#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!

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spark river
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ima start crying all over again

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I missed ypu

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i missed mellay

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I miss everything

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NOTHING IS GOING MY WAY

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Texted him earlier

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Just as I was starting to cry he literally went offline HamsterStare

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so thats the last time I vent to him

nimble heron
nimble heron
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im not sure whats the story behind you and him ellay but it seems complicated

spark river
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I CANT DO THIS

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omg

spark river
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I just hate this so much

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I dont wanna be here anymore

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I hate being home

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I want to be at school

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With melanie

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I hate this

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I genuinely hate this

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My dad is making me cry

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My mom is making me cry

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Ulises is pissing me off so much

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I still think about all my old friends

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Im so anxious

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I HATE seeing couples

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It reminds me of how lonely I am

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And how im too scared to grow up and date

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I feel like most people just dont listen to me

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Mel and ling do

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But

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well jessy too

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But only those three

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I wish Kimberly would text me

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I wish Anderson saw me differently

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I wish Melanie was holding my hand

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I wish so many things

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This all sucks

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I dont know what id do if my parents split

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Yeah well I texted him and when he went offline I said I gtg

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lost aura

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Did I say that??

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I dont remember

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ima tweak

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Im tired of all of this

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I just want to cry

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I just want my mom and dad to be nice to each other

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I wish I never met any of these guys

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ulises

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kevin

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harry

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yanni

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this sucks

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But yeah

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life sucks

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ok

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but I gotta be positive

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so time to be positive

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🙁

nimble heron
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It’s all good PeepoHeart

spark river
nimble heron
# spark river It reminds me of how lonely I am

That’s how I feel as well Ellie, but dating isn’t an answer to curing loneliness. Having a partner can sometimes make you feel even lonelier if you choose the wrong person.
Friends are a way to make you feel less lonely, you got mel, me and other people. If you’re not ready to date, there are always other types of relationships for you to focus on. Get closer to your buddies, your friends, sibling.
Don’t force yourself to date if you’re scared to date! It comes naturally over time and love often hits you when you least expect it. It’s good to start living a positive mindset and start loving yourself and doing the things you love and give yourself meaning and purpose.

nimble heron
spark river
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LING

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your right

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you guys are all i need

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you

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mel

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jessy

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my friends

spark river
nimble heron
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its still good to make new connections and treasure those u already have

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btw

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HamsterStare wait i forgot

spark river
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Heh

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HEPP

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HELP

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Rhis made me giggle

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Heh

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Ily guys 🥺

nimble heron
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no homo gang, lyt

spark river
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I sent all those voice messages under like

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40 minutes or something

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Under 20

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HELP

nimble heron
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hamster did u put yourself on 2x speed

spark river
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HEPP YES

nimble heron
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guysss ellay

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i found a fav song

spark river
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my boogies were loud

nimble heron
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gethsemane but sleep token

spark river
nimble heron
spark river
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Heh

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Im listening to it right NEOWW

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is it this beauty

spark river
nimble heron
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i love the later parts of the song

nimble heron
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it sounds funny when i call u ellay

spark river
spark river
spark river
spark river
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I was just getting boogies because I was crying

spark river
nimble heron
nimble heron
spark river
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I moved on pretty quickly

spark river
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Heh

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Lingo bingo..

nimble heron
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guiys

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rfoblox is full of brain rot

spark river
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It is..

