M.Ss Journal | The Therapy Center | Page 3

brazen pawn Jul 4, 2025, 10:29 PM

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Whenever u feel like giving up, just remember us and know we all wish to see you achieve everything u wish for

wide vale Jul 4, 2025, 10:29 PM

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thats a problem

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i don't wish anything

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rooCoffee

brazen pawn Jul 4, 2025, 10:30 PM

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Dw, I hope you achieve the peace and prosperity you deserve

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Thats my wish
To make my friends happy and prosperous

wide vale Jul 4, 2025, 10:31 PM

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thank you 🥺
i wish you the same

brazen pawn Jul 4, 2025, 10:31 PM

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wide vale thank you 🥺 i wish you the same

See, u wish

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If u can wish then wish for the best for yourself too 💞☺️

wide vale Jul 4, 2025, 10:32 PM

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aww

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🥺🤗💕

brazen pawn Jul 4, 2025, 10:32 PM

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wide vale 🥺🤗💕

hug PeepoHeart

wide vale Jul 4, 2025, 10:33 PM

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WumpusCozy

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good night

brazen pawn Jul 4, 2025, 10:34 PM

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wide vale good night

Good night ms 🫰🏼

wide vale Jul 5, 2025, 11:31 PM

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i'm very hurt by a friend rn

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she stopped reqlly talking to me months ago🥺

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today she asked if im okay because she saw that i wrote in a game i'm sick

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then we talked a bit and she told me i should talk to her

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i said that i don't like talking to people that don't talk to me 🥺 especially since i'm very worried about her and don't want to bother her with that atm

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she became so mad
"how dare i tp emotionally black mail her"

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i mean yes. i understand what she meant it really wasn't meant like that thoigh🥺

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"My point is
I don’t want to talk, I am not the biggest fan of people atm so I keep things shallow and light
But you can always come and talk to me
If it’s even a bother I will let you know" i get it but we used to call to make jokes and so on🥺 and i can't handle taht

wide vale Jul 6, 2025, 12:07 AM

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i'm so done, i understand when people don't wanns talk it's okay but .. it hurts when they talk to others line usual. I mean yes i shouldn't be hurt by that but it does hurt

wide vale Jul 6, 2025, 12:29 AM

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i can't do this anymore

brazen pawn Jul 6, 2025, 4:08 AM

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wide vale i'm so done, i understand when people don't wanns talk it's okay but .. it hurts...

Your feelings are totally valid ms

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People come and people leave, dont be hurt about some people leaving

wide vale Jul 6, 2025, 8:01 AM

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i trx🥺

brazen pawn Jul 6, 2025, 8:31 AM

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wide vale i trx🥺

U can dw

wide vale Jul 6, 2025, 8:32 AM

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brazen pawn U can dw

thank you

brazen pawn Jul 6, 2025, 8:32 AM

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hug

wide vale Jul 6, 2025, 8:38 AM

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hugheart

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i'm just so tired of everything

brazen pawn Jul 6, 2025, 8:41 AM

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wide vale i'm just so tired of everything

U can take a rest budd

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hug

wide vale Jul 6, 2025, 8:42 AM

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i did for the last days 🥺

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i wanna be alone... but also not alone

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i just wanna dissappear

wide vale Jul 6, 2025, 11:31 AM

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gonna watch the sandman now. (yes my taste is weird but i just love it) and yeah I know about the author.. and i feel bad for watching it, but i love this show and i love "Good Omens" and i will do everything i can to see the final of it🤧

wide vale Jul 6, 2025, 8:54 PM

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finished the sandman and it's really a good show

brazen pawn Jul 6, 2025, 9:48 PM

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Great

wide vale Jul 6, 2025, 11:21 PM

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brazen pawn Great

hugheart

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can't sleep

brazen pawn Jul 7, 2025, 12:05 AM

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wide vale can't sleep

Oof

wide vale Jul 7, 2025, 5:12 AM

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||relapsed||

brazen pawn Jul 7, 2025, 5:27 AM

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wide vale ||relapsed||

Noooo 🥺

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Why

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Feel free to talk to us but dont hurt yourself please 🥺

wide vale Jul 7, 2025, 5:27 AM

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i gonna explain it later if you wnt

brazen pawn Jul 7, 2025, 5:28 AM

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wide vale i gonna explain it later if you wnt

Alright but pls dont hurt yourself anymore and go see a doctor if needed

wide vale Jul 7, 2025, 5:28 AM

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🥺it's not needed

brazen pawn Jul 7, 2025, 5:29 AM

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wide vale 🥺it's not needed

Pls apply first aid to yourself at least hamster

wide vale Jul 7, 2025, 5:30 AM

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brazen pawn Pls apply first aid to yourself at least <:hamster:1243091630420922389>

i did🥺🤗

brazen pawn Jul 7, 2025, 5:31 AM

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wide vale i did🥺🤗

Great

wide vale Jul 7, 2025, 6:40 AM

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hug

wide vale Jul 7, 2025, 9:20 PM

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i'm so tired

brazen pawn Jul 8, 2025, 12:39 PM

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wide vale i'm so tired

Awww take rest PeepoHeart

wide vale Jul 8, 2025, 12:43 PM

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still tired🤧

wide vale Jul 9, 2025, 6:20 PM

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i'm soo stressedd

wide vale Jul 10, 2025, 1:46 PM

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i'm so done

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🫠

brazen pawn Jul 10, 2025, 2:14 PM

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wide vale i'm so done

Its alright ms take rest

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hug

wide vale Jul 10, 2025, 2:17 PM

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i can't 🥺
i'm so busy

brazen pawn Jul 10, 2025, 3:35 PM

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wide vale i can't 🥺 i'm so busy

Oof

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I hope u get free soon

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PeepoHeart

steady hare Jul 11, 2025, 10:27 AM

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kellyhug

wide vale Jul 11, 2025, 8:51 PM

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okay sopn i'm hpme again... well in 22 hours but then finally resting

wide vale Jul 12, 2025, 1:47 PM

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i' not okay🥺 i'm so done

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i just i'm so useless

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uninteressant unimportant

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boring and weird just so weird

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i just finally want everything to je over

brazen pawn Jul 12, 2025, 2:12 PM

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wide vale i' not okay🥺 i'm so done

I will be alright ms

steady hare Jul 12, 2025, 5:35 PM

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🥺 😭 kellyhug

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Sweetheart

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Yoire important and loved. Youre cared for and interesting for the right people trust me

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We love you

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I love you

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And youre not alone

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jhugsss

wide vale Jul 12, 2025, 6:03 PM

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thank you spo much🥹

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||i kinda relapsed or whatever|| but i'm fine now🤗🤗

steady hare Jul 12, 2025, 6:05 PM

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🥺 🫂

wide vale Jul 12, 2025, 6:06 PM

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hug

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 4:55 AM

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wide vale ||i kinda relapsed or whatever|| but i'm fine now🤗🤗

🫂

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hug

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 4:26 PM

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ugh🥺

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i'm atm i'm just so angry

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and i hate being angry i'm never angry i don't wanna be angry

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i just wanna scream

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 5:06 PM

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wide vale i just wanna scream

Go to the rooftop and scream loudly PeepoHeart

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 5:06 PM

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which rooftop😅

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 5:06 PM

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Your own house

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 5:07 PM

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I don't have a rooftop 👀 neither a house. i live in an apartment and well i could scream from the balcony jut my neighbours hvae their balony next to mine 😅

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 5:08 PM

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wide vale I don't have a rooftop 👀 neither a house. i live in an apartment and well i cou...

Go the building rooftop then

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 5:08 PM

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there is no rooftop 🙃

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 5:08 PM

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Thats not possible

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U didnt have access to the rooftop i assume

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 5:09 PM

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the roof is shaped like this👀

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 5:10 PM

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wide vale the roof is shaped like this👀

Oh

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U have a park nearby?

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 5:10 PM

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brazen pawn Oh

😅so there is no real rooftop

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 5:10 PM

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brazen pawn U have a park nearby?

yes but people are in there🤧

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 5:10 PM

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wide vale 😅so there is no real rooftop

Sad

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 5:10 PM

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wide vale yes but people are in there🤧

Go there at 3 am

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And scream

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 5:11 PM

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brazen pawn Sad

nah i would be scared anyways 🙈

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don't wanna wake up everyone 😭

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 5:11 PM

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hug

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 5:11 PM

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hugheart

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how are you

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 5:34 PM

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wide vale how are you

I am good

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 5:45 PM

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brazen pawn I am good

yayyy thats great

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 5:45 PM

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wide vale yayyy thats great

Yeah

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I guess

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 5:46 PM

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what did you do todsy🤗

brazen pawn Jul 13, 2025, 6:03 PM

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wide vale what did you do todsy🤗

Well

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Nothing

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What about you

steady hare Jul 13, 2025, 6:26 PM

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Im here for you kellyhug

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You dont have to go through it alone ok?

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 7:17 PM

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steady hare You dont have to go through it alone ok?

🥺thank you

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i just wanna be normal

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i wanna fit in

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i don't wanna be alobe anymore

steady hare Jul 13, 2025, 7:21 PM

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Youre not alone

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I promise

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kellyhug

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Ik what you mean

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But im here🩵

wide vale Jul 13, 2025, 7:22 PM

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thank you🥺❤️ i knoe and i don't kbow what i would do without you and don't get me wrong i'm soo thankfull

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for you

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just a bit lost

steady hare Jul 14, 2025, 11:55 AM

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Love you

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gluv

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jhugsss

wide vale Jul 14, 2025, 12:13 PM

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love you too 🤗

wide vale Jul 14, 2025, 7:12 PM

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i'm so done

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feel like ||relapsing|| i just wanna dissappear

wide vale Jul 14, 2025, 8:23 PM

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my birthday on next sunday 🤧i hate barbecue.. and i wanted to celebrate alonenow i celebrate with my whole family while eating barbecue

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and they gonna celebrate her... on my birthday because she got a promotion

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you know it would be okay.. if it would br just my birthday 🥺 but it's always like this nobody cares about what i want. i'm invicible for them... and the only times they see me they want me to change

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also she is giving me a new desj for my birthday i said she can order it to my place 🤧 she said no

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she said she will bring it to me in September.. to help me building it up 🥺

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and my mum never keeps her promises

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when she says September its probably march 🤧

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when i was a child i slept in the same room with her 🥺 in the evenings i asked her when she will come and read a good night story (i was a clingy child)

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she often said she will come in 5 minutes..

