#should I kms or not?

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leaden sundial
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Dms

gleaming void
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Also my only best friend ditched me because I'm too clingy, she at least wasn't rude to me but I'm really hurt, I've been trying to get a best friend for so long but I got ditched alot, so idk am I not expected to be clingy when I have a best friend because of how much I got ditched and stuff while I see others having best friends or something like I'm the cursed one, I don't feel like life has a purpose anymore, everyone has someone they love alot while I just get left out, and I'm expected to not be clingy

gleaming void
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TW: don't read this if you might get my negative mindset or something, I really don't wanna make innocent people kill themselves or become negative like me or smt, I'll put a spoiler for that

||Update: I think I feel even worse, I feel like even when some people have the same issues as me they get them solved, i litterally heard of a mutual getting back her bf after she cut herself for him leaving her, and I think that just happened in a month and I'm still in the same bad state, idk I think maybe after like 2 years or smt I think they felt like a lifetime, I might be making new close friendships, I don't know tbh it feels like I've did almost nothing after all this effort, so I just ask again should I give up and kms already because I might just be wasting my time on nothing.. I get told I have so much to live for but idk if I really have anything to live for rn..||

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||I think it feels like trying to win a game to get really good rewards but it's feeling more and more impossible because of how much you keep failing and repeating over and over again you would just wanna give up because you be wasting ur time on nothing, or is it really nothing?..||

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||I think I used to fantasize about death and even watch rotting human bodies because it might be my really soon future. I think I also still imagine death and these stuff and watch videos about near death experiences and maybe fantasize about how peaceful it might feel like if I killed myself idk, I'm NOT saying that I actually believe these stuff or smt I just explain my thoughts I think.||

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gleaming void
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I think the only thing keeping me alive rn is some friends that I try get closer to if it's gonna work and maybe the acts of kindness that people in my school give me sometimes.. a little girl in my bus to home was telling me bye like I'm her best friend and it actually touched my heart like maybe she felt that I was in pain..

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and the feeling when I just go outside in the break and sit where the sun will be shining at me and warm me and I semi-sleep or smth

left forge
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hey guy

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if you dont want others not to get your negative mindset dont do it

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if you do it the people you trying to protect from it might get it from the sadness of you being gone

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trust me

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they like you more alive than dead

brazen inlet
# gleaming void ||I think it feels like trying to win a game to get really good rewards but it's...

We live in a society where we're taught failure is a bad thing. It's not.

The more you fail, the more you learn. Even in the times you learn nothing, you become more resilient.

The truth is, the more you fail, the closer you are to the good rewards. The more permanent levels you gain instead of just temporary powerups.

Yes, some people get rewards with temporary power ups. But most of the time they don't last. They lose the rewards over time.

Think of failures as a maze map and knowing where all the potholes are.

The person who hadn't failed doesn't know where they are. They'll run into them eventually.

The person who has failed a lot can speedrun it even if they had to start from scratch, again and again. They finish it in record time.

left forge
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thank you for speaking with gamerlanguage

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i understand that

gleaming void
gleaming void
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Srry