Journal of a 12th grader | The Therapy Center | Page 1

mental root Feb 17, 2025, 2:06 AM

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Fym its not allowed

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Boo

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WHY CANT I UPLOAD PICS IN MY OWN CHANNEL

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Smh tyranny

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Such things wouldnt happen in mental health

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HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SHOW PROGRESS

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Anyhow

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Welcome everybody

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This is the journal of an 11th grader ™, season 2 or something cuz SOMEONE decided to lock all the previous journals like dawg isnt that still a part of mental health????
Anyhow have a good read

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First thing I will be talking about

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Instead of gulf of america

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damn they caught my ahh

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It should be the gulf of
Canada
Usa
Mexico

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If ykyk

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Damn yknow what Imma make an introduction first

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Aight so, my name is Rekton or normally called Ramo irl (@ramotheslamo on instagram)
Im a 16 year old dude that goes to the 6th best highschool in the nation (Labschool Kebayoran).

I stand at 6 foot and I currently weigh 76kg, I am aiming to change my weight and gain more muscle.

Uhh iq range is between 127-146 so take it as you will but you should treat me like a 70 iq person 🔥🔥🔥.

Lowkey I get some moodswings from energetic to melancholy so excuse the occasional edgy crap you'll see here.

Im an ENTP-A 5w6 and Im apparently neutral good, I dont believe that crap since its basically astrology for dudes but oh well.

This channel might talk about some political crap cuz I do wanna delve more into it and expand my knowledge on it since I do believe knowing the political state of the world or at least your nation is needed as you too are a citizen.

I will also be occasionally be talking about philosophy, what parts of certain ideologies we should be taking and which we should leave behind.

Sadly pictures arent able to be uploaded here for some reason, so it wont be that entertaining and it'll just look like a skizo talking to himself.

Try to have fun reading this crap

mental root Feb 17, 2025, 12:35 PM

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I know I be sounding like an obsessive ex but dawg I be sad over how they make a journaling channel

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Like dawg

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Why

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At least make it so we can upload pics

mental root Feb 17, 2025, 2:07 PM

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Lowkey dawg

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This looks maxxing crap

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Its getting really confusing at this point

mental root Feb 17, 2025, 3:52 PM

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I got a small feeling I got cursed yo

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Cuz like I got this one friend

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Discord

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Had cancer, beat it but lied about dying

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Was pissed off as hell

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About the lie cuz like idk man Ion like jokes like that I was straight begging god to save her

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I am in the wrong tho

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I do admit then

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Anyway she messaged me out of nowhere saying and I quote
"@rekton, ur pettiness will cause your bridgee to ruin"

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At first I was like
What you on

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Thought she was being edgy or somethinng

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But like

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What if she be cursing me

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Like hmm

mental root Feb 18, 2025, 12:24 AM

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HELP THE LOOKSMAXXING IS TAKING ME

mental root Feb 18, 2025, 4:47 PM

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Just finished doing chapter two of my academic paper

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I think thats what its called in english

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Feeling pretty good

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Pretty tired too tbh

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But today was good

little anvil Feb 18, 2025, 7:30 PM

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well ig we moved

mental root Feb 21, 2025, 11:54 AM

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little anvil well ig we moved

Real

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Anyhow I visited my middle school today to see my old teacher and juniors

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Only like

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One teacher recognized me

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And got my name wrong

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My juniors recognized me tho

mental root Feb 21, 2025, 11:56 AM

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mental root One teacher recognized me

Not a Im not known thing

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I was known by basically everybody

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But

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I was always bald

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I was using a mask at all times

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I was much louder

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And I was way less groomed

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Lowkey felt like a confidence boost when they complimented me and how I changed

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All the teachers remembered who I was after I said my name

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Anyhow they took down my favorite restaurants so I went home early

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Tomorrow Imma hang out at my moms workplaces gym with some of my homies

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I WANNA UPLOAD PICS AHHHH

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Does anybody know why

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We arent allowed to upload pics here

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Is it like extra heavy on the server or something?

little anvil Feb 21, 2025, 12:42 PM

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mental root My juniors recognized me tho

how old are you btw?

mental root Feb 21, 2025, 12:56 PM

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little anvil how old are you btw?

I be uhh

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Lemme think of some stupid math equation that will turn out to be my age

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Uhhh

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(1/age) =(1/64)+(1/64)+(1/64) +(1/64)

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Yeah

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I think that makes sense

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Yeah the math makes sense

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You know me please I was joking

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You dont gotta do the math I'll just tell you if you want

little anvil Feb 21, 2025, 1:48 PM

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i know the math

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its basically same as finding parallel resistance

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i do that

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so ur 16 eh

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if u were 2 years older ur visit to ur juniors would have been ummmm

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you can fill the rest

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nvm that

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im dumb

little anvil Feb 21, 2025, 1:52 PM

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mental root Is it like extra heavy on the server or something?

for the discord servers?

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prob not

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ig they dont wanna flood things

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as ppl might just spam photos

mental root Feb 21, 2025, 1:53 PM

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little anvil if u were 2 years older ur visit to ur juniors would have been ummmm

OH HELL NAH DAWG

little anvil Feb 21, 2025, 1:53 PM

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LMAO

mental root Feb 21, 2025, 1:53 PM

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Istg, I love my juniors a lot but not in that way

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I love em, like a big bro yknow

little anvil Feb 21, 2025, 1:53 PM

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true i understnad

mental root Feb 23, 2025, 11:17 AM

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Lowkey

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Today was

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Good but with a tad of bad

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The good being I got to hang out at my best friends birthday party and hang out at a gallery with my club

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But lowkey

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Turns out I wasnt invited to one of my close friends birthday party

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Im sure its cuz Im kinda a different frequency with her other friends and I'd just be silent but lowkey dawg it kinda hurt

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Its like I expected to drift away from that friendgroup and I have, but I try hard to keep myself close to them but we just aint the same frequency dawg

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I know they still chill with me but like lowkey I feel kinda hurt dawg

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Oh yeah also my friends said my crush dont talk about me but lowkey why would she 💀

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Back on the positive side i made cakes with my mom

mental root Feb 23, 2025, 12:45 PM

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I have found my insecurity🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️

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Im afraid of not fitting in with my friends and slowly distancing ourselves

little anvil Feb 23, 2025, 3:32 PM

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achievement unlocked

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"insecure friends"

mental root Feb 24, 2025, 12:56 PM

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Lowkey dawg

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Even as a muslim, I see a lot of my ideology and self in that one Cliffe guy

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That likes to preach about the bible

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Lowkey I like the message he gives out

mental root Feb 25, 2025, 12:17 PM

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Currently in a slump

mental root Feb 26, 2025, 5:09 AM

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Blew up at my best friend today

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My feelings keep fluctuating for no reason

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One second I feel goofy the other I blow up

