suicide moment 🔥🔥 (rambling to myself) | The Therapy Center | Page 1

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 1:35 PM

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i don’t understand why it’s so hard for someone to just be like “i’ll help you” that’s all i would’ve needed. all i would’ve needed was a single friend saying one thing to try and help me out but even THAT was too much to ask.

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im literally so worthless it’s insane

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and i’m terrified that when i attempt i’m going to survive and then what? i have nothing. i have no friends to help me, i have absolutely nothing left

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i’m not going back to people who didn’t give a damn about me that’s for sure

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i just really really hope i’m successful and then maybe people will regret leaving me behind. probably not tho

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 1:55 PM

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man.

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i could help you but i dont think that im good enough

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 1:56 PM

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it’s okay the only person who could’ve helped me would’ve been a friend of mine tbh

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like yeah i’m sure people on a venting server would help you but what’s the point if it’s not a friend of urs ☹️

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 1:57 PM

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i can be a friend tho

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 1:57 PM

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if not even ur friends want u alive then likeeee what’s the point

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 1:58 PM

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and i can help

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im just saying that my help wouldnt be the best

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 1:58 PM

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unfortunately i’m done making friends i tried so so many times

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 1:58 PM

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alr

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 1:59 PM

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everybody leaves lmaoo

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 1:59 PM

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yeah, they are not the ones for you

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 1:59 PM

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i guess no one is then because i’ve had an unbelievable amount of people be my friend

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sucks so bad

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 2:00 PM

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mh

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i could ping 1 guy to this

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if you want me to

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 2:01 PM

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sure

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 2:01 PM

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@tropic pecan

tropic pecan Sep 11, 2024, 2:01 PM

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yoo

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whats up

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 2:01 PM

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read

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alr?

tropic pecan Sep 11, 2024, 2:01 PM

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yeah i am

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@proven glade

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hey my man im here to help

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im down to talk

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first of all

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dont even think of commtiting

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comitting*

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its not worth it

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im 100% sure your friends dont want you dead

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please msg when you are back

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so i can know more and help better

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 2:05 PM

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tropic pecan im 100% sure your friends dont want you dead

well the problem is that i believe he currently has none

tropic pecan Sep 11, 2024, 2:05 PM

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oh yeah i just saw

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i bet noone wants you dead man

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not a single person

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and the drawing thing

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dont beat yourself up for it

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man an 10 y/o programs better then me

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that doesnt mean im trash at it

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or that i should give up

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not at all

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keep going and get better

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you will fail

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but thats life

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life aint abt how many times you fail

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but how many times you get back up and keep going

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 2:52 PM

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i wish i had the motivation to continue on but i rlly don’t ):

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i know my dead friend doesn’t want me back but i want him back

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only thing that brings me comfort

tropic pecan Sep 11, 2024, 2:58 PM

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but you gave to keep going

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your friend wuld be so proud of you man

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just like i am proud of you rn

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like yu reached out

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good job

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i know you got this

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i see it in you

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it will be rough

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it will

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but thats life

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you have to keep going

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keep living

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thats what your friend would want for you

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dont give up

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 3:01 PM

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i’m really sorry but i can’t stick around

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like i wish i could be talked out of it but it’s just too late. when u don’t have friends, hobbies, anything, it’s like. what do u have? nothing

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when people have nothing they die. no food? they starve. no water? die of dehydration. no oxygen? suffocate. i have nothing to hold on to? i die just the same hamster

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i just can’t believe that my “friends” or people who cared about me are watching me suffer and know i’m going to kms and dgaf

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it hurts so bad

tropic pecan Sep 11, 2024, 3:38 PM

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proven glade i’m really sorry but i can’t stick around

yes you can

tropic pecan Sep 11, 2024, 3:39 PM

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proven glade when people have nothing they die. no food? they starve. no water? die of dehydr...

you have a server full of friends

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everyone here is your friend

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i tell you

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everyone here is your friend

tropic pecan Sep 11, 2024, 3:39 PM

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proven glade i just can’t believe that my “friends” or people who cared about me are watching...

did you tell them?

