A journal off my life season 2

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rude

1K IS REACHED

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1K MSGS!!!

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YAYAYAYA

anyways

rude af

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https://tenor.com/view/weekend-party-champagne-gif-18280013

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champagne seems nice ngl

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Milestones!!!:

• 1,000 Messages, 1000'th message was: "rude" -sophie

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i once took a really big sip because i thought that it was kid champagne, i couldve cried because it was gross atm (i was 10 or so)

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I lowkey like this conversation

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NO IT WASNT IT WAS THE ''1K MESSAGES REACHED''

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And i like you

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no it was 1001

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I like you tooooo

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i checked

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nah ah

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i also checked

now youre a liar

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how to see this

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1 msg to 1k

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liar liar pants on fire

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next message

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you lied

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nah ah you lied

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count down the msgs

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imagine lying

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who is liar

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you do it

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simon

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simon

why u are lying to my gf

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i told the truth

liar

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fr

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i was wrong

not lying...

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SEE

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karma

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i told you that you lied

im always right

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anyone recognize karma by jojo siwa

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https://tenor.com/view/jojo-siwa-jojo-siwa-karma-karma-jojo-siwa-karma-public-certifiedliviegifs-gif-1720373313985090996

i had to think off taylor swift but both work

i feel like this is the most writen post in whole TTC

we will definitely reach 15 k

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I dont listen to taylor..

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.....\

damn

i have to learn you a lot about music

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frrr

30k too

i believe

in 30k

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we will see

i mean i hope so

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im almost musician

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94 msgs a day

for 30k by january 1st 2026

EZ

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then learn some good music

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i fear that we might even reach it before january first

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round up to 95

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true

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hey who knows

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we did more than 200 msgs today

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really?

crazy

thats already 2 days done

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ye we started at 800

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😭

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were almost at 1100

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jees

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chappel roan, taylor swift, girl in red and sabrina carpenter

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btw at april 13 i go fly to africa

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HELP SOME SUGER MAMA FLED IN MY DMS

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espresso girl?

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IM CRINGING SO HARD

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yes

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omg take me with you

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💀 🙏

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(im scared someone save me)

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whatttr

i think ive become more feminine from this journal, no hate, idrc

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huh

🤨

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10 more msgs till 1100

we on some special powder istg

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youre becoming a girly pop

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were certified yappers, duh

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https://tenor.com/view/cat-no-nonono-noooo-cat-no-gif-16356106285349646826

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its too late

https://tenor.com/view/aaa-gif-7561210984591284200

you

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not me

will never be me

MSG 1100!!!

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I just asked my gf the most embarrassing thing

soph entertains and teaches

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🤔

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too late its already happening

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BHAHAHHA HELP

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its not what you think i promise you

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i aint thinking anything

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then it might be what you thought? or what you didnt think

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idfk

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not me wanting to see some things about you and the your bio only says ''hi''

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stalker

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wait before i find some socials of you

(i wont dont worry)

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i dont got socials

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jees boring af

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ik

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yk whats funny

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?

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i have so much that poeple are like ''oh you cant find me'' and then its genuinly the same user as their dc

like wow wouldve never guessed

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fire

look me up on a name registry idfk

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Guys i need to vent…I cant dutch

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you wont find shit

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for real, ive stalked teachers that way, just first name and bam ive found their schools, hobbys and sometimes even adress

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bro isnt regisert

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ADRESS?

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https://tenor.com/view/deer-stare-deer-staring-are-you-serious-right-neow-devious-deer-gif-27022170

maybe uhh

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YES HHAHA

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im scared rn..

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ill consider a vpn

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[pliant dragon]

I need vpn

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and a cybersecurity team

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BHAHAHAH

trust me nearly every girl can do this

and if the girl itself cant, then her friends can

dont worry

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this i why i dont understand yall

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ive seen a cold case being solved by some girls who thought it woul be fun.....

