#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!
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Yeah so uh idk what went through Ashley's mind at the momentโ๏ธ
WOAH WHAT



Ima tweak
This heat is getting me mad
ima get violent
and jump on top of my sister
Breaking all her bones ๐ฅ
ok idgaf
im taking off this dress
if my papa comes home
ima just
hm
ima start whooping him with my dress
Whatโs the temp there in Celsius?
Violence is always the answer ๐

hi mama
Helllooooeoelleoโ๏ธโ๏ธ
harrowm.!
Um
My fatass
omg how do yoy spell deicseded
Decised
decided
decided
To bring my pgoen
phone
to the bathroom
but bro
My sister and mom outside in the kitchen
I dont have anything to hide my phone in
atp
its going in my bra
Idgaf if it looks like I got a tumor
IMA SYSRT CRYING MY DAD JUST GOT HOME STOP
I had to be smart
I put my phone in the box of baby wipes and took the baby wipes to my room
CALL ME SMART
You are smart Ellie
Heh
Guys
Woke up
To it being so cold
But like
I woke up around 6 maybe
And it was so cold
So I covered myself with my blankets and babies 
Turns out
While we were asleep
My papa put on the air conditioner
BECAUSE
Wheb he got home
My sister and I were lowkey not wearing much ๐
So he decided to put the ac on
Heh
IM SO HAPPPYYYY
I've been
Like
Waking up more late
Which is something im happy about
Anddd
I've been going out
A lot more!
Which im ALSO happy about
heh
And I still have my finch streak

W papa on that
YESSS
donโt they give u freedom to use ac there Ellie
Wdym poopie 
ok
what if I start tweakinguh
#switchedroles
He probably lost interest after 2023
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But im still pondering about it
If he really did
Then
Why is he always looking at me
or like
going near me and my friends

um
im also thinking about texting kat
and jizelle
cuz
kat just ended things with me
but she was not being a bitcoin about it
and
lowkey
I keep thinking about her
why?
CUZ
I keep thinking about the way she gets treated at home
And how shes always crying at school
Like no offense
But she is pretty dramatic
but im still worried about her
Jizelle
Was funny
And stupid
And she teased me
And I teased her too
She would play anything with me
And her brother would always show me his soccer and boxing skills
It was so cute
On top of that
She was freaky
In a funny way
I miss her
And I know my melly misses Kelly and kay
yeah
I remember when j was crying
Like
I came down to lunch with my red eyes
Ashley told me that jizelle wanted a 2nd chance with me
But I never gave her a yes or no answer
Because I was just too busy crying
So maybe I still have a chance to give a answer
And
Tbh
I was gonna text her last week
But then I remembered
Maddy is friends with her๐
No
I don't feel like re downloading snapchat
She's str@ight now
Kinda
kinda
letting her true self out
Never seen mel getting nervous
I'm always nervous?????
Really
yeha
No
my dad decided to lay down with me so I started attacking him
THATS MY HAND GRABBING HIS HAIR
And no
I wasn't actually pulling his hair
cuz he my papa and I actually respect him ๐
Ima start tearing up
He jusf came inside and farted

I love coco sm
GOOD MONRJNG
Heh
What if I pull the trigger
My sisters dont love me and dont wanna play with me

heh
Lookie lookie
wanna play

banana eats..
Sure๐ผ๐ผ
I'm eating

Yes BUT I'm trying to work on THE CLIMBER COSPLAY BECAUSE.. yes
AND ALL I'm MISSING is the little hammer he carries
But oh well
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OKAY
its okay HUZZZ


is it edible
Definitely..
good
i am eating bro
My sisters covered my entire bed with towels cuz I took a ugly picture of my sister
a bit of blood !! #tw ๐
All because I loved her

Guys
Yk what
Should I just text Katherine
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I remembered the jokes we made in sx class or whateva it's called
HELP
Joked about fingering peoe
Yeah
We were so shocked at the fact we were gonna see toys that were prob used
HELPPP
Sure
Should I text her
If you wanna
Cuz im think about asking her how shes doing and stuff
Ain't she gon leave soon?
Okay
Alright
You're gonna wish her goodbye on her journey
Yes
OAKY
Goodnight prettys
Goodnight!!!
Heh
real one
actually said goodnight to me
Melanie is saur cute
"I got murder.."

