
comb my hair
ok hector hates me
BUT I FINISHED
COMBING MY HAIR
AND BRUSHING MY TEETH
sorry guys
im back
AGAIN
Just did the method on me
Im back
again
HELP
boy get off thatπ³
soo who wanna play Minecraft
"no one ugly poo"
oh ok...
Kitten was such a booger
oh ok
cuz im a minor
but yeah lets just ignore that I guess
I guess buddy
abyways
sorry
minor crash out
Minor.
Get ut
ok
someone take roblox away from them
sorry
had to take care of business..
Heh
Pretty funny
Im gonna go out
to get bread
with my mommy
I always try my hardest to try and go out
so
heh
now is the perfect chance.!
OKAY
I WENT OUT
But
I am back now
guess whos gonna edit their airbuds profile lol..
ME
I got put on it
like
months ago
and now
lets just saayyy..
ive been using it lately
π³ β
slushyslushy π³
The guy no one invited
waitπ³
Genuinely the best song in the movie
does this make me a larper
Started doing my dance
HELP
Which character are you
the one you hit during math
im probably the guy no one invited
Maybe not....
The pet bunny
I feel like you'd be a mix of both of those
i think id be the main guy because id try and be cool
then get slimed out for it
caught lacking
I'mma force you to dance
Hey atleast he can sing
Then I actually do start hitting a jig
YES
idk why everyone was laughing at him in the first clip where he was changing his voice
thats so real
Id do that when I was forced to play alone with my dolls
had to do the boys voices too
Sorry
lil trauma dump π³
I wa scared that's actually his singing voice
Thankfully not
He sounds good tho when he actually sings
I kicked all the boys out
Genuinely who did this
Had a shirt with this on it
The guy no one invited
I liked his lil blond streak
Oh yeah
And when mr Murphy called the girls out for laughing
They keep getting me for this
Genuinely made me clap for Mr murphy
wait ling mention π³
Ling the king
This is why hes my favorite teacher
Flew with his wings
bars wait π³
He gone now
Gonna ban me after the math test an the presentation πβοΈ
Bro I'm tearing up
I genuinely have no idea what to do for the slides
and my ass ain't studying regardless
dude
the method
wajt i frogt the method
HELP
I'm start messaging Mr cordara
Hes gonna come back from the trip and just straight up beat you
Wait
The method
its coming back to me..
Oh!....
Baby idk how to answer that damn key question
next skide
slide
you connect it to the key question
Then
Boom
You use it to answer the key question
MY MESAGE
ITS NOT SENDING
OH mvm lol
nvm
π³

wait put me on the micπ
Mic drop
Uhh mic testinf?
do you guys hear me?
Do you hear me?
Do you hear me or see me?
k nvm..
lol donr cr..
Ms I don't wanna burst your bubble but your screen is glitching or whateva....
Wait
Forgot the lyrics
Riddle of the model
π³
Gonna spam it till I ruin the song
Dude
Genuinely
Hace u been on adopt me
recently
My fatass missed the admin abuse today
Like after sugar fest I genuinely dipped
π₯Ή
nothing happened in the admin abuse
Rlly??
Yeah
Me too

