#Rochopper's Journal
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Day #2
Today in school I had frickin wood working, I hate it.
Like what! That class is almost purely connected to physical strength.
I am weaker then a literal mountain bandit from One Piece🙏
How am I supposed to get a C in wood working?
And in addition to that, I have frickin blister on my hand so it hurts when I hold the knife to carve the hole in the thing we are making!
And the teacher speaks in some british accent but for sweds called skånska.
And then the worst part! I sit next to a bully, who is a annoying dumbass. And I mean litterally he is a dumbass. The only subjects he can get above C on are the physical ones.
WELL
THIS IS GREAT
There is a stupid fricking city wide electrical outage.
What am I supposed to do now?
Day #3
I had a 'conversation' with my crush.
It was nice I suppose.
Could have been better.
I always stummer while talking to her.
She is just so cute, funny and also she has no filter, like none at all.
She isnt the smartest in the world, and she doesent have the best attendance rate either.
But, she is still the 1, 4 me.
I wont even see her for a week.
Nice to have break though.
Probably gonna watch Star Wars.
And One Piece
Me and my crush is sending pictures to eachother right now.
Day #4 I am sleeping over at my friends house.
It is fun.
He is a very good guitarist.
I also sent pictures with my crush.
Was also fun, she is probably asleep by now.
Day #6
I have started to stream on twitch and record youtube videos!
And I have continued to chat with my crush.
Darn it I am not gonna do "Day #x" anymore.
Today, I am sick.
I have been rising through the ranks in The Known Galaxy, and I am currently at the rank of Padawan Learner, I am an experienced Writer and Warrior.
Before I became a Jedi, I was a Sith, a Sith Warrior nontheless, I was in SoP as a Zealot, enforcing the tenets.
During my time as a Sith I contributed to two Kaggaths, these two Kaggaths ultimately resulted in utter failure, I lost two friends to the Kaggaths.
Now I am currently, of course, one of the more combatly educated Jedi, since my previous training has enabled me to do flawless multihit, while also having mastered all the forms, except for the paid ones.
I am a master of Djem-So, Soresu, Ataru, Niman and Makashi.
I am going to seize this advantage and become the new, and best GRANDMASTER OF THE ORDER, LONG LIVE THE FORCE!
(I might have gone insane during the "break")
So
2 tests
Went horrible
Spanish
And Rome + Greece
Like what
"When did Julius Cesear die?"
I do not know
I want English
Math
Chemistry
Biology
Electronics
Hell even physics
😭
Some kid in my class is acting really weird, he's making pepole uncomfortable. (He's acting really, really homosexual) I dont have anything about that part, but it's still really uncomfortable. He probably hasnt heard about boundaries.
I just did a workout :D
Though if I am going to do this on a regular basis I do not know how I am going to balance my intellectual intake as well.
I am going to hinder myself from doing my bad habits.
And I am gonna keep chatting with her.
I can't get myself to just start a conversation with her.
She's just perfect and I am not.
The one time when I could really talk with her were in a subject which we had to speedrun.
I know that she wont be mine, yet I love her.
What can I do.
I can become better.
But how.
What will I have to do.
I cannot be to loud, since I have neighbors two floors under me.
I can train.
What physique?
I don't know.
A good one...
Ahh
My biceps hurts so much
I cant find a good way to stretch it.
Life here was perfect, until that day.
FLINT AND STEEL
My mom is literally so annoying
"Do this do that"
"NO YOU WILL WAIT FOR ME TO EAT UP" - mom 2025 (drinking cola, no food)
"You will only have 3 hours of screen time every day"
"Go outside"
"WHY ARE YOU OUTSIDE!"
