dreamy marsh
So started dating what I consider the most wonderful and amazing girl I've met in years back in mid November. She's 35F I'm 30M and we both met at work. She's been through a lot in life, from being in the US Navy to being assaulted by her step father.
Well recently a lot of stuff has been going on in her life, and I've entered it at probably the right time to be there for her. Literally everything that could go wrong has been going wrong, and without me she'd be either in jail right now or homeless, probably both.
Anyways, I don't know the specifics of why she's currently having a PTSD attack, but I know she is having one. Told me that herself, and recognized the type and basically said that one of us would need to sleep on the couch. I of course volunteered not caring all too much about me being sleeping out here. We've been sleeping (nothing more than just actual sleep) together for a few nights this week now. I just hate how I can't help her through this, because she says that she'll likely attack me if we were in the same bed tonight. She's not normally violent, has been nothing but sweet to me, but PTSD can bring out anyone's fight or flight response.
I just love this woman and it hurts not being able to help her through this as I am respecting this boundary and trying not to pry too much this early on into the episode itself. I understand it's not easy for her, but I also don't know the context behind it and that's what's really bothering me I guess. I just needed to talk about this to someone I guess.
mighty nebula