#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!
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He's dreaming of it
I lost weight
Oh
WHAT
Pee or dew dew?
Okay I'm showering neow
Bye byee!!!


heh
heh
nya
guys don't make me cry
this is like
so poo
Yeh
Heh
heh
nyauh
Tbh
Im such a shitty person
Especially when I'm mad
Sad to break it to my ogs
But im not as nice as I seen
Seem
YES
I am nice
And being nice is cool
And tbh im silly most of the time too
And I try to be nice
And judging by what my friends say
Im nice
But
Guys
2024
Was a huge crashout year for me
And now
Those crashouts
Are really getting
To me
And they are catching up
Im such a poo person
It's so pathetic
I have had this mindset for years and continue to have it
I remember
Back when I was younger
Year ago
years*
Heh
Years ago
I had this friend
Called Janis
And we were like
So locked in
But ima be so reak
I snitched
I told her that my sisters hated us
And it was true
They thought Janis and I were weirdos
So I told janis
And before this happened
I'm pretty sure we had a gc
Where my sisters and I were in it
And Janis was also in it
So
Janis crashed out on them
And it was all my fault
And then
Everyine got in a argument
And ima be so reak
Real
At first
I was on Janis side
I was hating on my sisters
To be specific
Stephanie
I kept calling her names
And stuff
And then
Lile
Like
I kinda realized
Janis was never going to last
As much as I wanted her to
Was she really gonna last forever?
Nope
So I ended up siding with Stephanie
And because of that
Janis and I don't talk anymore
It's been years
And now I see her at school
It's not really awkward
But
It just reminds me of what I did
Same with kevin
Another reason why I kust
Just
Ghosted him
Because when Stephanie was still at my school
She would always tell me how he would give her nasty looks
And lowkey
That shit pissed me off
So it gave me another reason to hate him
Um
But yeah
2024 was one of my worst years
It was even where I stopped talking to my sister for a whole month
I remember all the details
It was so bad
It all started
Because of her ex
I hate him
So so so
Much
I really hate him
So
Basically
Back when she used to go to my school
She started dating this guy called
Engel
Angel but with a e
And like
Engel wasn't a bad person but he was like
Stealing her from me
And I didn't like that
I was jealous
She stopped playing games with me, she stopped kinda talking to me, and she turned him into her whole personality
It sucked
And like
Yeah
Like
This one day
I was going to the 8th grade side to like
Pick her up
Or to wait for her to come out
And like my mom was across the street waiting for us
And I was just waiting outside for her
And it was normal and stuff
But like
Time passed
And she still wasn't out
AND lowkey
I kinda started tweaking
Because
Everyine was out by that time
It was probably 3:30
Or
3:35
And i was like
Where is this girl
And I began spamming her on insta
Did i get a response?
No
So
I got desperate
And asked Engel where she was
Cuz shes always with him
And
Did I get a answer?
Nope
And it pissed me off
So I called my mom and told her to come to me because my sister wasn't coming out
So she came
And we both waited tg
And my mom even asked one of the police officers standing at the exit
I don't remember what they told her
But we just went back to waiting
And finally
After what felt like years
She came out
And guess who she was with?
Engel
She was there with Engel
Holding onto his arm
And giggling
And hiding her face
And he was laughing too
I got so
Mad
And im not even gonna try to make myself look innocent
Because I started yelling at her
Which i shouldn't have done
But guys it was loweky a reasonable crash out
Because
I waited for 15 mind
Minutes
Everyone was gone
Like everyine is already out by
3:25
Don't play
So obviously I got mad
And the fact she was just with that
Thing
Laughing
Made me even more mad
And jealous
And frustrated
So yes
I yelled at her and cursed at her
And
She doesn't take anything from anyone
So she yelled at me and we argued
And like
Finally
On our way home
Well we weren't home yet but we only crossed the street
But yeah
Finally
I think she told me to just shut up
Or smth
Like that
So I just walked faster
Leaving my mom, Engel, and Stephanie behind
And I walked in front because I was lowkey tearing up
And then like
I get a call from my friend
Best friend
Kimberly
And like
Ngl
I saw it
But I just didn't answer
And I kept walking
And then
Holy moly
SHE appears in front of me
With her friend
She's smiling and me and giggling
With her cute little silly smile
And she was saying hi to me
And stuff
And like
Keep in mind
I never really see her
And I was already tearing up as it is
And like
I tried being nonchalant
By saying hi to her
And
I smiled at her
And
I remember saying this clearly
HELP
DUDE
I said
"I think I'm going to cry!"
And then I began to cry
I cried dude
Right in front of Stephanie
that weirdo
My mom
My Kimberly
And her friend
I lost aura
And I was just crying and I hid my face in her neck
Anf it was embarrassing
But I just kept crying and crying
And she held me
And her friend comforted me too
And It just made me cry even harder
And like I tried telling them why I was crying
But I couldn't even speak properly
And like
Dude
What hurt the most
Was like
Okay
So um
I kept walking with my friend and her friend
Leaving gang behind
And then
We got to like a stop
Cuz we had to cross
And kim and her friend had to go home so I hugged them and began to say my goodbyes
But dude
Literally
I kinda started telling them what happened
And while I was doing so
My family and that
