A journal off my life season 2

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especially love

cuz its the hardest feeling

anyways

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THE LIVE HAS TO HAPPEN

BILLIE COME OUT

ITS BEEN 20MINUTES NOW

COME OUTTTT

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i hate social cues

like i want to talk

but i dont get when others dont want to

like just tell me

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yk how wierd it is to talk to your ex again

damn

like the old one

my first one

its wierd

but also felt nice

ive been worried about him tbh

hes still pretty nice

no relation ship material tho

flashbacks

i dont know how to respond

how do you respond to your ex venting about you (no not the og one)

its wierd

cuz i know its my fault

but i also know that it is better this way

i feel bad

but i dont know how to help her

maybe its best if i dont, it might make things worse yk

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i feel like im trapped

idk where

why

or when

just trapped

yoo much information probably

too much talking

i need some me time

no i dont actually

seeing new billie fans graduate is so cute

were raising some fans right

https://tenor.com/view/billie-eilish-billie-crying-grammys-donotsmiles-gif-14873748505672706664

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Today i had boxing class for school pe

And my hands bled

Iops

Oh well

Anyways

They hurt a little bit it was fun tho

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when youre watching a tiktok and you think its funny but you pull this move

https://tenor.com/view/annoyed-kzl-straight-face-zoom-in-the-office-gif-6028047

litarly me every night

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BRUH WHY ARE PEOPLE ACTING LIKE IM DEPRESSED?!

everyone is like ''im so happy to see you happy again''

okey i never finnished my point

but like

exuse me?!

youre acting like i never smiled

glad that it makes others happy tho

''who do you like?'' its you ho

its you

but i aint telling that

cuz you dont like me back

i just know it

like the hell do i say

''oh yeah its you''

''maybe she likes you back''

well i mean

probably not but thanks

shes listing of ways on why someone would like me

im hungry

in 10 days sofia isella will bring out a new album

https://tenor.com/view/kid-dancing-dance-club-feeling-it-gif-10939947

the way shes talking about herself actually is kinda funny

i hope all musquitos die

.

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Omg I also used to have this. But I can't anymore because of the way my roof is designed

I'm definitely was. But wouldn't fit the aesthetic too and my bed is infront of a big window haha

So basically a no go😔

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Fair enough haha

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I cleaned my room today so this is my room reveal🙂‍↕️

Very proud the way I cleaned it tbh

[pliant dragon]

I love that room

I can feel the vibes from that photos

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Yess haha

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I hate when people can't reflect

On themselfes

Or can't take karma🤷🏼‍♀️

I once had this girl in my class

I really struggle with math, so I asked my friend who was infront of me 'hey what's 6x7' and that girl went like 'haha you don't know it? You're in .... grade' so I hit her back with a 'yeah well atleast I can speak and read proper English (she was failing English badly' she told me to shut up.
Honestly it made me laugh so hard and it still cracks me up.
Don't say stuff if you can't handle it back

[rigid merlin]

Love the poster

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Which one haha

[rigid merlin]

The Billie Eilish one

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In guessing you mean the tour poster😅

But yeah it's my favorite one too!

[rigid merlin]

Yes

And I love the Harry Potter stuff too

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Thanks! It's definitely one of my best collections I've got after my Billie collection

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It absolutely is cozy I love it so much.
I've looked on pintrest for the tent thing but honestly non fit the aesthetic I want so I guess beauty is pain😔💔

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Today I will be finding out if I have a neurodivergent brain. I'm so exited but also so so so scared

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Well

No autism

No nothing

I nearly developed adhd?

(Sounded to me like, you have it but not enough to get a diagnosis)

But oh well

I also was depressed suprise suprise

Weirdly enough my parents didn't hear that

Convenient

Ngl I don't know how to feel about this

I was so convinced, and I had awnsers in my head

All gone now

Litarly all gone

I don't have anything nkw

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Yk what I hate 'well isn't it a good thing that you don't have anything?' Honestly no it isn't. I'm desperate to know what's wring with me, I'm desperate to fix what I can, now I can't because I still don't have a clear picture. People who haven't been this desperate for awnsers don't get the feeling of wanting a diagnosis they just see it as a good thing if you dint have any diagnosis

I understand that it's better to have no diagnosis, but when you're struggling with yourself to a point of a depression then in that moment you want a diagnosis. You want to be seen. You want awnsers

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i kinda just started to binge watch all sofia isella her vlogs and poems. it kept my mind of things honestly, i love her so much. they are small vlogs they keep my focus up since so much happens at once. i love it

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when i was talking to my frien i worded this feeling the best to be honest.