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its a special talent

its always easier when you have a first and last name

but ive found some people with just first names

and then their whole family..

to the point i had their grandma on facebook

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the way it got quiet after this😭

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😭

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BRO

IM WATCHING A BILLIE LIVESTREAM

LIKE HER CKNCERT

AND THIS GIRL

IS SIGNING

NO

SCREAMING IN THE MIC

BUT ITS NKT EVEN GOOD

SHES NOT WVEN TRYUNG

Istg I could punch her

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💀

[rigid merlin]

😭

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I love my gf yall🙏

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same 🤑

btw got back from a smoke break

so now we can talk

goal for today should be 1400

or 1300

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Stop smoking🙏

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lemme do whatever i want

i simply burn the stress away

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That's called a bad coping mechanism

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ughhhh

so annoying

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BHAHAHA

Il stop bothering🙏

Did you do anythinf today?

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uhh yeah

worked..

played mc..

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Rip

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Minecraft?

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ye

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Ohh nicee

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hru?

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Honestly amazing

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how so?

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What about you??

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im chill

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No idea, I've been feeling great lately. But also having yk the typical episodes. But they seem to be only a day or so

It's honestly amazing

And I also like don't have a feeling like 'oh I should feel bad right now'

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im js under the effect of tobacco

so im chill

😎

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😭🙏

You're acting like it's weed😭

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I love you too😝

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for me it is

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Damn

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😝❤️❤️

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shi im chill thats what matters

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please thats so random

eeeeeeeey

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https://tenor.com/view/deer-stare-deer-staring-are-you-serious-right-neow-devious-deer-gif-27022170

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s3xy ladiesss

woop

woop

woop

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True true, glad that it is that effect haha

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woopa gangam style

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And all the truth

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HELP GIRL?!

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im going to send you voice messages in the morning

with woopa gangam style

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YAYAYAYAYTQ

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(Me rn)

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eeeeeey

woop

woop

woop

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Woop

Woop

Woop

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anyways

life is so chaotic

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Tell me about it

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idk its like...

growin up, u hate life more n more

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Eh I think that that depends

I mean it's all about healing, learning etc etc

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still...

theres all these events and stuff happening

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I get that

But still, life will suck at times but it will also get better

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we'll see..

also at the same time

life can get boooorringgggg

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Trueee

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im tryna eye up any competetors

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For what??

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ur journals msg count

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Wait what do you mean??

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idk i wanna see if someone is close to it

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Nope not at all😭🙏

Most are less then 50

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yupp 😭

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And some are around 100

Most I've seen is 300

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300 or 200 at most

we're more than 4 times that

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Frr

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in like 45 we're at 1300

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Omg you fr?!

That's crazy

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a

ye fr

so cool

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Fr, we deserve vip role

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eeeee macarena

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wise words

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We're foot—slog—slog—slog—sloggin' over Africa
Foot—foot—foot—foot—sloggin' over Africa --
(Boots—boots—boots—boots—movin' up and down again!)
There's no discharge in the war!
Seven—six—eleven—five—nine-an'-twenty mile to-day
Four—eleven—seventeen—thirty-two the day before --
(Boots—boots—boots—boots—movin' up and down again!)
There's no discharge in the war!
Don't—don't—don't—don't—look at what's in front of you.
(Boots—boots—boots—boots—movin' up an' down again);
Men—men—men—men—men go mad with watchin' em,
An' there's no discharge in the war!
Count—count—count—count—the bullets in the bandoliers.
If—your—eyes—drop—they will get atop o' you!
(Boots—boots—boots—boots—movin' up and down again) --
There's no discharge in the war!
We—can—stick—out—'unger, thirst, an' weariness,
But—not—not—not—not the chronic sight of 'em,
Boot—boots—boots—boots—movin' up an' down again,
An' there's no discharge in the war!
'Taint—so—bad—by—day because o' company,
But night—brings—long—strings—o' forty thousand million
Boots—boots—boots—boots—movin' up an' down again.
There's no discharge in the war!
I—'ave—marched—six—weeks in 'Ell an' certify
It—is—not—fire—devils, dark, or anything,
But boots—boots—boots—boots—movin' up an' down again,
An' there's no discharge in the war!
Try—try—try—try—to think o' something different
Oh—my—God—keep—me from goin' lunatic!
(Boots—boots—boots—boots—movin' up an' down again!)
There's no discharge in the war!

