I'm a diagnosed sociopath

[vast copper]

i would recommend getting out of wagner very cruel and dangerous job

but thats all i got

[dark shore]

I think killing people in a war would be better than becoming a repeat offender and going to prison.

[brittle lagoon]

@oblique junco

[oblique junco]

Well what do we have here

[dark shore]

bro what are you Brian Moser

[oblique junco]

strange how people always make that assumption from an image

[oblique junco]

Im nobody special

The real question is who are you?

[dark shore]

you need a name?

I’m Eric

[oblique junco]

No id prefer an explanation

[oblique junco]

Interesting name

[dark shore]

this is a long story

[oblique junco]

What activities or passions do you enjoy partaking in?

[oblique junco]

I mean I think my sisters above has got time to wait for me

Shoot

[dark shore]

I love judo and grappling

[oblique junco]

Physical things

Interesting

Did you get a lot of physical contact as a child?

[dark shore]

what are you talking about?

[oblique junco]

Did you get a lot of hugs as a child?

Did you have a tragic upbringing?

Dad drinking screaming tossing things

Or where were you conseived

Do you enjoy the solitude of your mind? A confined space where it’s palpable how indifferent it is

[oblique junco]

Just trying to identify you easier

[dark shore]

I think no.

[dark shore]

I ran my face on the asphalt 3 times on a bicycle, sometimes my grandfather beat me. there were no friends at school

[oblique junco]

What do you wanna do?

[dark shore]

in life?

[oblique junco]

Well sure

But I mean what’s your goal

What do YOU want to do

What does Eric want to do?

Make money?

Have a family?

[oblique junco]

Don’t worry you have nothing to hide

There’s nothing you can hide anyways

[dark shore]

Now my goal is to start going to the gym, read several books on psychology. But in general, the first thing that comes to mind is nothing. I just go towards my goal, that’s all, but I don’t think about it.

[oblique junco]

Neither you or me possess any leverage here

[oblique junco]

That’s not a goal

That’s an idea

What’s the result

What do you want the result of going to gym and reading psychology to be?

[dark shore]

I don't think I should talk about this. But I understand what the final result should be from this.

[oblique junco]

Why not

I don’t judge

You and I are the same

We are brothers connected only by being what we are

What kind of brother hides from his family?

Stop taking so long to reply you don’t need to think

Speak with flow with your heart

[dark shore]

I communicate through a translator, I am Russian.

[oblique junco]

Ah I see

Well as I said you can be honest here

We are the exact same

[dark shore]

Well, I lie to my family all the time. I have never loved any of my family members.

[oblique junco]

It takes a big man biting the hand who feeds you

But then again you’re not a man

You aren’t really anything

[dark shore]

yes

[oblique junco]

You have a lot of learning to do when it comes to humility

[dark shore]

this world is more nihilistic than it seems.

[oblique junco]

Because of people like you

I could never be as careless as you

[dark shore]

I don't quite understand what you mean

[oblique junco]

As naive as you

[oblique junco]

You understand a lot about being inhuman but you understand practically nothing about being alive

[dark shore]

what are you getting at?

[oblique junco]

Just trying to understand you better

Why doesn’t conversing with a fellow equation bring any kind of clarity or enjoyment?

Define yourself to me

[dark shore]

I was once “alive” in your understanding. But now I have no idea how to feel it again, it’s hard.

[oblique junco]

Tell me what you think of yourself

[oblique junco]

There’s ways to learn it

Not psychologists

Or therapists

But you

Yourself building a moral compass

Observe and understand human interaction

[oblique junco]

What made you the way you are?

[dark shore]

But how do you understand what is good and what is bad? Where does morality come from?

[oblique junco]

You don’t

You learn to understand by watching others

To us it will never make sense

But we can still learn to emulate it

What brings you solace Eric

[dark shore]

I have really bad charisma, but I learned to portray emotions a long time ago. Although the hardest thing is to feign love or affection for someone

[oblique junco]

Then study conjuring emotions

It will bring you calm

Slight Liberation from the constant never ending shallow skin you wear everyday

I bet in some sense it burns

[dark shore]

when I'm grappling this helps me the most

[oblique junco]

You really dislike yourself don’t you?

[brittle lagoon]

go gym to look attractive, look more threatening, be better at fighting

is it one of those?

[dark shore]

I'm disgusted by my weakness I hate being like this, it makes me sick inside

[oblique junco]

I know it does

I know you do

[oblique junco]

How old are you?

[dark shore]

17

[oblique junco]

Ripe age

Long way to go before it’s time to call it wraps

[oblique junco]

Do you usually argue?

[dark shore]

like debate?