''it feels like im very very sick, i want to know what is wrong with me but no docter knows it. but they rule out cancer people will then tell you ''well its amazing that it isnt cancer'' but at that point you kinda want it to be, because its treatable, and you know what is wrong at that moment you have that closure. but now i dont''

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OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

OMG

I BOUGHT A BLOHSH

THE SILVER ONE

IM SO SO SO EXITED

I've been wanting it for 2ish years now but it was always sold out and resell is 300 euros

Now I got it for 84 euros at her site

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Yesterday I told my godparents the diagnosis.
My godather went with me outside and we talked.
He understood me I felt seen tbh, it was great but also a lot of heartbreak.
He started to cry and said 'I just really want you to be okey' and yeah kinda broke me. He told me I could always message or call him

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I've been sleeping the whole day, I feel exausted

(It's currently 3pm)

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I just ordered aliexpress lipstick

I'm gonna die

#yolo

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im tired

oh yeah its my b-day

hihi

i got new earbuds

and i orderd the blohsh for myself, and a new vinyl

will also have to pay my piercing with it which is fine

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NY NEW EARBUDS CAME IN

They're so much better

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omg

im so in shock about the quality

its so clear

the songs

its crazy

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Wel....

I might be taking meds soon

[quartz condor]

how so?

if i may ask..

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For concentration, so it's mostly adhd meds

It will be a very low dose

[quartz condor]

ahh

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yepp

i was lowkey suprised how okey my dad was with it

[quartz condor]

i am too

i think?

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wdym??

[quartz condor]

idk 😭

[quartz condor]

idk how ur dad reacted

so i cant say

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well he was shocked, but then i told him how i cant really concentrate in class (like i tell myself ''i have to concentrate now this is important'' and 5 secs later im looking at birds) and then he was like ''oh yeah okey i get that''

[quartz condor]

finnaly bro-

[unkempt shale]

yes exactly

i guess the grades are too important idk

but i mean if i can get my meds that way

it will first just be 5mg once a day for like 3-5 days just to test out

[quartz condor]

not bad..

so..

what are you up to these days?

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not at all, ive heard 30mg😭

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uhm....

let me think

[quartz condor]

take ur time

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well monday b-day: hockey practice and school

than tuesday also just school

[quartz condor]

fire..

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today i had school, fysio called the piercer for info

read my documents for the psygologist and stuff

[quartz condor]

uhuh.

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OH YEAH

I ALSO TOLD THE GIRL I LIKED HER (she already knew but its okey)

[quartz condor]

nice

!!!

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yess

[quartz condor]

welp

thats good

(:

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yeah i guess so haha

im trying to think if something else happend

OH YEAH

the friend of my ex aperantly never liked me (i thought we were friends )

[quartz condor]

top 10 anime betrayals

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for real tho like wtf😭

(she also liked my ex while i was dating her)

[quartz condor]

i aint friends w my ex

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karma hoe

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damn i am

shes my bestie

[quartz condor]

what is this drama broo

[quartz condor]

well

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EXACTLY HAHAHA

i was laughing so hard omg

[quartz condor]

she cheated on me so

ya...

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oh

ew

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fr

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damn

[quartz condor]

now i got a new girly

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what a hoe

(it only works with emoji)

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OH?!

tell me

[quartz condor]

YOU ALREADY KNOW-

[quartz condor]

well

shes cute

and nice

and funny

and yes

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do i?

[quartz condor]

😎

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i agree

[quartz condor]

from ur old account

[quartz condor]

altho...

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oh....