a poem ive talkd about before, i just heard the audio again and honestly i found it just as amazing again

"Boots" imagines the repetitive thoughts of a British Army infantryman marching in South Africa during the Second Boer War. It has been suggested for the first four words of each line to be read slowly, at a rate of two words per second, to match with the cadence, or rhythm of a foot soldier marching.[2]

damn this is honestly such a cool fact

when the nerdy kid meets wikipedia you get this

The 1915 spoken-word recording of the poem by American actor Taylor Holmes has been used for its psychological effect in U.S. military SERE schools.[3] OMG I KNEW THIS

apperantly rusia used this as a marching song, they added music to the poem and used it for that, they later changed verses tho

bro i want to know more but there isnt more to know

this is the start of me falling into a rabit hole of the internet

i have found my website yall

it breaks the poem down COMPLETELY

https://tenor.com/view/billie-eilish-haha-tellmeits0ver-laugh-laughing-gif-9517533519772288510

''They can deal with the hunger and cold, but it’s the sight of their boots that’s going to drive them insane. ''

damn

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when your gf sends you a message in polish (her native langauge) and it turns out to be the sweetest thing ever so now im just laying in bed sobbing

https://tenor.com/view/schaferns-gif-21514627

me rn

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hey guys i wrote a cute message in my native language for my gf i have hope shes happy

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whenyou start to talk to somoene

and they talk about near death expiernce

like i can rant about those

and then they just tell me they had an ||od|| once

like thanks

WTF DO I RESPOND BRO?!

i wanted to make jokes

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i lowkey want het to stop

but i wont be rude

so il let her vent

okey i told her the truth

i feel bad

but honestly she needed to hear it

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nvm my friend was the stupid one

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Today I'm going to celebrate carnaval

(That means bags full of candy and stuff like that)

13K messages reached yall

https://tenor.com/view/wedding-crasher-hro-gif-25636997

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13K?

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NO

1,3

But

Still cool

I was half asleep

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XDDDDDDDDDD

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yooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

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HEYYYY

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down to grind another 100?

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Ofcourse ofcourse

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yeee

anyways

how ya doin?

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I'm good!

What about you??

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im chill

https://tenor.com/view/chill-guy-chill-guy-just-a-chill-guy-relax-gif-1579445140409713118

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That's good to hearrr

Did you do anything today?

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i milsim'd

for 3 hrs

irl and my legs are DEAD

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Damn😭🙏

You got your steps in

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yuh

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its hard running with a machine gun and a ton of gear

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I didn't even know that you can just casually do that

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well i can

and shi

its hard 😭

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It sounds hella fun

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Fair, but also hella fun

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frr

i was a SAW gunner

one of my friends a sniper

and the other a team leader

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Damn

But like

How does jt work

Cuz I feel like yall don't just really shoot eachother

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yeah ofc

we ruck

and hear stuff

and we ruck more

than boom boom battle

and we ruck more

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Ruck?...

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macarena

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GIRL?!

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walking

with gear

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OH

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Boom boom battle

This sounds so fun

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i had no water.

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I wanna do that

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Sounds like a you problem

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i have noodle legs rn

u only do it once week/month

depends what it is

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You skip leg day too much

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have walked 15-20km in full gear?

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No, but do I skip leg day? Also no

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yah yah yah

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ok

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Just telling the facts

Anyways

How do I sign up

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there is ZERO comparison

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Cuz I want to do it

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idfk in ur country

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😔

Disappointed that you don't know

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There actually is🙏

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do u even got gear

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Do I need to have that?

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do u need gear in a milsim?

..

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In a what

Bro I don't have a gun just laying around?...

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https://tenor.com/view/are-you-dying-of-dementia-gif-25948740

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than get one

airsoft

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Uhm yes actually

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Ohh airsoft

(That shit hurts)

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than dont play

9 to 1400 btw

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Oh yess yeah yeah...

Huh?

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(Still confused what this is)

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equipment

in a military simulation

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You never thought me this

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Oh

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d e m e n t i a

FOURTEEN HUNDRE!!!

holup

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Huh

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1.4k??

msgs??