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guys

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ima scream

nimble heron
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wat happen

spark river
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Nothing heh

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HELP

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mel i miss you

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I wanna give you the fattest kiss ever

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One like in the video

nimble heron
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i had a toy like that before too but a dog

spark river
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Heh

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Bed time

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I love you guys

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Goodnight

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😕

nimble heron
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Goodnight ellieee!!

granite gull
spark river
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Heh

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I dont feel good at all

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I hate everything right now

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But I hope this shower makes me happy

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After this

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I might to my friends

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because I love when they give me attention

spark river
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Just finished

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This still just sucks

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My skin isn't clear

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Bunpy

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BUMPY

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disgusting

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I hate this

spark river
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I want to rant

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But im not sure of what

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We were alright just a while ago

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my parents are arguing again

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Today I had a very nice dream

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Heh

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but it was weird

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i was in some sort of competition

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Or something like that

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And we were out in a huge huge park

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It was empty

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No hills

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No trees

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Just a flat area with all grass

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And it seemed like a large campsite because other contestants were there hanging out with each other

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And I was in this long tent

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Like a rectangular shaped tent

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And the front was entirely opened

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And I was with two other people

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I was with this guy

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And this other person

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I think it was a girk

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girl*

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And there was this huge screen above us

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well

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In front of the entire park

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It was massive

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And it would show each contestant

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And then it showed me

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And on the screen it captured all 3 of us

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And this guy wrapped his arm around my shoulder

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So I wrapped my arm around the girl so that all three of us were together holding each other

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And I swear it felt like I was genuinely being held rooHurt

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And like if i was also holding someone

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For the rest of the competition thingy

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We had these stations of white tents where we would have to go from stations to stations

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And I remember Melanie was there i think

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Or it was the guy

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And they were writing in this book

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About all their struggles and who they hate

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Amd i warned them to not because then the lady who was basically hosting this whole competition, would make them read it out loud and everyone would turn against them

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And then idk what happened but I was sitting up top on this really really high area

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Watching them compete under me

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And I was just staring at the people I was with earlier

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And then I think I won the competition or smth HamsterStare

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And they let me off with a duck

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like

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it looked exactly like the little cute duck I bought my sister for her birthday

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And they told me

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I can control it

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WELL

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it has a on and off button

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And when I turn it on, it comes to life

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But when I turn it off

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Its just still

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Like the unicorn I showed earlier

spark river
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And I had the duck on

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And I was just kissing it and hugging it

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And it was so cute

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And when I got home

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I tried turning it on

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And it wouldn't work

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The duck refused to come back to life

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And then I woke up

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It was nice though

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To be held

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And to hold someone

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and to give affection to the duck

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But now im awake

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And I dont want to be

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ok

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it feels like everyone is leaving me

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Im so tired of trying to see the good side in everything

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Im so tired of being afraid to use names

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I feel so lost

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I dont feel pretty anymore

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I dont want to eat anymore

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I just want to keep sleeping

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I want to cut my hair off

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I hate wearing clothes because of how disgusting my skin is

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I hate having wet hair

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I hate being itchy

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I hate eczema

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I hate all the pain I cause myself

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I hate that I cannot be honest

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I hate bothering everyone to play with me

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I hate being annoying

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im just so lost i want someone's attention

spark river
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I dont think you guys understand how happy vanilla makes me hamster

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mama

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OK

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guys

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Its time to lock in

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I had my second to cry

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Um

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"I wish I wish I wish..!"

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But

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Im just rotting in bed and being a lazy poo and not doing anything to make those wishes come TRUE

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Yk what will make me feel better

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Washing my face, brushing my teeth, and brushing my hair

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Maybe even changing my clothes

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So let's do that

real heath
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h

spark river
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h to you too ! rooSmush

spark river
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BRO

spark river
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Alright buddy

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BRO IM SO BUNS IN FORESAKEN

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Well

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BECAUSE IM PLAYING AS GUEST NOW

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AND I WAS SO GOATED AS TAPH

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elliot

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um

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I had shitty aim

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BUT AS GUEST IM SO GOATED

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welk

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no im not

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HELP

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its just that

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When im about to block

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I block

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And they wait for my block to go away

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HEPP

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HELP

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THEN THEY JUMP ME

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STOPP

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AND IN ORDER TO GET PUNCH

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I GOTTA GET THEM TO HIT MY WHEN IM BLOCKING

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AUGH

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IM SO BUNS

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IM GONNA CRY

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Ok

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Ima play as shed

spark river
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okay

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my sister pissing me off

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WE WERE PLAYING

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AND THEN

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I WAS BLOCKING SO THAT SHE COULD HIT MET

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ME*

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and she hits me the second block goes away

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buddy

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she was too busy with these other ppl smh

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And then got mad at me when I did punch??

