#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!

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granite gull
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You the slave

spark river
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oh

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ummm

granite gull
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Just an idea

spark river
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Heh

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How about smth different

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💔

granite gull
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Okay wait

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You gonna be the gardener

spark river
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Hm

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Why gardener?

granite gull
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I'mma let you guess

spark river
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Hm

granite gull
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I'm so bored

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Jumping will be fun atp

spark river
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yeha

granite gull
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😔

spark river
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me too

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I've been bored

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For years

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Because

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You don't give me

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attention anymore

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and

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and

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and you don't wanna play with me

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because you are always bush

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and

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and

granite gull
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Oh yeah I fell asleep

spark river
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HEPPP

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HELP0

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HELP

granite gull
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Mid text too

spark river
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I knew it..

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...

granite gull
spark river
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My sister does NOT like me

granite gull
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Why

spark river
granite gull
spark river
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got excuted

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thought it was lint

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heh

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Lint

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Ling

granite gull
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...

spark river
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Okay what the freak!

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Im so tired

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And I'm so done

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Guys

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I love being silly

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But im going emo

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I'm going crazy

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This isn't cute

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So cooked

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I'm gonna start praying again

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Gonna start to reconnect with gang again

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Im so cooked

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Why do all these bad things happen to me

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they happen for reasons I tell myself

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But guys

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This isn't cool

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It's not fair

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And I always try to stay positive

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Because I like to be happy

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I like to be silly

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I like to dance

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I like to laugh

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I like to pose

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I like to make funny faces

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I like to be myself

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Im glad I get to express other emotions

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Like

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Sadness

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And frustration

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But I keep getting all these like

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Things thrown at me

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Like holy smokes guys

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what is going on

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One day ima snap and put everyone in a aaron

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💔

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Im losing everything and everyone

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Heh

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Nyaa

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And I'm staying positive

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And I'm proud of myself for that

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But guys

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I gotta be real

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Im not nonchalant

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And I'm not gonna act like I don't constantly cry

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like

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are we real

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Im going emo

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I like

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Like

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I met him

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When I wasn't looking for anyone

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He just popped out of no where

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NO WHERE!

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And then

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I just lost him

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When I liked him the most

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are we real guys

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this has happened

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Twice

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The first time it stung

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And yes

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It took me like

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Months

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To get over it

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But this time

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The 2nd time

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It stung worse

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This isn't cool

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And it hurts

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It still does

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Despite it happening

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What?

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2 days ago

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Pretty recent

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But still

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And

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it feels like

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no matter who I turn to

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they always blame me

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they always tell me to just move on

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and tell me it will be okay

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they tell me that

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I'll meet someone knew

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heh

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new*

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but they don't GET JT

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He was different

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He was a great friend

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He IS a great friend

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one of the best

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He is older

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But he never

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Not once

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Made me uncomfortable

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He never tried to be weird

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He never was weird

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He never made disgusting jokes

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Never

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Never

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Never

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The first guy

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Did

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This guy?

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Nope

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You don't understand how good it felt to have a friend

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A guy friend

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That wasn't weird

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so

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tell me

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is it supposed to NOT hurt when we stopped talking?

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I stopped talking

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He didnt

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Until he did

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Maybe he's awake right now

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but maybe he's sleeping

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But even if he was awake

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He wouldn't be reading this

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he wouldn't be reading my messages

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He'd be reading someone elses

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which is what stings the most

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but

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It will take

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More than a day

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More than a week

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Maybe even more than a couple months

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For me to officially move on

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And yk what

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I have to

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At first

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I was gonna take my time

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But now

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I just have to

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All I can do

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Is message other people

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And let him slowly go to the bottom of my dms list

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but

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that's impossible

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And it won't ever happen

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Why?

nimble heron
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I’m almost done

spark river
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heh

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heh

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YAY

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#hardworkerwho?

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LING!!

nimble heron
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Brake

spark river
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heh

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brake

nimble heron
spark river
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oo

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foam

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Heh

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YUMMY

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you are

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a very hard worker

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#LINGKING

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gottem

nimble heron
# spark river And it won't ever happen

Letting go is hard tic, especially when it’s someone u cherish. They’d stay on your mind and pop in once in a while but your feelings will find peace and it won’t be as hard to think about them!

