Zørn's Dream log.

[golden anvil]

Dream
28/11/24 — Thursday
-# In-body.

Third Person

An image of the globe plays, spinning to a stop in Alaska as the color light orange slowly paints the green land.

Voice:
"Now the rest of USA. Doesn't seem that populated, eh?"
-# Male voice, somewhat British.

The same shade of orange paints the giant nation before skipping over to UAE, where the bright color red stains its land.

First Person.

I was running from some sort of creature, green in color, reacts to sound. Found a road full of buildings, deciding to hide in one. Instead of opening the door to a hallway, it opened to a small, claustrophobic bathroom, but I gave no mind. There were what seemed to be lock picking tools in the toilet.

When I turned to lock the door behind me, I found that the lock was broken, so I had to keep the door closed with my body as the creature banged on the door.

After a moment of silence, I hopped out of that building, dashing for the one next to it. There was a black & red laptop on the sink.

?: "What? I couldn't have ordered anything. I don't have my laptop"

I hastily grabbed the laptop, appearing to not hear the person who said that.

Once again, I tried to lock the door as there were 2 locks, muttering to myself. "If I lock this one, I won't be able to see if it's human or silencer."

Just then, a man of asian decent, likely chinese, came running.

Him: "A person! Human! Oh my god."

As I was about to welcome him into the tiny bathroom, a creature grabbed his shoulder, taking a bite out of it as he muttered a sorry.

Literally a moment later, I blinked, noticing that there were no monsters, but a person dressed in a green suit. This was a movie set.

I cautiously stepped out, getting called a coward for not helping the man.

[Lab experiment here, idk]
-# I vividly remember a checker board in front of me.

Spelling bee contest, how where when?

I sat at the back, as the lady at the front started, pointing at me.

Her: "You. Don't you dare fail."
.

As they started, I was slow to follow as she said the first word.

Her: "Hungry"

I'm assuming... I don't know what she said. I just stared at the sudoku-like board in front of me that had letters for me to spell. Confused, I didn't hear the second word she said.

Her: [DojTV?]

Frustrated, I pulled at my hair as I swore I'm going insane, real life and dream life. There's no escape.

Curled up on the floor, I heard the muffled sounds of the woman asking a guard to sedate me.

Note: Healing SH scars. Had a fun day.
-# Lied awake staring at the ceiling for a while

[golden anvil]

—
29/11/24 — Friday
-# Did not dream

Note: Cheerleading went well. Overall another fun day.

[golden anvil]

Dream
2/12/24 — Monday
-# In-body

First Person

I don't seem to wonder why I've been hiding in the bathroom stall. There are two other people with me, but I can hardly remember who. Though I know they're close friends, maybe even my best friend.

Unluckily for me, I peaked out of the stall and caught a glimpse of a certain group. Tried to close the door, but too late, one already saw me.

They were spitting hateful comments, acting sarcastic about it. If I ever tell them that they are being rude, they'll say those comments aren't for me. Indirect bullying.

But this has gone too far. They were laughing and banging on the door outside, asking for me to come out otherwise they would... uh... blackmail me with a picture of me ||naked||

Snapping, I balled my fists, kicking down the stall myself, suckerpunching the chubby bully.

Narrator?: "Oooh, right for the leader!"

After finishing with her, I went on for the more faces that I reconise, skipping the people who did nothing to me. Once I found them, I beat them up until their faces were unrecognisable.

My phone rung, getting a call from a friend named Mar_Mar, so I picked up and got asked with the wyd question, replying calmly with "I just beat up my bullies."

Note: I woke up, disappointed that I saw them again in the shower room.
-# I live in a dorm, we shower together, though we have different stalls.

[golden anvil]

Nightmare
3/12/24 — Tuesday
-# In-body

First Person

Pitch, black void. Dead silence that left my ears ringing.

Who's that person over there, a glowing white light? They're sobbing again.

I never get to know them, because no words form in this thread of reality. It's like I know them, but I'm so disconnected from it.

That stupid sense of dread, hopelessness that it was never meant to be me.

Note: I lied awake again.
-# Them, the bullies.l

I may post some dream deductions

-# Like what they mean ig.

[golden anvil]

Random note:
That teacher, AHHHHH, I wanna swear at her so bad. I act cried hard, but out of anger. I ain't got not special treatment, I can do that work later. You've got no right to kick me out of a test for "saving me from failure." Gurl, I got Top 1, science in my school. I memorised EVERYTHING you have to teach. Hell, I've learnt it before you taught me. But just because I'm a gifted, doesn't mean you can tell me "I've changed" when I dont finish work in time. Gifted kids are special needs, because their minds work differently than others, and despite being successful in school, I may struggle once I grow up.

[sage dust]

Put this in chat gpt and ask it to analyse

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[golden anvil]

Eh, alr

[golden anvil]

Dreams like this often carry powerful symbolic meanings tied to your subconscious feelings, fears, or unresolved emotions. Here are some potential interpretations:

1. The Void and Silence

The pitch-black void might represent feelings of emptiness or a lack of clarity in your life. The silence, especially since it causes ringing in your ears, could suggest that you are overwhelmed by internal noise—anxiety, suppressed emotions, or an absence of direction.

2. The Glowing White Light

The glowing figure could symbolize a part of yourself or someone you feel a strong but elusive connection to. Their sobbing might indicate unresolved grief or pain, either from your past or tied to someone important to you. The fact that they glow suggests they are significant, possibly representing hope, purity, or a distant truth you're trying to reach.

3. Disconnected Recognition

Feeling as though you know them but can’t connect could point to a sense of loss, missed opportunities, or self-alienation. You might feel disconnected from a part of your identity or a relationship that once mattered deeply.

4. The Sense of Dread

The hopelessness and dread that "it was never meant to be you" could signify self-doubt, feelings of inadequacy, or imposter syndrome. You may feel as though you are not living up to your own expectations or fulfilling your purpose.

Suggestions for Reflection:

Who might the glowing figure represent? Could it be a part of yourself you've neglected, or someone you wish you could reconnect with?

What’s missing in your waking life? The void might hint at an emotional or spiritual gap.

What triggers dread or hopelessness in your waking world? Understanding these triggers could help you confront and address them.

This dream seems to reflect deep introspection and emotional processing. Exploring these themes through journaling, creative expression, or even therapy could provide clarity.

[golden anvil]

By chatGPT

Jhelp- ChatGPT is heavily suggesting I have derealization/depersonalisation.
-# I think I spelt that wrong.

Just an Ai so, uh.

[sage dust]

Dayum

I'm also infp t

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[golden anvil]

Nice

I actually thought I lost this

Since I couldnt find it

[sage dust]

Oooh

[golden anvil]

I baked 2 days ago

It was just sad
-# No flavor and dry