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Like what

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You gotta block

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Then get hit while blocking

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TO get punch

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Everyone's pissing me off

spark river
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Im not texting him

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You do not wake up at 2

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Buddy

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Unless your going to bed extremely late

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Then idek

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but bro

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I hate this

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I just want ling to wake up

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In fact

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I just wanna delete discord

spark river
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I keep dying in all the games I play

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I hate THIS

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Only game I dont die in

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Priv server btwcHamsterStare

spark river
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Guys

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I FEEL MUCH BETTER

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FELL asleep

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And woke up

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And decided

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I miss mel

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SO I recorded all my gameplay

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To show her

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SO now I gotta cut it up

spark river
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Just finished showering

spark river
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Watching vanilla right now...

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ALSK

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I woke up at 4

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Well

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I was awake since 12

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Heh

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But yeah

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I was crying and everything heh

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AND

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For 10 minutes I was debating whether I should sneak my phone and run to mel

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And ling

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And

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Around 4

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I finally did it

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HELP?

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But yeah

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HELP

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I ran to ling and mel

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And

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Mel stayed with me

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Then limg came

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And we were all talking heh

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And it was very fun

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I went from crying to happy

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And around 5 I finally fell asleep

spark river
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okay guys im done cleaning

spark river
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JOIMED RIGHT ON TUME

spark river
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I had a dream of Anderson

spark river
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I gotta play foresaken with hector

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🥀

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I hope he knows that ima target him

spark river
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hes lowkey cool

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ghost

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hes kinda goated

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Like he just started playing

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By hes not missing those hits

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but**

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AND HE WAS HATING ON THE GAME EARLIER

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but now that we played he likes it

spark river
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my GOATTT

spark river
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Heh

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Im freakin

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EATING

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Rn

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So good

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heh

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oh

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um

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I sold

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so badly

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ok

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if only I was there

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20 minutes ago

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ok

granite gull
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Vro get out is that my beautiful Haruhi..?

summer sinew
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YESSS

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OMG

granite gull
summer sinew
spark river
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I love you guys

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Admire

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HELP

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🥺 **

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I wanna give each of you guys a little welcome kiss

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when I get to school

spark river
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augh

nimble heron
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What the sigma

spark river
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Strike me down atp because why are there 12 blankets on my bed

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trash that came from my sisters bed

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Her food crumbs

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and her clothes

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Shes the reason im always itchy

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Ima jump

spark river
spark river
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While my sister was on her call I was on my grind

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Heh

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Full set of iron now

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And i will be expanding my room

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but for now!!!

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I MUST

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put my phone to charge

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heh

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ily mellay rooSmush ❤️

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Need more storage for my videos

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!!!

spark river
spark river
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im still looking at this

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absolutely ADORABLE!!!

spark river
spark river
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bedtimw!!

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Gn!!

spark river
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I love mandy

spark river
wooden sable
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What even was that

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WAIT

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I gotta show you my friend getting slimed

spark river
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@granite gull

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Heh

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Why was i lowkey quick with it..!

granite gull
spark river
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HELP

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heh

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would you olay with me...:/...a

wooden sable
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Guy's

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DON'T play with this lady

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She lowk said

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Uh

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Wait I'm looking for something

spark river
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um let's tell this guy to shut his mouth

wooden sable
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No

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NO

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That's it

spark river
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praying you get banned

wooden sable
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I'm sleeping in

spark river
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sorry must've been the wind...

wooden sable
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DON'T wish bad on me

spark river
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yeah and then you run to me whining 😒

wooden sable
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Understandably

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You can talk and I can't

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(When I'm muted)

spark river
spark river
spark river
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I watched Sebastian get his shit rocked