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Maybe its because of the upcoming exams

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But I've been much more easy to irritate lately

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It feels like all my progress is slipping away

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Im becoming more bad of a person each passing second

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I'll prolly isolate myself for a bit till my emotions are more stable so I dont blow up at anybody anymore

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I think I know why now

mental root Feb 26, 2025, 2:03 PM

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Lowkey Imma have the biggest fall down ever

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Im sorry to disappoint yall but my past is coming to haunt me and Im starting to feel like a bad person

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Im starting to get more apathetic about the bad things I do

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I start to let go of my morals and make fun of people

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I'll still try to strive to be a better person

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But I feel myself slipping

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It wasnt even a week after I started to think I was a good human being

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I just started to get pissed off more easily, more stressed out, I got more vulnerable

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So I will state once more

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I am not a good person

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Sorry for the sudden ranting

mental root Feb 27, 2025, 2:47 PM

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Today was fun

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I had gone to karaoke with my homies

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At first I was a bit worried of crashing the mood since I got a different genre than them

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But it was nice

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Also used hella drip

open jay Feb 27, 2025, 5:01 PM

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hell yea

mental root Mar 4, 2025, 3:08 PM

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Once again I am reminded of my own weakness

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As my oldest brother uses his usual cuz I said so excuse

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But I have decided that I will not go down the same way my brother did

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Although I am not a good person, I refuse to be a bad person

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When I see my friends do acts I wouldnt condone, I wonder if they're good people

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However who am I to judge, when I dont even stop them

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As I age, I sadly open my eyes to reality

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I see that my eldest brother isnt the person I had adored all those years as a child

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He is a person who would trick and lie, hurting people for no reason

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But I fear that I will stray down the same path as he will, as he did with my dad

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Perhaps the path is a river bringing us all through the same path

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I fear the person I will be in the future

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I feel myself becoming more apathetic and immature as the days pass

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I do not care for people as I did in the past

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If this is what growing up is, I would rather stay as I am

little anvil Mar 6, 2025, 2:44 PM

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thats deep

mental root Mar 6, 2025, 4:08 PM

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Yo dont think Im like that tho

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I dueted myself using a deep voice and a light voice on the song Love by Keyshia Cole

little anvil Mar 17, 2025, 7:33 AM

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thats mad

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dueting urself

little anvil Mar 26, 2025, 5:38 PM

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dawg u here?

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 2:55 PM

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little anvil dawg u here?

....

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Hell yeah

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Lowkey had a good month but a bad day

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You doing good dawg?

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Woah a ghost

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 2:57 PM

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mental root Woah a ghost

Indeed

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Don't mind I'm just bored

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Having a rough friendship, but I'm not bringing that up here, continue what you were doing

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 2:59 PM

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mental root WHY CANT I UPLOAD PICS IN MY OWN CHANNEL

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:00 PM

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Uhhh so important crap that happened

Exam scores are actually pretty satisfying, ego is getting restored
Hung out with my ex and bestfriend at a haunted place
Watched the minecraft movie with my homies
Got into tasting random sodas
Went to the gym at my moms place
Stayed at school till 9:30pm
Went through a cannon event with my crush
Paramedic crap
Went to a funeral
Waited 4 hours for a pic just to be told Im taking one tomorrow

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April recap lowkey

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:00 PM

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vale roost

🧟‍♂️

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:00 PM

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vale roost Having a rough friendship, but I'm not bringing that up here, continue what you ...

Nah its chill if you want lowkey

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:01 PM

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mental root 🧟‍♂️

Don't mind the pic of my room, I'm just testing it if i can send pictures

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:01 PM

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mental root Nah its chill if you want lowkey

Thanks

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:02 PM

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vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:03 PM

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mental root

Rest in peace our soldier dude 🕊️

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:03 PM

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vale roost Rest in peace our soldier dude 🕊️

I tickled him while he was laying down and he punched my leg 🧟‍♂️

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:03 PM

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Filipino?

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:04 PM

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close but no cigar

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Land of the bad government

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:04 PM

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North Korean

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:04 PM

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Indonesia

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Wbu?

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:04 PM

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vale roost North Korean

True true

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:05 PM

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mental root Wbu?

Colonized by Spain, sold to America, captured by Japanese, America bombed Japan, America take control, 10 years later, independent country

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:05 PM

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Thats a hard one

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:05 PM

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I'll make it easy

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Country became free after 333 years of colonization from Spain

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:06 PM

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So at least we know its in asia Im assuming

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Damn

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Yall got it unlucky

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:06 PM

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Yeah

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:06 PM

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Oh damn you're

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Philippines

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Aint you

little anvil Apr 22, 2025, 3:07 PM

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mental root Oh damn you're

bro searched it up 💀

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:07 PM

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Yes i am a country

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I am Philippines lmao

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:07 PM

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little anvil bro searched it up 💀

Shhh

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:07 PM

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vale roost I am Philippines lmao

Obviously

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Mind passing me some natural resources

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:07 PM

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mental root Mind passing me some natural resources

Nah brah 💀

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We having hard time here, senators are so bad

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:08 PM

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Claim this man again spain 💔

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:08 PM

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They ain't even doing their job right

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:08 PM

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vale roost We having hard time here, senators are so bad

Lmao rip

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:08 PM

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vale roost They ain't even doing their job right

Dawg we asian countries obviously thats how its gonna be dawg

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Cmon

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No racism intended

little anvil Apr 22, 2025, 3:08 PM

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same

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+1

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:09 PM

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little anvil same

Doesnt narrow down your country either 💔

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:09 PM

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little anvil +1

+2

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:09 PM

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mental root Doesnt narrow down your country either 💔

Thailand

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:09 PM

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Bad government in asia thats everything

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:09 PM

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vale roost Thailand

Woah

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:09 PM

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little anvil same

Is you from Thailand

little anvil Apr 22, 2025, 3:09 PM

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nah

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ind

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ia

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:09 PM

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mental root Is you from Thailand

Wtf man 💀

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I thought that's your friend

little anvil Apr 22, 2025, 3:10 PM

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vale roost I thought that's your friend

ive been here since a long time but no

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or yes

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who knows

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:11 PM

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vale roost I thought that's your friend

Lowkey I'd say hes more of a like a

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Hmm

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Pretty hard to say

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Like

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:11 PM

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Stranger with connection

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:11 PM

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A ghost of a dead student that gives me advice so I dont die

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Yknow that type of character?

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:11 PM

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mental root Yknow that type of character?

