Feelings and life meaning ig

[sterile light]

So i feel like i dont know what i want or what i want to do in life and i feel like it discourages me from having friends because i dont think i want to be like them. I also feel desensitized from emotions, the first time i cried in quite a few years was tonight. I usually never respond with emotions to things, no matter how bad the news are. I guess my question is what am i supposed to like and want? i know the answer is "whatever you get happiness from" but thats the thing, i dont

[past jetty]

It’s not unusual to feel uncertain about what you want in your life. You’re not alone in this. I want to assure you that it's okay to not have everything figured out. Many people go through this, and it's a part of your journey to find what brings meaning to your life.

It sounds like you've been having difficulty connecting with your emotions.

Can you please elaborate on your concerns that might discourage you from having friends?

[sterile light]

most of them (my old friends (just changed school)) try to be "cool", and i find it kinda pathetic but then i also think like, what kind of people do i even want as friends? like 99% of my countries tradition for teenagers is being as they are but i dont just wanna comply

[stoic rampart]

i was kinda same like u, like bro its like money what u should want to be not dependent on others and do what u feel connected to good people and try to avoid not so good people