I am currently trying my hardest to recover from my Self harm, and for a while my urges actually went away for the most part. But now they're starting to come back and they're coming with suicidal thoughts too. I haven't cut in like a month and I really want to keep it that way, but I don't know if I can. I'm scared if I cut myself I might kill myself since I'm also having suicidal thoughts. I don't know what to do and I'm really scared, I want to cut myself so bad.
#Self harm urges
lapis steeple
quiet bay
try to talk about it w someone
peak fractal
I am currently trying my hardest to recover from my Self harm, and for a while m...
I get it mate, I'm the same way. I've been trying to break from those habits as well. You need someone to talk to I'm here for you.
vapid spire
I'm here too
You're not alone
Being 1 year+ and still have urges a lot
undone pine
Yoo wspp
I don't have urges when I am sober but when I drink I tend to act differently
And even now I am not sober so this is why I'm saying these things
As of right now I feel like harming myself again
And the main problem is my drinking and the way I love my life, the people I include in my life
I've realized that when I get close to someone (in a friend way) I tend to back myself away from them sfterwards
It feels as if tho I don't want to have no one in my life
And I do at the same time
But I cannot trust anybody when I can't trust myself I try to change but end up falling into the same endless cycle of sleeping working drinking etc
Regretting the things I do and every single time it happens it gets worse and worse and my thoughts also get worse along with it to the point that I feel an emptiness I've never felt before
And now tomorrow I have work and all I want to do is put a bullet in my head like I imagine having a gun and using it on myself