Yeah

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That old man vibes

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:12 PM

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Like he appears at my lowest and makes sure I aint dead

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:12 PM

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Your local old man

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:12 PM

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little anvil who knows

I mean sure why not imo

mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:12 PM

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vale roost Your local old man

Yeah yeah like that

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Like the neighbor from Home Alone

vale roost Apr 22, 2025, 3:13 PM

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I need to touch hair

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mental root Apr 22, 2025, 3:15 PM

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vale roost

Me when the very space Im occupying with my virtual avatar is being squeezed by a hand that exists on a separate plane and dimension that I am hence me not reacting yet the space around me distorting abnormally

mental root Apr 23, 2025, 12:27 PM

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Today I realized something very grave

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Saying that you dont trust one friend to your friend with anxiety is not the best idea

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🧟‍♂️

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Lowkey Im too used to people taking my word and being chill with it that I forgot about people who feel wrong about stuff that isnt their fault

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Not to be edgy

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I need to lowkey learn more about the complexity of every human being

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Also I finally took the picture for my id 🔥🔥🔥🔥

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Photos from the room

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Im gonna tweak the hell out if my id card turns out bad

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My school will no longer exist

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My country's crap government will lock the hell in to try stop me just to fail

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Why do I look like Im wearing those fake glasses with those big noses 🧟‍♂️

mental root Apr 24, 2025, 5:31 AM

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Currently getting interviewed by my friend

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More so interrogated

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But shes shy

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So I've just been sitting here

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And shes been entering and exiting the room

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I wanna eat my food and sleep....

mental root Apr 24, 2025, 6:16 AM

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So

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She went into the room

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And now the drama is finished

mental root Apr 24, 2025, 3:32 PM

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Talked to my other friend who I got into the drama with about the person who interrogated me

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Shes a close friend

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Super nice and pure

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But very bad with words

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Ended up causing the friend anger cuz of how badly she worded it

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Also

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We ended talking about other topics

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Lowkey the interrogators man is one of my old homies who I drifted away

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Lowkey I was sad as hell about the drifting but I felt like I couldnt do anything about it

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When Im about to talk to him I feel so rigid like damn dawg

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And its like we aint that connected either we have different friend groups now

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I miss him so much dawg

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I miss talking and yapping with my homie without a care

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Without thinking about what others would think

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Being reckless and all

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Hes like my idol man

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I also heard from my friends that he misses me

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We in the same class and in the same row of seats and have close friends who are connected to each other

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Same favorite subjects

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same hobbies

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Passion

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Humor

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Allat

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But for some reason

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I cant find it in me to talk to him

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Its like trying to talk to someone after you mess up

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I think about the times I judged him for hurting other people behind his back

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About the stuff I've done

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How I've messed up with some of my jokes

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And I just think man

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Am I even worthy of talking to him man

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This aint a plea for help

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Not a I want support thing

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I just wanna know if I deserve to have my homie back

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He used to be my best friend man

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I also think it was cuz I put him on a pedestal

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Cuz the guys talented and smart

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So I was like I gotta make sure he doesnt feel pressures about me asking about stuff and all

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But man Im starting to think it would've been a better idea just to ask

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I know people drift away

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People come and people go

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But Ion want him to be one of them man

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Hes like my twin

mental root Apr 25, 2025, 10:36 AM

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25th of april

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I woke up at 5:28 am

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I was supposed to be at school at 5:30

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I made it

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Cuz Im the goat

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And yes I still showered

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Duh

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Then I saw my report card which Im actually pretty happy about

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Then I did some drawing at my artsclub and documentation

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After that I went to one of my close friends computer club and helped revise/edit his story

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Im also gonna be making a short story board for it in manga form (I dont have good drawing at all, its very crap but its just to figure out what the pace is gonna be like)

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Tbf Im just using rudimentary shapes for the characters and all

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Very little background too

little anvil Apr 25, 2025, 7:55 PM

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mental root I woke up at 5:28 am

i have school at 8 💀

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am

mental root Apr 26, 2025, 1:44 PM

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little anvil i have school at 8 💀

🧟‍♂️

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I need to go to school at 3AM tomorrow

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I aint even joking

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👨‍🦱 -> 🧟‍♂️ -> 💀 ->🦄

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Also crappy drawings instead of sleeping

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Its for the pace and visualization of the actual writing

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So it doesnt need to be good anyways

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I failed my bio and arts teacher 💔

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I swear guys Im actually not a nerd

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I love doing sports so much my biggest passion is badminton

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Im like a mythology nerd at best

little anvil Apr 26, 2025, 5:28 PM

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mental root Im like a mythology nerd at best

then tell me how was athena born WITHOUT SEARCHING IT UP

mental root Apr 26, 2025, 7:21 PM

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little anvil then tell me how was athena born _WITHOUT SEARCHING IT UP_

Wait I lowkey forgot but iirc balls

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Balls

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Cut off some guys balls

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Just woke up

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Aw nvm thats another guy

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She just appeared from Zeus's head wound of sum 💔

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OKAY NOW IN MY DEFENSE AS SOON AS BALLS ENTERED MY MIND I STOPPED THINKING COMPLETELY

little anvil Apr 27, 2025, 12:50 PM

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mental root OKAY NOW IN MY DEFENSE AS SOON AS BALLS ENTERED MY MIND I STOPPED THINKING COMPL...

🤓

mental root Apr 27, 2025, 3:33 PM

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little anvil 🤓

BRO COME ON

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Never understood how people would say
I'd burn the world for my lover or I'd sacrifice everything for them

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Like bro????

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Im here bro???

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Dont kill me please?

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Like why am I getting dragged in

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I mean like Im pretty sure they wouldnt notice that the kill count is off by one

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mental root Apr 29, 2025, 10:00 AM

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Lowkey

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Ended up crying today

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My parents got my report card and apparently my teacher said I didnt focus in class, dont study with friends, use my headphones all the time, dont ask the teacher when I dont understand, give up easily

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And its like what the hell man

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I focus a lot in school

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I always ask my friends when I dont understand

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I only use my headphones when Im doing a study that I can do by myself

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I study till midnight

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When its exam season

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I get that Im not like the super genius guys in my school

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And Im not like the study till 3am in the morning anxious type of student

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But I also put in a lot of effort

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I was finally proud of my exam scores

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All of them were above my class average

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But no apparently I dont focus

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Apparently mostly in maths

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And its like what world does my teacher live in

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Im literally normally the first person to hand in my maths homework

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Just because I dont know how to calculate the hardest questions and would rather wait for the teacher to explain that doesnt make me a lazy bum who gives up easily and doesnt focus

little anvil Apr 29, 2025, 5:51 PM

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what score u got gang

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mine is coming in like 2 weeks so im kinda nervous af too

mental root Apr 30, 2025, 1:20 AM

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little anvil what score u got gang

90's for common subjects and 70-80's for most science based

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A thing to take note of is that the exams in my school are purposely extra hard so geting a high score is hard

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The average for physics was 42 in the school

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And like 40 for chemistry

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My physics was a 55 but like dawg thats 13 above average