I was eating coconut ice cream
Heh
OH MYYY GOOOODDDNEESSSS
MELLLL
yaur wiwer cutieuh
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@granite gull
Witerwee I sent you a gift heh
Yes
YAYAYAYAA

One thing I remember is when Genesis wanted to do my hair
She wanted to give me a slick back with edges

Ok nvm lock that puppy UP
HELPPP
SHE LOOKS SK SADDD
so
saur
bro
when I use "saur"
I think of felix


Bro I went to some store and saw a Korilakkuma plush
chan and fekix
DID U GET ITT
Why was that CUTE THING 34 DOLLARS?!?!?
IT WAS LIKE THE SIZY OF MY HAND
A SMALL THING FOR 34 DOLLARS
Nuh uh
I got that instead
oh ma sugas
THATS SITLL SO CUTE
guysh dih lowkey cringey 
Locked in so quickly ๐
Good morning guys
I like Felix wym
Godโs menu 
YAYAAYAY GOOD MORMING LINGGGYYY YAYAAYAY I MSISSED YOU YAYAGAYAAY ILY
I feel like the text makes it not so cool
MY KIMMY LOVES FELIX
HER BIAS IS FELIX I THINK
MINE IS JEONGIN
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Guys ive actually never been this happy
LING IS HOME
RAAAAHHH
and maybe me
Mel
Him
All three of us
will be able to play soon
IMAAAA GGRAAH
Holy moly
Mel
Tomorrow
Limeey is all im bouta talk about
DONT PKAY
Friday is going to be the best day ever
Im gonna start crying
RAAHAH
HELP E
Heh
Holy koly
This day is getting better
Wajt
I gotta list off all the good thingd
- LING TEXTED IN OUR GC
- MEL ALSO TEXTED
- MATT MY PRECIOUS GOAT TEXTED ME
- IMA SEE MEL TOMORROW
- KAT ANSWERED ME YESTERDAY SO IMA GIVE HER THE BIGGEST SMILE ON MONDAY
- ALL I THINK ABOUT IS LIMEEY
- MATT IS SO FUNNY
- EVERYONE GOT ME GIGGLING
- I GOT TO PUT NEW THINGS ON MY CALENDAR
- MY COUSIN VISITED BUT THEN SADLY LEFT
- I GOT TO PLAY ROBLOX WITH MY OLDER SISTER
- I CLOCKED SO MANY PEOPLE IN ROBLOX
- IM EXCITED ABOUT SCHOOL
- I GOT TO PUT MONEY IN MY LITTLE PANDA MONEY JAR
- I TOOK A SHOWER 2 AND FEEK MEGA FRESH
Guys life is worth living
In so happy
I might cry
Felix on top
I missed u tooo!!
W day for Ellie today
JEONGINN
I just imagined something in my good
food
and now ive lost my entire appetite
But I have to finish it
MAMA I PLAYED FORESAKEN IM SO GOATED
Im the little pizza guy
Bro my throws were on point
Kinda
I got like 3 perfect throws
One of them was to the wrong person.
I THREW ONE TO A LOW PERSON WHILE JOHN DOE WAS GETTING USS
i didnt miss
W
I felt like hamzah
BRO
Whenever they missed
My fatass
Full of myself
I kept saying
"I broke their ankles!"
BECAUSE
I was watching Martin and hamzah play basketball during ela
SO them saying ankle breaker was in my head

Papa came inside with his light and SWWOOORDDD after I told him I got bit by a mosquito #mysaviorrr! โบ๏ธ 
Why
They done didnt wake me up too
cuz I dont wanna be stuck with genesis 
My hair feels so greasy my mama is dead asleep prop gonna have to walk
I'll bring dry shampoo huzz.!-
please meluh
Because
MRL AUGH IT DOESNT MATTER
Just go to school with your phone and charge it when you go home
Either way you always take a nap
Charge it before you take a nap
No
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Qhar do we have today
@granite gull

