#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!
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I hate being on my period
I dont even know how to describe it
but I cannot tinkle
or anythinf
and I keep getting these CRAMPS
Not just in my stomach
BUT ON MY BUTT
TIME TO SHWOERING
shower*
Heh
anyways
I feel happy
i feel
pretty
little friend made me feel pretty
heh
MEL
HI MAMA
I'm working on designs for the unicorn
UNICORN?
Yeah
Heh
Drawing

This us or what
Love you so much that I used my rakko account to turn all the videos on my fyp into ones of just two girls
so that I can send them to you
and say
"Heh thats us!"
Okay I think im crazy
ily π
I give you 69 smooches
I give u 70
I don't wanna go to math tomorrow
"Heh hey thats us!"
HELPP
no wonder we are both in the lgbtq chatπ
HELP
ITS WHQTEVER THOUGH
Oh yeah
Mel is my princess goat
Shes like
So cool
I didnt lie about being able to talk about her for hours
um
hello
I love her
this was a voice message, thats why its typed out funny heh
Ima start crying
Ima be like
Forever grat
HELP
grateful

WHAT AHE ADDED ME TO HER NOTE
Guys
is this rizz
okay my dumbass was about to say smth about Anderson
BUT LIKE
Not everything is about Anderson
You feel me
ok dont gigglexthen guys
Oh he
Heh..
dude
My sister came out of the shower
And went inside the room to change
And I was inside
So I pretended to be asleep
She smacked my bum
She sajd
"Girl you answered my message, your NOT sleeping"
LIKE OKAY DUDE I DONT EVEN CAREπ
CUZ I WAS COMFORTABLE
I DIDNT WANNA GET UPPPPP

HELP
I LEFT 
@granite gull
@granite gull
Yes
@granite gull
Ellie was firssst
I found out I can't make water that well
What you want
She isnβt involved
she is because I added her to the conversation
Nuh uh
yuh hu
Im watching
Mandys iphone
I miss Anderson
I DONT text him
I DONT talk to him
I DONT sit next to him (anymore)
But i stare at him
I talk about him
I write about him
I cry OVER him
heh
Mel has seen me tweak over him
and LING
π
heh
soccer games are cool π
Missed yesterday's game
might jump
I heard the announcement saying vro got the ball in a couple times
I watched the entire game
NO HE DIDNT
Im such a easy target
I cant say no to shit
This sucks
but yk what doesn't sucj
the 2 paragraphs I gor
got*
anyways
everything sucjs
right now
Lowkey
Who even knows who im in love with now
I am
What happened with you
seeing Clyde is crazy
Whose Clyde π
whatever
Me tooπ

Its 8
ππ
Still have it as my password
Heh
TIME TO SKEDADDLE
I LOVE YOU
bye bye




YAYY
YAYYYYi
I MISSED YOU LING
π
anyways
heh
Yesterday
Was something

A lot of things happ
HELP
Happened *
Important thing is that
Its solved now
and that
Like
Im not crying anymore
because
of this
absolute goat
#knight
#savior
#goat
ummm
what else
#notalloser
#notwithkaliuchis
HELP
anyways
MATT
he like
saved me
and my future
Heh
absolute like
awesome poo
Heh
OMG
GUESS WHO MY DREAM WAS OF
So basically
I dont remember all of it
BUT LIKE
IN A WAY
IT WAS
LIKE
THIS VIDEO
hold on
HELP
MY DREAM WAS LIKE THIS IN A WAY
Like
IN MY DREAM
THE PARK WAS LIKE
RIGHT BEHIND THIS STORE
AND EVEYTIME ID PASS BU THE STORE IN MY DREAM
I KEPT ON SAYING SMTH LIKE
LIKE
SOMETHING ABOUT ANDY PLAYING SOCCER
its kinda cringey now that I talk about it
BIT LITERALLY
WHATEVA
AND
THEN
LATER ON IN MY DREAM
I WAS GOING HOME
IN THE DARK
AND I PASSED BY MY FRIEND AND HER FRIEND
I PASSED BY JAYLAH
AND SHE WAS STRUGGLING TO OPEN THE DOOR TO HER APARTMENT BUILDING
OR LIKE
TO HER HOTEL
SO I STOPPED AND I WAS LIKE "need help??"
AND
I THEN PUSHED THE DOOR OPEN
AND THEN ANOTHER DOOR
AND I SAW ANDY
HE WAS SITTING INSIDE. THE INSIDE WAS SO FANCY BUT I DIDNT GO INSIDE, I JUST LOWKEY STAYED THERE STANDING, HOLDING THE DOOR OPEN WITH MY FOOT
AND I JUST LOOKED AT HIM
AND LIKE
HE WAS SITTING AT A ROUND RED FANCY TABLE
AND ALL ALONE
AND I HAVE THE PERFECT VIEW OF HIM
HE WAS SITTING THERE SLEEPING
π
bro
My dream was too real
I dont know how to say this
But like
My dream knows me too well
OR LIKE
Idk
I was too real in my dream
Because
When I saw him
I took out my phone and took exactly 3 pictures of him π₯
lowkey when I woke up
so deep in the dream
That i immediately looked for my phone
π
guess what
it was just a dream and I didnt take shit

