#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!
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But anwyasy
time to
Try
And use the bathroom now
real man
by
Beabadoobee
song deadass started playing when I saw Anderson covering the photos of those girls 
man
he wouldn't ever do that with me
Probably cuz I'd never go in a photobooth
Bht
Yh
Time to go back to drawing
guys
I love drawing
and then
Behind the drawing
Ill
Like
Write
Like
Ill write about the drawing
Ill write smth pretty cute guys!
Or
smth silly
also, im glad I have finch.. Finch is lowkey helping me a lot, and since I've been tweaking out more often, sometimes people would rather distance themselves from me or else I'll put them in a AARON... but my peachy doesn't, which i think is pretty #cute. I also like the little reminders, it's cute. ^_^
3 goals left guhd
heh
so cool
Okay
Time to be grateful
And be happy
Because thinking negatively, won't help me feel better
so
I'm really happy because instead of being forced to go to school, my mom let me stay home. And I'm really grateful she did because I keep getting bad cramps which made me want to cry.. and I'm also getting time to rest my body which is great because yesterday I was standing all walking for more than half the day!
Plus, if i did go to school, it would have been really bad because I'm on my period and my legs keep randomly slightly giving up on me
I'm also pretty happy because I get to talk to ling more, since we only usually talk around the night. But today I got to talk to vro more early in the morning which is SPECTACULAR!
The week just started and it hasn't been going well for me at all. I've lost friends, I've gotten into a couple arguments, I've cried a lot, I just got my period, and I keep getting these mood swings
And I have a lot of school work to dk
Do*
but I'll stay positive
Why?
Because
My period will end soon, and it won't last forever
My body won't feel so sore anymore after a couple hours
I get to stay home and relax
I still have great and amazing friends that care about me
And after all the cries and sobs, ive always ended up laughing, or smiling with my friends
Bad things don't always last forever
I will have my downs
And I will also have my ups!
And that's okay
Because sometimes, to go UP, you have to be DOWN
heh
witerwee
And right now
Im
Down!
But ill be up
Ill be up and happy again!!
#heh
I got scared 2 times already
Sunset park!!!
waaahh!
I thought during gym i was gonna get jumped
y
๐ญ
Violet also got hit in the face
By who
2 TIMES
Don't say Genesis
Don't say her
Don't say her
Don't say her
Don't say her
Don't say her
Don't say her
By Genesis friend whateva her name is
Dont
Sah
Oh
Then it's okay
If Genesis hit violet in the face
We would be so cooked
Her
Woman
Would get hs
HELP
Yeah but still Violet didnt cry๐
No way Ashley cried
it couldn't have hurt that much
She doing allat for nothing
RR
You thugged it out
TSTST
SHES SLOW THATS WHY
rip ti the people who didnt finish the test today
for ling
They aint getting another chance
Shoulda been faster
Was it hard mel?
Deadass
The second last page was
Omg
The rest was lowkey easy
I cried at the 2nd page
Yeah
Wait
One of the questions didn't make sense
About
The scuba diver
Going up
And when they would ask
For like
Time check or smth
I didn't understand that
So I guessed
I couldnt get the rate
I put a random answer
It was 2
๐
I done stole it from dylan
LMAK
I kept making eye contact with Andy
Even my spelling mistakis are freakyโน๏ธ
Guys we are missing ling
Deadass
Yes we are
Yes we arreee!