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Never been this happy

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🩷

spark river
spark river
spark river
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I feel like im going crazy

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im going through my screen recordings

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And like

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a good 70% of them are just me

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playing alone

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and speaking to myself

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and pretending mel or someone is there watching

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making jokes

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and referencing things

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like

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wow

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im here recording

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alone

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playing alone

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and talking to myself

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And my mom watched me do it a couple times

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um

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guys

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im losing aura

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Im going to play by myself again and record

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because even though im alone

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its kinda fun heh

spark river
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I didnt think just a singular word could make me so happy and emotional rooHurt

wooden sable
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She stole my 32 diamonds

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How sad

spark river
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I didnt

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im borrowing them

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Like how he did with my armor

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And wood

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And berries

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and other resources

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must've been the wind

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Heh

wooden sable
wooden sable
wooden sable
wooden sable
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Everything I did was to help

spark river
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ok

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um

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guys

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since im a great person

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im going to give it back

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🥺

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Giving 32 diamonds to the homeless! emotional 🩵

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giving back to the ones in need 🩵

wooden sable
spark river
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Heh

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OK

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everyone wants me dead

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I was trying to moisturize my face

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With this awesome lotion

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um

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why is it so high up

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WHAT

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oh hell yeahhhrooSmush

spark river
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YUUUUMMMMMMEEEEEE

wooden sable
spark river
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guys his house is so tuff

wooden sable
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My house is indeed tuff

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That is my finishing dock though not my house

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Bc my house isn't finished

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It's gonna be

spark river
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guys what the hecj!

wooden sable
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A 4 layer tower

wooden sable
spark river
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no it was oms

wooden sable
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Oh mb

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Anyways

spark river
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I witerwee don even careyh :/....

wooden sable
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Second will be enchantment or

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Smelting

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And the third will be the one I don't pick

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And the final one will be my personal room

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Wait

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I'm making it five layers

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One layer will be a farm

spark river
wooden sable
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It'll be so friggin tuff yo

spark river
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guy

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juju i gotta tell yoy a secret...

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its huggee

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put your listening ears ib

wooden sable
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Yes?

spark river
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Remember how you said your dogs died

wooden sable
# spark river

Guys. After a little bit of rereading I would like to say, I DID NOT ALMOST C** WHILE MAKING TICS HOLE WEAK

wooden sable
spark river
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anywyas

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HELPP

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I WMGOT A WARNUNG

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um

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lets ignore that

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my apologies

wooden sable
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What

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Why'd you get a warning

spark river
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remember how your dogs randomly spawned to you

wooden sable
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Yes

spark river
wooden sable
spark river
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hah

wooden sable
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Because they thought I did something wrong

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When I didn't

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I'll call a mod and say you're bullying me

spark river
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🙄

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what

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ok

wooden sable
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Knowing them they'll ban you for 7 months

spark river
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says the guy that made that weird comment

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Heh

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Exactly vro

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gottem

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gottem good!

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anwyays

wooden sable
spark river
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yes u did

wooden sable
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That was a misplaced comment

spark river
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😕

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no you knew what you were doing your freakin guy

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you*

wooden sable
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It had zero correlation to what you said

spark river
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correlation..!.

wooden sable
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I didn't even realize WHAT YOU SAID UNTIL YOU SENT THE VIDEO

spark river
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😭 🥀

spark river
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OK

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ok

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ok...

spark river
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because you hurt them

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they told me

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😕 💔

wooden sable
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No

spark river
wooden sable
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I was a absent father

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How could I hurt them

spark river
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HELP

wooden sable
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YOU TOOK THE LEADS

spark river
wooden sable
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You fatass

spark river
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and their tails were kow

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MODS

wooden sable
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NO NO NO

spark river
wooden sable
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THAT WASN'T ME

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I DIDN'T MEAN IT

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The evil side

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SUKUNA

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Sukuna said that.