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then i layed in bed and counted 🥺 i counted the seconds

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my record is 15378 seconds... 🥺 i cried soo much that night because i felt so alone.. but she got angry when i stood up so i stayed in bed cried and counted

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i still remember the number... and i don't think i will ever forget

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also since i'm 7 i'm asking my mum for a birthday cake.. she said next year so often.. i never had a birthday cake in my life 🥺

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now idc anymore but it hurted me si much back then🥺

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or this one game i loved to play she said we will play it again soon... i didn't play it since i was 8.. and i asked often

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i cooked, cleaned the dishes.. did the laundry

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and then people complain im too boring and mature and always was...like really???

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i jsut want to be normal... but all that and so much more made me like tvis... made me weird

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sorry for this ... 🤗 needed to idk vent a bit.. and i'm sure i made a ton of grammer mistakes anf missclicks (sorry 🥺🥺)

brazen pawn Jul 15, 2025, 11:57 AM

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wide vale my birthday on next sunday 🤧i hate barbecue.. and i wanted to celebrate alonen...

First of all, happy early birthday ms 🥳🎉👏🏼 hug

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And i am sorry u had to go through all this as a child hamster

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hug

wide vale Jul 16, 2025, 9:53 AM

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||feel like relapsing||

steady hare Jul 16, 2025, 10:49 AM

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Im here for you

wide vale Jul 16, 2025, 11:08 AM

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||relapsed🥺
i'm so sorry||

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hugheart

wide vale Jul 17, 2025, 7:52 PM

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on days like today i notice how much my mood can change me

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i'm myself

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i feel like myself and i behave like i used to be and gosh i love it

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i like myself like this

brazen pawn Jul 18, 2025, 3:42 AM

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wide vale i like myself like this

Great hugheart

steady hare Jul 18, 2025, 9:05 AM

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Youre doing great sweetheart gluv

wide vale Jul 18, 2025, 9:06 PM

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elizabeth bishop is such an incredibly inspiring woman

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i love her poems

wide vale Jul 18, 2025, 9:36 PM

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Life feels wrong,
and that scares us,
we create our own problems,
then complain about them.

We fear being useless,
being invisible,
yet in the middle of all this noise,
there’s a quiet truth.

If you accept the mess,
the confusion, the pain,
you start to see the value
in simply being here, breathing.

It’s not about perfection,
or having everything figured out,
it’s about showing up,
even when the world feels meaningless.

And in that showing up,
in that stubborn breath,
you find a spark
your reason to live.

brazen pawn Jul 19, 2025, 3:31 AM

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Damn

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hamster

wide vale Jul 19, 2025, 3:53 AM

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hug

wide vale Jul 19, 2025, 8:55 PM

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i'm just scared of tomorrow also i'm scared of how it will make me feel when people forget it🥺
like everyday

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when my closest friends forget my birthday

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that just hurts i can't stand that this year

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i'm going crazy because i don't know how to distract myself any longer 🫠 1 more hour

wide vale Jul 19, 2025, 9:16 PM

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I don't want anything rn🥺

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i don't wanna be alone

wide vale Jul 19, 2025, 9:35 PM

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idk what to do

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i'm lost

wide vale Jul 19, 2025, 9:57 PM

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🫠now waiting for a call

steady hare Jul 19, 2025, 10:29 PM

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kellyhug

wide vale Jul 19, 2025, 10:49 PM

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hugheart

brazen pawn Jul 20, 2025, 7:12 AM

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wide vale i'm just scared of tomorrow also i'm scared of how it will make me feel when peo...

Happy birthday ms

wide vale Jul 20, 2025, 7:21 AM

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brazen pawn Happy birthday ms

thank you sooo much🥹🥹

wide vale Jul 20, 2025, 12:57 PM

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i don't wanna sound mean but the presents are kinda rude 🫠
they don't like who i am hpw i am and what i like

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so tgey always give me things i don't like to "change" me

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because my taste is just a phase

brazen pawn Jul 20, 2025, 1:48 PM

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wide vale so tgey always give me things i don't like to "change" me

Giving a gift in hopes of changing someone is never good

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They just make u insecure more

wide vale Jul 20, 2025, 1:57 PM

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brazen pawn They just make u insecure more

yeah🫠

brazen pawn Jul 20, 2025, 2:35 PM

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wide vale yeah🫠

hug

wide vale Jul 20, 2025, 3:27 PM

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g_dino_cry

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i'm so exhaustet

wide vale Jul 21, 2025, 2:30 PM

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overthinking soo much today

steady hare Jul 21, 2025, 5:35 PM

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Im sorry

brazen pawn Jul 21, 2025, 7:29 PM

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wide vale overthinking soo much today

hug

wide vale Jul 21, 2025, 7:29 PM

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brazen pawn <:hug:1322460748646973512>

it's okay🥺

brazen pawn Jul 21, 2025, 7:29 PM

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wide vale it's okay🥺

PeepoHeart

wide vale Jul 21, 2025, 7:31 PM

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brazen pawn <:PeepoHeart:816438620453076994>

dino_coeur

brazen pawn Jul 21, 2025, 7:34 PM

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wide vale <:dino_coeur:1260215848535068673>

🫰

wide vale Jul 21, 2025, 10:20 PM

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in 2 weeks at tge vacation with my aunt.. if i relapse i'm cooked so.. i need to resist bettter than ever but that stresses me🥺

wide vale Jul 22, 2025, 11:29 AM

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i'm soo nervous 🤧 therapy again ahhh

wide vale Jul 22, 2025, 1:06 PM

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i need to eat🫠

wide vale Jul 22, 2025, 8:53 PM

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||i'm sorry for lying about being well🥺 idk what to do anymore ||

wide vale Jul 23, 2025, 6:04 AM

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||I feel like relapsing so much.. clean for 7 days..🥳🤧 but for the wrong reason.. i'm scared i will relapse veryy worse ater the vacation 🥺 because then the reason is gone.. I don't wanna self harm but odk what to do.. i need to get rid of the feeling that causes my sh but idk how 🥺 idk anything just that im scared and that i can't fight anymore||

wide vale Jul 23, 2025, 7:51 AM

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||relapsed but it's okay i'm stilk proud of myself 🤗 next time we can fight the urge for longer||

wide vale Jul 23, 2025, 3:59 PM

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i'm so tired.. playing sims 4 again 🤣 for hours 🤧 to distract myself

wide vale Jul 23, 2025, 4:54 PM

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I know ozzy osbourne wasn't such a nice guy..🤧 but still, it really hurts that he died... and well jungblud is a veryy nice person.. but i don't likr the music that much 🥺

wide vale Jul 23, 2025, 6:32 PM

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okay okay i get it i'm a coward who will never have any friends until i change who i am and myself completely great 🫠

brazen pawn Jul 23, 2025, 7:01 PM

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hug

brazen pawn Jul 23, 2025, 7:01 PM

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wide vale okay okay i get it i'm a coward who will never have any friends until i change w...

I will be your friend

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U dont have to change anything to make friends

wide vale Jul 23, 2025, 7:02 PM

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thann you🥺

wide vale Jul 23, 2025, 7:02 PM

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wide vale I know ozzy osbourne wasn't such a nice guy..🤧 but still, it really hurts that ...

my mum said that to me btw

steady hare Jul 23, 2025, 7:25 PM

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wide vale ||i'm sorry for lying about being well🥺 idk what to do anymore ||

Sweetie...🥺 kellyhug

steady hare Jul 23, 2025, 7:25 PM

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wide vale ||relapsed but it's okay i'm stilk proud of myself 🤗 next time we can fight the...

We will work on that together ok? kellyhug

wide vale Jul 23, 2025, 7:26 PM

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thank you🥺💕

steady hare Jul 23, 2025, 7:26 PM

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wide vale ||I feel like relapsing so much.. clean for 7 days..🥳🤧 but for the wrong reaso...

Im so proud of you lovely🩵 youre wonderful

steady hare Jul 23, 2025, 7:26 PM

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wide vale my mum said that to me btw

Tf...

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I hope yk thats not true

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Im gonna go to dm

wide vale Jul 23, 2025, 7:27 PM

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steady hare Im so proud of you lovely🩵 youre wonderful

thank you i'm soo proud of you too 🥹

wide vale Jul 25, 2025, 6:47 AM

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ugh i'm arguing with tge friend of mine again

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he doesn't believe me i showed him facts, in the internet🤧 i told hil but he doesn't believe me

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i'm saying the truth🥺

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and i hate it when people don't believe me

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i say the truth

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g_dino_cry

wide vale Jul 25, 2025, 8:37 AM

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Today some friends told me I often seem like I'm high😭🤣 because I always sleep less and overthink... apparently i seem high then🙈🤣

brazen pawn Jul 25, 2025, 9:56 AM

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wide vale Today some friends told me I often seem like I'm high😭🤣 because I always sleep...

hug

wide vale Jul 25, 2025, 9:57 AM

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bearhug

wide vale Jul 25, 2025, 9:57 AM

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brazen pawn <:hug:1322460748646973512>

how are you

brazen pawn Jul 25, 2025, 9:58 AM

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wide vale how are you

Tired

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Tomorrow is an exam and i can't study anymore

wide vale Jul 25, 2025, 9:59 AM

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brazen pawn Tomorrow is an exam and i can't study anymore

awe you can do it🤗
i'm proud of you anyways

wide vale Jul 25, 2025, 9:59 AM

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brazen pawn Tired

rest a bit

brazen pawn Jul 25, 2025, 9:59 AM

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wide vale awe you can do it🤗 i'm proud of you anyways

I am also very proud of you PeepoHeart

brazen pawn Jul 25, 2025, 10:00 AM

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wide vale rest a bit

Cant afford that rn

wide vale Jul 25, 2025, 10:00 AM

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brazen pawn I am also very proud of you <:PeepoHeart:816438620453076994>

thank youu🤗

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just some minutes🥺

brazen pawn Jul 25, 2025, 10:00 AM

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Okie

wide vale Jul 25, 2025, 10:00 AM

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🤗💕thank you

wide vale Jul 25, 2025, 11:08 AM

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ehm.. i wanna go outside but it's embarrassing 😭 i'm not a child anymore.. but still. I won competitions with paperplanes 🤣😭 i miss that

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before anyone complains its kot waste i need to destroy that paper afterwards anyways

brazen pawn Jul 25, 2025, 5:08 PM

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wide vale ehm.. i wanna go outside but it's embarrassing 😭 i'm not a child anymore.. but ...

Dude thats so cool!!!!!

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PeepoHeart

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hug

winged widget Jul 26, 2025, 9:01 AM

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PeepoHeart

wide vale Jul 26, 2025, 9:33 AM

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brazen pawn Dude thats so cool!!!!!

thank youu🤗🤗

wide vale Jul 26, 2025, 9:33 AM

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winged widget <:PeepoHeart:816438620453076994>

bighug

wide vale Jul 26, 2025, 11:26 PM

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i'm home

steady hare Jul 27, 2025, 6:31 AM

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kellyhug

wide vale Jul 27, 2025, 8:51 PM

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is hapiness worth the suffering?