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OHHHH

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did some calculations

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Tell me about them

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we can now do ONE less message a day to get 30k by 2026

making it 94 instead of 95

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😭🙏

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[pliant dragon]

fire

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Wowies in a few weeks il be free yall🙏

(If we keep this up)

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ay js a 100 a day

we do this

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For real we can do it

[pliant dragon]

oh

okay

nvm

i want to

send gif

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rip

[rigid merlin]

I want pic perms for journals

I wanna show my wins on video games and just pictures of outside that I take

[pliant dragon]

real

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bro i can send pics?

im just God's favorite

https://tenor.com/view/butters-butters-griddy-griddy-gif-27637978

[pliant dragon]

griddy

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yess

[rigid merlin]

Actually??

Oh shit wow

[pliant dragon]

matt what lvl you are

in

fortnjte

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girl

[rigid merlin]

I have no idea cause I’ve barely played the new season

I’ve been playing other games

[pliant dragon]

yes?

[pliant dragon]

what games did you play?

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stop being so addicted😭

[pliant dragon]

too late girl

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crazy

[rigid merlin]

I’ve been playing bloodborne and Helldivers 2 a lot

[rigid merlin]

But how tho??

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im just cool asf

(its probbly cuz im a booster)

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vrump

[pliant dragon]

hai

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Vrump?

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The religion Channel is lowkey a bad idea

I mean you can rant about being gay and the religious guilt and some dude will say 'it's a sin'

(Which I get)

It's like 'this channel is for religion but don't say that gay is bad'

Yk it doesn't really work with eachother😭

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im scared to open this channel ngl

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You should be

[pliant dragon]

😭😭

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ping me when it happens

i wanna have some fun

😈

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Wdym??

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also i lowkey wanna go urbexing

[jovial nest]

Cuz that shit is happening rn

😭

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i wanna troll themmm

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Omg please do

Jts this argument going strong for like 2 days now

And staff doesn't care enough to stop it😭🙏

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ion see the channel

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You need the role

#1060765945460707408

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yo??

did i cook?

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OMG DOG

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Absolutely

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🤯

@jovial nest

photography is so fun

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OMGGGG

I LOVE DOGS

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frrr

edited a bit...

[pliant dragon]

pretty doooooog

[jovial nest]

Oehhhh

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used some ai to remove the cables...

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😭🙏

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SO

DAMN

CUTEEE

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YES OMG

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a BIT of background blur..

four

more

messages

A

1.5K!!!!!!

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😭

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should i make a photography journal?

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Yess

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bettt

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Can't wait to see

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done

[jovial nest]

Yall

My gf

( @pliant dragon )

BOUGH5

[pliant dragon]

(its me yall)

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'Mine' EMOTE

FOR ME

I nearly cried

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Here is the best, sweetest and prettiest girl of the world yall

[pliant dragon]

stop im blushing

aawwhh

[pliant dragon]

I FEEL LIKE IDK GETTING A OSCAR OR SMTH

Hello guys

I really want to gift her

bc she really want this emote

im really excited about this

I was working hard for 2 days

to gift her this

im glad to make her more happy

Im here to make people happy

so thank you

I love her so much

she deserves it

takes oscar and leaves

[jovial nest]

You're getting the grammy for best song of the Year in a few years. So I though I'd give you a practice round🙏

[quartz condor]

https://tenor.com/view/wizardcat-magicmeow-cat-magiccat-rosecat-gif-5498070833947581909

[pliant dragon]

heey simon

how are youu?

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im alr

u?

[pliant dragon]

im gooood

[quartz condor]

@jovial nest yooooooo

https://tenor.com/view/deer-stare-deer-staring-are-you-serious-right-neow-devious-deer-gif-27022170

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HEYY

[quartz condor]

how

ya doin

[jovial nest]

I

Am good

What

About you?

[quartz condor]

im doin good

im rly likin the progress in #1345847743196827688

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Damn I love those!

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yeee

im improvin

😎

[jovial nest]

Yesss it's so cool

[quartz condor]

ay im boutta fall asleep

so i cant stay up to text

gn

[jovial nest]

😔

[jovial nest]

Goodnight:)

[quartz condor]

gn

[torn dagger]

https://tenor.com/view/horse-sweep-horse-sweep-meme-ireetable-gif-961325981075501850

[jovial nest]

Hello

How are you?