Im so excited to watch them present on monday
π³
Then we kill the vibe and get asked to leave the function
Bro they are genuinely gonna throw tomatoes at us
Stop looking into the future
π³
Bri I'm gonna tear up when it our turn
Get your momma to pick you up early
We were both stuttering
Shss gonna say no and call me fat
Just like that lady on Jay guapos live
Huh....
π«©
HELP
Wait why's min small
Boii get outta here....
Try not to feel maternal towards me...!! π₯Ή
This is why we are not invited
Do we have to think about this one...
Music turns off when we walk in
Answer is obvious
Is the sky blue??
Baby I'm eating rn
Wait we are fat...
π
ATE that
saying it like if we just realized it
π
Baby we been knowing we big
Wait its time to eat
π³
Daddy just said its time to feast π³
321
And im outta here
321 queen signing off π³ π
sorry
hey..!!
im so tired
My leg hurts so much
but they still got me going to church so ok...
Anyways
Dude
This volleyball game i discovered
Just yesterday
Omg
new favorite game
im such a chud though
I hate volleyball irl
Hes on my bed
Hes purring in his sleep.!.!
Hes the cutest little guy ever
But my blanket is wet
Because he keeps sucking on it while he makes biscuits
And my mommy hates when he does that
so hopefully she doesnt notice the wet spot on my blanket..!
okay hes drooling
I was watching a video I took
WHILE
playing this
!!!
im genuinely just pooping words out
like
im turning into rakai
Ok im still laying im bed
Time to get up ig..
okay im finally in the bathroom
I look
like the
Hottest mess
π³ β
This isnt ok
ok cuz
Who likes my profile
π³
OKAY
So I was playing the volleyball roblox game
With my sister and her friend
We tied
Omg
WE LOCKED IN LAST SECONDS
then they done aced on hs
us
just end me
26-24
oh ok
cuz
Just end me
π
Ok nvm dont end me
took a good look in the mirror
why am I kinda tea lol..!
wait im kinda tea
π³ β π«
Ok im eating now
lol..!
Olah
Okah
SO
that tmr
test*..
Gotta study last second
and
im abouta shower
I WANTED MY MOM TO GO DO LAUNDRY
so I could go with her
help her
and have clothes for tmr..
but she decided not to go ...
and I genuinely have ZERO pants to wear
Like I only have shorts
but those shorts are for me to wear at home
NOT out
But its gonna be sunny tmr.!.
so who knows
She said she would look for these gray pants she bought me a while ago
Hopefully she fins them..!
cuz I never got them from her
and those pants might be my last hope..
Okay
im shwoering rn
Honestly
Its so crazy to think so much could've happened under a year
heh
Had to rephrase that
But so much has changed
I never want to look back at screenshots
pictures on my phone
videos
messages
stories
and remember that was all a year ago
Why?
Because thaf means all of that is just the past now and I cant go back to change anything
A year??
That's way too long
I cant change anytging after a year..!
If it was just 2
OR 3 months
things could've been different by now
Who knows maybe I could've been on call with some old friends right now
or playing with some people
or
idk
But no
8 months have passed
too late
a year has passed
too LATE
2 years have passed since I last talked to a birdie
basically one
but either way
its too late
too late to change anything
so now
Each day that passes by
its just a reminder that its too late to change things
to go back to the way things once were
to take back whatever I said
What i said 2 years ago
or what i could've said all those months ago
All those years ago
π
This is not okay
I hope you know I still use your references
all those pictures you sent me
they are still saved
All those voice messages
i recorded just to listen to whenever I tweak
All the nicknames you gave me π
This is NOT okay dude
I still stalk ur tiktok lol..!
and your friends insta
Just to see you in the background lol..!
Im such a jealous person
π
sorry
minor crash out
body tea though
β
Hi lol..!
This aint funny
Dude
It should've been 44/45
NOT
44/100
This is embarrassing
Holy method omg @granite gull
Im reaching a flow state
Wait
π³
Wait lock in season
β
This but instead of no its says
"YES
100%"
π³
FLOW STATE
HOLY FLOW STATE
okay
im almost done with my brainstorming
lol..!
with my
ideas for each slide
My main concerns rn:
might be too many words on each slides..
im probably gonna forget half the things im writing..
anddd
im definitely gonna take too long working on the slides
dad just called me sexy π€¦ββοΈ
just end me bri
bro
π
im not exactly seeing much work doneee..
like what happened to that game plannn...π ..!!!!
IM ALSO SHOWERING RN
so
once I get out
in gonna start working on my slides
becauseee
I finished all the rough drafts
of
what my slides about to look like
andddd
lets just sayy
Its gonna be pretty epic...
π³
I cant believe its gonna be my birthday soon...!!!
For my birthday
I told my parents I wanted a credit card..
and they were actually considering it
cuz my sisters all got their credit cards on their birthday
LIKE
16th birthday
or smth
I FORGT
but
they might give it to me early because im responsible with my money

But I told them if they weren't gonna get me a credit card
I want one of these
I asked my mom if she would get it for me
she said YES!!
And I told my sister
i wanted a pack of this
In case she felt like being nice
although its really expensive
I went to a yemen deli or smth
like that..
and
6 bucks
π€¦ββοΈ
And at the deli near my house
its like 5 bucks
its just 4+ in all the stores ig
π
I also said I wanted a baby doll
but they probably ain't bouta get me that
why??
because I have 7
β
also hopefully they buy me
clothes
that id actually wear
or maybe
something txt related lol.!.!
But if not
thats okay
I really want this though
π€€
or robux
I wanna cosplay
shopkins
okay im too old for this
π
nvm
life is awesome
321 and im back!!
Okay
I finished showering
nowww
im putting my gel on
my face
β
After im dine
done**
..π³
sorry
AFTER IM DINE
DONE
π
AFTER IM DONE
IM GOING TO DO MY SLIDES!!!!
try and work on other science slides too..
Okay
the laptop wasn't charged
π€¦ββοΈ
now its charging..
But i gotta wait for it to be at like
at least
30%
Hopefully it charges fast enough
π
I put it to chargr
I check on it
why was it not charging
in getting mad
my routine is getting messed upπ
Im so pissed
this isnt funny
Genuinely im struggling with images
Just end me broo
Im so done
im not doing this
i dont care anymore
fuh thisπ
These images are pissing my off soo much
how am I supposed to remove that stupid background
im done
and my presentation NEEDS these images
so desperately
because the rest wont make sense
im so done
this aint funny
i hate school
I HATE GOOGLE SLIDES