Ima tell mel and ling about this vro
they are probably so over me talking about andy
BUT LIKE
LITERALLY
They stay and listen
okay nevermind
he probably dreams of someone else like the way I dream of him
WHATEVER
Okay what if i put everyone in a aaron
my mom
came to me
and was like
"what would you like to eat"
Since today im celebrating
And like
She gave me two options
And I was like
Any is fine!
Because i eat both
And she laughed
And she said some dumb shit like "oh she doesn't even know! She's just thinking"
like
she didnt say it jokingly
she was just straight up like
mocking me in a way
like what did I do to you
I've genuinely been getting mad so much lately
Its probably because im on my period
But dude
Im becoming like Stephanie
π
I love her and think shes awesome
But I dont EVER want to turn out like her
I love my mommy so much
Lately ive just been a bitcoin

Yesterday
I wasn't even supposed to go to school
Why?
Because the day before Friday
ON Thursday
I had been crying all dah
day*
Because I felt stupid
guilty
and just disgusted by myself
and for the rest of the night I also cried
I only stopped crying when I was too tired to cry
And then I fell asleep
Then
On friday
I woke up
And began crying
The second I woke up
I went straight to crying
And ran to mel
Like some sort of baby
my eye bags were not very cool π₯
I cried and cried
And then
I began getting ready for school
And guess what
I broke down mid getting ready
Because I couldn't find socks
Or a shirt
Or pants
Only my hair looked good
I was so desperate
I was about to pull up in my dad's shorts and my sisters red crop top π
Literally all I found
But guess what
I pulled up in my dad's shorts
And a big black shirt
π₯
But dude
While I was crying
And basically crawling around the floor looking for my shoes
My mom was just on her phone playing her GAME
She even stopped by the door to just watch me cry
She didnt say shit
And finally
When I was ready
It was like
8:56
Really late
By that time everyone was probably going up the stairs
π
I went to tell my mom i was ready
And she was like "ok"
And then YELLED at me
Because of my SOCKS??
LIKE OH MY GOD
LITERALLY
RELAX
THEY ARE JUST SOCKS
AT LEAST I GOT READY
AND STILL WAS GOING
πΏ
Its just so frustrating
And then she made me CHANGE my socks
And I did
I cried and cried
And changed my socks
And then my dad started cursing at my mom
And they began arguing
And I skedaddled
I opened the door and left
But my mom eventually did catch uo
up
The entire walk i was crying
And then
When I got close to the school
She had the audacity to ask in such a bitter tone "is yoir friend waiting for you??"
I almost shoved her umbrella away and yelled at her
MY FRIEND IS NOT WAITING FOR ME
MELS BEEN IN THE CLASSROOM
AND IM LATE BECAUSE SOMEONE YELLED AT ME AND MADE ME CHAGE MY SOCKS
bro
my throat is getting tight
Like
I dont wanna cry
But I wanna YELL

And when I got to school
My eyes were still red
I even told Mel π₯
The only thing that made me stop crying
Is when I was basically waiting to cross the road
I saw andy
He was running
He was also late heh
He ran inside and the crossing guard saw him and laughed
It was cute
I giggled a littke
And my mom looked at me
And I locked in
And shifted away from her
I felt like running across the road and into Andy's arms
I didn't care if a car would've hit me
I was just so desperate for someone to hold me
Just not my mom
But guess what
When I got to school
Someone DID hold me
And it was mel
wiat
im tweaking
im fwekain
im tw es ign!
okay
crying and everything
but like
that just shows
how grateful I am
I rested my head on mels shoulder
And just tried to not cry
While she stroked my head
Mel doesn't show much affection to anyone
Some might say that im being dramatic
But you guys dont know how much that meant to me
Time to be nonchalant
And lock in
Let's text
guys
I missed u too elieieee
If u quitted discord id have no reason to open this app anymore π§ββοΈ
A small gesture from someone who doesnβt often show it IS BIG
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
heh
I MISSED YOU
No
WE MISSED YOU
oh okay discord hates me
HELP
LITERALLY
Im actually thinking about it heh
Discord is cool but also poo
The people are poo
Not all
Just some
so
I dont know if my beauties have other social medias
like
insta
or
snap
or
yeah
but if they dont
watch me start texting matt through Xbox π₯
Ling through
Spotify
π₯
through roblox too
and Minecraft
π₯
oh my papa is crashing out
HELP
MY DAD CAME INSIDE THE ROOM TO BOTHER US
AND HE TURNED TO THE BUNK BED
AND SINCE IM ON THE BOTTOM BUNK BED I WAS PULLING HIS ARM HAIRS
Heh
AND THEN
HE LOOKED UP AT MY SISTER ON THE TOP BUNK
AND HE WAS LIKE
"Is there drugs under this?"
HE SAID TBAT AS A JOKE
AND THEN AS HE SKEDADDLED HE GIGGLED AND PRETENDED TO SNIFF LIKE
I dont think I can sah it
BUT IT WAS SILLY
This is how I got me and dude killed π
Heh i was counting...
HELPPP
HELP WHY DOES ANDY HAVE SUCH A FUNNY WALK
M SISTER DOESNT LOE ME
In fact she didnt stop because she couldn't hear me
Is this us with ling
@granite gull
Ok wrap it up where is Matty π

π¦π¦
so good and then she skedaddled..
kooky cookie GONE
braahh
wuh shadow milk doin in mu servurh
beautiful 

HEH

WE LOVE YOU TOO
YAYYY



I just finished playing..