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For chemistry I tied with the pj of chemistry basically the guy responsible with all the chemistry based crap in class

mental root Apr 30, 2025, 1:47 PM

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I've been getting lower and lower each day

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Lowkey its been very subtle but I needa lock in

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Personality wise and studying wise

mental root May 3, 2025, 11:05 PM

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Aight so yesterday I did some group work at my friends house with two people

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One of them is my homie that I miss a lot that I talked about earlier

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So I was there from 11am to 9pm at night 💀

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We cooked together multiple times

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Went to the convenience store

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I also met up with my friend who lived nearby

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At the end of the day we played UNO

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But the one who loses has to do a truth or dare

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Crap got pretty heavy

mental root May 3, 2025, 11:08 PM

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mental root One of them is my homie that I miss a lot that I talked about earlier

I asked this friend whats his impression of me and he said
"You'd get along better with everyone if you didnt hang out with the misfits of the school'

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Lowkey I prefer being with the misfits tho so I didnt really care

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Then when I lost they asked me what was the worst thing I did

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I told them and lowkey they were horrified

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But they understood and shared the worse that they djd

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It wasnt nearly as bad as mine but yknow its good they asked

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Then the third person finally lost but we didnt really find something out

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Then we played one more time

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And I lost

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So my homie that I missed asked me like

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What you think about me

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I lowkey cried and told him how much I missed him 🧟‍♂️

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Then the day ended with them calling me extremely chalant

mental root May 6, 2025, 2:12 PM

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HELP 3 TESTS IN ONE DAY

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Im ready for like 0 of them 🔥🔥🔥🔥

warped oasis May 6, 2025, 3:33 PM

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mental root HELP 3 TESTS IN ONE DAY

bless your heart rekton because no way 💔

mental root May 6, 2025, 4:11 PM

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Im ready

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For all 3 of them

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And semi ready for the one in 2 days

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I just needa do a bit extra tomorrow

mental root May 6, 2025, 4:11 PM

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warped oasis bless your heart rekton because no way 💔

Thanks tho

mental root May 10, 2025, 11:39 AM

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mental root For all 3 of them

yo one test I got 85, other test I got 91.7, and the last test idk

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HELP IM FIFTH WHEELING

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HEEEEEELP

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THEY'RE TALKIN ABOUT A TRIP THEY WENT TO WITHOUT ME

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IM GONNA JUMP

mental root May 11, 2025, 2:38 PM

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Cooked a crappy steak and did some drawing

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Lowkey today I spent more time asleep cuz I was tired as hell

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I got no plans tomorrow so I might just use a train to go to the middle of nowhere

mental root May 11, 2025, 5:05 PM

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Lowkey narcissistic rant of a teenager:

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Ion really understand why my friends think I look good

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Like Im on call with one of my friends

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And she says Im an 8.5-9/10

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Compared me to some people I think are really attractive

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And she isnt the type to lie

mental root May 13, 2025, 4:31 PM

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mental root And she says Im an 8.5-9/10

I am currently sleeping over at this persons house

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Im sleeping in her room and shes sleeping in her dads room

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But I'd like to clarify neither of us like each other romantically

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She has a boyfriend and sees me as a girl (even though Im a straight man born man) and I see her as a child since shes like 142cm and Im not a scum bag who would like my friends girlfriend

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Im going home at 5am in the morning

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To go get my uniform

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Lowkey this if my first sleepover at my friends house I just realized 🧟‍♂️

fading basin May 13, 2025, 5:44 PM

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mental root And she says Im an 8.5-9/10

She in love w u gng

mental root May 13, 2025, 10:10 PM

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Nah gang

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Like normally I'd be unsure and crap and not know

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But her

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We both know for a fact

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We domt have a crush on each other

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At all

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Like actually fr

fading basin May 15, 2025, 7:25 AM

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Okay manee

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Hope you working hard man

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You'll be a great man I believe in you gng

mental root May 18, 2025, 4:47 PM

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Sorry for the late response Ion got notifications in this server and I've been up to some stuff, thanks for the wishes tho man and I hope you the same and better

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Lowkey I've been drawing lately, trying to pick up some basic punching combos as well for no reason

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I went to a free d4vd concert

fading basin May 19, 2025, 9:17 AM

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mental root I went to a free d4vd concert

Oh wow

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Amazing that you been drawing too

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And the little boxing

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Keep it up, especially the boxing if you can

mental root May 19, 2025, 9:26 AM

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fading basin Keep it up, especially the boxing if you can

Bros planning to attack me 🧟‍♂️

fading basin May 19, 2025, 9:45 AM

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kekW

mental root May 24, 2025, 2:40 PM

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mental root May 24, 2025, 3:07 PM

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Also mourning over the fact I wont be able to talk with my crush anymore cuz I only talk to her during club activities and today was the last day

mental root May 26, 2025, 11:19 AM

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Lowkey

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Ikiag

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Im so cooked for physics

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Advanced maths I have a super tiny chance

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Biology I just need to study more

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Chemistry I got it

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Basic maths too

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But physics hell nah

mental root May 27, 2025, 4:24 PM

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Might shave my hair off ikiag

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Looks zesty as hell but oh well

mental root Jun 7, 2025, 1:27 PM

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Tried drawing

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Took me 5 attempts to get somethinh decent (imo(top left))

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Craps hard

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Went thrifting with my brother and two of his friends too

mental root Jun 7, 2025, 1:52 PM

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I SHOULDNT HAVE RISKED IT

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I SHOULDVE JUST EATEN DRY CHICKEN

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I SHOULDNT HAVE MADE IT JUICY

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IM DYING

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HEEEEELP

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Rest room but Im doing anything but Resting

mental root Jun 11, 2025, 2:23 PM

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RAHHHHH

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CALL ME UNETHICAL ROMANCE THE WAY I HAD THOSE EXAMS ON A LEASH

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CALL ME ASURA THE WAY I HANDLED ALLAT NO PROBLEMO

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My friends are way heavier than my exams

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AND I STILL CARRIED THEIR AHHES

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RAHHHHH THEY CALL ME RAMO CUZ I ALWAYS SLAMO THEM EXAMS

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STRUGGLED MORE WITH ENGLISH THAN PHYSICS AND CHEMISTRY

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Also bought a tub of ice cream at circle K with my best friend with toppings (I ate 3/4ths of the entire tub)

mental root Jun 11, 2025, 2:25 PM

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mental root

Mentos, pocky, and some wafers

mental root Jun 12, 2025, 7:12 PM

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I have encountered a problem

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I lowkey realized

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Yknow obviously I act different with my homies and girls (including girl homies) obviously

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Cuz like yknow theres jokes I cant say and I generally think more around em so Ion mess up and look weird

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But then lowkey I thought to myself

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Does that deprive myself of my personality

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Like my personality is basically the exact opposite from the way I act around girls

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Especially my crush

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With my friends Im that loud guy who likes to punch them (playfully) and call bad behaviour out yknow

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But like around my crush lets say, I immediately go to trying to act more calm and reliable

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But when Im doing self introspection it feels like that Im not being true to myself but then again I dont really know

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And without any distinct personality what differentiates me from any other man?