Shit man
Caught up
And just waited at the crossing thingy
And my mom just smiled and acted like as if I wasn't sobbing
And Stephanie
Was just there with
Him
And
Heh
Here comes the part that made me stop talking to her!
When I told my friend and her friend why I was crying
They looked over at my sister and her bf
And
My sister looked at me
And keep in mind I was still crying
Tell me why
She laughs
She laughed right in front of me
And then hid her face in her man's like
Arm
Like are we real?
And I think she was high
But it doesn't even matter
SHE laughed
At me
While I was crying
BECAUSE OF HER
When we got home
I didn't talk to her at all
Around midnight
All three of us
Steph
And Vanessa
And i
Were being silly
But lowkey
Stephanie tried talking to me by giving me some candy
I ignored her
Huge L
And after that
We just stopped talking
For a month or two
We avoided each other
Even though we shared a bunk bed
Shared clothes
Sat together at the table
We ignored each other
Even on my dad's birthday
We were still not talking
And the way we started talking just proves how huge we are
My sister
Vanessa
Which was stuck in the middle of our "beef"
Told us
Like
This one night we got really hungry and we asked Vanessa to get us a snakc outside cuz we didn't wanna get caught
And
Vanessa told us
If we harmonized
She would do it
WE DID
HELPP
It was so
Cool
And then we began talking
And
Yeah
Now we are so close
As close as ever
But yeah
That sucked really bad
OMG
AND GUESS WHAT
HUH
WHO WAS THERE WHEN ENGEL BROKE UP WITH HERE
HER
MEEEE!
W sister?
Heh
Glad they broke up
I hated him
Now she's dating this guy
Sebastian
I don't hate him
Hes
Yk what
If my sister likes him
I like him
Whatever makes her happy
He seems to treat her right
And
His friend that lies too much
Told him a lie about my sister cheating on him
And since seba and him have been friends for a while
At first
Sebastian belived him
But yk what Sebastian did
He talked it out with his wife
AND now he's on Stephanies wife
W guy
Btw Stephanie wasn't cheating
And that boy just makes up lies
And he's gonna get jumped for lying
🩷
Heh
I hope Sebastian and her last ngl
Never have said this
But
They are pretty cute together!
And now
I'm not such a jealous wreck
Because
Sebastian gives her time for herself
And family
And he's understanding
So
That means
I get to cling onto her
Just earlier I was clinging onto her hip
And she was on call with him
It was pretty cool cuz
She didn't tell me to
Heh
F off!
And he didn't care
That I was there
Heh
I wasn't listening to their convo
I went to her to bother her
Heh
Shes cool
She lets me
Um
She lets me cling onto her
Which makes me
Pretty darn happy!
Heh
Ngl
W server
But
I've been thinking about just leaving
Cuz
Yeah
That reason
so
I dunno
I'm not gonna LEAVE
but
A break sounds good
Cuz
Like
This is online sutff
Stuff
And I talk to my real
Heh
My real awesome friend here
Mel
My irl friend
And
I don't wanna talk to her through like
Jsut a journal
And yes I dm her privately too
But just speaking through a journal is not it
IF I were in a gc with her
And
Othee friends
I'd like
100% talk to her online through it
But
A journal
Public server too?
Nah
So ima maybe
Make a gc
With
Mel
And
LINGGGY
And just talk in that
Like
Maybe I'll write in this once in a while
And I definitely will
But
Ima just try not to
Cux
Cuz
This server makes me crash out
W SERVER THOUGH
So
Yeah
Unless little ling wanna keep talking here then
Idk
But yeha
Heh
Time to make gx
Gc
And
Heh
Get my spark back!!
^_^
Happy April Fools Day 
shitty day
my sister made me happy tho
I sat down in front of the chair she was sitting on and I rested my head between her legs and she began to peel oranges for me
And gave me a piece one by one
She fed them to me
It made me feel loved and happy
it reminds me of how much she really cares about me
And that she's just like a really great person. She seems mean, but she isn't. She's a great person and the best older sister ever. I love her a lot
W Stephanie 🩵
I cry too much, w friends for putting up with me though
Is my spark coming back? Perchance
I feel like I'm being dry here but it's because
actually I'm not sure
but I'd rather waste my energy with my friend and not fully on this journal
But yeah I'd say it is coming
Slowly though
Which sucks
But at least it's coming
Playing with my friends is the best part of my week so far
Pretty cool
and
cute
I miss them
he looks good in black
um
school was really shitty and I should've been absent ngl
In gym we played soccer. My team randomly split up and half our team ran to the other team. So we lost a lot of players and the other team had a unfair advantage so yeah. And my teacher didn't even care or listen to me when I tried telling him we needed more players which pissed me off already. So gym ruined my entire day basically.
I also shoved some girls, but im not sorry at all. They kept running into me so sucks to suck
Apart from violet. I was gonna go up to her to tell her I'm sorry but then I lost the ball so
But today I finally found my laptop. It was in a different cart in a different class. So thanks to all the computer monitors, and my homeroom teacher that said they'd look for my computer. I found it myself. It had been 2 weeks, so thanks a lot
I didn't talk to Anderson today. But I corrected the teacher a little too fast when he called Anderson, andres.
And I also caught him looking at me a couple times, and I kept looking at him too so he caught me too
But today just sucked
So
Poo day
symbolic fr 👅
My entire dream was actually about him
crying because I'm so lucky to have such great friends