Enough with that
MY FRICKIN BICEPS HURTS LIKE A BULLET
I DID 47~ WALL PUSH UPS (since I am weak asf)
I am also crippling broke
With a total of 50 cents
I need a better cpu
A better
Gpu, new ram, new motherboard, new power supply, new fans and a new case
So I need a new pc
A better screen
A good keyboard
I have 100%, x2 size
ITS MASSIVE
I am such a yapper
I cant stop thinking about her
Its annoying
Her:
Tall
Brown hair
Nice personality
Perfect
Me:
Short
Blonde
Blue eyes
Bad jokes
"Is Black Jack good at Jack Black?"
I found her Roblox account trough a classmates account.
Cute avatar.
Not quite as cute name.
So pretty
I cant stop thinking about her
Wont even fight it
Not that I have from the start
I have a plan
Steps:
- Get healthier
- Get some muscle
- Learn coding
- Get a better PC
- Make a youtube channel
- Balance everything
- Keep contact with her
- Try it
Estimated time 1 year
3, 4, 5 are maybes
Healthier = 1.5 months
Small muscles = 4.5 months
Coding = 4.5 months
Better PC = 2 years
Youtube channel = 4.5 months
Total 2 years
I am probably gonna start eating less.
Breakfeast one bread with water.
Lunch one plate of food.
One or Three fists.
Supper
One portion of porridge or one bread.
Will try to hold this for ONE month starting tomorrow.
This will cut my daily intake in more than half.
And it will also make me drink more.
Cute
So cute
Me sad, dyno say no to gif.
I dont want math today urghh.
20 questions in a short period of time is a W
My freakin Spanish teacher is way too kind
Lets us play Kahoot EVERY SINGLE GODDAMN time
She... sent a heart?
Is this a hint or what?
Am I overthinking?
Probably
I dont know
Argh
Am I stupid, probably not.
Am I deprived of contact, yes.
I think these are hints
Maybe trolls of some sort
I know many guys are bad at taking hints but
Wth is a hint
Learnt that she has some, uhh bad habits ifykyk.
Though, these are rumors.
I will try to have a conversation with her on the 26th
Like smoking?
No, not that.
What is it
She is watching some stuff (rumors though)
Cannot say more than that
The person who spreads the rumors is a notorious liar though so I am not sure what to believe.
Ohh I think I know what
Sweden
do u want to be my friend
Sure
I sent you a friend request
She is so so pretty.
My mom and dad are crazy
Fever...
It has gotten a little better
She sent a heart :D
I have a cut in my throat
It hurts
I realised it yesterday when I coughed up blood.
I think I am healed
Amazing game
I have the sunflower smile after I say the most outrageous thing ever.
"I know where you live"
"Yeah, no way"
"WHAAAA-"
My mom is stupid
Cant even think for herself
"I'LL SELL IT IF YOU DONT USE IT"
Like woman, DO YOU EXPECT ME TO USE MY BIKE DURING WINTER?
I AM LEGIT TWEAKING AT THE SIGHT OF HER
30 hours on borderlands already
I am going to 100% it
I have 200 something hours on Helldivers 2
That's quite much
Imma gamble away 100k in borderlands 2
I love gamblin'
Everything overstimulates my brain
I got a C on my test, I am afraid I'll get a lower grade in chemistry
She overstimulates my brain
Everything is going downhill
Like what
Grades
Stress
I aim high so I am not quite comfortable with a slighty lower grade
All the courses in "gymnasium" that I want to go only accepts high grades
OMG
My mom, I just can't
I am ripping my skin
😭
She cannot be deadass
"You cannot have a sleep over with your friends, we are going to your cousins!"
I am CRASHING OUT she is like a literal dictator
Me and dad has ABSOLUTELY NO CONTROL IN THE HOUSE
Lego Star Wars free on epic games rn
I swear to god, something is wrong with my mom
She screamed at ME for me touching the cheese? Which I didint do, I told her that and she calls me a liar?
Like what
And then she burns the last straw, she says me and dad are the ones who never say sorry, like what?
I am sorry it is very much my fault that your childhood was absolute shit
its not even that serious for her to get that frustrated 
its just cheese 💔
"You will pay for your crimes against Skyrim and it's pepole"
😭
Thee shall atone thy misdeed opposed to Skyrim furthermore her inhabitants
Over cheese?