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It takes a long time to process loss

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So it’s okay to feel and take your time it’s very normal!

nimble heron
spark river
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dude

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im like

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mega loving this

spark river
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#bestfriendguys

spark river
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texted about

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8 ppl

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he went down now

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I think

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I wouldn't be stupid enough to constantly scroll down my dms list to check if he's texted me

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I think

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I perchance

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have to sleep nwo

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now*

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my hair looks bad

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but

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thats okay

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it's not but I guatta stay positive

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time to go to bed

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I love you both 1000000 mega percent

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Goodnight Mel

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And Goodnight Ling

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🩷 🩷 🩷

nimble heron
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Goodnight ticcc!!

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Sweet dreams and sleep well

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Mel r u sleeping now too?

granite gull
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Goodnight!!!!!!!

granite gull
nimble heron
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Go to bed.

granite gull
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No

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I got better stuff to do then sleep 🤷‍♀️

nimble heron
granite gull
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Like drawing, my journal that I forgot to do....

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😔

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I LOVE my journal homework 🥹

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It's so easy

nimble heron
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Wish my hw has journaling

spark river
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Heh

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GUESS WHO WOKE UP

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OH MY GOD I FORGOT ABOUT MY JOURNAL

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Augh

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Oh qqit

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Guess who woke up

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MEEEEEEEE

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I slept pretty awesome

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I wish I didn't have to go to school

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My hair looks kinda ass

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But that's okay guys...

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No its not but whatever

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I GYYAATTTA

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stya positive

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Heh

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heh

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nya!

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Guys check this out

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ehh

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heh

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jeongin

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☺️

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I just got the sharp pain in my breast agajn

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a bunch of lesbian beautys keep following me on insta

nimble heron
nimble heron
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What

spark river
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HIII

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Heh

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HAIII

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HELLLO

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HEYY

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SALUTATIONS

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YASYYSURU

spark river
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😿

spark river
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GUYS

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GUYD

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GUYS

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GUYS

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GYYS

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HELPP

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I don't wanna go to school

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But

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I have to

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Tbh i can be absent again

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Cuz my mom is letting me

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Choose

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But ima still go

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I forgot which day it is

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Like

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Bring anything but a backpack to school day

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Or

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The other

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And I forgot abt it

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I just wish I can stay home forever

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😔

nimble heron
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its wednesday there

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ohh rightt

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i forgot uhh my fav cookie back then was raspberry cookie

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im watching youtube rn and all my cookies got power creeped

spark river
spark river
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guyss

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we are loving that

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Ima start to get ready for school now

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😔

nimble heron
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Tic

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Is he good

nimble heron
spark river
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uhh

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wiat

nimble heron
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IM GUNNA BE ALONE

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Is Mel still sleeping

spark river
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WIAT HWAT

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DUDE

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YOU GOT A FREAKING BEAST

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WHAT THE HECK

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💔

spark river
spark river
spark river
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HES

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PRETTY AWESOME

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HES VERY GOOD

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Beasts are very good

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Ima put you in a aaron

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LIMES JOURNAL!!!!!!!!!!!!

nimble heron
spark river
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NO

nimble heron
spark river
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ITS REALLY REALLY GOOD GUYS

spark river
nimble heron
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Ok I’ll call u lime now

spark river
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OH

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HELP

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OLLAY

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OKAY

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You can call me whichever

nimble heron
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Dark cacao or the uh

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Beast

spark river
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BOTH

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are pretty awesome

nimble heron
spark river
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I think the beast has a lot of power

nimble heron
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kekW ok beast ( i still have no good healer/support )

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I use pomegranate cookie

spark river
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Idk about dark though, but he is a ancient so that's good

nimble heron
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How’re u feeling tic

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Can u make it through class today

spark river
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im feeling

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hm

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im feeling okay

spark river
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💔

nimble heron
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Make sure to bring extra ahem and drink lots of water!

spark river
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heh

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extra ahem

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im loving that

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BUT OKEYY DOOKKKEYY

spark river
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🥺

nimble heron
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I’m in math class rn tic

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I mean lime

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Oh ._.