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i start doubting that its worth ut

wide vale Jul 27, 2025, 9:56 PM

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good night

brazen pawn Jul 28, 2025, 8:59 AM

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wide vale good night

Good morning ms

wide vale Jul 28, 2025, 9:20 AM

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brazen pawn Good morning ms

morning 🤗

brazen pawn Jul 28, 2025, 9:21 AM

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wide vale morning 🤗

How's your day going so far

wide vale Jul 28, 2025, 9:27 AM

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brazen pawn How's your day going so far

i overslept🙈

brazen pawn Jul 28, 2025, 9:28 AM

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wide vale i overslept🙈

Great, at least u got an ample amount of rest

wide vale Jul 28, 2025, 10:12 AM

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brazen pawn Great, at least u got an ample amount of rest

🤣i slept horrible.. flashbacks were pretty worae tonight so i really needed it

brazen pawn Jul 28, 2025, 10:13 AM

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wide vale 🤣i slept horrible.. flashbacks were pretty worae tonight so i really needed it

hug

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Oof

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Its alright dw

wide vale Jul 28, 2025, 10:43 AM

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brazen pawn Its alright dw

yeah🥺 thank you

wide vale Jul 29, 2025, 8:14 PM

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||ugh idk what to do i just wanna relaps but i can't 🥺||

wide vale Jul 29, 2025, 9:28 PM

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idk what to do anymore🥺

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i feel so idk.. emotional empty

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i feel nothing, i just wanna feel something

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something better than this

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i'm not really sad...but still sad... if that makes any sense

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idk how to make myself feel something 🥺

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.. well .. i know it's wrong and doesn't help in long term.. but rn i just wish i could do it

brazen pawn Jul 30, 2025, 1:14 AM

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hug

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I will be free in 8 hours, after that you can talk to me whole heartily PeepoHeart

wide vale Jul 30, 2025, 2:16 AM

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brazen pawn I will be free in 8 hours, after that you can talk to me whole heartily <:PeepoH...

you are amazing 🥹

brazen pawn Jul 30, 2025, 2:18 AM

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wide vale you are amazing 🥹

You are amazing too PeepoHeart hug

wide vale Jul 31, 2025, 4:55 PM

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||i feel like relapsing so bad but i can't ||

wide vale Jul 31, 2025, 5:32 PM

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skills sre not helping

brazen pawn Jul 31, 2025, 5:59 PM

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wide vale ||i feel like relapsing so bad but i can't ||

Dont do it pls 🥺

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hug

wide vale Aug 1, 2025, 9:10 AM

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i'm not strong enough

steady hare Aug 1, 2025, 10:11 AM

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wide vale i'm not strong enough

You are sweetie

hidden stream Aug 1, 2025, 10:47 AM

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wide vale ||i feel like relapsing so bad but i can't ||

I'm a recovering alcohol addict. If you want some to talk to that understands addiction, feel free to message me. You are loved and matter ❤️

wide vale Aug 1, 2025, 10:48 AM

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hidden stream I'm a recovering alcohol addict. If you want some to talk to that understands ad...

aww thank you very much i appreciate it a lot🥺

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rn i don't feel like talking at all, but i would like to. On another day🤗

hidden stream Aug 1, 2025, 10:50 AM

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wide vale rn i don't feel like talking at all, but i would like to. On another day🤗

I understand. It's no rush. Talk to me anytime even if its just you wanting to keep your mind busy. I can talk about just about anything. Please stay strong. I also know what relapse is like. One day at a time fam ❤️

wide vale Aug 1, 2025, 10:51 AM

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hidden stream I understand. It's no rush. Talk to me anytime even if its just you wanting to k...

🥹thank you so much, it means a lot to me

hidden stream Aug 1, 2025, 10:52 AM

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wide vale 🥹thank you so much, it means a lot to me

Of course. May I add you just in case I get lost? I'm a boomer with discord kekW
If not no rush, you can just ping or dm me when ready.

wide vale Aug 1, 2025, 10:52 AM

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hidden stream Of course. May I add you just in case I get lost? I'm a boomer with discord <:ke...

yes of course 🤗

hidden stream Aug 1, 2025, 10:54 AM

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wide vale yes of course 🤗

Sent fam

wide vale Aug 3, 2025, 10:44 AM

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i don't even have time for discord 🤧

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in my vacation 😭

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rn i'm alright, just relaxing

brazen pawn Aug 3, 2025, 2:44 PM

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wide vale rn i'm alright, just relaxing

So just relax

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We are not going anywhere

wide vale Aug 3, 2025, 2:54 PM

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brazen pawn We are not going anywhere

but i'm goint crazyyy🤧🤣

brazen pawn Aug 3, 2025, 2:54 PM

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wide vale but i'm goint crazyyy🤧🤣

Be calm, take deep breaths and enjoy the moment

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Even tho u can't, try your best

wide vale Aug 3, 2025, 3:24 PM

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thank you 🥺🤗

brazen pawn Aug 3, 2025, 3:32 PM

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wide vale thank you 🥺🤗

Your welcome 🤗😁

wide vale Aug 3, 2025, 8:53 PM

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its tii warm abd just everything sucks🥺

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i can't sleeo

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don't wnana do anything

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just wanna scream

wide vale Aug 3, 2025, 9:57 PM

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😭

hidden stream Aug 3, 2025, 10:56 PM

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wide vale just wanna scream

Same here. Keep your head up fam

brazen pawn Aug 4, 2025, 1:14 AM

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wide vale just wanna scream

Do it at 3 am, let others fear for what they have done to u

steady hare Aug 4, 2025, 1:26 AM

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Sweetie... im so sorry you have to deal with all of this🥺 you can text me anytime kellyhug

wide vale Aug 4, 2025, 5:36 AM

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hug

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i try my besh

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tgank you guys

wide vale Aug 4, 2025, 2:19 PM

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this womann(my aunt)
is soo crazyy

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she always tries to analyse me... and she is horrible at it

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she thinks i'm happyy and enjoy everything while i'm fucked up...

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then as soon as i feel a bit relaxed she asks "why are you so annoyed now? do you think everything bad now or what??" 😭

wide vale Aug 5, 2025, 6:00 AM

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now we are on a trip for 8 more hours

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i wanna go homr 😭

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13 days clean

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🤧

steady hare Aug 5, 2025, 9:51 AM

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wide vale 13 days clean

Im so proud of you sweetheart 🩵

wide vale Aug 5, 2025, 10:47 AM

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thank you 🥺

hidden stream Aug 5, 2025, 10:55 PM

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wide vale 13 days clean

2 weeks clean is MASSIVE! Just popping in to remind ya I'm here for you if you wanna tall. Stay strong!!

brazen pawn Aug 6, 2025, 12:15 PM

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wide vale 13 days clean

Great 😃👍🏼

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All the best ms 🫰🏼

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PeepoHeart

wide vale Aug 6, 2025, 12:16 PM

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awe ghann youu

wide vale Aug 6, 2025, 12:17 PM

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hidden stream 2 weeks clean is MASSIVE! Just popping in to remind ya I'm here for you if you w...

thann you 🥺💕

wide vale Aug 7, 2025, 11:32 AM

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🤗

wide vale Aug 7, 2025, 1:34 PM

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now my grandma invited us on saturday evening 😭😭

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i wanted to finally rest

wide vale Aug 7, 2025, 3:23 PM

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i'm very introverted and talk not much atm because i feel bad. And i just saw something on my aunts phone 😑

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my grandma and her talked about me behind my back

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you know it's not a problem to be autisticy everyone is different and some of my friends are autistic🤗 i still love them... but i'm not, i even made the test twice and i'm not autistic. But they talked about mr being autistic and thats why iXm so weird... wtf fuck them

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i mean, it's noz that they assumed it, idc.. but that they say "thats why she is so weird and so on" that hurts so much rn🫠

wide vale Aug 7, 2025, 4:11 PM

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i wrote a veryy long text about this but i won't send them here because of ehm.. many curses

wide vale Aug 9, 2025, 9:34 PM

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||i didn't sh because of the vacation.... now it's over and yeah rn i feel like there is no reason to not do so. I know my mental health is a goof reason.. but after "wearing a mask" for a whole week i don't really feel anything about myself anymore. Idc about myself ||

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teh last week i did nothing for myself i lived to survive. I don't remember much, i don't even want to think of the vacation

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every morning hiding my scars with makeup.. and then just doing everything my aunt wants

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i was too scared of any discussions with her🥺

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i knew i wasn't stronh enough mentally

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so i gave up myself in the last week

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now idk🥺

brazen pawn Aug 10, 2025, 8:25 AM

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wide vale now idk🥺

🫂🫂

brazen pawn Aug 10, 2025, 8:25 AM

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wide vale ||i didn't sh because of the vacation.... now it's over and yeah rn i feel like ...

I know how it feels to "wear a mask" in front of everyone

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And there is nothing we can't do about it Sadge

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Except for supporting each other hug

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You got this ms, don't worry hug PeepoHeart

wide vale Aug 10, 2025, 8:28 AM

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brazen pawn And there is nothing we can't do about it <:Sadge:816438620470771713>

hug

wide vale Aug 10, 2025, 8:28 AM

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brazen pawn You got this ms, don't worry <:hug:1322460748646973512> <:PeepoHeart:81643862045...

thank you🥺💕

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i'm here for you

brazen pawn Aug 10, 2025, 8:32 AM

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wide vale i'm here for you

Me too 🫂❤️

wide vale Aug 10, 2025, 8:33 AM

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brazen pawn Me too 🫂❤️

thqnk you bighug

wide vale Aug 10, 2025, 3:14 PM

#

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sooo borrf

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bored*

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that was my reference 😅 soo... could have been better but is okay

brazen pawn Aug 10, 2025, 4:19 PM

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wide vale

Crazy art ms ❤️❤️

wide vale Aug 10, 2025, 4:20 PM

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i'm not that happy about how it turned out... but atleast i did something 🫠🤗

wide vale Aug 10, 2025, 7:51 PM

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i"ve been trying to distract myself tge whole day and it kinda worked very well... till now

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idk what to do

wide vale Aug 10, 2025, 9:35 PM

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||feel like relapsing||

wide vale Aug 10, 2025, 9:54 PM

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||relapsed||

wide vale Aug 10, 2025, 10:37 PM

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somebody here?🥺

brazen pawn Aug 11, 2025, 2:06 PM

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wide vale ||relapsed||

Nooooo

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😭

wide vale Aug 11, 2025, 2:07 PM

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its okay🥺

wide vale Aug 11, 2025, 2:07 PM

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brazen pawn 😭

bighug

brazen pawn Aug 11, 2025, 2:07 PM

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hug

brazen pawn Aug 11, 2025, 2:07 PM

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wide vale its okay🥺

🫂

wide vale Aug 11, 2025, 4:34 PM

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||relapsed ||

wide vale Aug 12, 2025, 1:33 AM

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idk hpw the person that never watches horror or thrillers... i rrally never watch that. How can i have so horrific horror nightmares 😭 i could make a book out of all of them.