That first message he sent was everything fr
And it all happened in this journal

Heh

Saw a screenshot i wasn't supposed to see
now I'm crashing out
I desperately want to leave the server but I don't wanna at the same time cuz I made a friend through this journal fr
And this journal makes me happy

Heh
This sum boo-shee !!!!!
Okay ima leave #taking a break
I missed using this
Heh
@granite gull
My lovely huzz
And my lovely bruzz
Ling
Heh

We are loving this
Im probably gonna leave on my birthday again

Heh
Heh
Guys are we loving htis

Heh
My phone done turned off on me
Heh
Anywahs
Going to see his soccer game tomorrow

Goodnight lovelys..
Hello BEAUTIES!
I don't wanna pull up
To school

Math SUCKS
but I gyattaaaaa

So i will

But i think the only good part might be
Hm
After school

Cuz I go see his game after school
Heh
I have to pull up rn😔
I was supposed to pull up to the park
im not gonna

I do this all the time
Like
When I say ill go to his soccer game
I never do
And I stay home crying cuz my hair looks like booty

im gonna probably go shower out of anger

Heh
im losing auda
aura

On the tinkle chair crying
I keep looking at the time and telling myself I still got time to go

Okay well now I look kinda good
now I'm just showering

I COULDVE BEEN THERE BY BOW
NOW
ok

ima just say it was never that serious
If im quick enough maybe I can go at 5:30
nvm
At 6
Maybe
I hope his games are actually 2 hours long

If they aren't then I might jump
Heh im no longer mad or emotional
Playing with toys.. 