[torn dagger]

Tired

trying to lock in with school

[jovial nest]

real af

[jovial nest]

i HATE when people make ''art'' with ai

its not art

thats just 1000 real drawings of real artists that dont get paid, mushed togeter into something else

and as in artist i can say that it does infact have so much impact on the comunity

it really sucks

because i see this ''artist'' making amazing videos of storys and its really awesome but they make it all with AI

im sorry but thats litarly just stolen images

[rigid merlin]

A bit late to say but I just got pic perms for my journal

[pliant dragon]

yap

hey soooph

how are you todaay?

[jovial nest]

Greatt

[jovial nest]

I'm good! What about you??

[pliant dragon]

Glad to heaaaar im good too

❤️

[quartz condor]

chat

i am so happy

[jovial nest]

Tell me about it

[quartz condor]

i talked with the polish ambassador to my country

[jovial nest]

I honestly don't know what it means

BUT YEEEY

[quartz condor]

he represents the country of poland

in my country

[jovial nest]

Ohhh, and that's good?

[quartz condor]

YEAHHH

my family comes from poland

!!!

wait in 5 msgs 1.6k

1

2

3

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1.6k msgs!!!@

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[jovial nest]

OHHH THATS AMAZING

[jovial nest]

OEHH

[pliant dragon]

someone

mention

poland?

[jovial nest]

BHAHAHAHA

[quartz condor]

😭

[pliant dragon]

beautiful country

[jovial nest]

My dad just called me

He was like 'do you have hockey practice today'

I ofc said yes

And he was like 'shit'

Now my mom has to bring me because he would apparently rather go and watch a football game then bringing his kid to hockey (one of the few times we bond)

[jovial nest]

Nah sofia isella is FINALLY coming to my country

AM I ON THE PLANE THE DATE SHE IS HERE

I'm going to try my best to convince my mom to go with me to germany

[quartz condor]

@jovial nest

up to talk?

[jovial nest]

Sure haha

Any topics you want to talk about?

[quartz condor]

hmm

not sure

[jovial nest]

Oh😔

What would be your superpower?

[quartz condor]

time control

[jovial nest]

Oehh whys that?

[quartz condor]

cuz i can be super fast

[jovial nest]

Fair

[quartz condor]

probs gonna go sleep

with ma cute dog

[jovial nest]

Okeyy goodnightt

[quartz condor]

gn

[pliant dragon]

meow

[jovial nest]

Meow

[jovial nest]

Hello

I'm bored

I have to study math for my test week

[pliant dragon]

I hate marh

math

[jovial nest]

Ugh I hate this all

A friend is venting I tell them what I think and now they're mad

Don't ask for my opinion if you don't want it

Don't vent to me if you don't want honest advice

I'm not going to lie to your face to make you feel better cuz that's just shitty

I know most social cues but I never got this one and I never will

[quartz condor]

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[jovial nest]

😭🙏

[quartz condor]

vro

why tf am i so deppressed

[jovial nest]

Real

[quartz condor]

shi i miss 2020

when i was.. 11 iirc

yeah 11

[jovial nest]

I hope I never come back in 2020

Nor 2021

Shit years

[quartz condor]

better than now 💀 🙏

anyways

ima sleepy

gn

[jovial nest]

Definitely not

[jovial nest]

Night

My life is complete, I got the theme jerseys (I already wanted to wear a jersey)

[pliant dragon]

YAAAAAY

[jovial nest]

We're watching a police show rn. And someone was ||suicidal and showed their cuts|| then my dad was like 'I don't understand how people do it' I nearly awnserd him to I knew that that might not be the best idea

[jovial nest]

Ugh I get so irritated at a friend of mine

She likes to repost depressed shit

It's so annoying tbh, like okey we get it

But the worst part is.
Someone checked up on her and then she was like 'oh yeah you gf checked up on my, and I was like oopsie' like wow look at you being all depressed and then 'funny' because someone asked you about the repost

Like stfu if you aren't going tk be honest

[rigid merlin]

