Yesterday, I experienced my worst. One time, We had a surprise quiz, and with every question that our teacher was telling us, we couldn't hear or understand what she was saying resulting in her being slowly annoyed by our continuous questions. I asked if she could repeat what she said and she told me that it was a stupid question of me in a straightforward way. On my side, I'm one of those sensitive people to is easily affected by words but I couldn't do anything but to just remain silent and barely talk in that class. One time we were supposed to practice singing a song for our mass next Friday as a class, my friend asked me if I could fix my form of holding my phone cuz he couldn't see it. I was telling him to just come beside me but he kept resisting until my other friend poked my shoulder for no reason. After the session, I asked him why he did that to me and he said I wasn't focusing. But I tried to explain it to him and he interrupted me by saying "It's alright, it's over anyway". Deep down, I was annoyed by the fact I just wanted to explain my side and to be understood too. After the entire class, I had a basketball practice to go to and it felt nothing but the usual routine because I wasn't given the chance to try the drills that they were doing. To make that practice different. I have this schoolmate who was a year older than me, I opened up to him about whether to try my best in the varsity next year and he was a bit surprised that that is also the same year he's finishing his time in the school. But all I really wanna say is that, I'm just afraid to be judged by other people. He did respond and cheered me up abt it and I couldn't really do anything but force myself not to tear up. Following the day, I tripped myself whilst trying to catch the ball and I ended up having a wound in my left knee. My earplug case came missing and forgetting to talk to my dad about having a practice. It was all a draining day and I'm hoping to be understand someday.
#wishing to be understood
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Yesterday, I experienced my worst. One time, We had a surprise quiz, and with ev...
It's not easy to write stuff like this, especially online for other people to see!
You should be proud of yourself for being able to express yourself like this. 👏
I personally can't relate to most of the things you went through unfortunately so I feel anything I comment would be silly. I hope someone who can responds to you! 😊
But I can relate to being afraid of being judged by other people.
Can you think of a time in your life where you were not afraid to be judged? When you were younger? What changed? Usually knowing what caused the change helps us realize something about ourselves.