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Lowkey Idk rambles of an 11th grader whos boutta turn into a 12th grader

little anvil Jun 19, 2025, 6:01 AM

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so u lock in front of the huzz?

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im back

mental root Jun 20, 2025, 11:47 AM

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little anvil so u lock in front of the huzz?

Duh I am after all a 16 year old, thats what we do

mental root Jun 20, 2025, 11:47 AM

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little anvil im back

Thank god

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Lowkey my legs exhausted as hell but my friend asked if I wanted to go on a run tomorrow

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Hell yeah

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HELL YEAH SHE CANCELED

little anvil Jun 20, 2025, 1:14 PM

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mental root Duh I am after all a 16 year old, thats what we do

same

mental root Jun 20, 2025, 1:15 PM

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little anvil same

I am indeed starting to know you

little anvil Jun 20, 2025, 1:15 PM

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fr fr

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im in 11th now

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one of friends was asking me how to fill a form for a university 💀

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like wth

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im not in college

mental root Jun 23, 2025, 11:46 AM

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little anvil one of friends was asking me how to fill a form for a university 💀

💀

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Im in 12th now 🧟‍♂️

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Praying to god my country doesnt get involved in the WW3 cuz Im a healthy dude with no bad track record

little anvil Jun 23, 2025, 3:31 PM

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💀

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cya in war

mental root Jul 4, 2025, 8:13 AM

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little anvil cya in war

Real

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Posted a story in my insta

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My crush saw it

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Now what do we know about my crush

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Shes lazy as hell

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And she saw my story

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What can we conclude

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I am at least worth 1/10000th of her energy

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Which meand

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I basically got this in the bag

mental root Jul 4, 2025, 1:12 PM

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Just like how I crave for her touch, her presence
Each day I suffer, fighting for my life in the so called "rest" room... Perchance
Just to crawl back to the kitchen, to once again blaze the chicken into a culinary madness only its creator can love
A culinary madness that will light its creators digestive track ablaze, as everything returns to Ash

mental root Jul 4, 2025, 1:12 PM

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mental root Just like how I crave for her touch, her presence Each day I suffer, fighting fo...

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Frankenstein is no monster, he is a masterpiece created by monstrosity far beyond humanity

mental root Jul 5, 2025, 3:13 PM

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As the days slip out of my sight with haste I've come to realize that a mere cod cannot fight the flow of the river
I was confronted with the future that has always been set in stone, given nothing but my hands to chip away at it
But I have met her, someone so mind-blowing passive, like a leaf flowing with the river
Someone so relaxed with letting everything pass
But still, when Im with her, the burden of fate gets ever so lighter

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I SHOULD STOP EATING CHICKEN GAH MY STOMACH HURTS

mental root Jul 8, 2025, 3:53 AM

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Lowkey

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As much as I love mythology

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And arthurian legend

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With all that british stories

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Why the legendary sword designs so basic 💔

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And why do most mythological swords just be sharp 💔

mental root Jul 9, 2025, 11:53 AM

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mental root Jul 10, 2025, 4:06 PM

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Ran to school to get my blood test results (the hospital is near my school) turns out I got more Erythrocytes I think and it takes a bit longer for my blood to coagulate

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Then I picked up my new 12th grade books and bought bananas on the way back cuz my mom told me to

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Heavy as hell my lower back was gonna give out at any moment by the end of it

mental root Jul 20, 2025, 1:07 PM

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mental root Jul 20, 2025, 1:08 PM

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mental root

My goated principle

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mental root Jul 22, 2025, 5:28 AM

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I thought the worst part of the surgery would be the pain afterwards

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NOBODY TOLD ME I'D LOSE MY JAWLINE

mental root Jul 26, 2025, 1:00 PM

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HEEELP I WAS SICK ON TUESDAY AND NOW I NEED TO FIND A GROUP AND BEG THEM TO LET ME JOIN THEM FOR ARTS

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Me rn

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On the side note art

mental root Jul 26, 2025, 2:22 PM

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One day to redo a chunk of my academic paper cuz I realized that I was pulling that entire part out of my ahh instead of using sources 💔

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I found a source I can use

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Prolly gon take an hour

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I'll do it tomorrow

mental root Aug 3, 2025, 5:35 PM

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Uhhh two things I think

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I was a paramedic for my schools event (drama)

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Back then I thought it was some super grand drama and I was sad that I didnt get cast as an actor but now that I see the stage (as a a paramedic) lowkey I kinda go without it

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Ended up drawing

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Just went to my friends birthday party, was fancy and cool as hell

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There was salmon, duck, chicken, tiramisu, cake, cupcakes

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I got some earbuds for answering what his favorite color was

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Some guy got a phone and another guy got a nintendo

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mental root Aug 9, 2025, 2:17 PM

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I feel as though I will die in a months time

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Not as a stressful event, nor a cry for help

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Though I am being overdramatic

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When I was 15 I told my oldest brother, my peak will be at 16 (you can fight me then), afterwards I will deteriorate quickly

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I've also had thoughts of dying at 30 or in the next month

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Plus my diagnosed tuberculosis (which tbh aint even bad Ion think its even active its just in my lungs for now)

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And my strength fading a bit

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I wish to spread as much positivity as possible in my (prolly not) last month

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Oh well, I can also die tomorrow

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Who knows

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Nobody thats the point of appreciating life

mental root Aug 16, 2025, 12:12 PM

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Uhum uhum

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On the more positive side

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I realized

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I cant pull for crap

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Especially compared to my two friends, the guy who pulls every 2 seconds and is a cosplayer, and the guy who got a girl obsessed with him

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The echoes of "tbh at first I thought you were creepy" Still haunt my mind

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Reasonable but oh god

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Maybe my purpose is just to aura farm

little anvil Sep 10, 2025, 7:07 PM

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piccolo aah person

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" I alone am the aura farmer"

little anvil Oct 9, 2025, 6:49 PM

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chat we good?

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its been a long ass time

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🤞🏿

vale roost Oct 9, 2025, 9:20 PM

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little anvil chat we good?

