i feel like my life is going downhill, im struggling in school, possible that i fail my class, meaning i have to repeat the year. i want to try harder but i cant, i dont know whats wrong with me, i cant pull myself together. i also have some toxic friends in school, they always make fun of me, wich is usually fine, you know teasing your homies, but they sometimes push it a little too much,like they hate me. it one time ended in me having to cut a few classes and go home home crying, as a man. i know they probably dont mean to hurt me, but im always just taking, never standing up for myself. i became insecure about my looks, my personality. i hate being me. i got trust issues, i cant trust nobody a 100% (besides my family), i get toughts about my frends, if they really like me or they just being kind. im very introverted, i dont feel comfortable around new people, new situations.
im also drifting away from my best friends. i havent really talked to them in weeks. they dont call me to hangout, altough i see them being in a discord call everyday. i dont know if they want me to be around anymore, i feel unwanted and unloved, not just by them but everyone. i feel useless and hopeless, there is no escape from this bad dream, im trapped in this life. im lonely, and i feel that i will be alone for the rest of my life. i get shit from even my best friends (who i mentioned above) things like "you will never get a girlfriend" "you will work at mcdonalds" and it really left a scar in me, but at the same time i think they might be right.
this all came down to, a few months ago i started having suicidal thoughts, i got scared. i never tought i get here, never understood why anyone would end themselves until now.
i tried cannabis, maybe it numbs the pain, didnt went as planned not talking about that😅
i tried drinking (not regularly) thats always a good time. i need help but i got none to talk to, please!
(feel free to ask questions, cant fit evrything into 2k characters
#life going down real bad, i need help
oak shore
i also like a week ago got this feeling, when you know bad things happen to you, im aware of mistakes and all, but i just cant care anymore. i feel numb! i dont know why this is happening, is this a good sign or a bad sign?
slender basin
i also like a week ago got this feeling, when you know bad things happen to you,...
hello
advice from a grown up
dont talk with those toxic friends anymore best to be alone then to be surrounded by enemies
for the best friends you need to let them go
if they really wanted you to be with them still they woudlve
time pass and people find new life that suits them more or their own benefits
its hard but thats life and you will find people that loves you and want you like you are
drinking and smoking are never a solution and you are still very young for that
you need to stop it before you get addicted and that will ruin you life for more
and remove the good taste that life gives
oak shore
and remove the good taste that life gives
hey man, thanks for the advice
got a little better today, talked with my best friends again, and made me feel a little bit better, a bit more wanted again
as for the school friends, its really hard to drop them cuz, well we're in the same class, and most of the times i try to avoid him, but these mean things just be comin out of nowhere, i dont talk to him that much, but he just just says mean shi all the time without any reason rlly
like just looks and me and starts it up
and its really just one dude who is the asshole, and most people just follow him
he wasnt in school this week and it was so much better, cuz it really was just some friendly teasing most of the time, as soon as he comes back it will be hell again
slender basin
as for the school friends, its really hard to drop them cuz, well we're in the s...
yeah i understand bc i relate, just dont talk to them at all even if they came to talk to you kind just dont and they will not see you as a "friend" anymore and leave you
slender basin
he wasnt in school this week and it was so much better, cuz it really was just s...
'fueled with terror of becoming prey, see how quickly we become predators.'
that what happens to your friends
they follow him so they dont get bullied too
instinct survival
oak shore
kinda true
ii dont know why he pushes it
like sometimes so far when even the others tell him like chill, basically the only time he "apologieses" for it
he dont even worth standin up tó tho, like i have another homie who is really great friends with him, and he sometimes calls him names he doesnt like, and that friend is not like me, he tells him to please dont call him that, and even tho he is friends fr with him he says he stops and then continues
slender basin
he dont even worth standin up tó tho, like i have another homie who is really gr...
people like that are a lot
and usually they are like that bc of a trauma or lack of love in their home
its not their choice
the solution is not giving them time and let them became mature with time