I got
A
New keychain because my last one broke and I still can't get over it so I had to get one
WOAH
SO CUTE
AWH
HYUKA HELLO?
Im so locked in
In work at a pizza place
Okay I skedaddled heh
heh
I didnt know I could do that
Fire someone?? 
I felt special after doing that
ne too
heh
IM ABOUT TO SHWOER THOUGH
Hopefully the water doesn't skedaddle while I do so
I was gonna shower yesterday but I was too cold to move AND I HAD TO USE THREE BIG BLANKETS TO WARM UP
π
Yeah so I don't understand how my brother says it's hot
πΌπΌ
I SHOWERED YESTERDAY HEH
I hate feeling dirty
Which is why I shower everyday
But its not good for you
I feel like the only day I dont shower is like
A friday
wait no
a Saturday
One of those two
heg
Heh
Im watching you guys
STOP
I KEEP GOING BACK TO MY DADS PICTURE
I done jumped the little guy
time to go bacj to showering
π₯
TIME TO SKEDADDLE!
Guess who's done shwoering
MEEEEEE
BAKKKAAA
Phones 15..
You guys dont understand
How bad it us
is*
HOW BAD MY CUTS AND LIKE
ICHTYS
HAVE GOTTEN
To the point
I gotta hold parts of my body
Like
My thigh
My chest
My arm
or my hips
To stop the water from hitting it that much
Because then it BURNS
SO BAD
Ima tweak
I just yelled at my sister
Whoops
Last year
I fell
Because
Ashley was trying to run and she was holding onto me
And
Yeah

HELPPP

Time to get ready
and probably put on my dress at 8
Or 9
Who knows if it will still fit me
I was snatched a year ago π
okay
im done eating
im not bloated
Which is shocking
And if anything i look like I lost weight
So
Idgaf
I will hold my breath for that dress
I will risk it all
And if it doesn't fit
Im never wearing a dress ever again
okay ima tweak
I miss matt
ling
mel
Heh
Jess


reminded me of goats game

I giggled
LESBIAN!!!
Oh
Heh
Sorry ^_^
DUDE
WHEN I USE
LIKE
^_^
Guess who i think of
π₯
GUESSSSS
Uhhhhhhh
π
my bae
Uhhhhhh
OH RIGHT
LMAOAOAO

YES

YESSS
πΈπΈ
ANY WORKSS
OR VC??

I think so
LETS USE THATTT BUT IF I CURSE ON ACCIDENT LETS USE DISCORD π
OKAYAYA
HOWβοΈβοΈβοΈ

JOIN MEE
ITS PRIV
It won't let me joinπ
lemme try ahaainnh
AKRIGHT
Why am I bald
Turtle
yes
Peanut
Pray it fits me
no
it didn't
Ima rip off my chest
π
Ima try on my sisters dress
It fits me
I TRIED ON MY SISTERS DRESS AND IT WAS LOWKY SAGGING ON ME BECAUSE
She had a belly...
ILY YOU GUYS
PREETTTTYYYβοΈβοΈ
π¨π¨
Heh do you guys think my family loves me even though im a little slow
I feel so like
happy
Heh
Nothing can piss me off
Ima be silly
For like
RVER
EVER
I love like
everyone
who has been there
for me
till like
my birthday
heh
#awesome
mel
matt
ling
jecka
and um
classmates
etc
Heh
YAY HE TEXTED ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIC
THANKS BRUVVV
LITERALLY SCREAMED AND STUCK OUT MY TONGUE WHEN I SAW HIM
Not even him but
HE CAN DRIVE ME HOME
LITERALLY

I bet he crashed that car
BUT LITERALLY
ITS OKAY
ON MY GOD
im probably gonna get
idk
but I made my account public
chz
cuz
He needs to like
Ntocie me
notice
time for like
bed
Its been 30 minutes
Notice me andy
Ima try to lock in
cux
cuz
summer
so yeah
NAYWAYS
ANYWAYS
GOODNIGHT
BEAUTIES
Goodnight guys!!
GOOD MORNING PRETTYS
I gained a lot of weight yesterday
I think
Since I ate pancakes
and cake
Lemon cake
and so so so much milk
But i drank a lot of water
Heh
okay
5 ppl noticed me
that arent andy
Atp
Ima just stop liking that man
π₯
OH!!!
π
I need to go to church in
Maybe its something your mom is making heh
About 20 minutes

Nope