Maybe their exam week or preparing for an exam

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@mental root good luck comrade on whatever you're handling

little anvil Oct 9, 2025, 9:50 PM

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vale roost Maybe their exam week or preparing for an exam

3 months tho

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good luck gng

mental root Oct 10, 2025, 12:55 PM

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little anvil its been a long ass time

Im trying to perfect myself so that I can stand next to my crush

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Im good tho, thanks for checking in homies

mental root Oct 10, 2025, 12:56 PM

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vale roost <@1253322171376468068> good luck comrade on whatever you're handling

Yeah I got national exams in a month too so thanks gang

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Ah but also positive stuff

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Although Im supposed to have tuberculosis in my lungs, they couldnt find anything in my spit and lymphatic nodes

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So Im pretty sure it doesnt spread

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Also extra good news, I have (for now) achieved being the fastest guy in my grade

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The second fastest is a guy with the same name as me

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But we can do retries so I have to aim for faster times

mental root Oct 11, 2025, 4:07 PM

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Lowkey

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These days

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I've been more sentimental

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When I see someone suffering

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When I have to choose between options

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I'd think to myself

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Man what would Superman do

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As corny as it is

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I wanna a hero

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I want people to look at me

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And think, damn hes cool

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I want people to trust me

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To know that even if this entire world sucks

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Even if everybody hates em

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Bullies em

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I'll always be there for them

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But lately

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I realized

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I dont stand up for my friends who get bullied

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I was talking with my friend

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And some dude was recording him from behind

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I didnt stop it

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Ion know why

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I dont care about that guys perception on me

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Hes tried gossiping about me too

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Not a guy I respect either

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My friends that I care about would've also taken my side

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So why didnt I stand up for my homie

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Then theres this other girl

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Who gets bullied

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She tried being my friend

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But I'd purposefully act distant

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Cuz I didn't want any rumors between us

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Shes isolated

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People dont wanna associate with her cuz something with her and how shes childish or sum

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I saw some old dude in front of her class

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I asked the dude "hey sir, can I help you find anything?"

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And he asked if I could find his daughter

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The bullied girl

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I showed him

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And it just hit me

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And I know its really stupid that I just realized

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I thought to myself that everybody got a family

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A dad

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A mom

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Even if they dont

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They got someone who loves them and wants them to have friends

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And the fact that shes childish

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Whys that matter

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Doesnt that just mean we're isolating a child

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Later that day I met with one of my close friends

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He had a falling out with the first guy (the one who got recorded) and is also the main reason why the recorded guy is getting bullied on

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I talked to him about the morality of the situation

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How shitty I felt not standing up for them even though I want to be a hero

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He agreed

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But even after all that

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Ion know if I can stand up for them

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But Im gonna try

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Cuz its the right thing to do

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I dont want to look back at my past and think about the fact I ignored my bullied friends

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I know for a fact my child self wouldnt ever let this pass

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I'd have called myself pathetic

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Every single version

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Every single point of time I exist in

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Would disapprove of me

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Even my present self

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I'll stand up for them more

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Ion care if I get ostracized by them or if I get rumors spread about me

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Even if some of my close friends are the bullies

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It aint right

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It feels like nobody wants to be a good person anymore

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Why is fun prioritized over morality

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Even worse is that one of the people who bully my friends is the son of a member of the house of representatives of my country

mental root Oct 13, 2025, 1:42 PM

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Hung out with my homie

mental root Oct 17, 2025, 8:14 AM

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Working on a business comp with my homie

mental root Oct 19, 2025, 2:31 PM

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Lowkey trynna get more drip but Im broke and my country is more conservative 💔

vale roost Oct 21, 2025, 7:33 AM

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mental root Lowkey trynna get more drip but Im broke and my country is more conservative 💔

Ya bro wazzup

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Drip or no drip you're still drip

little anvil Oct 21, 2025, 11:04 AM

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🤑

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drippy af

mental root Oct 21, 2025, 12:43 PM

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vale roost Drip or no drip you're still drip

True true

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Whether I use the drip outside or not, I still got that drip

mental root Oct 21, 2025, 12:43 PM

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little anvil drippy af

🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️

mental root Oct 23, 2025, 1:54 PM

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Every time I think of my crush I think of another blunder

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That time I asked her how she wanted to die (its a question I ask a lot of people but yeah I know that uhhh not a good question)

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That time she trusted me with a project and I messed up

mental root Oct 23, 2025, 1:55 PM

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mental root That time she trusted me with a project and I messed up

I lowkey clutched a bit tho

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The time she asked me to teach her physics and I laughed it off

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The time she said she thought I was chronically online

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The time I accidentally did the freaky sonic in front of her and she saw and looked disgusted

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The time we had coffee together as a club but I decided to go early

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The time we sat next to each other at the hotpot and I just didnt talk to her

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Mm

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How does one fumble while not even being in a 100m proximity of the bag

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Why do I become so dumb near my crush

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I aint saying like I'd pull if I didnt fumble

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But like

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I wouldnt have bad memories at least

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Tbf I did start liking her ever since the time she laughed at me

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Ig I cant expect anything usual🧟‍♂️

mental root Oct 26, 2025, 12:35 PM

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3ds pics are my goat

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A man who thinks he has reached the peak will only want to go down

mental root Oct 31, 2025, 11:10 AM

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MY CRUSH LIKES PRETTY BOYS

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IM COOKED

vale roost Nov 2, 2025, 12:53 PM

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mental root MY CRUSH LIKES PRETTY BOYS

Sounds like my comrade is very lucky, take your chance!

mental root Nov 2, 2025, 12:58 PM

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vale roost Sounds like my comrade is very lucky, take your chance!

Not a single hint of androgyny in my adult looking ahh

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As my friends would say "I cant imagine you as a girl and I dont want to"

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The only thing pretty about me is my crush

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🔥 🔥 🔥

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Shes pretty fr

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Duality of man

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All in one day

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3k aint impressive but tbf its my first time hitting it without stop

vale roost Nov 2, 2025, 1:01 PM

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mental root

Pink popsicle

mental root Nov 2, 2025, 1:01 PM

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Well basically no stops since I had to wait at certain places to cross the road

mental root Nov 2, 2025, 1:01 PM

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vale roost Pink popsicle

Pink popsicle

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I like strawberry

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More than choco icl

mental root Nov 3, 2025, 3:45 AM

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My life is a constant cycle of exercising one day and splurging on treats the next

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All while fumbling my crush

little anvil Nov 4, 2025, 1:49 PM

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btw which grade u in gng

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i forgor

mental root Nov 5, 2025, 2:30 PM

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little anvil btw which grade u in gng

In the 12th grade gang nooo

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Im actually doing the nationally standardized high school test for chemistry and biology tomorrow🧟‍♂️

little anvil Nov 5, 2025, 2:31 PM

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mental root Im actually doing the nationally standardized high school test for chemistry and...

gl gng

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damn

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im in 11th

mental root Nov 5, 2025, 2:32 PM

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little anvil gl gng

I aint locking in so Imma need a lot of that

mental root Nov 5, 2025, 2:32 PM

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little anvil im in 11th

Damn

little anvil Nov 6, 2025, 4:50 PM

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mental root Im actually doing the nationally standardized high school test for chemistry and...

how was it chat

mental root Nov 8, 2025, 11:29 AM

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little anvil how was it chat

Yo mb for not responding cuz Ion really get discord notifications and Ion use discord that much but

Chemistry was fine tbh, as usual I loved it but also the night before I was listening to my teacher explain some stuff to the school and the next day while doing the test I found out he was teaching us questions from the leaks (which I wouldnt have wanted to see had I known cuz I have pride in chemistry)

For Biology lowkey that crap was all logic so I hated it cuz I learnt so much just for it to be a logic test

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But Ion think Im getting a bad score

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Also I have a field trip in a week

little anvil Nov 8, 2025, 11:32 AM

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w

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btw do u play clash?

mental root Nov 8, 2025, 11:32 AM

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little anvil btw do u play clash?

