i wish i could be normal

[swift cedar]

yesterday i was at a mcdonalds, and i was paying in cash. so i as waiting at the cash register for a worker to come by. and this guy that looked a bit older than be came up and asked if i was in line to pay in cash (i was first in line) i looked up at him for 0.1 seconds then looked back at the floor and just barely said "y-yes.." not in a cute way but in a weirdo way. its so embarrasing, he was polite too so idk why i was so scared to talk

today i have a day off school, so im using today to socially recharge for tmrw cus i have school. ive been sitting in my bed all day, i havent eaten and im just reading manhwas and listening to music. this should amazing, but its making me feel worse. i havent been productive at all

[ionic geyser]

You got to break the comfort bubble and realize life is suffering. Nobody can save you besides yourself.

This is not meant to scare you but makes you realize you can't be afraid of people.

Before you know it life will be over and you will say I was too afraid to stand up for what was right.

[swift cedar]

i tried that at school today

i just waved and tried to say high while passing my friends inbetween classes

it made me feel a little better

its like im telling them that i actually care about them, cus i usually just look at the ground and go straight to where im headed

i always feel bad for ignoring them