I hope you’re doing okay Sophie

[jovial nest]

Yeah

[jovial nest]

I feel like I'm absolutely going insane

The stress is getting to me

I'm more iritated and just everything

My mom started yelling from downstairs and I just exploded

I don't feel understood

They don't see what I do, they only see the things I don't do

It's always 'did you study today' and never 'how is the stress for your test week'

They 'try' so hard

[jovial nest]

When you have to eat but lowkey don't want to cuz your mom basically called you fat earlier

Everything I need to get up I feel like crying

Il probably just skip dinner

I feel like sleeping

Rn it's just breakdown after breakdown I want to eat but I dint want my parents to see me crying

I just want this day to be over with

[jovial nest]

Shit

I can't sleep I feel like shit

I keep having panick attacks, my mom came in, and tried to help or something

She only focused in my math test and stuff

Like bro atm idc, I just want to sleep and stop these stupid panick attacks

They're feeling like meltdowns which I can't stop

My head hurts and I'm nauseous because of the hyperventilating

I just wish that I could just sleep

Idk pop some pills

At this point I don't care how I fall aslee0

My mom is trying her best I know, but I wish that I could just have someone helpfull someone who knows what to do someone who magically does the trick

If I could I would've called my psychologist today but I don't have her number

My whole body just hurts

And then to think that I have the week with all the test still

It hasn't even begun

Tomorrow will be the first day

This stupid small thing did not went the way I wanted and I feel like punching someone

I just want to ||die|| atm

[jovial nest]

Just woke up

My God that was bad and i don't feel as bad now which is good

I fell asleep with some music because otherwise my brain wouldn't shut up.

I don't know what happend but that was definitely the worst meltdown I've had so far

Nothing really helped. I was putting presure on myself as much as I could. I was litarly pulling my hair and digging my nails in my hands.
It was crazy to say the least

[jovial nest]

My dad just brought me some meat that you'd normally out on bread (it's more then enough for another slice of bread) I feel like crying rn

And not in a bad way

My dad is bad with words but he's trying his best

[jovial nest]

Dancing for an hour in the living room just to get some energy out

[quartz condor]

i have returned.

[jovial nest]

Hello.

[quartz condor]

yo

you ok?

[jovial nest]

I'm better then before

I feel like living again

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[jovial nest]

(Also last day of my nitro🙏)

[pliant dragon]

NOOOOO

[jovial nest]

Yes😔💔

[pliant dragon]

😭😭😭😭

[quartz condor]

i'll give you another one so you still feel like living 💔

[jovial nest]

Nah don't worry haha

[quartz condor]

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[jovial nest]

Exactly save the money🙏

[quartz condor]

i've decided what ill do in life

[jovial nest]

Nice

[quartz condor]

gonna join the military

😎

[jovial nest]

Bro someone has 2900 messages in their journal

[jovial nest]

Damn

[quartz condor]

AWWW HELL NAWW

we fell off ong

[quartz condor]

oh ik why

they type like this;

so

i decided

to

go eat

some tasty food

at some nice

restaraunt

[jovial nest]

We really did

[quartz condor]

(thats why so many msgs)

[jovial nest]

Me

[quartz condor]

no we js dont spam

[jovial nest]

Core

[jovial nest]

Reao

Real

[quartz condor]

ong

wait no

"fr" will be the appropriate abbreviation

[jovial nest]

A what

Abbreviation

Huh

[quartz condor]

"fr" - for real

"ong" - on god/gang

[jovial nest]

You didn't know yet...

I use those all the time

...

[quartz condor]

on gangy

[jovial nest]

Huh

[quartz condor]

nothing nothing

[jovial nest]

I'm confused af now

[quartz condor]

shhh it dont matter what i say

im a schizo

[jovial nest]

Oh okey

[quartz condor]

sooo

how u been

[jovial nest]

Eh not too great to be honest

[quartz condor]

how so

summarize up

[jovial nest]

School=test week= learning= stress= meltdown

Oh and my psychologist appointment is in over a week and I just need to talk to her asap

[quartz condor]

i see

[jovial nest]

Yep

[quartz condor]

want a doggo photo to cheer u up?