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oh oh

[quartz condor]

she physically assaults me sometimes 😤

100% not because i refuse to sleep or take my meds

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shit bro😔

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BHAHAHAA

[quartz condor]

ION LIKE THEM

OKAY??

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ugh my friends dont got money

i even offerd to be a suger baby😔

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fair enough

[quartz condor]

im rich

i got 49 shekels on my rav kav

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buy me https://www.platenzaak.nl/collections/renee-rapp/products/bite-me-exclusive-cd-with-alternate-cover-signed-art-card

im desperate

[quartz condor]

nuh uh

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WHY

am i not like

youre favorite journal girly

[quartz condor]

im taken

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girly pop

https://tenor.com/view/phobiamp3-reedsgifs-felix-stray-kids-girlypop-gif-27091899

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so am i its okey

[quartz condor]

well

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tell her im gay, shell understand

[quartz condor]

nahhhh

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this is sad

i just asked my gf

i nearly got my yes

we decided we would probably send eachother stuff from each country tho. so exited!

nvm they decided to charge 55 euros for that

die

to all the people who made shipping

i just found a site

that offers it for 25

[quartz condor]

fire

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yesss

[quartz condor]

well i gotta sleep soo

it was fun talking

gn and cya

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goodnight

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I AM

NOT

OKEY

OMG

THE TOM ODELL

HE RESPONDED

LIKE WHAT?!

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I just got my piercing

It hurted like shit the hell

BUT

It doesn't hurt as much now

And it looks so freaking good omg

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my stumach hurts

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yes.

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i feel quilty

its like eating me alive atm

i cant change it tho

i cant change how i feel

sometimes i hate it

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I hate texting

Honestly anyone tbh

I just want real talks

I've been distant from online people and I enjoy it so much

I'm feeling shitty as hell

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Ugh

Just

Ugh

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They told me I have signs of ptsd

It's making me crazy atm

Idk what the trauma could be

It's been making me think more than I want to

I just have more questions and I hate it

I feel like I don't have anyone to turn to atm

No one will understand it

Well one person will, my godfather ig

I don't want to bother him tho

Especially for stupid shit like this

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Nog only this btw

It's all on there

Just all once again not enough

Like my anxiety is pretty high from what I've seen, they all blame it on how I see myself

But then they proceed to say I'm optimistic

But then later that I'm not

YK THAT KIND OF SHIT

Like just be clear

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I just dreamt about someone

Someone I haven't talked to in like 3 years

We were inlove I huged him and stuff

That was wierd as hell

Like what does that even mean💀

Ew the internet says I didn't give that breakup a place

Ma'am that breakup was 7 years ago

I think I'm good🙏

I just liwjey miss him as a friend. We were great friends but he needed to get mad when I talked to him about stuff I didn't like (he aperantly spread lies that I would hit my sister and that I hated her, stuff like that)

Also when we hang out we didn't do shit. I was confused if he really enjoyed hanging out with me so when I asked he got mad

I've thought about dming him but it's probably best to not do so💀🙏

Although we were young af when it happend😭

Hate feelings

Can't we just turn them off from time to time

Would make stuff less complicated

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steve

steve

wake up

youre a man

wake up steve

what the f is wrong with steve?

feeling like shit

my piercing is itching

so its healing

but ugh

sometimes i just want to disapear

be invisible

honestly

thoughts have been hitting hard again

i hate it

||suicide|| pops up often

i dont want to do it

but its an option ig

same with ||sh||

lowkey scared that my depresion is coming back

ive been feeling constant urges to sleep

low ass energy

and just everything

but oh well

anyways

gonna sleep soon

fine shyt is ofline

probs fell asleep

[pliant dragon]

Im very sorry to hear that, remember youre strong girl and you have support in me. My dms are always open for you 24/7. You can always text me if you dont feel good, im here to help you

[unkempt shale]

yeah, thanks

il be fine tho

i want to lay on my stumach.

stupid piercing

getting sick of people

also being a women

f that

ugh

[unkempt shale]

I feel like crying

Shit

I haven't had this for a few months

I've been going for full months the past 2-3 months

I really want to keep that up

I need to go but I'm scared for a panick attack

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My stumach feels like it's being torn iut