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 3:52 PM

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tropic pecan everyone here is your friend

yeah like on a basic level i guess but not a real friend

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 3:52 PM

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tropic pecan did you tell them?

oh yes i sure did

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my one friend said bye 😭

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they don’t need me and it kills me

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no one needs me

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all. i want in life is someone to need me

tropic pecan Sep 11, 2024, 4:01 PM

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your parents need you

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imagne what your mom will say if you do it

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 4:05 PM

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she does not gaf 😭

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we have a very toxic relationship

tropic pecan Sep 11, 2024, 4:12 PM

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how abt your parents in general?

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 4:14 PM

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they’re fine

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honestly don’t care how my death affects any of my family

tropic pecan Sep 11, 2024, 4:15 PM

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why not?

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 4:20 PM

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just doesn’t matter to me tbh

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they’ll survive

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i just wish one of my friends had tried to save me

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maybe things would be different

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instead im doing a pill mukbang LMAO

fossil quest Sep 11, 2024, 4:32 PM

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proven glade i’m really sorry but i can’t stick around

why are you talking to us if you've already decided

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clearly a part of you wants to stay on

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 4:32 PM

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because i have no one to talk to

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it’s lonely

fossil quest Sep 11, 2024, 4:32 PM

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ok

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 4:33 PM

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not like i’m looking for someone to beg me to stay or sumn, just want to get my feelings out i suppose

fossil quest Sep 11, 2024, 4:34 PM

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proven glade not like i’m looking for someone to beg me to stay or sumn, just want to get my ...

I think you want someone to persuade you imo

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 4:34 PM

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yeah if they were a friend of mine

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i just want people to see my struggle there’s no use suffering in silence

tropic pecan Sep 11, 2024, 4:35 PM

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so basically you want a friend

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 4:35 PM

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no 😭

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sigh

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i’m just reminiscing on my life and taking people’s opinions

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:37 PM

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someone just asked why i want friends 😭😭🙏

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suicide moment 🔥🔥 (rambling to myself)

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don’t mind me i’m just rambling

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got nothing else to do

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:41 PM

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love ya jay <3

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keep it up

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for me

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:41 PM

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thank you friend

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i mean i’ll keep it up for 2 more days 😭

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:41 PM

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ill exeed that to 3

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then 4

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then a week

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:41 PM

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it can’t

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:41 PM

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..

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:41 PM

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if it isn’t the 13th there’s no reason at all

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the one thing is if i go out it better damn near be perfect

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and poetic

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:42 PM

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wait what, its friday 13

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so really bad lucks

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:42 PM

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indeed

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my best friend’s birthday

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:42 PM

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so that means if you tries you can fails

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if you fail

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it would prolly be good

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like

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i mean

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if you would try and fail

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it would really help you realise

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how much there is in this world

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:44 PM

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mmmm i don’t think so

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i’d probably end up a vegetable

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:44 PM

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man

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:44 PM

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😭😭😭😭

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i’m scared of that happening ngl

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:44 PM

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i could not handle it if you actually did it ngl

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:44 PM

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that and being in a lot of pain

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:44 PM

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proven glade that and being in a lot of pain

i mean

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nvm

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:45 PM

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molten shore i could not handle it if you actually did it ngl

i’m just a strangerrr

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:45 PM

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proven glade i’m just a strangerrr

still

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:45 PM

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but it’s nice to know a stranger cares more abt me than my literal friends ! 😭

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:45 PM

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...

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:45 PM

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i mean it in a genuine way like at least someone does

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:46 PM

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yeah.

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how you trying to do it?

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:46 PM

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lots and lots of my meds

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:46 PM

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mhm

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:46 PM

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and grapefruit

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:46 PM

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why grapes..

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:46 PM

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grapefruit messes with meds

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:47 PM

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alr

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:47 PM

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not recommended to eat it while taking a lot of kinds of medication

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makes od’ing worse

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:47 PM

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proven glade not recommended to eat it while taking a lot of kinds of medication

too late

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:48 PM

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oh boy

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:48 PM

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man, tf is this going to even do to me?

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:48 PM

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you’ll probably be fine

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me on the other hand… 😭

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:49 PM

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imma try the same thing if you do

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:49 PM

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nooo do not do that

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my situation is unique

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:49 PM

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about your friends,

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do they want you dead?