spark river
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vro u r the evil side

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🥀

spark river
spark river
wooden sable
wooden sable
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I NEED THEM

spark river
wooden sable
spark river
wooden sable
spark river
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Maya the bee told me your a big piece of poo

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bigger than Katie's poo

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GOTTEM

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HELPP

wooden sable
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They were low from fighting in the night

spark river
wooden sable
wooden sable
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I forgot I had them

spark river
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Kk

spark river
wooden sable
spark river
wooden sable
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I'm building my house

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They'll get a room

spark river
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And taking them on walks

spark river
wooden sable
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You can do that

spark river
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WHAT

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ok

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ok

wooden sable
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I'm making the place WE're gonna live

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I'll make to make the Jujutower 6 floors now

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Y'know

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If you help

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I'll get armor

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For the dogs

spark river
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so what im hearing is that I can take care of your babies and I gotta freakin give you a bunch of supplies but you cant freakin even give me food for the freakin dogs

spark river
wooden sable
spark river
wooden sable
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I literally

spark river
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and pay freakin rent

wooden sable
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Bummed off you

spark river
wooden sable
spark river
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NO

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WDYM

wooden sable
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I GAVE YOU HALF MY DIAMONDS

spark river
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YOU TOLD ME I GOTTA PAY RENT

spark river
wooden sable
spark river
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thats not called paying rent

wooden sable
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Like bees

spark river
wooden sable
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LISTEN

spark river
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bees?

wooden sable
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LISTEN

spark river
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no

wooden sable
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You don't gotta pay rent

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You can stay in jujutower for free

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Just don't let the animals die

spark river
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including my dogs cats and bees

wooden sable
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That's all I want

spark river
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??

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Heh

wooden sable
spark river
spark river
wooden sable
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They'll get a place inside but idk how tf they're gonna fit

spark river
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WHAT

wooden sable
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You have

spark river
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they wikl fit

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🙁

wooden sable
wooden sable
spark river
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ok so

wooden sable
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Fine

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8 floors

spark river
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fine

wooden sable
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1 for storagw

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1 for smelting

spark river
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storagw

wooden sable
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1 for enchanting

spark river
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1 gym

wooden sable
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1 for the animals

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1 for me

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1 for ypu

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Yo

spark river
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HELP

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im so funy

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funny

wooden sable
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I'ma kms

wooden sable
spark river
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HELP

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sorry

wooden sable
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Sure

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You build it

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Ok

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This is a lot of talk and not

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Me in the server

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Building

spark river
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anyways

wooden sable
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While I'm building everything else 💔

spark river
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Like the cafeteria or what

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all you can eat

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Anyways

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HELP

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I gotta help my dad

wooden sable
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Kk

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You should

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Open the server afterwards

spark river
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I will

spark river
wooden sable
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I mean

spark river
wooden sable
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Ight

wooden sable
spark river
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not opening the servers

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OK IM NOT PLAYING WITH YOU ANYMORE BECAUSE OF THAT

wooden sable
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NO

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NO

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NO

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I spent

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240+ minutes

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In that server

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That's like

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6 hours

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I just walked my dog Katie'

spark river
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guys im back

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and my papa hurt his knee while setting my dresser down on the ground

spark river
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☺️

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shes so cute I need her

spark river
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ling

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heh

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Ling mentioned?,,

wooden sable
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I was going to jwalk to the store but the police are in the traffic

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How lame

wooden sable
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800/60

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13+ hour

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Hours

wooden sable
spark river
wooden sable
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Im j-walking

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Wait

spark river
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arrest him

wooden sable
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Hey

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Hey

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I'm already black

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My mom brought food home

spark river
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Interesting

spark river
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guys its okay skin doesnt matter #love!!!

wooden sable
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It's 3.

spark river
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In ginna eat rn

wooden sable
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WTF

spark river
wooden sable
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NL

spark river
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well

wooden sable
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Are your pants on fire?

spark river
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No that was breajfast

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im so sneakt

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sneaky

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I gotta put my phone away though bc im at the table

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Heh

spark river
spark river
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my huzz

wooden sable
wooden sable
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Ur cooked lil bro

wooden sable
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Tasty

spark river
wooden sable
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YOU didn't even tell me you were done eating

spark river
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I talk about it all the time

spark river
wooden sable
#

I've been pissing 7 year olds off on Roblox this entire time

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I need to make Jujutower

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Oh

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Are you staying in it?