I hate having a period

It hurts so bad

To the point I got nauseous at school so I went hone

[unkempt shale]

I called my dad telling him that I'm not going to practice he asked why not (already concerned cuz that's strange behavior for me)

Amd then I just said 'yeah my stumach really hurts'

And he got so concerned

Made me kinda happy to know he cares that much haha

[unkempt shale]

I'm so stressed

I have a physics test tomorrow

I need to get a good grade

I just don't understand it

I want to scream and cry but I cant

[unkempt shale]

it hurts to see how she never could call with me

never played

but now sudenly has all the time on her hands

wierd.

so annoyed

[unkempt shale]

Okey so I definitely did not do the test well

Oh well

[unkempt shale]

New teams just got made

I'm not with my best friend

Amazing

Might just fully quit right away

She was lowkey the only one who kept it really fun

And got placed in the third team

Glad to know I'm bad

[unkempt shale]

I'm honestly so done with this club

We decided to keep coaching but yeah it will be hard

It will basically our only way of keeping contact tbh, it used to be every hockey thing

[unkempt shale]

sudenly i just feel like crying

sobbing

idk

its wierd to be ''healed'' for some part

i still feel the need to be ||suicidal|| i still have the thoughts but never the way i used to

at that time i had plans

rn its just more lighthearted

and maybe more fearsome

the fear of a plan

than it was the fear of life

now its the fear of death

its wierd

lifes wierd

healing is wierd

its like i want to heal

but also dont, cuz thats terifying tbh

but i will

mostly cuz i have to be before i turn 18

#futurejob

im tired

maybe i should sleep

hihi

not her using these words against me

wowi

well played tho

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I hate it.

[unkempt shale]

im bored

i wish i was special. youre so f-ing special

what the hell am i doing?

i dont belong here

i want a perfect body

and one perfect soul

[unkempt shale]

i feel so bad

honestly

worst thing is seeing someone damage themselves

but you know you cant help, because of your own mental health

its honestly worse then being able to help

[unkempt shale]

i want to apoligize

i want it to go back to before

its like a ruined it all

and i keep messing up

i wish i can help

i really wish so

[unkempt shale]

||really want to relapse, il just sleep soon or keep myself busy il be fine||

[unkempt shale]

well....

we might not fit together

shes pro isreal (Shes from there)

and im not

so....

i honestly didnt have to big of a problem with it, because i mean i cant imagine the progaganda she gets

but like she gets mad when i post my vieuws about it

(she just posted that im not the one)

like alright

i want to vent but dont really have anyone

sucks

oh well

il just distract

damn okey that hurts

its better this way, its not oficial but damn

for some reason i knew that this would happen

but damn.

it sucks, i suported her even against my family

and thats how you get treated back

i post one thing (firs thing ever) about palastine and i get told that she cant do it

honestly then not

honestly im not even sure if i can go through with it like this

she thougt i supported isreal

honestly, ive always been neuteral

its just so crazy

like wtf

im shaking

rip

i didnt suspect it to go this way

[unkempt shale]

||i dream of you almost every night,
hopefully i wont wake up this time||

[rigid merlin]

I hope you feel better soon Sophie❤️

[unkempt shale]

thanks:)

[rigid merlin]

Ofc

If you can go for a walk I’d suggest that because walks help our a lot

[unkempt shale]

yeahh its kinda really late haha

[rigid merlin]

Maybe this weekend you can

Or maybe you can watch a movie

[unkempt shale]

my friends will sleepover tomorrow

[unkempt shale]

shes ignoring me now

crazy

[unkempt shale]

honestly

ugh

just ugh

idk what to do with myself

idk what to feel

nor what to do

its like f you

but also like

ugh i dont want to loose the contact

it was so nice

i like her atleast as a friend yk

we probably wont work out as lovers, because of the different views on things which is fine

but like

idk

everyone is like ignoring me rn ig

it sucks

well not everyone

but she has better shit to od

do

dont blame her

wish to put an end to it

stupid friendships

stupid people

shit tomorrow my friends over

honestly not in the mood at all

what would happen if i just stopped texting people

idk sometimes i wonder

i feel like many wouldnt notice

[unkempt shale]

yk what i hate

when people say sorry a lot

it pisses me of tbh

it doesnt feel like a sorry at that point anymore

not always, but sometimes it feels that way

[unkempt shale]

yk she doesnt notice what i did for her

stupid argument

and its all gone

oh well ig

nothing to change about it

[unkempt shale]

