Why Do You Keep Doing This?

[fossil tusk]

I'm back at square one again. My ex of almost 2 months reached out yesterday and talked to me. I promised him I wouldn't say more about what happened but the entire time I felt so confused. He kept saying shit like, "I missed you. I missed this. One of the things I liked about you was your voice and laugh. I liked everything of course but those 2 are what I really liked. I want to hold your hand and kiss you." Oh god dude. Why can't you just love me again. I'm different now. I know I messed up the relationship because I was a complete mess and douchebag but I never wanted to. You left a ||$exu4lly 4bu$1v3|| relationship before you met me, while I left a physically & mentally abu$iv3 relationship. I wish we healed first and then got with each other. You said it yourself. "I wish I got with the you now. You seem so much better already." Yeah. Because I had to build myself up while you're here cuddling and receiving photos from another girl who talked horrible about you. While you were there trying to make someone fill the void, I was here trying to close up the void. With GOD. I loved you so much, we both could've done better in the relationship. I wish one day you realize maybe I really am the one you wanted to marry.

[idle cipher]

are you considering going back?

[lyric glacier]

Well I don't have any experience when it comes to relationships but he sounds like a typical ex. You both have issues as of now. I think it's best for both of you to heal first. He was your ex for a reason and there is a reason why people say going back to your ex is like playing with fire. He will be repeating the same mistakes. At the end of the day, its your call.

[fossil tusk]

Of course.

[fossil tusk]

Yes, I know. My final act of love was to leave him alone and stop bothering him. He said he won't add me but he won't unblock me because he'll end up still stalking my page. At the beginning of the conversation he said he hated me. But at the end of it, he told me he still loved me. That confused me so much.

[lyric glacier]

He is either unsure about what he is doing or he is a manipulator

[lyric glacier]

Either of those

[fossil tusk]

I'm guessing he's unsure about how he feels.

[lyric glacier]

Change of words, actions and commitments can indicate a manipulator

[lyric glacier]

Can be

But I believe the best thing for both of you would be to take a break from each other. It seems as if emotions have an upper hand over rationality here

[fossil tusk]

No yeah, and he said anytime he sees me in public -- he won't make it awkward. But, I know I will. Because I still love him. It's weird but I really hope he comes back

[lyric glacier]

I hope everything turns out in your favour

Don't stress it. Things will fall into place.

[fossil tusk]

Wow, thank you -- No one really said that to me before

[lyric glacier]

It is just a rough patch

You people are lucky tho, you get to experience love and all.

Cherish it

People like me end up in our graves alone

But anyways, give it some time

[fossil tusk]

That's not true, love will come when you at least suspect it

it was like that with me

[lyric glacier]

I don't think so. Hahaha. I ain't a good looking person. But it ain't about me it's about you. So forget it.

I have lived what I had to

But anyways, as I said, don't stress it. We often tend to overthink things when life is cluttered. Switching to the worst case scenario and all

Till then, take care

[fossil tusk]

Thank you, that means a lot

[lyric glacier]

No worries

[idle cipher]

don't say that, I'm as ugly as sin but people don't stick with you because of your good looks

it's a good first impression but people normally want to be with people who have great personalities

your gonna do great man

[lyric glacier]

I highly doubt it