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I forgot

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And don't wanna scroll

spark river
wooden sable
spark river
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She died

wooden sable
#

Rizzlante Tic

wooden sable
spark river
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I gyatta call her neow

wooden sable
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Darnit

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I gotta wait even longer

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Ok

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Have fun

spark river
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SHE WAITED A GOOD 6 HOURS

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I think you'll be fine...

spark river
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gang im gonna play until like 5:30 and thne maybe if your still alive and if my phone still got battery

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then ill play with ypu

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trust

spark river
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She saved us...

granite gull
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I use to be obsessed with that game

spark river
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ME TOO

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Heh

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But now im lowkey buns

wooden sable
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But she waited longer

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So I can wait

wooden sable
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OH YEAH

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IMABATUKAM

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OH YEAH

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Got a .4% drop

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OH YEAH

spark river
wooden sable
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Sorry I was excited

spark river
#

Oh

wooden sable
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So

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You still playing Roblox

spark river
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Cod

wooden sable
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Fish

spark river
#

no

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call of duty

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You oo

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Poo

wooden sable
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Oo

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I hope the cod lobbies call you nice

spark river
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im playing

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zombies

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with huzz

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gang im done playing

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Heh

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Rage quitting is awesome

spark river
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lmk

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☺️

wooden sable
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I am alive

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Let's mine then craft

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Minecraft.

spark river
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PK

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OK

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lets freakin play

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Heg

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Heh*

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@wooden sable JOIN ME YOU POO

wooden sable
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SORRY

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I coming rn

spark river
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heh

spark river
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I KOVEE

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chiikawa

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so muchh

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and my elf baby

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my sweet little precious baby

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shes coming home to me

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Im so happy I can cry

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Shes going with my calicos

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They are all chanting

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"come home come home!"

spark river
granite gull
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Take a picture it’ll last longerHamsterStare

spark river
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OH?

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guess who solved vros bee problem

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meee !!

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Gangs house lowkey tuff..

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Holy tuff

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When we hit day 100

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So tuff

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I miss my sisters

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I need them to get on the game and play with me toooo

nimble heron
wooden sable
wooden sable
wooden sable
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To my dock

wooden sable
spark river
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and melly

nimble heron
nimble heron
wooden sable
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Salutations

nimble heron
spark river
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I PLAYED FHE CHUCKY CHEESE NIGHT SHIFT GAME YESTERDAY

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THE SAME ONE I PLAYED WITH YOU AND MELLAY

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She died first...

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🥀

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Guys

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My elf baby is coming

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Freakin

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TODAY

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IM SO HAPPY

wooden sable
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How's the morning treating you?

nimble heron
nimble heron
spark river
nimble heron
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THE GAME IS REALLY HARD FOR SUM REASON

spark river
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EXACTLYYY LMAO

wooden sable
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Great to see

wooden sable
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Dude

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I lowk almost shat my pants playing that game with my friends

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One of us were outside distracting the animatronics bc we ran out of power

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Then we got the final night

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And lost the second the final guy came out

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He was like really fast or something

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Apparently there's a second game so I plan on playing it with my friends when I get home

spark river
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I PLAYED WITH MEL AND LING

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Sadly I deleted my ss

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MELS SCREENSHOTS

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THEY GOT TO LING STOPPP

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"why am I so short!"..

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ling your crawling..💜

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LMAO

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AND THE BUM CRACK INCIDENT