[jovial nest]

Sure

[jovial nest]

Cutiee

[quartz condor]

she a lil crazy 😈

but tyy

[jovial nest]

Oop

[quartz condor]

@jovial nest

how

are

you

on

this

particular

day

of

the

week

???

[jovial nest]

Could be better what about you?

(Also 1,8k messages)

[quartz condor]

i am coughing my soul out but

pretty good

whats bothering ya if i may ask

[quartz condor]

yippeeee

[jovial nest]

Jees that sucks

[jovial nest]

Just stress I guess

[quartz condor]

hmm

[quartz condor]

@jovial nest

how

are

you

on

this

fine

night

?

[jovial nest]

could be better, what about you?

[quartz condor]

im alr,

still sick, but uhh,

anything bothering u?

[jovial nest]

sorry to hear that

[jovial nest]

not really

[quartz condor]

nice

[quartz condor]

yup 😔

[jovial nest]

I feel like shit ugh

My friend is annoying me like crazy rn

It's just all annoying and stupid

[pliant dragon]

can I ask who?

[jovial nest]

Uhm....

Maybe it's best if no😭

[pliant dragon]

why?

😭

[jovial nest]

Well...

[pliant dragon]

maybe I know

but im not sure

[jovial nest]

Who are you thinking?

[pliant dragon]

starts with A?

[jovial nest]

Mhm

[pliant dragon]

IM GENIUS🛐

[jovial nest]

She's still my best friend ofc, but her mental state is driving me nuts (she's attention seeking all the time)

I don't mind venting but she's always like 'oh yeah someone asked me how I was after she saw ny repost whoopsies' you're not funny you're reposting shut about ||sh, suicide and ED|| don't repost if you don't want to talk

[jovial nest]

You always are🙏

[pliant dragon]

whoopsies?

😭

[jovial nest]

SHE FR SAID THAT

It's so annoying

And she does stuff like that all the time

[pliant dragon]

okay if you dont want talk about your problem just don’t respost

😭

[jovial nest]

THANK YOU

But she does so much more

And it's just driving me nuts

[pliant dragon]

I only saw one repost bc this shows up in my fyp and I asked her if she is okay bc im kind😔😔

[jovial nest]

Like I'm also very closed off, but I don't repost shit about stuff like that, I don't think I'm funny when I ||cut my school book (after she vented in our server that she relapsed too)||

[jovial nest]

Nah you're good in doing that, I'm just sick of her tricks

[pliant dragon]

no

no

no

youre joking

right?

[jovial nest]

I'm so fr

[pliant dragon]

OH MY GOD😭😭

[jovial nest]

She was like 'oh yeah haha I cut my school book hahaha'

Like stfu

'Look sophie'

[pliant dragon]

haha soph look 🤭

[jovial nest]

Thanks for triggering me girl thank you so much (ot normally wouldn't but knowing what she did before that or after did infact trigger the shit out of me)

[pliant dragon]

idk congratsss??

[jovial nest]

EXACTLY

[pliant dragon]

😭

[jovial nest]

I still love her but ghosh get help

[pliant dragon]

shes just need attention, she have someone else?

[jovial nest]

I also had to listen to her complain about her psychologist for 8 weeks when I said 'well tell your mom that you don't like her' she was like 'but I don't want to' then don't complai

[jovial nest]

She does, and many people gave her attention. Multiple people ask her how she is when they see the repost etc. But it's always the same shit and I always have tk listen to it

[pliant dragon]

thats weird, shes looking for attention but in very weird way😭😭

[jovial nest]

Fr, yk worst part? We threw a girl out of our friend group for doing this (this was one of the many factors we did so dw)

[pliant dragon]

for doing what?

sorry my brain turned off

[rigid merlin]

Whoopsies is crazy

[jovial nest]

For attention seeking this way and many more ways

[jovial nest]

Frr

[pliant dragon]

aaaa

[jovial nest]

Yeahh

[rigid merlin]

My thoughts exactly

[pliant dragon]

I remembered when I was in the 6th grade and, looking for attention, ||I was unscrewing razor blades from the sharpener||

😭😭😭

during classes

😧

[pliant dragon]

the worst part of this is you cant tell her to stfu

about it

[jovial nest]