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Didn’t u wake up early today

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U still have an hour till class

nimble heron
spark river
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Yeah but I take very long to get ready 💔

spark river
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I stole it from my sister

nimble heron
spark river
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#GOTTEM

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LMAO

nimble heron
spark river
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But I always finish around

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8:40

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Maybe

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😭

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But like

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On Wednesdays and Tuesdays i get ready fast cuz I don't have to pick out what to wear since I just wear a gym uniform

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I have to

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😔

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this is so #cute guys

Screenshot_20250326_080617_Locket.jpg
nimble heron
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What’s thathamster

nimble heron
spark river
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It's pretty cute,a

spark river
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Okay my hair isn't being nice to me ima cry

nimble heron
nimble heron
spark river
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yeah but it isn't staying the way I want it to

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😕

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And either way, the wind is gonna mess it up

nimble heron
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Heck

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Mel is still asleep

spark river
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I hate this

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I HATE MY HAIR

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GRR

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i hate everyine

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I hate this

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I hate this

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I hate wind

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okay nvm

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My hair is okay

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ima go now

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but istg

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This wind is gonna mess up my hair

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And if it does

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Ima maje my mom pick me up early

nimble heron
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Stay safe limeee! Study well take care, mel too

granite gull
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Gelatin 🤤

IMG_2454.jpg
spark river
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ina get you

granite gull
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I woke up turns all my alarms offf

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Read one of your text saying absent

spark river
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That's always the reason

granite gull
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So I fell back to sleep

spark river
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U gotta lock inn

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Bru

granite gull
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^_^

spark river
spark river
granite gull
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Idc

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It's good

spark river
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Alright biggie

granite gull
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Nope

spark river
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OH MY GOODIE

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so much happened today

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im so happy

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No

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I'm so happy

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But

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So mad

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Okay

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So

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Basically

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Umm

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OMG

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STOP

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heh

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during science

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I talked with Anderson

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Hes so cute

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His little giggle was everything 💔

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And

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In a way

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I fumbled

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Almost

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LIKE OMG

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STOP

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because dude

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I couldn't contain how shy I was around him

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Like

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I couldn't contain my excitement

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No

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OMG

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because

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Why did I start bouncing on my chair

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💔

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He watched me do it too

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BECAUSE

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I WAS LIKE

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TOO LOST IN MY THOUGHT

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AND I WAS LIKE

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BIUNCING IN MY CHAIR

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and

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he was staring at me

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Waiting for me to notice

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When I looked over at him

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And realized he was looking at me the entire time

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I almost jumped

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Tear

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RAN DOWN MY CHEEK

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Bro

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I probably got so red

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Because he laughed

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heh

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DYDE

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DYD

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DUDE

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this is corny

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And

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Cringe

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BUT DUDE

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HOLD ON

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Hes laughing!

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What wad he laughing about?

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How could he sit there and look so handsome

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HELPPP

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dude

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Don't play

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Im so in love with this guy

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And he probably doesn't even remember my name

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I almost cried

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I was so

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Like

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Shy

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And embarrassed

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Yet so

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Excited 💔

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AND THEN

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LIKE

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Mr cordera made everyone talk and switch paper with their partners

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My partner

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Andy

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Anderson

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Andywandy

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Heh

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So

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DUDE

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STOP

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WE BOTH SLOWLY TURNED TO EACH OTHER

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THE SLOW TURN

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HELPP

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and

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I gave him my paper

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And he gave me his paper

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Looked like his hands were trembling

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DONT PLAY

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and he got so nervous

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He was stuttering

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He said

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"Sorry I don't know how to write"

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Smth like that

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I giggled

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Hes so cute

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But

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He was right

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HELPP

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When I saw his paper

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A tear ran down my cheek

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His spelling is

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Something

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And grammar

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Was

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A whole ass different problem

granite gull
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Omg he's dumb

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Been knew

spark river
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And his hand writing

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Wasn't it

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But I got his idea

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His idea was good

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Just

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Not the writing

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He wrote "and" three times

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In a row

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I almost cried

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HELP

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But it's okay

granite gull
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You should've

spark river
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STOP

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Anf

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And

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I gave him my paper

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And he like

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Leaned down to the paper

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He couldn't read it

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Because

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I wrote too small

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Dude

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I was so embarrassed

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💔

granite gull
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You fumbled

spark river
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AND THEN IT WAS SO AWKWARD

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BECAUSE LIKE

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when we finished reading it

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We both just sat there

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And I was like

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I bet I was trembling

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HELP

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Because dude

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I was so shy

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AND STOP

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I KEPT ON LIKE

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IDK

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I KEPT GETTING EMBARRASSED

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because my chair kept creaking whenever id move in it

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that humbled me

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AND HIS CHAIR DIDNT EVEN DO THAT

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HES LIKE DOUBLE MY WEIGHT

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😕

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No offense though

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Cuz chubby guys are cute

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Well

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To be specific

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He is

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AND THRN

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I got too scared

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Like

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I panicked

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And

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Tell me why I turned to him

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Leaned closer

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💔

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And I said

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"Kiss me"

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HELP

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NO I DIDNT

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no i didnt

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I asked him "what are you gonna say if you get called on?"