Mama it done got to meee
Ykcqhat
Body isn't tea
But ok
Idgaf
Anymore
Heh
I haven't checked my weight in a while
Not going
As i speak
No
As i type
My finger is getting more like
Its not able to lay flat
Its just making my smaller hands like more chubby
Didn't go
And
Genesis begged me to go
So I feel bad
Might perchance
Get her smth tomorrow

Okay
Tiktok changed me 
I went onto tiktok just because I was looking at what my friend had sent me
But then I began scrolling through tiktok heh
But bro
I saw so many things
Not very cool things
now im scared
And im pondering about being lesbian 
because
this is so poo
I dont know if anyone is reading this right now and im assuming no one IS because people are busy heh.
but like
i hope people dont get me for talking about this because it is a sensitive topic
I think
for most people it probably is
but like
bro
im a little girl 
Little teenage girl
and people probably KNOW thaf
okay
so like
many guys look at me
not boys
men
guys
idek
whatever you wanna call them
and its obvious im a minor.
Things have gotten so bad to the point I dont even text people back
and I mean
I won't text guys back
it seems mean
but im a minor
and your years older
im not taking that risk
I've found out the hard way that weirdos are like
everywhere
And this isn't very cool

Everytime I go out with shorts, theres always men looking at me or turning their heads to look at me
Or when I go out with a dress
Men always look at certain parts of my body
Which always makes me uncomfortable
OBVIOUSLY
And even at school
I wear sweaters most of the time
Why?
CUZ
boys will stare 
A guy with a girlfriend
WITH A GIRLFRIEND
was talking about my bum with his friends

I remember in 6th
A 8th grader
Was like
Talking about my bum too

And like
I had this one friend
He always was commenting on my clothes
Talking about how my shirt is too TIGHT
Too loose
Too short
Too big
like bro

My first encounter of a weirdo
Was when I was like
NINE
Around there
It was on a GAME
ROBLOX
A GAME
bro
this guy
got all obsessed with me
Just because I healed him in a stupid game..

Like bro your not special
Im gonna heal everyone if they are down?
After that he kept joining me and messaging me
like I remember this one time
I was playing a rp game
With my FRIEND
Mid decorating my house
This guy
Joins
and he starts prive messaging me
Telling him he wants
milk??

my milk
and then he starts calling me weird names
mommy?

It doesn't matter if he didnt know im a minor
You shouldn't be talking to someone that way regardless
Its just inappropriate
And messed up
Flirting with random person you just met ??
Who does that?
Only a idiot
I still remember his user
Then I had other encounters
Here on discord
Discord is where most of these MONSTERS are
The first weirdo I met
Claimed to be a minor
(He wasnt)

And since I was dumb
I answered his texts
And we began talking
And then while I was basically
Like
Telling him how it sucks to be the youngest
And I basically was being
VULNERABLE
with him
he was like
Im here for you gorgeous!
dont call me that.. ๐
Grown ass man

And okay
That might sound innocent to some people
But he knew how old i was
And I dont think no man should be talking to a minor like that
And then he started to be more weird
Asking me if id kiss him
how id hug him
if id cuddle with him

he just made things weird
And since im a little chicken
I didnt tell anyone about it
But eventually I did
Because it was too much
And like
Everytime this happens
I always blame myself
And I always end up crying and crying
And guess who I run to
Melanie
Heh
I love her
but anyways
I always blame myself
And always get all emotional
But I never stopped to really think about it
Im just a stupid little girl
And they are older
More grown
More mature
And they knew how old I was
This never has really happened to me
Until like
Now
And to be honest
I'd see people talk about these things all the time
But I always thought it wasn't really true
And I always thought that people wouldn't do such a thing
Until I found out the hard way
That YES!
they would
And sometimes even go as far as to blame it on their mental health
which one of them actually DUD
DID*
And once again
I got too scared to tell anyone
Because I thought that the guy would stop texting me eventually
And I thought that if I stayed quiet then I would be making less of a scene
I even thought
That maybe this was just a phase
And that me and the person would eventually become BEST FRIENDS
But eventually I realized
This guy just wants pictures from me
03/08/2025
got him in trouble
with the help of like
a really
goated guy
I loved him very verryy much! #verycoolioguy
but yeah
Goated guy helped me
And then we both skedaddled from each other because nothing lasts forever
Doesn't even know it but I have him in my favorites
but okay
Everything has just really changed me
and has changed my perspective on a lot of things
im just yapping about sum buusheet atp
BUT
Now
I've learned
To be more skeptical about things
And to trust my gut feeling
anwyays
thme to skedaddle
Time*
Denji is my favorite dog breed
Waht a handsome young man!
Oh heh
HELP
IMA JUMPPPSSUH
im tweaking
Im scrolling up
Cuz I wanna read my old conversations
With dd