I'm gratefull for her, she stayed with me the whole night when it was all happening, it was nice

[quartz condor]

oo

[unkempt shale]

Yeahhhh

[quartz condor]

i'd like her prolly

ANYWAYS

sorry for like

being gone

[unkempt shale]

Why

[quartz condor]

i mean-

😅

[unkempt shale]

Bro..

Damn

[quartz condor]

what

anyways

[unkempt shale]

Yeah nothing

[quartz condor]

who is it thats bothering ya

[unkempt shale]

The ex situationship

[quartz condor]

with

wait no

[unkempt shale]

Well she got mad at me cuz I posted about Palestine

[quartz condor]

i shouldnt have asked

aaaa i suck at this

[unkempt shale]

Than she said she wanted to cut contact

And now we still have contact it's wierd af

[unkempt shale]

Why

[quartz condor]

idk

asking who it is exactly

is weird

cat

[unkempt shale]

Nahh

Not really

[quartz condor]

oh ok

im gonna buy rdr2 and mw2019 tmr

they on sale so

like 30 ish euros total

[unkempt shale]

What's that

[quartz condor]

red dead 2 and modern warfare 2019?

let me send u the links

bro...

💔

@unkempt shale lemme send u in dms

[unkempt shale]

Alrr

[unkempt shale]

I still have her note, the first rose peddles I've got from her. And the fake rose I got for women's day haha

I missed the friendship we had

Its returning:)

I love it

[unkempt shale]

I feel like crying tbh

Idk why

[quartz condor]

aw

[unkempt shale]

i thought that you loved me, what has happend to us?

[unkempt shale]

i feel icky

i hate her

no i dont

thats maybe the problem

i dont hate her, i want to tho i want to hate her, to leave her behind. to just block her.
but i cant, i care too much about her, i feel the urge to still protect her knowing i cant

[quartz condor]

@unkempt shale im sorry

[unkempt shale]

one of her friends just texted me, shit

i hate this

i hate it

[quartz condor]

ah ok

[unkempt shale]

i want to help, but i need to put myself first

f this

[unkempt shale]

its okey dw

[quartz condor]

ok

[unkempt shale]

her friend basically texted me saying that shes strugeling without me, but rn it just ends up in fights because we cant talk it out. if we try it will just end in a discusion or a fight. i wont put much energy or efford in a fight that will go nowhere

feeling pretty empty to be honest

i dont know what to do, i wish i did tho

i reall wish i knew

[quartz condor]

same

[unkempt shale]

my lungs hurt

its like i cant take deep breaths atm

[quartz condor]

oh shi

uh

[unkempt shale]

yeah

[pliant dragon]

you should tell it your parents, thats could be dangerous

[unkempt shale]

its fine now

[pliant dragon]

glad to hear, right now try to relax

:))

[unkempt shale]

Ugh today I was lowkey just down

But

Then I saw I have 40 minutes in each lesson instead of 50:)

(This will save me 1.5 hours in total of the day)

[unkempt shale]

I'm not going to hockey practice, and even though I didn't want to go I still feel like shit that I'm not going

It's better for my knee tho but I already mentally prepared for it yk

[unkempt shale]

i have to get a job

not mad about it

just idk

scared to put more presure rn

il get a summer job tho, hoping to just babysit tho

ive found some people:)

fucking

OMG

YAYAYA

big day

fuck

fuck fuck fuck fuck

YES

this is what ive been waitingfor

i want to thank all the mods for this

[unkempt shale]

Someone is going to photoshop 'no music on a dead planet' for me in Billie her handwriting

So exited

[unkempt shale]

what a drag to love you like i do

||baby dont cut, baby dont cut. you can do anything just promise me baby you wont cut||