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udk where this is coming from

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i had the most chill day ... watched only comedy and still

wide vale Aug 12, 2025, 2:15 AM

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it takes a long time to get it out of my head today

wide vale Aug 12, 2025, 10:05 AM

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why is my therapist lateee😭

brazen pawn Aug 12, 2025, 1:41 PM

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Noooo

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It will be alright 🫂

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hug

wide vale Aug 12, 2025, 1:43 PM

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thank you 🤗

wide vale Aug 12, 2025, 5:37 PM

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started smoking again... 🫠

wide vale Aug 12, 2025, 9:03 PM

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||i feel like relapsing||

brazen pawn Aug 13, 2025, 2:04 AM

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wide vale ||i feel like relapsing||

No don't ms

wide vale Aug 13, 2025, 2:53 AM

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brazen pawn No don't ms

hug

steady hare Aug 13, 2025, 5:51 AM

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Sweetheart 🥺

steady hare Aug 13, 2025, 5:52 AM

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wide vale idk hpw the person that never watches horror or thrillers... i rrally never watc...

Im so sorry😭 🩵 🫂

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Did you talk about it with your therapist..?

steady hare Aug 13, 2025, 5:53 AM

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wide vale started smoking again... 🫠

Sweetie.... 🥺

steady hare Aug 13, 2025, 5:55 AM

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wide vale ||i feel like relapsing||

🥺

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Are skills not helping...?

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Maybe you can draw again?

wide vale Aug 13, 2025, 8:31 AM

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steady hare Did you talk about it with your therapist..?

yes🫠

wide vale Aug 13, 2025, 8:31 AM

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steady hare Are skills not helping...?

nope

wide vale Aug 13, 2025, 12:14 PM

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i have ao less energy atm i can't do anything 🥺

steady hare Aug 13, 2025, 8:23 PM

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wide vale i have ao less energy atm i can't do anything 🥺

🥺 kellyhug

wide vale Aug 13, 2025, 8:23 PM

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steady hare 🥺 <:kellyhug:732406945176223855>

bearhugs

wide vale Aug 14, 2025, 9:28 AM

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sheepy

wide vale Aug 14, 2025, 2:29 PM

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how much i love getting yelled at 🫠

brazen pawn Aug 14, 2025, 4:51 PM

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wide vale how much i love getting yelled at 🫠

We got you ms 🫂

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PeepoHeart hug

wide vale Aug 14, 2025, 5:14 PM

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hugheart

steady hare Aug 14, 2025, 7:42 PM

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wide vale how much i love getting yelled at 🫠

🥺 🫂

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Are you ok..?

wide vale Aug 14, 2025, 7:43 PM

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steady hare Are you ok..?

idk

wide vale Aug 14, 2025, 10:25 PM

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i'm so done 🥺

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and idk who to talk to

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alone again

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not really a surprise though

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i mean yeah i didn't feel alone in the last months, but its not surprising tgat i'm now

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i wouldn't want to spend time with ne either

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i'm just weird and depressed

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i can't come up with anything i like about myself

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nothing

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nothing interesting, no wonder im alone

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i should change, how they always tell me to ... but i don't want, i wanna be myself but i can't

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i'm scared

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loosing myself every day a bit more

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||also manyy flashbacks since the horror escape game today where my family forced me to... we were locked sometimes in dark rooma and then people suddenly grabbed our arms or whatever ||

wide vale Aug 14, 2025, 11:09 PM

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i'm too depressed to even feel anything 🫠 too depressed to ||relapse || thats not what i wantef to achieve

wide vale Aug 14, 2025, 11:26 PM

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canz slee9

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crying myself to sleep

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grwat

wide vale Aug 15, 2025, 12:44 AM

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😭😭

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i can't

wide vale Aug 16, 2025, 5:20 AM

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sleepyy

hidden stream Aug 16, 2025, 6:14 AM

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Always available to talk if you need someone to bs with or vent or share with 🙂

wide vale Aug 16, 2025, 6:14 AM

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hidden stream Always available to talk if you need someone to bs with or vent or share with 🙂

tzank you 🥺🤗
sometimes i idk, struggle to reach oit to others, im sorry

hidden stream Aug 16, 2025, 6:18 AM

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wide vale tzank you 🥺🤗 sometimes i idk, struggle to reach oit to others, im sorry

No need to apologize. I get that way sometimes too. Sometimes I shut out the whole world.
Just want to let you know I'm there and I care!

wide vale Aug 16, 2025, 6:20 AM

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hidden stream No need to apologize. I get that way sometimes too. Sometimes I shut out the who...

thank you 🤗

steady hare Aug 16, 2025, 8:28 AM

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wide vale tzank you 🥺🤗 sometimes i idk, struggle to reach oit to others, im sorry

No need to apologize sweetheart kellyhug

wide vale Aug 16, 2025, 4:06 PM

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||feel like relapsing ... the longer i'm clean zhe worse it gets🥺🥺||

brazen pawn Aug 16, 2025, 4:47 PM

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wide vale ||feel like relapsing ... the longer i'm clean zhe worse it gets🥺🥺||

Nooo pls take care of yourself 🙏🫂

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hug

wide vale Aug 16, 2025, 4:48 PM

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i can't 🥺

brazen pawn Aug 16, 2025, 4:50 PM

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wide vale i can't 🥺

Pls do it for me 🥺🙏

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For us 🫂

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U can do this ms

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PeepoHeart hug

wide vale Aug 16, 2025, 4:52 PM

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😭

hidden stream Aug 16, 2025, 5:02 PM

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wide vale 😭

I'm still here if you want to chat before I go to bed for a bit

wide vale Aug 16, 2025, 5:06 PM

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hidden stream I'm still here if you want to chat before I go to bed for a bit

i know i know🥺💕

hidden stream Aug 16, 2025, 5:10 PM

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wide vale i know i know🥺💕

I just beg you don't fall down and relapse like I did. The guilt and self hate is overpowering at times. Not meaning to be hypocritical, just wanting to try and help someone not feel the way I do

wide vale Aug 16, 2025, 5:11 PM

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hidden stream I just beg you don't fall down and relapse like I did. The guilt and self hate i...

i'm so sorry🥺
i'm here for you
thank you so much i appreciate it a lot

hidden stream Aug 16, 2025, 5:14 PM

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wide vale i'm so sorry🥺 i'm here for you thank you so much i appreciate it a lot

I was sober from June 1st 2024 until March 14th 2025. From then until now I've probably strung together a total of 45 sober days. I'll be okay. Just a process of learning (I hope anyway)

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I hope you reach out sometime, especially if you feel on the edge of relapsing.

wide vale Aug 16, 2025, 5:15 PM

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hidden stream I was sober from June 1st 2024 until March 14th 2025. From then until now I've p...

you are doing amazing again🥺 you can do it.. steps backward are jsut a part of process

hidden stream Aug 16, 2025, 5:15 PM

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wide vale you are doing amazing again🥺 you can do it.. steps backward are jsut a part of ...

Indeed. May I dm you a quick little thing? I'd hate to flood your journal

wide vale Aug 16, 2025, 5:16 PM

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hidden stream Indeed. May I dm you a quick little thing? I'd hate to flood your journal

sure you can🤗🤗

wide vale Aug 17, 2025, 12:11 PM

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||feel like relapsing||

opal plover Aug 17, 2025, 12:58 PM

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wide vale ||feel like relapsing||

resist the urge, i believe in you

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it was hard for me but i pushed through it

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take care ml 🤍

wide vale Aug 17, 2025, 1:01 PM

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opal plover it was hard for me but i pushed through it

im proud of you 🥺🤗

opal plover Aug 17, 2025, 1:02 PM

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wide vale im proud of you 🥺🤗

im even prouder of you for holding up well, i know its hard trust me :(

wide vale Aug 17, 2025, 1:02 PM

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opal plover im even prouder of you for holding up well, i know its hard trust me :(

thank you 🤗

opal plover Aug 17, 2025, 1:02 PM

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wide vale thank you 🤗

of course

wide vale Aug 17, 2025, 1:25 PM

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||relapsed||

hidden stream Aug 17, 2025, 1:40 PM

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wide vale ||relapsed||

I just want you to know that it is okay ❤️ Here if you need me

wide vale Aug 17, 2025, 1:41 PM

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hidden stream I just want you to know that it is okay ❤️ Here if you need me

thank you 🥺

steady hare Aug 17, 2025, 1:52 PM

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wide vale ||relapsed||

Im so sorry🥺 kellyhug

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I love you

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Youre wonderful

wide vale Aug 17, 2025, 2:42 PM

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steady hare Youre wonderful

you are

opal plover Aug 17, 2025, 2:47 PM

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wide vale ||relapsed||

im so sorry ☹️ sending you love 🤍

wide vale Aug 17, 2025, 2:48 PM

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opal plover im so sorry ☹️ sending you love 🤍

qww thank you, don't be sorry 🥺 it's okay

wide vale Aug 17, 2025, 9:23 PM

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||as soon as this is healed the scars will be a problem.. zhey are not that easy to hide||

wide vale Aug 17, 2025, 10:09 PM

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i can't do this anymore🥺
everyone is leaving, everyone will leave

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and i don't have the energy to start over and over

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i stopped trusting new people

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i stopped getting close to anyone

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at this point its better to have nobody caring than people leaving or getting distant on me

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i understand people are busx and i don't blame them at all 🥺🥺 but it triggers me

wide vale Aug 17, 2025, 11:14 PM

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flashbacks

wide vale Aug 18, 2025, 1:10 AM

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i'm not okay

wide vale Aug 18, 2025, 2:13 AM

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😭

wide vale Aug 19, 2025, 8:47 AM

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i had a person to trust.. was able to talj with her about everything. But it won't be possible anymore. And thats not her fault 🥺
i'm worried about and also triggered by all of this.
atleast i finally had someone that made me feel seen, and not alone anymore... even if it was just for 6 months.
so npw i'm kinda ALONE again 🫠 i mean there are manyy people i could talk to and i love.. but its too difficult to open up again.. it was a great fit with her she understood me 💯

wide vale Aug 19, 2025, 11:50 AM

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||i don't want it to heal i don't want this cut to heal... everything else idc... but this needs to stay, idk what tf is wrong with so i feel this way but it's just like this ||

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||relapsed ||

steady hare Aug 19, 2025, 1:45 PM

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🥺 😭 🫂

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Im sorry sweetheart

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Im here ok?