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He giggled

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Nervously too

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And he said "I honestly don't know"

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OH YEAH

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WHEN I FINISHED READING HIS PAPER

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I was like

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"Do you want your paper back"

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I spoke quietly

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SO patiently

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like if

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he was crying

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or smth

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i spoke too gently to him

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heh

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AND HE WAS LIKE

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"Yes please"

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I giggled

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STOP

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HELPPP

granite gull
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He was scared

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I don't blame him

spark river
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LMAO

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and then

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yeah

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I asked him that

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And he answered

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And then like the nice person i am

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I showed him on my paper, what he can use as his answer

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And he nodded

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He whispered smth

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I thjnk

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But I didn't hear

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I think it was like a "okayy"

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IDK

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I FORGOT

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BUT OMG

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I forgot

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Hold on

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IT GOT SO QUIET

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THAT DUDE

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wait

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YEAH

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I WAS LIKE

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"So.. do you agree with me?"

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HELPPP

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And he nodded

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Scratched the back of his neck

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Dhde

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I almost threw myself onto him

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Man

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AND THEN

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OKAY

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and thennn

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ummm

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OH YEAH

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HE WAS SO NERVOUS LIKS AT THE START OF CKASS

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DUDE

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HE WAS SEARCHING IN HIS BAG

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DESPERATELY FOR A PENCIL

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guess what I djd

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I gave him my pencil

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MY PENCIL

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THAT I WAS USING

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heh

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he never gave it back

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And I'm glad

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Cuz

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now

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he has

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something that was mine once

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and now it's his

granite gull
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Oh he's pathetic 😕

spark river
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and he will always remember that I gave it to him

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Not some other girl

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ME

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And he will remember how nice I am

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To him

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And rhen

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He will fall in love with me

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And we will get married

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And he will use that exact same pencil to sign umm

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Too

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To

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To sign our kids birth certificate

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Trust

granite gull
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Thrust

spark river
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I giggled way too much while writing that

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OKAY

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So yeah

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He was so cute

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Im so happy I sit next to him

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OMG

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I FUMBLED BECAUSE

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WHILE I was talking to him

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Tell me why

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I giggled

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Looked away

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And like

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Sretched my arms on my face

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To like

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Almost cover my face

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DUDEE

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I GOT TOO

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SHY

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Im playing with my food

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BUF ANYWAHS

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um

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after that

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We went to ss

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MY TWO FAVORITE BOYS PRESENTED

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my little dylan

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And Andy wandy ☺️

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alright wrap it up

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Stop hating

granite gull
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No

spark river
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Ahyway

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Anyways

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They presented

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And

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IT WAS SO GOOD

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And I kept making eye contact with Andy

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Like

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I'd never really do that

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But bow

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Now

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After talking with him

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I kept making eye contact with him

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And at the end of it

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They had a picture of both of them

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Tg

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It was so cute

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Huh?

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Anyways

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But im so happy I got to talk with him

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Omg

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STOP

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WHY WAS I GETTING TOSSED AROUND

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THE ENTIRE DAY

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THEY DONE LOST MY COMPUTER

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SK

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SO

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FOR EVERY CKASS I HAD TO BORROW ONE

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And then

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Dude

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During ss

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I told ms Smith I didn't have jt

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And

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SHE ASKED WHO WANTED TO TAKE ME TO MR LEONS OFFICE

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Andersons hand shot up

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Not even ulises

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I giggled

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And I looked over at him too

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Heh

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I was about to hit a

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"I want this puppy!"

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"This one mama! This one!"

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I needed him

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To take me

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But guess who ms Smith chose

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Andres

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so

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he had to walk me

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😕

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Tell my why sylan told andres

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"Heh, w rizz!"

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Shut up

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I love dylan

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But I almost put him in a aaron

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But anyways

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I went with him

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And then

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Around the end of class

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I had to return the laptop I got from Mr leon

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Cuz it wasn't working

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So

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Yeah

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And then

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Tell me why

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Omw to his office

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ULISES

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AND

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ALEXANDER

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Both pulled up on me

granite gull
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You are gonna get passed around😕

spark river
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Alexander was like "that's the wrong way!!"

