its getting worse

[oblique sparrow]

Has anything happened before these months that caused this?

[coral oasis]

i doubt that, i think its just been slowly getting worse, as i spend my time mostly online, i dont really see causes

[oblique sparrow]

Tbh being chronically online is enough to damage mental health :')
But as you also mentioned, it seems that loneliness is part of the issue.

[coral oasis]

but its like i have nothing to do or to be happy about so i can just be online, hoping i meet someone online to be close with who could make me happy, otherwise i may not ever feel happy

[oblique sparrow]

That's understandable of course, I'm sure it's not as simple as "just go outside and do something". It's worth asking though, why is it hard to meet people irl in your case?

[coral oasis]

because i dont even want to meet most of people, and its hard to find someone around me, and do i really want someone irl and close irl? i dont need to. i prefer people from abroad

[oblique sparrow]

What's wrong with the people around you?

[coral oasis]

they dance,, drink, have friend groups and all, i dont think thats for me, and those who dont, its just different, and it doesn't matter

[oblique sparrow]

Yeah I see, that's not for me either :')
How has it been going with finding people online?

[coral oasis]

its been pretty much the same, nobody suitable for me, who would stay, who id feel amazing with

[coral oasis]

just dull conversations

[oblique sparrow]

How would someone suitable for you look like?

[coral oasis]

just someone who i feel attached to, whos understanding, intelligent, a man, and is unique

[coral oasis]

its really about how it goes with someone

someone who i dont have to lie to and be honest and also have feelings

[oblique sparrow]

Sounds reasonable, and yeah I guess it's no surprise that this level of maturity is not easy to find online.
But then, what are you going to offer in return? :)