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I promise

wide vale Aug 19, 2025, 1:45 PM

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its okay now 🤗

steady hare Aug 19, 2025, 1:52 PM

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bear_huggie

wide vale Aug 19, 2025, 2:29 PM

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steady hare <:bear_huggie:957281109966716968>

bearhug

wide vale Aug 19, 2025, 11:32 PM

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||feeling alone... every time i look at the scar 🥺 i hate it... but i understand why i did it. As a reminder that i will always be alone which is bs.. but feels true every night ||

brazen pawn Aug 20, 2025, 1:10 PM

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wide vale ||feeling alone... every time i look at the scar 🥺 i hate it... but i understan...

Nobody deserves to be alone 😭🫂🙏🏻

wide vale Aug 20, 2025, 3:36 PM

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brazen pawn Nobody deserves to be alone 😭🫂🙏🏻

hug yeah

wide vale Aug 20, 2025, 7:14 PM

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ugh idk, why i feel so ** lonely all the time

wide vale Aug 20, 2025, 10:48 PM

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||feel like relapsing||

wide vale Aug 20, 2025, 11:39 PM

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||relapsed ||

wide vale Aug 20, 2025, 11:56 PM

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is someone here?🥺

wide vale Aug 21, 2025, 3:12 PM

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||relapsing||

wide vale Aug 21, 2025, 3:31 PM

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flashbacks are too much for me rn 🥺

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i just idk wnat them to be over

brazen pawn Aug 22, 2025, 6:23 AM

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It will be alright Ms 🫂🫂🫂

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hug

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PeepoHeart

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I am sorry that feel this way 😢🫂

wide vale Aug 22, 2025, 11:57 AM

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brazen pawn It will be alright Ms 🫂🫂🫂

thank you🥺

jolly crag Aug 22, 2025, 5:29 PM

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hug

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a hug for u

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🥺

wide vale Aug 22, 2025, 5:39 PM

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jolly crag a hug for u

hug 🥹 aww thann you soo much

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my new desk waiting for me to build it up 🥳🥳

rn_image_picker_lib_temp_8feb131a-7c26-4d23-b9c3-028fa4b4a2b7.jpg

wide vale Aug 22, 2025, 9:52 PM

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wide vale Aug 22, 2025, 11:13 PM

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i cleaned the old desk now and brought it outsidee

brazen pawn Aug 22, 2025, 11:14 PM

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The white colours looks good

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PeepoHeart hug

wide vale Aug 22, 2025, 11:15 PM

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aw thank youu🤗

rich prairie Aug 22, 2025, 11:36 PM

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wide vale i had a person to trust.. was able to talj with her about everything. But it wo...

This broke me, I hope you will be ok in the future

wide vale Aug 22, 2025, 11:36 PM

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rich prairie This broke me, I hope you will be ok in the future

thank you very much🥺

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i will be okay

rich prairie Aug 22, 2025, 11:36 PM

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Okie 🙏🏼

wide vale Aug 22, 2025, 11:37 PM

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hugheart

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rich prairie Aug 23, 2025, 6:32 AM

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wide vale

Yay desk is coming together

brazen pawn Aug 23, 2025, 11:24 AM

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wide vale

Pretty!!!!

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Well done ms hug PeepoHeart

wide vale Aug 23, 2025, 11:24 AM

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yayyy🤗
i'm glad you like it

wide vale Aug 23, 2025, 12:34 PM

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😅ignore the cables pls.... but its finally at its place

brazen pawn Aug 23, 2025, 3:45 PM

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Ggs ms

brazen pawn Aug 23, 2025, 3:46 PM

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wide vale 😅ignore the cables pls.... but its finally at its place

Great work PeepoHeart

wide vale Aug 23, 2025, 3:52 PM

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🤗thank youu

wide vale Aug 24, 2025, 1:35 AM

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i need to stop treating myself so bad 🥺

i don't sleep.. and when i do i sleep way too less. I don't eat, i don't drink, idc about myself

brazen pawn Aug 24, 2025, 7:04 AM

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wide vale i need to stop treating myself so bad 🥺 i don't sleep.. and when i do i sleep ...

Yeah, yiu should take care of yourself ms, treating yourself good will also make you feel better and happy 😊 PeepoHeart hug hugheart

wide vale Aug 24, 2025, 10:04 AM

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hug i try my best

brazen pawn Aug 24, 2025, 3:22 PM

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All the best ms PeepoHeart hug hugheart

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I hope u win all the silent battles u don't talk about 🫂 patrick_praying

wide vale Aug 24, 2025, 3:24 PM

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brazen pawn I hope u win all the silent battles u don't talk about 🫂<:patrick_praying:10609...

thank you so much🥺 you too, you can do it

wide vale Aug 24, 2025, 6:31 PM

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i'm so triggered the whole day

wide vale Aug 24, 2025, 8:04 PM

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||feel like relapsing ||

wide vale Aug 24, 2025, 9:48 PM

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||i was just going to sh.. then my mum suddenly came in. She didn't notice but still... she can't just come in while she lives at my place||

wide vale Aug 25, 2025, 5:14 PM

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dissociating again 🫠

steady hare Aug 25, 2025, 7:06 PM

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wide vale ||i was just going to sh.. then my mum suddenly came in. She didn't notice but s...

Wtf...

steady hare Aug 25, 2025, 7:06 PM

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wide vale dissociating again 🫠

Im sorry sweetheart 🥺 kellyhug

wide vale Aug 25, 2025, 7:06 PM

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steady hare Wtf...

mhmm🥺

wide vale Aug 25, 2025, 11:04 PM

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i finally wanna feel something 🥺

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||feel like relapsing||

wide vale Aug 26, 2025, 1:33 AM

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idk if i can fight it any longer🥺

brazen pawn Aug 26, 2025, 1:39 AM

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wide vale idk if i can fight it any longer🥺

You can, ur stronger than that

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Ik

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hug PeepoHeart

wide vale Aug 26, 2025, 2:10 AM

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hugheart

brazen pawn Aug 26, 2025, 2:17 AM

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hugheart

wide vale Aug 26, 2025, 12:40 PM

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i just wanna feel something 🥺

wide vale Aug 26, 2025, 3:47 PM

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getting better 😅 atleast i think so

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brazen pawn Aug 26, 2025, 7:30 PM

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wide vale getting better 😅 atleast i think so

Yup your doing good, keep it up ms

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PeepoHeart

wide vale Aug 26, 2025, 7:34 PM

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hugheart

wide vale Aug 27, 2025, 11:29 PM

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😑my mum and her bf are so drunk... and she wants me to get a bf and a babyy🙃

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i mean... i don't hide that i prefer women

wide vale Aug 29, 2025, 11:01 PM

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every time i hear steps next to my door i get so anxious and panic... i can't get this out of my head

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its stupid

wide vale Aug 30, 2025, 12:14 AM

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||feel like relapsing ||

wide vale Aug 30, 2025, 1:20 AM

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i think i've always been addicted to something in my live

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i never had no addiction

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always just replacing them

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since i can think

hidden stream Aug 30, 2025, 1:32 AM

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wide vale always just replacing them

Same hug

wide vale Aug 30, 2025, 1:32 AM

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hidden stream Same <a:hug:1194879031951241336>

hugheart

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i' m soery

hidden stream Aug 30, 2025, 1:33 AM

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wide vale i' m soery

Don't be fam.
I'm still trying to break that cycle myself but it's not easy at all

wide vale Aug 30, 2025, 1:33 AM

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hidden stream Don't be fam. I'm still trying to break that cycle myself but it's not easy at a...

i know, but you can do it. I believe in you 🤗

wide vale Aug 31, 2025, 2:15 AM

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flashback giving me a hard time again🙃

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and i'm worried about a friend 🥺

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she is very important to me... and i didn't hear anything from her today..

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she said she maybe had time to call today or atleast talk🥺 but nothing

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and she was feeling bad ... so idk

steady hare Aug 31, 2025, 8:09 AM

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🥺 kellyhug

wide vale Aug 31, 2025, 2:54 PM

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i feel like everyone will leave me 🙃 because i deserve it... and i woulf even understand it, but i can't handle it🥺

brazen pawn Aug 31, 2025, 3:46 PM

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wide vale i feel like everyone will leave me 🙃 because i deserve it... and i woulf even u...

Nobody is gonna leave you ms, we all are here for you, with you 🫂

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hug

steady hare Aug 31, 2025, 3:59 PM

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wide vale i feel like everyone will leave me 🙃 because i deserve it... and i woulf even u...

Nope

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Thats not gonna happen sweetie

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Noone is leaving you

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kellyhug

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We are here 🫂

wide vale Aug 31, 2025, 4:02 PM

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hug 🤧🥹

steady hare Aug 31, 2025, 4:04 PM

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You are loved and much appreciated in peoples lives 🩵

wide vale Aug 31, 2025, 5:55 PM

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||relapsed and shoukd have went to the hospital... but i didn't || 🙃

wide vale Sep 1, 2025, 1:56 AM

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something just came to my mind.. A little memory. I'm veryy bad a hugging people... sounds weird.. but its soo hard for me to hug others even thought I love hugging. And i thought about it rn.. and if i ever got hugged as a kid...and yes i got hugged, but I couldn't breath anymore because my mum or grand..m idk who, hugged me soo tight that i couldn't breath anymore... why tf?? 😭 and i r3ally don't know who it was.. i can remember almost nothing from my childhood and when i do i just remember such parts

steady hare Sep 1, 2025, 7:30 PM

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wide vale ||relapsed and shoukd have went to the hospital... but i didn't || 🙃

Sweetheart😭 🫂

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If you wanna talk about it more yk you can always text me right?