[unkempt shale]

ive been relistening to this song its about ||2 teens, one is suicidal and does sh (he girl) the guy sings about it and then later she still does suicide. he sings about it all.|| it brings me back tbh, i listend to this song when i was at my absolute worst.
i couldnt listen to the song for like half a year. now i started again. idk why but it also brings comfort so wierd

[unkempt shale]

Bro I want to flirt but I cant

I'm a flirty person when we become close friends😭

That's just me

But I feel bad to do that to her so I dont😭

[quartz condor]

oh yeah? 😏

kidding

hahahahaha

[unkempt shale]

dont you have a girlfriend

[quartz condor]

i do

[quartz condor]

thats why i said this

[quartz condor]

speaking of which...

its so cute watching her sleep, idk why...

shes calm

unlike me

[unkempt shale]

awhhhhh

i love just being with people who are asleep, not in a creepy way its just adorable tbh

[quartz condor]

ye

she's absolutely adorable

problem is

i cant get outta bed

[unkempt shale]

whys that haha

[quartz condor]

and i need to

well take a number 2

[quartz condor]

she's practically on me

[unkempt shale]

awhh thats cute haha

[unkempt shale]

well too bad

[quartz condor]

grrr

[unkempt shale]

nah ah, don move

[quartz condor]

i CANT

[unkempt shale]

too bad

[quartz condor]

she freakin

[unkempt shale]

its now your duty to keep her there

[quartz condor]

put her head on my lap

idk whyyy

[unkempt shale]

exactly

[unkempt shale]

thats comfy as hell bro

but

now you cant move

its like an unspoken rule

[quartz condor]

i never tried...

prolly wont

[unkempt shale]

you should

lap is best spot

[unkempt shale]

well your loss tbh

[quartz condor]

is it?

[unkempt shale]

yes absolutely

especially if your gf has long nails and she plays with your hair🔥

[quartz condor]

oh you betcha

[unkempt shale]

yesss

id kill for some cuddles rn

especially those

[quartz condor]

she has like

a bit of a dominance structure

idk

[unkempt shale]

no idea what that means

[quartz condor]

its

hard to explain

[unkempt shale]

damn

let me look it up

[quartz condor]

shes like

she enjoys having a lil dominance

yk?

[unkempt shale]

yk, the way you talk makes me think youre atleast 18 but then your profile says 14-15

that made me question a lot

[unkempt shale]

OHHH

then she will also enjoy that cuddle

[quartz condor]

i speak like im 18?

[unkempt shale]

you speak like youre like 20

[quartz condor]

lmao

[quartz condor]

unc status confirmed?

[unkempt shale]

like wdym youre 15 or younger?......

[unkempt shale]

uhm?.....

no idea what that is

[rigid merlin]

Unc is short for uncle and when you call someone unc it means they are old

[unkempt shale]

oh

[unkempt shale]

yes old af

[rigid merlin]

He’s 14-15 that’s not old

[quartz condor]

yuh

[unkempt shale]

its a joke🙏

[quartz condor]

just uh

missed by a year

[unkempt shale]

16

?

or like?....

no def not 13...

if you now say 13 then i will have a crashout tbh

[quartz condor]

yah

[quartz condor]

[unkempt shale]

also makes kinda sense

[quartz condor]

13?!

[unkempt shale]

yes

[unkempt shale]

.......

no idea......

[quartz condor]

should respectively

[unkempt shale]

(me)

[quartz condor]

go to a therapist

[unkempt shale]

i am!

im not 13 now dw

but i joined on my old account when i was 13

then tried to become staff (you had to be 15 or something) then got caught for lying

[quartz condor]

LMAOO

[unkempt shale]

BHAHAHHAHAA YES I STILL DIE LAUGHING WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT

[quartz condor]

[unkempt shale]

but then i became an amazing listener (staff shouldve banned me right there and then)

[quartz condor]

then and there*

[unkempt shale]

i think it was noom who told me this

that i was too young

[unkempt shale]

same thing

[quartz condor]

nope

[unkempt shale]

yes

[quartz condor]

ok woman

keep believing

what i am intrigued about is..