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:50 PM

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feels like it

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they don’t want me dead ofc

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:50 PM

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mhm

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:50 PM

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but they don’t care

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:50 PM

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well

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:50 PM

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they’re not my friends anymore

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if i survive im going to have utterly no one

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:50 PM

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atleast they are not saying that "i wish that ___ would die"

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:50 PM

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i’m tempted to do something more permanent but it scares me

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:51 PM

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alr

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:51 PM

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it’s like idk

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it’s up to the universe, ykwim?

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if i’m meant to live i will

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if i’m not i will die and not regret it

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:52 PM

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i wish i had a gun fr

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:52 PM

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i feel like most people are scared and are looking for a way to not do it but nah i’m READY 😭

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no you don’t

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that was mf scary when i had one

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i’m kinda traumatized tbh

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:52 PM

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i wish i had

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like actually

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:52 PM

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i tried it

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:52 PM

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id bring that mf to school

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:53 PM

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it’s absolutely terrifying

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:53 PM

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and yk

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:53 PM

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HEYYY WOAH

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WOAHHHHHHH

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NAW

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:53 PM

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like actually

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:53 PM

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u would genuinely shoot up ur school?

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:53 PM

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im ready to do it

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they want me dead

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:54 PM

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that’s scary

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:54 PM

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heard them talk abt it

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like ppl in my class

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:55 PM

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i’m sorry about that

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:55 PM

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id actually fkn shoot them

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:56 PM

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nah it’s not worth it

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ruining ur life bc of other people

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being a monster forever

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:57 PM

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proven glade ruining ur life bc of other people

isnt that what your doing

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also'

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:57 PM

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wellllll

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:57 PM

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id leave 1 bullet for the end

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:57 PM

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amongst other reasons

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:57 PM

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proven glade amongst other reasons

same

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 6:58 PM

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double suicide 😍😍😍

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kissing

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kidding

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KIDSING

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KIDDING******

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bro i’m so fr if my one friend texts me i think i won’t do it

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i got 1 and a half days

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let’s seeeee

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 6:59 PM

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proven glade double suicide 😍😍😍

yeh

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always leave the last bullet

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for the end..

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 7:00 PM

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pick urself up bro 😭🙏

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don’t be like that

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school shooters are pathetic losers

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 7:01 PM

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proven glade pick urself up bro 😭🙏

no u

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anyways

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take funny cat to make ur mood better

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nvm

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shit

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cant send ):

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 7:03 PM

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proven glade school shooters are pathetic losers

idgaf

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imma become the 9/11 hijacker then

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 7:04 PM

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bro

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 7:05 PM

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like, why would i care anymore

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 7:06 PM

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well you should at least care enough not to be a mass murderer

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 7:06 PM

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mhm

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anyways

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thats enough venting again

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 7:08 PM

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real

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all i do is vent anymore

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got nothing else

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joy is non existent

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 7:08 PM

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proven glade joy is non existent

real

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 7:10 PM

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ughhhh another person just said i should stay alive for them

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people don’t GET IT.

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there’s no point in staying alive for literal strangers omfg

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makes me mad asf

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 7:11 PM

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):

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 7:18 PM

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sorry friend

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it’s just pointless

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 7:18 PM

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ill just give up then ig

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cant do nothing abt it

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 7:21 PM

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sorry, i didn’t mean u

molten shore Sep 11, 2024, 7:22 PM

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proven glade sorry, i didn’t mean u

am i helping tho?

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dont think so

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 7:23 PM

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Sadge

proven glade Sep 11, 2024, 8:26 PM

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i just realized every one of my problems boils down to my best friend leaving me

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i’m gonna tweak

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imagine having the best friend ever and going to live with them the rest of your life (yes it was casual stfu) and having your whole art worlds be meshed together and write together everyday for them to abandon you 😍😍

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i’d kill myself on their doorstep if i could istg

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god i’m so unbelievably ANGRY

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people complain and complain about the most trivial things, people give up the best things in the world and don't know what it's like to have the singular thing u love be RIPPED from you and forced to continue existing just so people can spectate your misery

#suicide moment 🔥🔥 (rambling to myself)