๐
Missed ling so hard vro went on thy status...
loving that
69๐ผ
LOL
I remember once telling aaron and he made a whole scene
He kept on joking at the 69
w ling
Check status bru
I was about to give him one
LMAAOAOAOAO
dude
I love that
that single sentence
stopped me from crying
u guys don't understand
Ling so real for that
Its dirty but whateverrrr
yyeeep
heh
Nyaaa~
guyss
guys
you guys don't understand how much I love you two little poos
And genesis
Ofc
And my other friends
lile
like
Mel has made it so fun in my journal
Its genuinely so cool
I remember always looking at her and thinking
I wonder what it would be like to be her friend
And
Now
I've found out
Its the best thing ever
And for ling
Oh my god
Met ling recently
Through
This
Journal
It's genuinely so cool
Andd he's so funny
So silly
Bless his soul
Hes also helped me
With
Problems
And i can't thank vro enough
Hes like our older brother
And I've always wanted a brother
And I'm so happy
I cry because of it
and genesis
Shes so pretty
And
Shes slow
But guys
She's so funny when she's slow
And she's really vibrant
Which I think is cute
You guys are great friends
And right now
I'm probably at one of my lowest points
And you guys just being here
Is like
Everything
Even though genesis is probably eating rn
And even though mel is probably drooling over gojo
And even though ling is sleeping
I'm still
Grateful!
WHAT???
Who the hell is gojo?
THIS IS US
I am not geto
Youre the black one?
I was gonna do lingy but smth else popped up
YES
No
LAMOO
LMAO
HAHAAH
L
๐
L for ling
HAHAHAHAAAHAHAH
Wait
Im loving that
LOL
Heh
Lol
Has l
And ling has l
Lol = ling.. because ling makes us lauugh
GOTTEM
Heh
I'm too funny
loved you guhs a little too hard i turned you guhs into my user
HELP
HELPP
โน๏ธ
#cooked
Why did all the good stuff come out togetherโฆ
Phone just fell on my face
Ima go see
If
I can shower now
okay
I can shower now
But
My sisters keep going in and out of the bathroom
Heh
AAHYWAS
GUESS WHOS IN THE BATHROOM
Struggling to tinkle
STOP
@granite gull
I DONE GAGGED HER
HELPPPPP
๐ญ
Idk
Real
Okay ina put him in a aaron
You should
Yes
Ashley during gym
Lings is the bottom one
The shit we do at gym
STOPP NO BECAUSE WHY DID HER WHOLE TEAMM GET HIT ONECSSSS
Yes
STOP THEY TOOK TURNS ON HER??
๐
NO THEY ALL GOT HIT THE INES PLAYING LIKE JZELLE AND THE BIG WHITE GIRL WHO WEARS GLASSES AND WEEZER SHIRTS
๐ญ
They done knocked her glasses off
Dont body shame
Well
Not fat just big
HELPPP
You are NOT HIMMMM
STOPP
Do it
๐ก
HELP
Heh..
GUESS WHOS GONNA SHOWER
Mee
Im about to check my snap notification
If it's ulises
I jump
Ok it is
Ling why is mel such a freak
LMAOO
HUGE ๐
๐
Bye byeeee
Okayyyyy
Ne too
But
I kinda was texting you while showering sk
So
I probably took longer
Damn
Yeah
Ling is still dead as you can see!!
No he's dead
HELP WHAT
What
Anyways
This?
No
The other thing
What othe thing?
Nothing
Why lie?
I didn't tho
Don't lie.
What othe thing?
No the other thing
I don't remember what the "other" thing was tho
But you do
No I don't.
We CAME so far we can not give up nowwwww
Okay
I know it's HARD I know but it's time to let it go
Shoulda done it long ago...
One missed call my love๐๐ญ
Oh okay
My baby sister just scratchedne in the eye with her long nails
Might be bleeding who knows?
Bro she keeps pulling my hair
Atp
๐ก
I hope ling wakes up
#yuuuummmmyyy
^_^
ho what
Heh
Nyaaa!
I deadass started swallow the ice cream because
I didn't wanna taste the choco
I only like the mint
I read that so wrong๐
HELP
Dude
Im wating
Eating
Like
Too many chewy bars
But im not gaining weight sooo
100 calories a bar
Your crazy !!!!