Nah but Im willing to download it

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Whats your id

mental root Nov 9, 2025, 10:14 AM

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Sadly Ion have time to make a hiccup cosplay

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So Imma need to find a new cosplay idea

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🧟‍♂️

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Imma ask the gpt

mental root Nov 15, 2025, 11:29 AM

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Photos from my field trip

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I bought a denim jacket (third pic) for pretty cheap

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Now Im trynna draw a design that I can put on the back side

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Something kinda soft, nature ish

mental root Nov 16, 2025, 12:35 PM

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Sometimes I get confused about myself

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I really wanna be a good guy, I feel like I try a decent amount to be

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But once in a while I'd do something very immoral while not feeling anything

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Im not trying to be corny or anything but it confuses me

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Its like my moral compass just turns off sometimes for no reason

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It feels like I have no moral foundation

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Aside from immoral actions there are also lighter things like just not caring about things that should be important to me

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I lowk started rethinking about it cuz when I asked my crush for a pic while she was with her friends and she was laughing with them I didnt really feel anything

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I thought it was shock but even now Im calm about it

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Its not the first time that its happened

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It makes me wonder if I even ever liked her

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Or if I already moved on a while ago and Im just hung on the concept of liking someone

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I dont like the fact that Im a 17 year old and Im still confused about these things

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Obviously I wont tell the immoral things I've done

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But my apathy confuses me

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I want to be a good person

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Sorry if I sound corny tho

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Maybe its just a stress coping mechanism

mental root Nov 20, 2025, 2:31 PM

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Lowkey

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My friend was going through some stuff

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And asked me if he was likeable

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And its like damn

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This guys lowkey a better/kinder version of me

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If he aint likeable, what would I be💀

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I think I'd be in prison

mental root Nov 23, 2025, 4:40 AM

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I hate Megaknight

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I hope everybody who uses Megaknight regularly stubs their toe

mental root Nov 25, 2025, 11:32 AM

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Almost like my exs post cuz I didnt realize it was their insta

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Thank god I caught on

mental root Nov 29, 2025, 7:03 PM

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Had a super bad nightmare

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Where my bullied friend killed himself

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At the start of the dream he was hanging by the railing

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On the other side

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I didnt think much of it, I just talked a bit to him to make sure he was fine

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And I decided he was

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Maybe it was a symbol for how little Im actually caring for him in real life

mental root Nov 29, 2025, 7:04 PM

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mental root And I decided he was

I went downstairs

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And I hear he jumped

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I run downstairs

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And I see his body

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Blood pooling from his head

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Whats even worse was that I saw my friends joking around about it

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One of them imitating kicking the body

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Then after that there was just random things he left behind in class and other stuff

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When I was happy I'd just see his 3ds

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I'd remember him

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I'd use the 3ds

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Then I'd start crying

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I walked with my only other friend who didnt hate the guy

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And I talked with him

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Then I cried again

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I cried many times in this dream

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And it felt too long for comfort

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This morning

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Its 2am

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As soon as I woke up

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I messaged him to keep strong

mental root Nov 30, 2025, 6:42 AM

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King tower 2 levels higher than mine

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Level 13 pekka

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IT AINT ENOUGH TO STOP ME

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RAHHHHHH

mental root Nov 30, 2025, 11:19 AM

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CR keeps traumatizing me and it aint even funny

mental root Dec 19, 2025, 1:59 PM

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mental root Dec 19, 2025, 2:23 PM

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Fnaf with homies (pic 1 and two)
I lent my bag to my friend for some milk pie (pic 3)
Went to school and saw my teacher (4 and 5)

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Also found a lookalike

mental root Dec 20, 2025, 3:54 PM

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Creme brulee atop Cheesecake idk how that works but its tasty

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My free hand always looks so bad in pics like what am I even supposed to do with it 🧟‍♂️🧟‍♂️🧟‍♂️🧟‍♂️

little anvil Dec 24, 2025, 4:04 PM

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mental root

itachi ahhh

mental root Dec 24, 2025, 10:39 PM

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little anvil itachi ahhh

Are you saying Im gonna go blind 🧟‍♂️

little anvil Dec 25, 2025, 5:14 AM

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mental root Are you saying Im gonna go blind 🧟‍♂️

im saying u got aura like itachi

vale roost Dec 27, 2025, 5:06 AM

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mental root

Idk if I'm tweaking or high but you look like this man from The Great Flood

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Anyways Merry Christmas bro and a happy new year!

mental root Dec 29, 2025, 12:23 PM

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little anvil im saying u got aura like itachi

Thank you twin I hope I do not die like him as I am the youngest brother

mental root Dec 29, 2025, 12:24 PM

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vale roost Idk if I'm tweaking or high but you look like this man from The Great Flood

I've seen this man die more than I would like but thank you twin

mental root Dec 29, 2025, 12:24 PM

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vale roost Anyways Merry Christmas bro and a happy new year!

To you too 🔥🔥🔥

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Updates on life

Went to the mall to help my friend buy new clothes for a date (he ended up just copying my favorite outfit and he wooed the girl)
While at said mall, we met another homie on accident, then I called up the last homie then we hung out
3 and 4. After the accidental homie went home I went to miniso to help the first homie get a gift for the girl, where I then was accused of breaking a mirror and told to pay until I was found innocent
Did a manhunt with my friends, was the final participant but I lost 7 minutes before the game ended

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Also the car on the first image was a free lego piece from the mall

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But it seems they forgot to put the wheels in my bag 💔

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Oh well, wabi sabi

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Also I've been seeing lately that some of my homies been chatting with ai bots

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Particularly from an app named Chai

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I lowk feel pity but is it valid

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I do understand the need for affection and companionship which cant be achieved through real life interactions for certain people

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But I really hate clankers

mental root Dec 29, 2025, 12:56 PM

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To be honest I've been on webtoon much more lately reading romance webtoons so I dont think I can judge either

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I have read 1300+ comic/similar to comics I suppose

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Another update is that I've entered the 3-4 month period after moving on where I dont feel any need for romance thankfully

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Im just trying to hang out with my friends more often 🧟‍♂️🧟‍♂️🧟‍♂️

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But also I dreamt about her dating me so kms

mental root Dec 29, 2025, 1:00 PM

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mental root Another update is that I've entered the 3-4 month period after moving on where I...