[unkempt shale]

are you now judging me on my gender🤨

wow

[unkempt shale]

about what

[quartz condor]

what about my writing made me seem 20

🤔

[quartz condor]

shhhh

[unkempt shale]

i dont know bro

just everything

and you talking about uni or something

[quartz condor]

wow thanks

so helpful

[quartz condor]

i never spoke abt uni gng

[unkempt shale]

you did tho

[unkempt shale]

i am so helpfull like always

[quartz condor]

(no ur not- )

[quartz condor]

did i?

[unkempt shale]

yes

[unkempt shale]

WHAT

i am the most helpfull person youve ever known

[quartz condor]

theres my mom

my barber

my gf

[unkempt shale]

im like better

i top them all

[quartz condor]

my barber (again)

i love my barber

platonically ofc

[unkempt shale]

damn

mary him

[unkempt shale]

cap

[quartz condor]

i said platonically

[unkempt shale]

too late

youre now married

[quartz condor]

nope

anyways

[unkempt shale]

yes

[quartz condor]

he keeps me lookin fresh

[unkempt shale]

such a thoughtfull huband!

[quartz condor]

ok shut up

[unkempt shale]

id rather not

[quartz condor]

s

h

u

t

u

[unkempt shale]

are you insulting me

[quartz condor]

p

[unkempt shale]

imma report

[quartz condor]

nooooo

[unkempt shale]

you where mean

were

[quartz condor]

hahha

[unkempt shale]

now laughing at my wsuffering?

[quartz condor]

nope

[unkempt shale]

yes you are

[quartz condor]

nope

[unkempt shale]

yes

[quartz condor]

i wont argue with u anymore

i have a cutie resting on me

and my bladder is a ticking ied

[unkempt shale]

well have fun with her:)

AND DONT MOVE

DONT

GET

UP

[unkempt shale]

cant move

[quartz condor]

gonna have to...

[unkempt shale]

nah ah

[quartz condor]

it hurts lol

[unkempt shale]

well too bad

[quartz condor]

ill js move her head

[unkempt shale]

youll wake her up tho

[quartz condor]

yeah but

gently

[unkempt shale]

it will wake her up😭

[quartz condor]

ANY movement?

[unkempt shale]

YES BRO

[quartz condor]

well thats a lie

[unkempt shale]

how long has she been asleep for?

[quartz condor]

im twitching tf out like a fish out of water

[quartz condor]

like 4 hours

early sleeper

[unkempt shale]

okey then you have a change of her not waking up

[unkempt shale]

fair enough

[pliant dragon]

sorry to disturb you but don't move dude

[quartz condor]

a change of her?

[quartz condor]

I HAVE TO

[pliant dragon]

no

[quartz condor]

yes

[pliant dragon]

let her sleep

[quartz condor]

i have a volatile bladder

[unkempt shale]

EXACTLY

[unkempt shale]

huh

[pliant dragon]

SEE?

[unkempt shale]

well too bad

[quartz condor]

ion understand what u wrote

[unkempt shale]

that she might not wake up then

[quartz condor]

ahhhh

[pliant dragon]

so u have problem, pee to the bottle

[unkempt shale]

BHAHAHAHAH

realshit

[quartz condor]

.

[unkempt shale]

i agree

[pliant dragon]

facts

[quartz condor]

okay right but i dont have a bottle

[pliant dragon]

pee in pants

[unkempt shale]

shouldve thought about that sooner

[unkempt shale]

then her heaf would get wet not great plan😭

[quartz condor]

she's on my LAP gng

[pliant dragon]

oh facts

[pliant dragon]

so what can i say

u have

problem

[quartz condor]

yeah

[pliant dragon]

[quartz condor]

im gonna get up

[pliant dragon]

no

[quartz condor]

wah wah

[pliant dragon]

dude shes asleep

let her

sleep

[quartz condor]

dont i deserve rest??