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🥺 kellyhug

wide vale Sep 1, 2025, 7:33 PM

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steady hare If you wanna talk about it more yk you can always text me right?

doesn't matter anymore, thank you though

wide vale Sep 1, 2025, 8:12 PM

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i don't feel anything

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just nothing

wide vale Sep 2, 2025, 1:28 AM

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||feel like relapsing||

wide vale Sep 4, 2025, 2:14 AM

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i feel so idk, disgusting rn.. I really just hate myself. People deserve better than me, they shouldn't have me in their life

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they deserve so much better than. I"m just a stupid disgusting nobody

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they should leave, they are right to leave

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i shouldn't be like this

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i should be a better friend a bettwr person.. and just not me

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sometimes i think it would be the best for others if i just dissappear

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sl they don't need to handle me anymore

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and i wouldn't need to suffer anymore

wide vale Sep 4, 2025, 2:35 AM

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i should just end it🙃 it would be so easy... bjt then ... i knlw i would regret it

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agh

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||i'm at the point that i want to relapse... i really want to which is already crazy enough I shouldn't want it, i usually don't want it... but right now i do, i'm just so messed up. When i relapse i will dissappoint so many people again... and i even think about it?? thats egoistic ugh, i just hate everything rn||

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||relapsed|| which is not a surprise at all... i mean i'ce been having flashbacks over and over again... messed up my sleep. i'm scared of the next weeks and just everything sucks and idk. Idk what to do abojt my feelings ... i'm dissociating 24/7 .. . and i hate ut,i can't habdle it anymore but idk what to do against ut🥺

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||the scary part was..i didn't feel it when i relapsed... 🙃||

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the dissociating is worse than usual atm

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i hate me so much

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rn

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i will sleep now

steady hare Sep 5, 2025, 6:13 AM

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🥺 😭 kellyhug

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Sweetheart...

wide vale Sep 5, 2025, 11:01 PM

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wanted to sleep but saw a tik tok about Reagan Revords outing... i saw many hate comments soo i spent 2 hours to answer to all of them... i need to fix my sleep... but taht was more important

wide vale Sep 6, 2025, 12:40 AM

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i always wanna leanr things..m i feel so worthless when i didn't leanr anything. I knpw its stupid but idk

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i pressure myself to learn things

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i wanna leanr to idk play guitar..m more about chemistryy and so on.. i wanna know too much

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just to feel a bit of worth

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because thats what i learned... being valued by your knowledge

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its like this in my family...

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i have and always had a huge problem with geographie... i have aphabtasie so i can't imagine any pictures in my head... i just see black

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so i suck at locating things.. or orientation.. my family always makes a huge deal out of it because i' so bad at it... im not even that bad..m if you give me a blanco card i can tell you where the countries are

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just i can't do it without a card or anything to look at

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sooo when i was a child every day they mocked me for being vad at it

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soo i started to learn things they don't know

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and whenever they made fun of me not doing something i did the same with them

brazen pawn Sep 6, 2025, 1:06 PM

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Dw ur never worthless person, ur a great person no matter what other say, don't let others negativity make u feel small

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PeepoHeart hug

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You can learn anything you want, don't listen what others say no matter what

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🫂 🫶

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hugheart

wide vale Sep 6, 2025, 1:11 PM

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brazen pawn Dw ur never worthless person, ur a great person no matter what other say, don't ...

hug thank you so much

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you sre amazing

brazen pawn Sep 6, 2025, 1:18 PM

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wide vale you sre amazing

You are amazing too ms PeepoHeart hugheart hug hug

wide vale Sep 6, 2025, 1:18 PM

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brazen pawn You are amazing too ms <:PeepoHeart:816438620453076994> <:hugheart:1322460751419...

🤗

wide vale Sep 6, 2025, 11:49 PM

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||i feel like relapsing||
||relapsed ||

wide vale Sep 7, 2025, 11:00 PM

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i can't sleep 🥺

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but i need to

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i programmed a lot today... and now i still think about how to continue the program.. and improve it🥺

wide vale Sep 8, 2025, 9:55 PM

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||relapsed .. i'm at the unhealtgy point on which i stopped fighting it completely... idk, maybe i need thos break or whatever. I just don't have a reasons to fight anymore||

wide vale Sep 8, 2025, 10:48 PM

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i Literally don't have anyone to talk. Its almost funny already

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i mean... what kind of person am i.. so i don't teally have anyone to reach out? its ridicilous

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i meant wtf? 🤣
its just pathetic at this point... i am

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||i could jsut end it and i wouldn't care.. i don't see a reason not to do it atm.... but on the other side... i just don't care about myself anymore. Everyone just gl and treat me bad, it doesn't matter anyways. Idc||

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idc about my sleep either.. so then i have only slept 4 hours... who cares, wvat does it matter

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didn't eat for 2 days i think idk idc

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just try to keep my body alive... i don't even kbow why

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okay there is 1 person i can talj to rn... he doesn't understand me at all...always misunderstands but doesn't want mr to explain...

wide vale Sep 9, 2025, 6:32 PM

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||i have to say.. i'm so lucky about how my scars are always turning out but sometimes it makes me feel idk... less valid whuch is stupid but the truth.mm but in general its really good. K mean they stay visible for idk ever? but they are not 3d||

wide vale Sep 10, 2025, 7:13 PM

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i was at my grandparents today .. and my hair is a bit idk. Bad texture today🥲 she asked me if i wanna shower and wash it... i washed my hair this morning!! so i said no... but she has been looking at me all day and idk then she just just grabbed my hair at some point and said mhmmm... you should havr showered... 🫠 no

wide vale Sep 10, 2025, 7:30 PM

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||feel like relapsing ||

wide vale Sep 10, 2025, 10:02 PM

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i don't want this anymore

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i don't want anything anymore

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i can't do this anymore

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||i would have needed someone today... i would have needed this call i understand okay? i understand it! but that doesn't change that it makes me feel like sh*t it doesn't change anything ||

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||sorry i had to eat and then immedeatly fell asleep... me reading ad answering to that while i am eating.... i don't expect it... i don't expect it, but rn i'm just hurt and u shouldn't be. i'm mad at myself for being mad... thats why i try to clear my mind here... sorry if you read iz... (you probably won't anyeays||

wide vale Sep 11, 2025, 5:35 AM

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||relapsed and it didn't work at all||

brazen pawn Sep 11, 2025, 3:40 PM

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hug hug hug hug

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I am here for u ms

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Dw

wide vale Sep 11, 2025, 3:43 PM

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hugheart

brazen pawn Sep 11, 2025, 3:44 PM

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hugheart

wide vale Sep 12, 2025, 10:04 PM

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i'm a sexist 🫠 i don't like it at all... its something i hate about myself

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but really ... i met idk... 2 good guys in my live

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okay... my live is messed up but still

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i hahe bad experience... and if i look at politigs and so on... ugh

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i still shouldn't be like zhks and feel like this

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we should just have equality

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to make it easier for everyone

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even man

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but its so difficult to get this old conservative thinking okt of the society

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thats whyyy we need a woman quote for now 😭 so 1 nrw generation can grow uo with woman beinh equal... after that we can stop the quotes again..m because i think as soon as man get used to it.. it would be alright

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1 generation of man..m that might get a bit unfaur treated in some parts of jobs..m compared to ... woman being unfair treated since we excist..m GET OVER IT GUYS 💕

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woman get less paid... less Jobs and so on

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that needs to change

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i mean... many woman think like i do... and i understand it to 100% and yes i really understand it

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but for the idk... 10% of man and boys hhat are trulyyy good.. how must it feel to them to be hated for things they never did.. its unfair 🥺 but..m better to always be careful then trusting the wrong ones, right?

wide vale Sep 13, 2025, 4:19 PM

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||relapsed ||

wide vale Sep 13, 2025, 7:29 PM

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wide vale Sep 14, 2025, 2:13 PM

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i can't do this anymore 🫠

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||relapsed||

brazen pawn Sep 14, 2025, 2:35 PM

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Why u burdening your little precious heart ms 🥺🥺🥺🫂

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U cant control other ppl actions so just focus on yourself ms and with time u will definitely see the changes

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hug

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hugheart

brazen pawn Sep 14, 2025, 2:37 PM

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wide vale

😍 pretty 🥰

wide vale Sep 14, 2025, 2:37 PM

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brazen pawn Why u burdening your little precious heart ms 🥺🥺🥺🫂

aww🤧

brazen pawn Sep 14, 2025, 2:38 PM

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wide vale aww🤧

🫂

wide vale Sep 14, 2025, 2:39 PM

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brazen pawn 🫂

hugheart

wide vale Sep 14, 2025, 8:59 PM

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steady hare Sep 14, 2025, 9:08 PM

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maywow ❤️

wide vale Sep 14, 2025, 10:32 PM

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steady hare <:maywow:756208908942573730> ❤️

aww❤️

wide vale Sep 15, 2025, 8:06 PM

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if i would get a cent everyy time someone tells me ro get religious to get away from my depression u would be soo rich😭 like guys... thank you for the advice but i can't change the way i believe

wide vale Sep 15, 2025, 8:46 PM

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||relapsed ||

wide vale Sep 16, 2025, 1:40 AM

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whyyyyy always tgese nightmares 😭

wide vale Sep 19, 2025, 3:50 PM

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i'm so done

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just done with everything

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done with life

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i can't do this anymore

brazen pawn Sep 19, 2025, 7:25 PM

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You got this ms hug hugheart PeepoHeart

wide vale Sep 20, 2025, 1:05 PM

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my new headphones arrived

wide vale Sep 21, 2025, 9:31 AM

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i feel like relapsing..
but idk i'm scared of it. I don't trust myself arm

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atm

wide vale Sep 21, 2025, 7:02 PM

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i didn’t lose control as much as yesterday for years it shouldn't have happened

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i won't forgive myself abt it...

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i need something to remember myself abt it

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to not forgive myself to not forget

wide vale Sep 21, 2025, 8:42 PM

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i kinda crushed again on a friend of mine 🥹

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i love her so much

wide vale Sep 21, 2025, 9:39 PM

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flashbacks

wide vale Sep 22, 2025, 5:45 AM

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finally i'm sleeping better.. i mean yes the flashbacks were ugh... but not so long... and the nights are finally getting cold

wide vale Sep 23, 2025, 4:29 PM

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ehm tge partber of my mum weirdly hugged me

wide vale Sep 25, 2025, 6:03 AM

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i'm gaining weight..... i can't handle that.. i don't want to

wide vale Sep 27, 2025, 9:05 PM

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i love eeyore so much 🙈

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its aooo random

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but idkk

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just awwww

static plover Sep 29, 2025, 12:29 AM

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wide vale my new headphones arrived

looks like a crooked smiley face 😜 (rly good headphones btw 🎧)

wide vale Sep 29, 2025, 4:25 AM

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static plover looks like a crooked smiley face 😜 (rly good headphones btw 🎧)

ohh true🤣🤣🤣🤣
Thank you

wide vale Sep 29, 2025, 12:38 PM

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feel like relapsing 🥺

wide vale Sep 29, 2025, 12:58 PM

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wide vale feel like relapsing 🥺

still... but i'm stuck in this meeting

wide vale Sep 30, 2025, 10:10 PM

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||relapsed after so long||

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it was 15 days

wide vale Oct 2, 2025, 7:51 PM

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||relapsed||

wide vale Oct 3, 2025, 2:25 PM

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i'm so bored

wide vale Oct 3, 2025, 10:32 PM

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i need someone to talk

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i need friends

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hugs

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idk

steady hare Oct 4, 2025, 5:22 AM

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kellypeek2 🥺

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jhugsss

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kellyhug

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🫂

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kellycat

wide vale Oct 4, 2025, 5:59 AM

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thank you 🥺

steady hare Oct 4, 2025, 6:34 AM

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Anytime sweetheart

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kellyhug

wide vale Oct 4, 2025, 9:16 AM

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🥺❤️

tight spade Oct 5, 2025, 6:48 PM

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blobcatheart

wide vale Oct 5, 2025, 6:52 PM

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tight spade <:blobcatheart:1322460759199977494>

tgank you 🤗

wide vale Oct 5, 2025, 9:33 PM

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a person is flirting with me and asked me which eyecoloue i have .. i answered idk 😅 because idkkkk its complicated

and they got mad at me... wtf

wide vale Oct 5, 2025, 10:56 PM

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i can't sleep

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thinking about my father 24/7

wide vale Oct 8, 2025, 7:57 PM

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can something be worth something without a human... or living beings with consciousness giving it a worth? 🤔 because I don't think so...