I love tha
That
um
What is this shocking discovery
anwyays
Guys
Lets
Takk about something esle
Ima jump
Anwyay
Mel
Do you
Feel like
Playing with me
Yeh
Heh
^_^
Ima drink a huge cup of milk rn wait
Alright bru can you answer me
Um
Why does my milk have a little kick to it
๐
I love chewy bars
Yall dint understand
Dont
Heh
My mom is crashing out
And my sister kept yelling at me saying I'm glazing my mom whenever I side with my mom
I almost put her in a aaron
My papa is home
โบ๏ธ
Heh
FIME TI LISTEN TO OUR PLAYLIST
Anwgash
Ojay
So
Let me crash out
My sister
Stephanie
The middle one
Shes like
Really really cool
But bro
She has no chill
Since she was like
Probably
10
Or younger
My mom has been tryna get her to go to therapy or smth
Smth like that
Because she genuinely has anger issues
Some anger issues management thingy is what my mom has been tryna get her to go to
And like
Stephanies temper gets smaller with every argument
She get angry very easily
Like
ima jump
Just likee
um
Saturday I thimk
She had like a whole ass crash out
Mental break down or something
Something like that
And it was crazy
She already curses at my mom as it is but that day it was much worse
She was saying awful things
But not towards my mom
But like my mom was there and ig my mom thought she was saying all those things to her
And this all happened because my sisters teacher was basically talking really bad about my sister to my mom
And my mom kept apologizing to the teacher
AND my sister got really mad bc of it
She yelled
No
She like
Screamed at my mom
Telling her that she shouldn't be apologizing
My sister was so mad and she was crying and everything
And while this was happening, my sister was in a call with her friend or smth
It was crazy
๐
And i had just gotten home
Like
My mom picked me up that day
And she was really late
So I walked home basically
But like she found me near the house and walked with me
so yeah
But it sucked
NO one dared to go into the room where Stephanie was in
She was genuinely screaming
And crying
And she was so mad
And I get it
Because her teacher is a horrible tescher
That woman doesn't deserve that job
And I truly mean it
From what I've heard
Shes very petty
And she talks bad about all the students
I'm pretty sure she even gave all the kids failing grades
Apart from some guys
She deadass has favorites
She failed my sister even though my sister turned in all her work
๐
I hope she loses that job, no one likes her
but anyways
My older suster
THE oldest
Crashed out too
Because both my mom and sister were crying at the time
So she just went to the bathroom to cry
So
I was the only one home that wasn't crying
๐
But like
This always happens
Stephanie and my mom argue
My mom cries
Stephanie yells and curses at her
And then
It's like nothing happened
๐
And it pisses me off all the time
Because
I side with my mom obviously
Because my sister just gets mad easily and curses wayyy too much at my mom
And
Most of the time, my mom lowkey has a point
But when I side with my mom
Stephanie always curses at me
And says I'm "glazing" mom???
Like holy shit
Just because I'm not on your side im a glazer all of a sudden?
Lime omg
๐
Like*
Heh
Lime
๐ค
Abwyays
But yeah
It sucks
I just become my dad
I lay down
And I just don't say anything
Because no matter what I say
They gonna get me
๐
And lowkey
Jt feels like they always forget about me
It*
Which is why it sucks being the youngest
Because like
In a way, im a mix of my siblings
I have the patience
But yes
I get really stubborn most of the time
And i don't talk back
I rarely do
And also because I'm scared of my parents
But
My sisters are now older and stuff
Idk how to describe it
But
They both do bad things
And I'm not bragging or anything but im basically just a normal daughter
Like i don't over do it but I do sometimes
But not like them
Which is why
Sometimes my parents forget about me
Because there isn't much to yell at me for
So basically
my sisters get all the attention
since they are always doing bad stuff

But it feels good and bad
Cuz I want attention too
But
At least I don't get yelled ay
At*

guys we are loving this
witerwee ๐
HELP
FHSTS HOW I FELT DURING DRAMA
@granite gull
WHENEVER WE WPULD DO THOSE DAILY WORKOUTS
LMAOOP
Stop because I lowkey ate every tiem
because like
omg
okay
cuz
im not saying i hate my body
Like
I think my body is okay!