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And I was like

granite gull
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Oh

spark river
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No

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Im going to his office

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Xuz ms Smith sent alex to go check her mail thingy

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On the 4th floor

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And

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I went to go put away the laptop

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But dude

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Alexander followed me around

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He came with me

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And he said

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"Oh ms Smith just told me to come with you"

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NO SHE DIDNT BRO 💔 nooo

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And ulises ran off

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Bro probably went to the lunch room for a snack

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HELP

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Alex followed me there

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And walked me back to class

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As if I didn't know my way there???

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And then

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Ms Smith was like

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"Did i get anything in my mail?"

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Alex ran back out to go check

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Bro

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AND THEN GENESISS

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Left early

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Oh

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I meant but like

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Not

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But

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Kiki

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Heh

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Anyway

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She left around the start of ss

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So

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I didn't care

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But bro

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Why was i getting tossed around

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😕

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Mel

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What was my computer number

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Tell me

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Cux

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Cuz

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I said it was 8

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Then I said 10

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HELP

granite gull
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It was 8

spark river
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Turns out blindons is 10

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I fimbeld

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HELP

granite gull
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HOW DON'T YOU KNOW THIS???

spark river
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BC

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THE STICKER ON MY COMPUTER CAME OFF A WHILE AGO

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But I just told them my pouch number was 8 so it must be 8

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So yeah

granite gull
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There's literally a poster saying our number...

spark river
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It fekl

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It's like

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Gone

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??

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But anywahs..

granite gull
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Doesn't matter??

spark river
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That's all the happened tbh

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That*

granite gull
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Oh

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So boring useless day?

spark river
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Anthony was looking majestic

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Like always

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Oh yeah

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We are going like

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Next tjme

granite gull
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Tomorrow

spark river
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Cuz ms Smith said we will present next time you come back

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So yeah

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Or take a bullet for the team and be absent

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HELPP

granite gull
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Bro

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How many people went?

spark river
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Ummm

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Everyone

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But

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Dani wasn't there

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And you werent

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OH WAIT

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U MEAN

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PRESENTED?

granite gull
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Yeah

spark river
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Like 4 teams went

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So

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Dylan and Anderson

granite gull
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Bro why we getting targeted😕

spark river
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Blindon and Miguel

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Justin and andres

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Andd

granite gull
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I didn't sign up for this

spark river
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Kiara, Kaylee, and jecka

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Yeah

spark river
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Smh

granite gull
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ONG

spark river
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LMAO

granite gull
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IMV CLLMRF

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I CAUGHT MY SISTER EATING A JELLY SHOT

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IT HAS GELATIN AN LIQUOR IN IT

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Never had I took something away that fast

spark river
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WHAT

granite gull
spark river
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OH MY GOD??

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HELP

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STOP

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Okay

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Who made those

granite gull
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My mom

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Who else?

spark river
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L mom

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I love her

granite gull
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No

spark river
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BUT dude

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Cmon

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That poor girl didn't know any better

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And mom

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Just left them there

granite gull
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My mommys gonna get me😕

spark river
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She could've covered it with foil

granite gull
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She ate one of them fully and tried to eat another one

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😕

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Bro my baby sister won't stop crying

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I'mma get her

spark river
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HELP

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dude

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Idj how you put up with them

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I would've tied each in a chair

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The good ones get to roam around free

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HELPP

granite gull
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Everyone will be tied then

spark river
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HELP

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LMAO

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and genesis

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I mean

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Heh

granite gull
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Fr

spark river
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Windy day isn't it?

granite gull
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Yes it is

spark river
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bru

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im reading this guys journal

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Matt

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dude

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They gotta free my guy 💔

granite gull
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Bro I have to watch so my brother doesn't run away or hit them

spark river
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HELP

granite gull
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My mom won't listen to me when I tell her to give him away😕

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She says no one will want him

spark river
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HELP

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Pheh

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Heh

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Put dah boyuh on dah stweets!

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sorry

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HELPP

spark river
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Guess who's done eatin!

granite gull
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I'mma fight these kids

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Don't play with me rn

spark river
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okay huge bruh

granite gull
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Nah you don't taste good😕

spark river
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oh ok vru

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Play jjs with my rn

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me*

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ok don't then

spark river
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Anwyas