help me im my eyes are numb from crying

[balmy tapir]

well my boyfriend an i are not in a good terms right now, he is ignoring me since Wednesday just because i didn't come to his game. This is technically what happen, last Wednesday there was a school event where each sections has to play sports, i played volleyball. Im a type of person who easily get exhausted cause im not a sporty type of a person, during the event i took a picture of people who plays, but only specific people those people are my classmates and he got jealous of that. (I know that being jealous is fine and its normal). But the thing is I'm a moody person i easily get angry and sad, there is this one classmate of my bf who keeps on bossing me around telling me to take a picture of them and i was annoyed (ik ik i should control my anger, but i can't) so that time my mood was completely drained and im angry, then my boyfriend he keeps on annoying me, we were fine like a minutes ago but he keeps on pissing me off and i was not on the mood to make some jokes so i became silent and walk away. yes he did follow me for a short time but went his friends after buying food, he told me that him and his friends will just buy some salompas (pain relieve patch), and i said i will save some food for you so come back immediately and then he sort of agreed so he can go with his friends, then i waited for like an hour for him to come back and the food was cold so i texted him that where he at and he told me that he was eating with his friends and that thing triggers me so much, i told him that i will save him some food so he can eat with me (ik that our world doesnt revolve with each other but sometimes you just need someone to be on your side while everyone pisses me off), so i became cold again i told him that i dont want to see him anymore and i wanna start crying because i dont have any friends to talk to or to go to. 1/2

later, i saw him and i ignored him, he texted me that i should watch his game so i said i dont know (as ive said i easily get exhausted even after short amount of physical activities) i told him i dont kniw and im not in a mood to walk around but i didnt tell him that i was tired, i thought his games would start at 2pm, so i slept around 1pm and woke up at 2pm as i was walking to the court his classmate told me that the game is almost over so i was late, and after the game he ignored me for almost 2days Wednesday after the game and yesterday thursday. and broke the no conversation yesterday i told him abt how easily i get annoyed and im sorry for that and he left me on seen the thing is he told his friends that i can go take pictures of my classmates but not him, and it hurts me alot. im too drained and tired of this he keeps on giving me the cold treatment when things happen like this and im feeling heavy hearted now and today is our monthsary idk what to do i might cry again 2/2

[silk sail]

aw man :( this really sucked to read. I can say is give him some space and time right now. he will talk to you again. explain your scenario exactly like this and try to reason with him. I feel like this isn't entirely your fault. you were tired and annoyed and im sure he would understand that feeling. communicate when he's ready to talk to you again.

[balmy tapir]

i explained my side to him yet he said "its too tiring to handle this situation, we are always like this how come you are willingly to take them a picture yet not for me, im also tired but i can still keep up, why cant you do the same" even though i told him already im mentally tired and drained cause im struggling to keep up with my mental health but he wants me to give him back all he did for me😓

[balmy tapir]

anyways, thank you