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worth and value is always defiened by a human

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for example diamonds.... they are just rare on the eatth .. but thats ut

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there are Planets full of them

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but still we humans decided its worth a lot

wide vale Oct 10, 2025, 8:57 PM

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idk what to do...
soo last week i found a letter from my dad to my mum from 20 years ago...

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my mum always told me he doesn't care about me and never did and so ib

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on

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thats not true.. she lied

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also she always said he lives far away.. but he doesn't 🫠 he lives so close to me

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idk if i should reach out

wide vale Oct 11, 2025, 9:13 PM

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its just a sketch.. i will draw it on a canvas. But i needed to see if it looks good...

wide vale Oct 11, 2025, 10:09 PM

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my crush is drunk and texting me🤧 i can't stand drunk people

brazen pawn Oct 12, 2025, 7:07 AM

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wide vale its just a sketch.. i will draw it on a canvas. But i needed to see if it looks...

Damn, deep art fr

wide vale Oct 12, 2025, 2:56 PM

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i'm so sleepyy 🤣😭

brazen pawn Oct 12, 2025, 4:36 PM

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Damn!!!

wide vale Oct 12, 2025, 4:38 PM

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brazen pawn Damn!!!

🤗

brazen pawn Oct 12, 2025, 4:39 PM

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wide vale 🤗

Pretty drawing 🤌🏻

wide vale Oct 12, 2025, 4:41 PM

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thank youu

wide vale Oct 12, 2025, 5:17 PM

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almost finished

wide vale Oct 12, 2025, 7:54 PM

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i don't think its obvious but i changed the Highlights at the chains a little bit and i like it way better now

wide vale Oct 13, 2025, 7:40 PM

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the black needs a second layer... but i ran out of black 😭🤣

wide vale Oct 14, 2025, 8:17 PM

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i love drawing... even if i'm not good at it..m but always when i'm done.. i wanna continue 😭

wide vale Oct 14, 2025, 10:32 PM

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flashbacks

wide vale Oct 15, 2025, 10:16 AM

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||feel like relapsing ||

wide vale Oct 15, 2025, 9:15 PM

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||relapsed ||

wide vale Oct 16, 2025, 6:57 PM

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i just showered and my leg is hurting so much rn..

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🫠

wide vale Oct 17, 2025, 5:58 PM

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i need advice if i should reach out to my half brother.... i just don't knoww

wide vale Oct 17, 2025, 7:47 PM

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im tired

wide vale Oct 18, 2025, 6:50 AM

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||relapsing all the time||

wide vale Oct 18, 2025, 8:03 PM

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i'm not strong enough

wide vale Oct 21, 2025, 6:25 PM

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i slowly feel more depressed again... and sometimes I don't have ghe energy to fight

wide vale Oct 22, 2025, 3:18 PM

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i'm so tired

wide vale Oct 22, 2025, 7:19 PM

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feel like relapsing

wide vale Oct 22, 2025, 8:29 PM

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aww had an amazing call with an amazing friend ! ❤️

wide vale Oct 22, 2025, 10:28 PM

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what if my father is homophobic 😱

wide vale Oct 23, 2025, 9:30 PM

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||relapsed ||

wide vale Oct 23, 2025, 10:29 PM

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Hello, I’m your half-sister.
Honestly, I don’t really know what to say. Or if you even want to have contact…( I didn’t even know your name until last week.)

You could maybe reply… By the way, I’d really appreciate it if you didn’t tell anyone that I wrote to you… my mom doesn’t know about this.

i did translate it soo maybe slme sentences don't make sense... idk if i can write thatttt

wide vale Oct 23, 2025, 11:48 PM

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hii
idk what exactly to write rn..m but im your half sister

idk if you are even interested in talking to me... are you? because if yes i do jave some questions.. ohh and don't wonder i didn't have your name till last week soo i couldn't wrize before

and please don't tell Christian or anyone that i wrote you, I don't want my mjm to know that yet

brazen pawn Oct 24, 2025, 5:22 PM

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wide vale hii idk what exactly to write rn..m but im your half sister idk if you are eve...

Great practice you doing

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👏🏻

wide vale Oct 24, 2025, 5:23 PM

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it was not practice

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🤣

brazen pawn Oct 24, 2025, 6:11 PM

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wide vale it was not practice

Oh, my bad 😅

wide vale Oct 24, 2025, 6:11 PM

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he seems nice btw

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🤗

brazen pawn Oct 24, 2025, 6:11 PM

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Thats a good sign

wide vale Oct 24, 2025, 6:12 PM

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talked a bit today.... but idk if i should text him again

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or if it would be too much

brazen pawn Oct 24, 2025, 6:12 PM

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You should imo

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Ask him politely when he is available to talk

wide vale Oct 24, 2025, 6:12 PM

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we talked last time 5 houes ago😭 when is the right time

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i don't want to meet him yet

brazen pawn Oct 24, 2025, 6:13 PM

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Talk

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Not meet

wide vale Oct 24, 2025, 6:13 PM

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oh okay well idk... he is always available i think

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doesn't have a real job

brazen pawn Oct 24, 2025, 6:13 PM

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Oh

wide vale Oct 24, 2025, 6:13 PM

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yeah😅

brazen pawn Oct 24, 2025, 6:13 PM

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Then good for you

wide vale Oct 26, 2025, 9:27 PM

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🫠

wide vale Oct 27, 2025, 9:56 PM

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it was definitely the right decision that i reached out to my brother🤗

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idn how things will rurn out ... but it was right

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i mean since most of my trauam is caused by my family (mums side) i can get some nicer experiences about family now

wide vale Oct 28, 2025, 9:25 PM

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i feel like relapsing

winged widget Oct 29, 2025, 12:32 AM

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Pls don't

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necoarclastpet

wide vale Oct 29, 2025, 4:34 AM

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winged widget Pls don't

🥺🤗

wide vale Oct 29, 2025, 8:46 PM

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||relapsed 🙃
i should see a doctor ||

wide vale Oct 29, 2025, 8:47 PM

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winged widget Pls don't

i'm sorry ❤️

wide vale Oct 29, 2025, 9:43 PM

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i'm so triggered rn

winged widget Oct 29, 2025, 11:50 PM

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wide vale i'm sorry ❤️

blob_hug

wide vale Oct 30, 2025, 5:57 AM

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winged widget <a:blob_hug:1063880140515446855>

thank you hug

static plover Nov 2, 2025, 1:06 AM

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hey did you have a good halloween @wide vale?

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just asking everyone around (;

wide vale Nov 2, 2025, 7:45 AM

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static plover hey did you have a good halloween <@1025495576491593848>?

ehm it was just a normal day for me, didn't do anything
How about you?

wide vale Nov 3, 2025, 5:53 AM

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i'm so tired

wide vale Nov 5, 2025, 10:48 PM

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||really ..... im going too deep atm||

proud nymph Nov 5, 2025, 11:59 PM

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wide vale ||really ..... im going too deep atm||

I don't know you very well but I just wanted to check up and make sure you okay:( hug

wide vale Nov 6, 2025, 4:26 AM

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proud nymph I don't know you very well but I just wanted to check up and make sure you okay:...

i'm okay now 🥺
thank youu
i appreciate it a lot

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i hope you are doing well

wide vale Nov 6, 2025, 12:13 PM

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wide vale ||really ..... im going too deep atm||

again🫠🫠

steady hare Nov 6, 2025, 2:10 PM

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kellypeek2 🥺 kellyhug

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Im here

wide vale Nov 8, 2025, 11:26 AM

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hug

wide vale Nov 8, 2025, 3:03 PM

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way tooo bored

tight spade Nov 8, 2025, 3:41 PM

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do you also make digital art?

wide vale Nov 8, 2025, 4:07 PM

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tight spade do you also make digital art?

veryy rarely... but sometimes when i don't have paper 😅

tight spade Nov 8, 2025, 4:24 PM

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saving the trees yass

wide vale Nov 8, 2025, 5:01 PM

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tight spade saving the trees yass

🙈shhh

wide vale Nov 8, 2025, 7:47 PM

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nooo my friend relapsed 🥺
i feel soo sorry for her

wide vale Nov 8, 2025, 8:54 PM

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i need a huge hug

wide vale Nov 8, 2025, 11:21 PM

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tooo sleepy to continue and ||realapsed||

wide vale Nov 8, 2025, 11:40 PM

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i hate it

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i hate jealous people

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and alsoo

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I'm not your relationship coach

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tf

steady hare Nov 9, 2025, 12:12 AM

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kellypeek2 🥺

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Everything ok..?

steady hare Nov 9, 2025, 12:12 AM

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wide vale i hate it

Looks beautiful. Jusz likenyou

wide vale Nov 9, 2025, 12:57 AM

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steady hare Looks beautiful. Jusz likenyou

says youu😍

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just watched the new episodes from hatbin hotel... the cliffhangerrrr

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ahhh

wide vale Nov 9, 2025, 9:47 PM

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||relapsed ||

wide vale Nov 10, 2025, 5:55 PM

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||relapsed ||

brazen pawn Nov 10, 2025, 6:46 PM

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I am here for you hug

wide vale Nov 10, 2025, 8:53 PM

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brazen pawn I am here for you <:hug:1322460748646973512>

thank you🥺

wide vale Nov 12, 2025, 7:56 PM

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||relapsed ||

brazen pawn Nov 13, 2025, 1:19 PM

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wide vale ||relapsed ||

🫂🫂

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I am here for u ❤️

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hugheart hug

wide vale Nov 13, 2025, 2:54 PM

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brazen pawn <:hugheart:1322460751419539547> <:hug:1322460748646973512>

thank you 🥺

wide vale Nov 16, 2025, 4:36 PM

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idk what i'm doing

wide vale Nov 16, 2025, 7:48 PM

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idk what it is 😅 idk what i did

steady hare Nov 16, 2025, 9:16 PM

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wide vale idk what it is 😅 idk what i did