WHAT

Next level emo

[jovial nest]

Oh I can🤷🏼‍♀️

But then il be rude😔

[pliant dragon]

REAL

(im okay rn so dw)

[pliant dragon]

exactly😭

[jovial nest]

😭🙏

[pliant dragon]

baddie

[jovial nest]

Very baddie grr

[pliant dragon]

GRRR

😭

bark on her

show her who is sigma alpha daddy

okay no

stop

😔

[jovial nest]

Will do🙏

[pliant dragon]

YESSSS

I love this converstation

[jovial nest]

Same

[quartz condor]

@jovial nest i think im gonna die

[jovial nest]

Huh why?

[quartz condor]

i milsim'd since 4 AM

to 8 PM

[jovial nest]

Huh?

What's that

[quartz condor]

we had this convo before-

[jovial nest]

Oh-

Is that that play pretent soldier stuff

[quartz condor]

.

[jovial nest]

.

[quartz condor]

i wouldnt call it THAT...

[jovial nest]

But it lowkey is

Anyways

[jovial nest]

Why would you even do that

[quartz condor]

idk it seens lime

like

ur making a joke of it

[quartz condor]

its fun

[jovial nest]

I mean....

[jovial nest]

Fair enough but that's like 14 hours why😭🙏

[quartz condor]

16

and its fun

[jovial nest]

Jesus

[quartz condor]

u feel immersed

[jovial nest]

I complain after running for 1,5 hours

[jovial nest]

graps deepL

[quartz condor]

i carried like

3-4 kilos

[jovial nest]

.....

[quartz condor]

ion know but close to that

thats why we dont run

[jovial nest]

Thats crazy

[jovial nest]

Oh okey fair enough

That makes it less crazy

[quartz condor]

oh but

i did have to hop a fence

[jovial nest]

Damn

[quartz condor]

but it was ez

anyone can hop a fence

[jovial nest]

True

[quartz condor]

ye and it was fun

[jovial nest]

That's good:)

[jovial nest]

Awhhh

[quartz condor]

he's so cute

[jovial nest]

He looks really cutee

[quartz condor]

yeah and #main-chat wants to eat him ❤️ ❤️

[jovial nest]

Oh😔

[quartz condor]

😎 😄

[jovial nest]

😔

[pliant dragon]

meow

meow

meow

mrow

meow

[jovial nest]

....

damn

[pliant dragon]

HAHAHAHAHH

[quartz condor]

@jovial nest

how

are

you

on

this

beautiful

day

?

[jovial nest]

Not great, what about you?

[quartz condor]

im great

whats bothering ya if i may ask

[pliant dragon]

oeh what happened

[jovial nest]

Bro my parents istg sometimes I feel like yelling at their faces (mostly my dad)

[jovial nest]

Watching a serie about police 17 year old ||girl jumped infront of the train|| and it just had some impact. Then we have my parents talking about me now

My dad was like

'What did you even talk about in that extra appointment with your psychologist' me 'we just talked' (clearly not wanted to talk further about it) 'oh okey, but what has been bothering you' me 'just stress' dad 'oh yeah also have that sometimes you will have that more often in life.

Thanks dad but I'm already struggling with way more then you are rn. This stress makes me feel insane and like I was to hurt myself. But yeah sorry I'm dramatic

[jovial nest]

^^^:)

[quartz condor]

maybe he's tryna find a way to make you feel better abt rn

[jovial nest]

I don't see how saying 'I also have that' would make me feel better

[quartz condor]

idk how to say this uhh

[jovial nest]

I get the asking about the psychologist but then saying that just made me feel like I was insane 'like I'm sorry dad but I had panick attacks and felt like pulling my hair out, I feel like we're not the same atm🙏

[quartz condor]

a lot of ppl dont have an easy time trying to find the right words to say

especialy males unsuprisingly

[jovial nest]

I know but still, if you can't find it then don't say anything at all

It just pisses me off, cuz it makes me feel like he's trying to downplay my stuff which he has always been doing

[quartz condor]

yeah thats the thing ppl WANT to help but it can be hard for em thinking abt it