I could live with it
Im not insanely over weight
heh
according to my research..!
I'm just fine
But like I do have lile
fat i guess
but like
it's mostly in specific areas
And some girls would absolutely love to have fat in those areas
But I don't like it that much

Like i love my body
But if I was a bit taller
OR just
Taller in general
I'd be happier
^_^
Cuz I'm like
4'10
Or smth
And I gyatta grow
Anything above 5
Is great
But I wouldn't wanna be mega tall
But like
Definitely taller than 4'9
๐
Id show what my body looks like
But NO!
cuz I'm young
and there are creeps
lurking
But point is
I don't wanna be snatched like a barbie doll
I want to feel
Healthy
And be healthy
And lose any extra fat in have
i*
or smth

TIME TO BRUSH MY HAIR AGAIN
Having fat is very healthy and normal tic 
heheh
Hopefully
๐
I lost my phone on accident
๐
But anyways !
My hair better look good when I wake up tomorrow
And if it doesn't
I'm putting everyone in a aaron
Oh my god
STOP
HELP
MEL
MEL
MEL
MEL
MELLL
MELLL
@granite gull
LOOK
THIS WAS DYLAN IN THE PHOTOBOOTH
๐
Erm 
๐
Where the heck is mel!!
grr
grrr
GERRRR
waith
I forgot
if tomorrow is
like
don't bring a backpack to school today
augh
I FOROGT
I desperately wanna wear like
shorts
and
no sweaters
I need it to get hotter
It's gonna be cloudy tomorrow
๐
I wanna wear my shorts
And skirts
My dresses
Gr
grrr...
anwyas
I wanna cut my hair a bit shorter
like
up to my chest
mayhe!
maybe
I feel like
I don't wear my cute clothes enough
๐
I would look so much more cute with shorter hair
๐
Ima go bald atp
Forever hot here I wanna wear layered outfits
BALD TIC
I HATE HAVING TO WEAR SO MANY LAYERS
right I saw
How hot does it get in summer there
Yes he does

๐ผ
YUUUMMMYYY
that would be gone under a minute
Dont play ๐
I play
EXACTLYYY
my hair is so awesome gusg
WHEN SHE COMES BACK FROM SCHOOL, SHE IMMEDIATELY FALLS ASLEEP
๐
๐
I need this typa hair too
๐ฆ
Cute 
Iโm fine with any 
U guys pick first
Cookie run is under maintenance ๐ฆ
IM RHE LITTLE DARK ONW
HELP
YOU ARE
THE MIDDLE ONE
THE LTITLE NAKES ONE
ill put some clothes on it
OH WAIT
Mel is lurking
HELPP
MEL WHICH R U
Im the little brown one
I FEEL LIKE LING WOULD BE
THE KITTY
NEXT TO MINE
Us
WHATT
IM NAKED
Thank u tic
They tall
YES YES YESS!
W
Iโm cleaning my room. Rn
And washing my motorbike in about 10mins
WAHTTT
WHQTT
guys
that's so cool
#Verymature
#Veryclean
WE ARE LOVING THAT!
hmm
im feeling
hmm
I feel like
putting everyone in a aaron
I CANT TINKLE
IT HURTS TO TINKLE
I HATE THIS
AND I CAN BARELY WALK AFTER USING THE BATHROOM
AND IT KEEPS GOING UP MY BUM๐
AND I WADDLE
LIKE
A PENGUIN
but im happy
cuz my hair looks okay
and I'm #snatched
For now
My moms being racist ๐ก
WHY
HOW
WHAT IS SHE SAYIN
TOWARDS WHO
////<
Me omw to school
Mel rn
oh
I'mma make it myself atp