Wow maywow

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Looks so pretty sweetheart gluv

wide vale Nov 16, 2025, 9:16 PM

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hug

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idk but thank you

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idk what to do... i tried everything to make my thoughts go quiet... but it doesn't work

wide vale Nov 16, 2025, 10:26 PM

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||relapsed ||

wide vale Nov 18, 2025, 7:50 AM

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dreamed that he (we were very good frienda) wrote me 🥺 and it made me so happy....it shouldn't have made me happy but it did

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i miss

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him

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even though i shouldn't

steady hare Nov 18, 2025, 9:34 AM

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🥺 kellyhug

wide vale Nov 18, 2025, 9:17 PM

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i just learned... thats its not normal to have creepy visions before you enter a room or wheb yoj walk somewhere and can't see the next corner... its not normal to have creepyyyyyyy visions then

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i'm cooked

tight spade Nov 19, 2025, 4:06 PM

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is it like paranoia or anxiety?

wide vale Nov 19, 2025, 4:08 PM

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idk 🤧

wide vale Nov 19, 2025, 4:08 PM

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tight spade is it like paranoia or anxiety?

like... i know there is nothing... so not paranoia... i think

tight spade Nov 19, 2025, 4:09 PM

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maybe your body is just preparing you for danger when there is none

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im sure it will get better over time

wide vale Nov 19, 2025, 4:10 PM

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its like this... idk since always 😅

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but thank you❤️

wide vale Nov 20, 2025, 11:51 AM

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i can't do this anymore

steady hare Nov 20, 2025, 1:19 PM

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🥺

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Im here for you

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kellyhug

wide vale Nov 20, 2025, 1:33 PM

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🥺🥺

tight spade Nov 21, 2025, 10:18 AM

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I'm sorry

wide vale Nov 21, 2025, 10:27 AM

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hug its fine

tight spade Nov 21, 2025, 11:23 AM

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nah it's not, just keep going giving up is not a choice

wide vale Nov 21, 2025, 5:55 PM

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tight spade nah it's not, just keep going giving up is not a choice

tgank you 🥺

wide vale Nov 21, 2025, 9:14 PM

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||gonna relapse||

unreal shore Nov 22, 2025, 2:02 AM

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hello ms

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remember me?

wide vale Nov 22, 2025, 2:06 AM

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unreal shore remember me?

hiiiiii

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you returned 😱

unreal shore Nov 22, 2025, 2:07 AM

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yep:D

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deleted discord for a few months and got offline for sanity reasons lmao

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i missed u:)

wide vale Nov 22, 2025, 2:08 AM

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unreal shore i missed u:)

missed you too!

unreal shore Nov 22, 2025, 2:08 AM

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dw abt my acc i’m tryna seem like a man for safety

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hru doing

wide vale Nov 22, 2025, 2:09 AM

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unreal shore dw abt my acc i’m tryna seem like a man for safety

awe okqyy

wide vale Nov 22, 2025, 2:09 AM

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unreal shore hru doing

its in the middle in the night... i should be sleeping and how are you

unreal shore Nov 22, 2025, 2:09 AM

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srry did i wake u?

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im doing rlly good much better than before<3

wide vale Nov 22, 2025, 2:10 AM

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unreal shore srry did i wake u?

nooo you didn't

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some people yelling around outside that woke me up 🤧

wide vale Nov 22, 2025, 2:10 AM

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unreal shore im doing rlly good much better than before<3

aww thats soo good to hear

unreal shore Nov 22, 2025, 2:10 AM

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oh ok i see

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u should go to sleep isnt it like 3am there?? 😭

wide vale Nov 22, 2025, 2:11 AM

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unreal shore u should go to sleep isnt it like 3am there?? 😭

yes😭

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good night 🤗🤗

unreal shore Nov 22, 2025, 2:11 AM

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gn:)

wide vale Nov 23, 2025, 2:38 PM

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boringgggg

tight spade Nov 23, 2025, 3:02 PM

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cool fridge

wide vale Nov 23, 2025, 3:02 PM

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tight spade cool fridge

thank you🤣🤣🤣🤣

wide vale Nov 23, 2025, 8:04 PM

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i hate me

wide vale Nov 23, 2025, 9:57 PM

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relapsed

winged widget Nov 24, 2025, 12:20 AM

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wide vale boringgggg

Cool and all but when do we make it permanent? rileysip

wide vale Nov 24, 2025, 1:35 AM

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winged widget Cool and all but when do we make it permanent? <:rileysip:954027074585247834>

zmm👀👀 idk yet?

wide vale Nov 24, 2025, 9:27 PM

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ouch 🤧 my leg hurts so much

tight spade Nov 25, 2025, 9:41 AM

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girl what did you do

wide vale Nov 25, 2025, 11:58 AM

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tight spade girl what did you do

ehmm i wasn't caferull enough

wide vale Nov 25, 2025, 8:02 PM

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i don't wanna go down this path again...

steady hare Nov 26, 2025, 2:20 PM

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🥺 kellyhug

wide vale Nov 26, 2025, 8:48 PM

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🫠 meh

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idk

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why do i hate myself so much atm

brazen pawn Nov 26, 2025, 9:12 PM

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Don't hate urself hamster

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Love urself hugheart

wide vale Nov 26, 2025, 9:13 PM

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brazen pawn Don't hate urself <:hamster:1243091630420922389>

i try 🥺

brazen pawn Nov 26, 2025, 9:13 PM

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Ik it's easier to say than doing it but I also know you are capable of doing it

wide vale Nov 26, 2025, 9:13 PM

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🥺i hope so

brazen pawn Nov 26, 2025, 9:14 PM

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I believe in you hugheart hug

wide vale Nov 27, 2025, 5:10 PM

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sooo bored today

wide vale Nov 28, 2025, 8:34 PM

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idk whyy 🤣 idk i am boreddd and it was laying on my desk

unreal shore Nov 29, 2025, 9:01 AM

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THOSE ARE AMAZING

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DAMN WHAT

wide vale Nov 29, 2025, 9:36 AM

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unreal shore THOSE ARE AMAZING

aww thank you 😳🤗🤗

wide vale Nov 30, 2025, 3:53 AM

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i need a hugg

steady hare Nov 30, 2025, 10:54 AM

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jhugsss

tight spade Nov 30, 2025, 1:02 PM

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kittykiss

wide vale Nov 30, 2025, 7:08 PM

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lovely to get yelled at

wide vale Nov 30, 2025, 8:32 PM

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Tutto chiede salvezza"

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such an amazing showw

wide vale Dec 1, 2025, 12:20 PM

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||i wanna die||

winged widget Dec 2, 2025, 3:58 PM

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Are you feeling better?

wide vale Dec 2, 2025, 3:59 PM

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winged widget Are you feeling better?

im trying🤗

wide vale Dec 3, 2025, 3:55 PM

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SPOTIFYY WRAPPED

steady hare Dec 3, 2025, 5:45 PM

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sakiyay

wide vale Dec 3, 2025, 5:56 PM

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🥳

wide vale Dec 3, 2025, 8:28 PM

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||relapsed, doesn't matteranyways||

wide vale Dec 4, 2025, 8:01 PM

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idk, i don't have such a good opinion on the army... i just don't understand it. But is that a reason to judge me? i don't judge others so why do you wanna judge me

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Yes, I am against compulsory military service

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i think it won't work....

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and yes i would rather get killed than killing others... but isn't that okay?

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we don't need to share the same opinion

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but to say im a bad person because i wouldn't kill others? Ugh

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i don't understand why ...

wide vale Dec 4, 2025, 11:12 PM

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sorry for keeping you awake for so long, but the call was amazing ❤️👀

steady hare Dec 5, 2025, 5:29 AM

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kellyhehe2

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No need to be sorry kellyhug

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I enjoyed it as well mmilklove

wide vale Dec 5, 2025, 7:05 PM

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steady hare I enjoyed it as well<:mmilklove:756940398982856816>

yayyy

wide vale Dec 6, 2025, 8:47 PM

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ugh

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im not ok

steady hare Dec 6, 2025, 9:44 PM

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🥺 kellyhug

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Im here

wide vale Dec 7, 2025, 5:52 PM

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||not even feeling so bad...i just don't wanna live anymore. And i feel like accepting tgat...and that scares me||

wide vale Dec 7, 2025, 8:35 PM

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Believing the words of others
is the hardest part —
the heaviest step to take.

And asking yourself:
Is it worth it?
All that hope?
Is it worth it,
or are you just lying to yourself
to stay alive one more day…
and another…
and another.

Would an end not be the most reasonable thing?
To leave — not in silence,
but with pride.
To leave — not as a stranger,
but as yourself.

To leave now,
after learning about your worth.,
yet still feeling it isn’t enough
to keep you alive.

Isn’t leaving the best thing you can do?
So you leave the way
you wish to be remembered.
So you leave now

wide vale Dec 7, 2025, 10:06 PM

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||relapsed ||

wide vale Dec 7, 2025, 10:35 PM

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im so tired of everything rn, i just wanna end everything rn. But i won't
since idk
i didn't try enough yet?
it would be a waste right?
a waste of recourses. I lived too long to end it now... without ever helping others

steady hare Dec 8, 2025, 11:53 PM

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Wrote you in dms

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Please hang in there

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We love you sweetheart 🩵 kellyhug

wide vale Dec 9, 2025, 2:11 AM

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hug

vivid quail Dec 9, 2025, 5:03 AM

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wide vale idk what it is 😅 idk what i did

Actually really love this painting nice work! It reminds me of a late night lake the bottom part almost looks like a reflection

wide vale Dec 9, 2025, 6:02 AM

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vivid quail Actually really love this painting nice work! It reminds me of a late night lake...

awww thank you, im glad you like it🤗

wide vale Dec 9, 2025, 7:47 PM

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decided 4o reach out to my father

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my brother is gonns text him first

steady hare Dec 9, 2025, 9:11 PM

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kellypeek2 kannawow

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kellyhug

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I wish you the best sweetheart. Yk you can talk to me about anything 🩵

wide vale Dec 9, 2025, 9:15 PM

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im worried and i didn't really wanna do it... i was more forced into it

wide vale Dec 10, 2025, 4:32 PM

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im so tire

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tored

vivid quail Dec 11, 2025, 1:34 AM

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Felt

wide vale Dec 11, 2025, 7:06 PM

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im so ugh🫠

wide vale Dec 11, 2025, 8:13 PM

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ahh wth am i doinggg

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a friend of mine blocked me months agoo

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i wad in his chat looking up something and accidentally sent him a messagee

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he unblocked me apperantlyy

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🫠

steady hare Dec 11, 2025, 8:43 PM

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🥺 kellyhug

wide vale Dec 11, 2025, 9:01 PM

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||feel like relapsing ||

steady hare Dec 11, 2025, 9:07 PM

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🥺

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Please

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Talk to me

wide vale Dec 11, 2025, 9:09 PM

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hug

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