[pliant dragon]

you deserve but shes asleep

[pliant dragon]

pee in bottle

find it

but dont move

[quartz condor]

IM TWEAKING LIKE A HOMELESS MAN IN AN NYC TRAIN STATION

[quartz condor]

theres one way outta reach

i

gotta

get

up

[pliant dragon]

…

[unkempt shale]

nah ah

[quartz condor]

im gonna do it

[unkempt shale]

no

[quartz condor]

please

wait

why am i asking you

[unkempt shale]

no

[unkempt shale]

cuz im just amazing like that

[quartz condor]

nah

[unkempt shale]

well i mean otherwise you wouldnt be speaking to me right now

[quartz condor]

im bored

and who else will i ask about woman problems?

a guy in his 50s?

[unkempt shale]

yes!

[unkempt shale]

i mean is it a women problem?

[pliant dragon]

[quartz condor]

oh so you're a guy in his 50s?

[unkempt shale]

maybe

[quartz condor]

i have a woman laying her head on my lap when sleeping and i gotta get tf up

so u tell me

[unkempt shale]

that sounds like a mens problem

unless its a lesbian problem

then it is a women problem

[quartz condor]

huh

[pliant dragon]

eating popcorn

[quartz condor]

im not a woman tho

[unkempt shale]

so then its a man problem

[quartz condor]

so my solution

[pliant dragon]

Oooo I need to pee but I can go bc I dont have a girl on my lap

[quartz condor]

right?

[unkempt shale]

no

[unkempt shale]

sounds like the problem i want ot have to be honest

[pliant dragon]

yeah

[quartz condor]

AYO

[unkempt shale]

WHAT?

[quartz condor]

nothing

[unkempt shale]

is this news to any of us?

[quartz condor]

my inner gen z took over

[unkempt shale]

of what

im so confused

[quartz condor]

FORGET IT

[unkempt shale]

NO TELL ME

[quartz condor]

after u

[pliant dragon]

spill the tea with sophie

[quartz condor]

i

[pliant dragon]

im going on tiktok

[quartz condor]

get up

[unkempt shale]

after me?

[quartz condor]

n

o

[unkempt shale]

huh

im not confused

now

[quartz condor]

i got up

yayy

[unkempt shale]

WHAT

[quartz condor]

ye

[unkempt shale]

crazy

[quartz condor]

im so

desperate

to go to

the bathroom

[unkempt shale]

damn

[quartz condor]

uhm

soo

how do i get back in..

[unkempt shale]

now you cant

[quartz condor]

soph

im js

so good

[unkempt shale]

did you get back in place?

[quartz condor]

yup

woman is in her spot of enjoyment

[unkempt shale]

amazing

[quartz condor]

also lookin' mighty adorable

[unkempt shale]

thats cute

[unkempt shale]

My parents started to talk about something that happend when I was like 6ish. They said that that might be the ptsd. Idk it's been keeping my mind occupied tho. Flashbacks, trying to think back about it.
Maybe I did want it yk. She was also a kid. It was innocent?

[unkempt shale]

Love you like oxygen, you don't know what I'd do for you💗

[quartz condor]

who

huh

what

heh?

[unkempt shale]

Nothing

[quartz condor]

speak

[unkempt shale]

I'm good

[quartz condor]

ugh

fine

well

what you wanna talk about?

[unkempt shale]

I don't know haha

[unkempt shale]

Damn nosy

[quartz condor]

i just care about you

[unkempt shale]

That sounds really wierd

You don't hear people say that often haha

[quartz condor]

platonicaly duhh

no one really cares about me other than my gf and grandma

[unkempt shale]

I get that dw😭

[unkempt shale]

Well i do

[quartz condor]

ion want you to have the same

[quartz condor]

uhuh?

[unkempt shale]

Is that a 'I don't believe you'?

[quartz condor]

just teasing ya

[unkempt shale]

🤨

[quartz condor]

forget abt it

[unkempt shale]

😭

Nah

[quartz condor]

well i wont say so

thats too bad

[unkempt shale]

Why not

[unkempt shale]

Lame

[quartz condor]

womp womp

[unkempt shale]

😔

What are you doing rn?

[quartz condor]

great

oops

read it wrong

im on the couch