Guys
We are like
10p% missing ling
100%**
Our beloved 
@granite gull little ling is probably busy
Heh
Or
Sleeping
Naping

He is extremely missed
lil Ling overslept 
Oh yeah
It's not a bed bug
Its a mosquito getting my sister is think
I bit her in the butt again
4th time btw
They GOT to free her
Went through all the journals just to find the bruzz journal
Damn
💔

Gone
our beloved came back from the dead
ok guhs
this isn't funny
Im tweaking

Unc is officially gone

Can't do nothing but just cry
💔
Matt is cool though heh

i missed u guys too
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
YES LIJNNNNGGG
We literally missed youv1000000% guys
Mel is knocked out
but
she misses you too
like one billion percent
im not that olddd
heh
AND HAZEL ON TOP OF HER
Heh
We love mel
And ling
And
Hazel
hazel scary
Heh
I remember when hazel said some brainrot word and you immediately started repeating it 
skibidi
sigma
Serenity just broke up with her boyfriend 

OKAY
so
I keep changing my pfp
A little too much
LIKE I CANT DECIDE ON JUST ONE
so I will keep changing it constantly 
I have a feeling my papa saw my pcs
and he might throw them away
but idk
Cuz I counted them and all of them are still there so
HELP
I love and hate when people tag me to do these insta trends
Because
Wdym
"Tag 10 people!"
no.
at most
I'm tagging all my backup accounts
HELP
LIKE
I TAGGED @granite gull TWICE
HELPP
I TAGGED BOTH HER ACCOUNTS
THEN MINE
THEN CQ
AND
MY BABE
Wait what I press
HELP IDK
I thought that was lili
Heh
ID TAG MY WHOLE FAMIMY
FAMILY
Abut like
idk if they'd wanna do it
Atp
Ima just tag kai
Guess who that reminds me of
Whooo
Was gonna hit the Dylan pose
Oh
Sadly
Heh
or when he siad
He was gonna throw kung-fu moves at my dad
And you thought
He said
Bro
It was a thought I had at the moment
HELPP???
I truly thought he said that
Then I ha to reread it like 2 more times
That's smth he'd say
Because I thought it was gang signs
I had to do the same with yours because what 
OH YEAH
THATS WHEN I SAID I WAS LOOKING AT MY DAD THROUGH PRETEND GLASSES WITH MY HANDS
AMD HE YELLED AT ME CUZ HE THOUGHT IT WAS GANG SIGNS
AND I TOLD U ND LING
AND LING WAS LIKE
I forgot what he said
HELPP
HELP??
Heh
My foot fell asleep
Ling is a little uncy

but we love him
Yeah
Guys
STOP
I REMEMBER LAST NGIHT WHEN I WAS FIGHTING DEMONS BECAUSE I THOUGHT HE LEFT US
I TOLD YOU MEL
Oh yeah
STOP
My hair is all puffy
IT IS HOT
And frizzy
STOPP
Because this is NOT gonna do it
KUST PUT IT UPPP
oh
Guys why did my babe go offline
What if i just

Guys
Don't do this to me
DONT
Do this to me
The
The loml
I needa eat this man out so bad
What in the skibidi
I WAS SO CONFUSED IS TBE DUDE FIVING BIRTH?
I say yes
It's about the president in hunger games
O
Yes
WHAT??
HELPP
Guys
Im making
A strawberry
For my mom
FOR mother's day
But like
Why the stem of it
OR the green part
Look like
Wait
Aki's ponytail
When is mother's day
The 11th
But in Mexico it's like


HELLOO LINGGY
hii
Guys
guys
I see how it is...
#freeme
#getmattofftheps5
HELP
See
Mel understands..
Where did my melody go
Heh
GET IT
get it mel
get it
please tell me you get jt
My sisters phone got taken away

WHILE
She was texting serenity
Oh
AND HES KEEPING IT FOR THE REST OF THE DAH

Im going through my gallery
Found our old messages
@granite gull