Yeah
I swear to god it feels like I am being friendzoned
So pretty
I just bought Black Mesa for a grand total of 2 euros
Among Us for 5 euro
I am dogsitting
He is home now
Omg I am TWEAKING at my parents
And my friends
He removed my operator
He made my netherite armor leggings dissapear
AND HE TRIED BREAKING MY BOAT
Bro I am stressing out beacuse of something in over 600 days
I need to get my merit up to around 270
That is a big increase
270-254=16
16 points
I need my music to get up to a C atleast
All my grades atleast at C
Craft = 1 Grade up
Art = 1 grade up
Hemkunskap = 1 grade up
Spanish = 1 grade up
Music = 2 grades up
(We start from E in Sweden, F being bad)
If I am correct that will allow me to get 270 points
PE = 1 grade
Watched Demon Slayer for the first time
One word
BRUTAL
I need C's
I need a C, the C is what I need.
Well I gained 2.5 merit from physics
So back to 254
Hopefully it goes up from here
There is ONE reason why I enjoy school more than being with my parents at home.
They are SUPER STRICT
Like not asain parent sterotype of strict
But still STRICT
Last week of school soon
I got a lazy eye
One more day...
OMG WHAT
I LITERALLY GOT BULLIED BY A MACHINE
ONE OF THESE SPINNY SPINNY CIRCLE KNOCKOUT THINGS
IT CRUSHED ME LIKE WHAT
GRR
Dis no nic
Building the backrooms in minecraft
It's going well Ig
Dressrosa in One Piece finally
Yippe
Oh wow drama
Finally on Zoe!
Finally on Whole Cake
Whole cake be fire this far
Anyways I have started school
Boring as usual
Finally got our laptops which cost 7000 kronor each
5 of us plus the teacher so 6 of us got to carry 30 laptops
I were one of the 5
5 laptops carried each
We carried 35000 kronor each
35000 x 6 = 210000 kronor in total
In dollars that is about 210000 x 9,72 = 21604 USD
She is so beautiful
So so beautiful
Can my journal stop unfollowing itself
Omg my school put Swedish as not happening today
BUT GUESS WHAT IT WAS
SO I GOT 55 MINUTES ABSENSE
FOR A LESSON WE DIDINT EVEN HAVE
They put legitimate absense now since they think I am good boi
My buddy legit tripped on bacon and broke his arm
Like how
It turns out it was a troll
He didint break his arm apparently
Anyways
My school is filled with morons
One kid asked my history teacher "How many people know about Swedens secret weapon"
How do you manage to get so dumb
She is an angel reincarnated on this very earth
It is my birthday today
HAPPY BIRTHDAYY!!!
THANK YOU ELLIE🫠
I offered helping her with math
I know one thing for certain
She is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen
More beautiful than prime Megan Fox
Oh ma godness
I got a better computer and rdr2
✌️🥹
I cannot get this girl of my mind
Impossible to do it
She is just so beautiful and intelligent
How’s RDR2 on PC?
It is fantastic
My pc is slightly worse than the ps5 now
See I have it on console but I’m debating whether to download it on my PC
I mean come on now
It’s better then nothing if it’s slightly worse
Then a state of the art console
Yeah
About that girl man
I feel
The exact same way
About a girl I know
She is incredible
Are you friends with her?
Yes
Good to hear
Well what advice I’d give you
Is trust your gut
Try and grow closer
And you know if she feels the same way she will show you
I feel something is off with Dutch
Wait
Have you played red dead 1
Or know the story at all
I have not
My man
You are in
For one of the greatest stories
In history
Red dead 1 takes place after
Holy crap it holds up
Red dead 2 is incredible as well you are lucky
Like I’ve never cried at a story before
But that one I shed a tear
I think I need a controller for a full experience
Since it just feels natural
It’s just incredible
Like the gameplay
The side missions
What chapter are you in rn?