mwaaah!
Can someone giggle at this
Mel is a hater
pretty heart!
Someone needs to play this game with me agian
Hazel is a d1 hater
IVE NEVER SEEN THESE BLUE HEARTS BEFORE LMAO WHAT
His deriod..
LMAO WHAT
Like I said, mel is a hater
#yes
stupid cute text
๐
LMAO
LMAOAAOOA
Back when I was a alex hater
Diabolical

I need this type of music neow
Need me a Martin
First interaction with my now goated uncle
HATER
Best uncle everaa
Im scrolling slowly because I hate this part of my journal. Not cool #imtoomean
#nocomeback
What a goat bro.. after crying for a good hour I came back to this and it just meant so much to me knowing that linggyy took his time to write this

BACKED ME UP LMAO #LOVETHIS
yes
Guys suck
oh god
Yeah
Peepee
Iu
Heh
Oh
Im thinking about pulling up in a dress on friday
for your ceremony
heh
Yes
#wlw
field dayuh
Oh heh
Bro
Omw home
Random guy
On a motorcycle
Turned his entire head to look at me
we locked eyes the entire time
bro

Gotta put my laundry away
good morning mama
harrow

My mom is making me wait outside the house for my brother..
I SEE A LITTLE PUPPYYY...
My mama is mad
I thought she was about to hit me
#dodgedabullet
I miss my papa
I miss mel
Got to text with my favorite goated uncle
And I got so happy
That I forogt
Forgot *
The mosquitos bit my hands
That was the last thing on my mind
So was the itch
Heh
GOODMIGHT GUYS
Whenever I get a mosquito bite I put rubbing alcohol on it
Mama today was booty
Career day
all of them lowkey sucked
But one of them
Had like
A huge
Truck
With speakers
And like
Equipment
And he had his dj thingy in one of the classrooms
Some kids played with it
And they did NOT cook
Ms shira did
Cuz shes a dj herself
But

AND
I went to the nurses office
It sucked
I got to skip the rest of our 4th period and most of prime
Sk
So
Heh
But Anderson didnt come
Sadly
SO I might just jump
I hope he comes tomorrow
I miss him
I'M COOKED
I HAVEN'T FINISHED MY PROJECT FOR ELA AND THE TEACHER GAVE ME UNTIL TODAY AND I'M RISHING TO DO IT
IK I HAD LIKE
MONDAY AND YESTERDAY TO DO IT BUT
LIKE I FORGOT WHAT HAPPENED ON MONDAY AND YESTERDAY
I FELK ASLEEP UNTIL MY MOM WOKE ME UP TO EAIT FOR MY BROTHER DOWNSTAIR BECAUSE HIS PHINE DIED AND HE HAD NO KEYS
I WAITED LIKE 15 MINUTES
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Time to feed the kid
WHAT
OH?!
Poor child
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Oh no
I've gone broke
I can't afford food for the baby..
Wait i gotta play a game to win coins
HELP WHAT
PLEAEE N9
HWAT
NOOOOO
IMA CRY WHAT THE FLIP FLOP
HOW IS THIS KID
WHO*
All my hard work to grow the other one for nothing..
MY DUMBASS
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Guess I've gotta raise a new one..
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All the memories
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#riplittlebluepoo
I miss my child
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I released it to the forest
I didn't now what it meant๐
I'll never forget little Tom
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Now I gotta give this new one a name
It will be
rip little tom
๐