IM LYING TO MYSELF

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AS IF I CAN MOVE ON THAT FAST FROM SUCH A BEAUTIFUL GIRL

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Whatever

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At least I have more songs in my spotify

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Malcolm my goat

mental root Dec 31, 2025, 8:04 AM

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CHAT

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TODAYS THE LAST DAY OF 2025

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BUT MY FRIENDS CANT GO OUT

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WHAT DO I DO

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Its lowk kinda sad if I just go out myself for the countdown

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Normally I spend my new years with my older brothers but they arent coming this year

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And both my parents are in another island

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I DONT WANNA END SUCHA GOOD YEAR BY MYSELF AT HOME

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THATS TOO SAD OF AN ENDING

mental root Dec 31, 2025, 2:16 PM

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Ate pizza

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I no longer care for companionship

little anvil Jan 1, 2026, 7:02 AM

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mental root Ate pizza

W

mental root Jan 1, 2026, 7:17 AM

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mental root I no longer care for companionship

Ended up going with a homie last second to watch the new years on the street

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Then he slept over

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Now we're at some place called old city

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With dutch stuff

mental root Jan 1, 2026, 2:36 PM

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Ts the place

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mental root Jan 1, 2026, 2:38 PM

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mental root

Theres also this which I took at like 1AM after new years

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I forgot to talk about my homies birthday on the 30th

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So basically

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Was his birthday

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We surprised him by intruding his house

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Then singing him a song

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Then we did stupid crap

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And played the x box

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While drinking soda

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And eating cake

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Very big bro vibes day

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Loved it

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Guy in yellows birthday

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Good guy

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Hes like my idol

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Cuz hes like a kinder better more popular version of me

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Really respect the guy

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He says he thinks Im the goat cuz Im a mix between his smart friends and goofy chill friends

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His favorite friend group🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️

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I DIDNT TALK ABOUT THE MANHUNT EITHER

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Manhunt

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Was the final one being chased but I failed to survive long enough

mental root Jan 2, 2026, 9:41 AM

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Was having a good day

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Then I remembered

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STILL NO PARTNER FOR PROM

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THATS THE ENTIRE REASON I WENT TO THIS SCHOOL

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CUZ I WANTED TO GO TO PROM WITH A GIRL

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ION GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE FACT ITS THE 5TH BEST SCHOOL IN THE NATION

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Time to beg my maths teacher to go with me 👅👅👅

little anvil Jan 3, 2026, 2:34 PM

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mental root Time to beg my maths teacher to go with me 👅👅👅

W

mental root Jan 3, 2026, 7:38 PM

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Just read "the spark in your eyes"

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What a beautifully crafted webtoon

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The complexity

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It makes it hard for you to hate any character

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I can imagine doing what each character would do if I was in their position

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The interaction between characters was simply beautiful

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Chekhov's gun was set off more than I could count

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It wrapped up beautifully

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With barely anything to complain about

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I wanna go into that world

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And just give everybody there

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A big hug

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Especially Terion

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Ugh what a fate for all of them

mental root Jan 5, 2026, 3:44 PM

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Watch me get my study discipline back

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This world will not stop me from reaching greatness🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️

mental root Jan 9, 2026, 12:46 PM

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Had a little game in one of our subjects today

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You'd pass a paper with your name on it then they'd write something good and something bad about you

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Then they pass it around until the entire class filled it in

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The only personality flaws they pointed out from me was my narcissism

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And that in my opinion, is not a flaw🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️ (when you're not using it to undermine other people of course. I'd really say I just have an extremely large ego/confidence in myself, but I would say my personality is rotten and my intelligence is slightly above average or below average in school 🧟‍♂️)

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Its not that I think that Im perfect or something

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Its just that Im very confident and pride myself with what I have

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But once again

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Like my classmate said

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Im goated🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️

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Also

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Earlier today

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I was with my friend who was practicing piano at the school library-ish place in the open

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I see two of my juniors yknow, I think to myself "should I greet them, Im not that close to them and we haven't talked in a long time"

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Suddenly

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They lift their hands up

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"Sup senior"

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Mm

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I wave back

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Lowkey loving it

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I love my juniors

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And that brought me so much happiness

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I wanna be like a cool chill senior yknow

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So like when they do that

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So happy

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5 of my juniors interacted with me today nooo nooo nooo nooo

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I love them all

mental root Jan 9, 2026, 12:55 PM

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mental root I see two of my juniors yknow, I think to myself "should I greet them, Im not th...

Tbf one of them greeted me in the morning

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WHICH MADE ME EXTREMELY HAPPY ONCE AGAIN

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After allat

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I got a message from my super duper smart friend

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Asking if I wanna hangout

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And its like

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I saw this all

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This was when I was with one of my friends at school (fun fact has the same birthday as me)

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So like I saw this all

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And I was like

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Damn

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Im blessed with so many people

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Way back then in the 8th grade I only had a few friends in school

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Around like 5-6

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But like now

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I look at it

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And Im like

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Damn

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30 including juniors (on the top of my head) (180cm so thats pretty high🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️ )

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Thats in my current school of course

mental root Jan 10, 2026, 9:41 AM

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Bed rot maxxing🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️

mental root Jan 11, 2026, 3:34 PM

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As some of yall may know

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I started this journal

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And my previous Journal

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To track my running progress

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Tomorrow

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I'll have my practical exam

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Where Im running an 800m

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I should nail a below 3 (good in my school, I know its wack tho)

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Currently the third fastest in my grade

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In other news tho

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I'VE OFFICIALLY ENTERED THE SHORT PERIOD OF TIME AFTER MOVING ON WHERE IM NOT INTETERESTED IN LIKING ANYBODY

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YIPEEEEEE

mental root Jan 11, 2026, 4:06 PM

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Lowk

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Sometimes

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I pretend to not like something

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Or pretend to be super full

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Cuz my mom always insists I eat the food

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Love my mom

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I wanna be more like her tbh

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But I also wish she wasnt so selfless

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I wish she was at least selfish enough to not want us eating her food

mental root Jan 12, 2026, 3:45 AM

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mental root I should nail a below 3 (good in my school, I know its wack tho)

I got a 3:00 🧟‍♂️

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What in the jynx is this bro

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I fell off hard

mental root Jan 12, 2026, 1:12 PM

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Went to my friends school for their English club

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Described my time abroad

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Then listened to the rest present about their topic

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Then I forgot that today was monday, not tuesday

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And went to my extra lessons place (dk wth you call it in english)

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Then they were like "dude thats tomorrow"

#Journal of a 12th grader