Perfect
Chapter 2 and 3
Are the best
Whenever you get to the native side missions
That whole story arc
Is so beautiful
I can’t spoil it but my God you’re in for a treat
And that feeling never goes away about Dutch
Mhm
Is the main character I am pretty sure
I won't
I will
She just sent "Fine shit just blocked me am I cooked"
Asking me for support
Hate being socially awkward
damn
.
I learnt morse code
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.-. --- -.-. .... --- .--. .--. . .-.
I can not tell her how I feel
I can not just ignore the feelings either and keep it in
-- --- .-. ... . -.-. --- -.. .
--- -- --. -- .-.. ...- . .... . .-. ... -- ..- -.-. .... -... ..- - ... .... . .-- -- .-.. .-.. -. . ...- . .-. -.- -. --- .--
--- -.-
WAIT WAIT WAIT
My birthday is october the 7th
My mom's is january 1st
It takes 9 months or so for babies to be born
BUT
Christmas (the 24th)
Is 9 months and 1 day until october 7th
I AM BORN ONE DAY TOO LATE
I hold too much power
Omg
I am talking to this girl in my class
Since all the boys are lowkey meanies
And have no personality
But she is really funny
She has the same interests as me
She also likes death note
And is a yapper aswell
(I yap when really comfortable with someone)
I dont know anything anymore to be honest
I dont know if I'll ever be enough
I have no idea if I will actually ever even be close
One thing I do know, is that I AM gonna be a programmer or something like that
Either that or some kind of detective
I told my crush I like her
WHAT DID SHE SAY
It feels sad but free somehow
I have no idea what to do in life anymore
Even though I may act like I know stuff, I don't.
This is because I believe that my only strength is what I know.
And now I don't even have that
Dis not funny anymore
-- --- .-. ... . / -.-. --- -.. .
I know that some of the stuff I've done is pretty much unforgivable
We played volleyball at PE today
I got the ball straight in my family jewels :D
Would NOT recommend getting volleyball ball in family jewels
I think I need therapy after Detroit Become Human
Because 3 of my favorite characters died
In 2 hours
HAPPY NEW YEARRRR
I am getting better at CS2
OH YEAH IF FORGOT TO DM THAT DUDE ABOUT RDR2
I did remember again though
I am gonna start learning gd script
15 minutes everyday after school
At around Idk 17:00
Sans.
Papyrus
I did the best val match of my life
It is suprisingly good
Though I do understand the criticism on the game.
Said criticisim is taken to the extremes sadly.
If they want Riot to improve their moderation within how the community acts they cannot overreact on the simple stuff since then Riot will focus on the less important stuff since that is more prominent.
And this is talking about the large amounts of people which lack a sense of self control even though they are chatting with people whom are underage.
If one avoids the people who are fitting that description the game is actually pretty fun
Indeed
That’s a lot of games though
I feel like I am wasting my teenage years
I hate my parents
Mom blames everything on me
Dad ALWAYS agrees with mom
Mom gets angry when I shout, meanwhile she shouts 24/7
They complain about me but then proceed to do the exact same thing as I did??
THEY TURN MY INTERNET OFF AT 20:30
Which is weird since I am 14
They heavily restrict my money usage
Which is fair
But still
They also try to make me into an extrovert???
I DONT EVEN GET TO CHOOSE WHAT CLOTHES I WEAR BECAUSE MY MOM THINKS I AM BAD AT CHOOSING???
I have no idea if I can write this so I will word it differently
My cousin had something very unpleasant and illegal happen to her
I reread the rules and it seems to be fine
So she got raped
Which is insane
Really made me realise it can happen to anyone
43/44 on my geography test of asia
Consisting of oceans, capitals, and mountains and countries ofc
Sometimes I love everything, sometimes I hate everything
Rn I have mixed feelings about everything
I have something to long for when I get home after school
On the other hand there is school
With lots of tests and stuff
Bruh
Damnit