toxic prism Jan 9, 2025, 2:50 AM

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Jim

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toxic prism Jan 9, 2025, 9:38 AM

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Took some gym pics

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Me in gym

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Vs When going home

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Also I took some pics of the Cafeteria's food

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Feast yo eyes

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toxic prism Jan 9, 2025, 10:08 AM

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I feel a lot of pain broski

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Physically

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Gym

toxic prism Jan 9, 2025, 1:07 PM

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I need to Make a fkin Time Table

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Buddy

trim whale Jan 9, 2025, 1:55 PM

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dang

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you love to see the self-improvement

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safety bro

toxic prism Jan 9, 2025, 2:02 PM

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trim whale safety bro

Yes sir I do

toxic prism Jan 9, 2025, 2:02 PM

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trim whale you love to see the self-improvement

Meant to reply to this

trim whale Jan 9, 2025, 2:04 PM

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toxic prism Meant to reply to this

no worries

toxic prism Jan 9, 2025, 3:11 PM

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You go down just like holy mary

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Mary on a

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Mary on a cross

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If I ever open this server it will only be to write in here

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I don't wanna

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Talk with people

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They make me feel alienated

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But I shouldn't care

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I am so twisted

toxic prism Jan 10, 2025, 2:47 AM

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Day 3

toxic prism Jan 10, 2025, 3:20 AM

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toxic prism Jan 10, 2025, 9:26 AM

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toxic prism Jan 10, 2025, 10:33 AM

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Some photographs I took

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trim whale Jan 10, 2025, 12:23 PM

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toxic prism

looks like day 3000 to me! go you!

toxic prism Jan 10, 2025, 12:51 PM

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trim whale looks like day 3000 to me! go you!

Thanks buddy

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I feel so tired oof

toxic prism Jan 10, 2025, 3:55 PM

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toxic prism Jan 10, 2025, 4:17 PM

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Gym pic

toxic prism Jan 11, 2025, 7:17 AM

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Yo

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Day 4 of Gym

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dusky laurel Jan 11, 2025, 9:18 AM

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Send me a dm

toxic prism Jan 11, 2025, 9:19 AM

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dusky laurel Send me a dm

Buddy I don't need help

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Thanks for asking

trim whale Jan 11, 2025, 9:23 AM

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toxic prism

consistency is consisten-key!

toxic prism Jan 11, 2025, 9:24 AM

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trim whale consistency is consisten-key!

Indeed

trim whale Jan 11, 2025, 9:24 AM

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i gotta start going back as well, haha...just been busy with a lotta stuff so i havent found the time

toxic prism Jan 11, 2025, 9:27 AM

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trim whale i gotta start going back as well, haha...just been busy with a lotta stuff so i ...

You will 🫂

toxic prism Jan 12, 2025, 4:49 PM

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Went to watch a movie

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It was fun

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First time watching movie in theatre/cinema

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Back to normal life

toxic prism Jan 13, 2025, 9:05 AM

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Delicious Food

toxic prism Jan 13, 2025, 9:27 AM

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Day 5 of Gym

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Day 5 of Uni

toxic prism Jan 13, 2025, 3:06 PM

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Time Table Monday - Friday

6:00 AM - 7:00 AM

: Wake up, Breakfast, and Get Ready

Wake up, freshen up, have breakfast, and prepare for the day.

7:00 AM - 9:00 AM

: Gym

Dedicated gym session.

9:00 AM - 9:30 AM

: Shower and Quick Break

Freshen up after the gym.

9:30 AM - 10:00 AM

: Prepare for Uni

Gather materials and prepare for your classes.

10:00 AM - 1:00 PM

: Uni (AI Application and Fundamentals)

Focus on your university classes.

1:00 PM - 2:00 PM

: Lunch / Break

Relax and have lunch.

2:00 PM - 4:00 PM

: Cybersecurity Study

Study cybersecurity topics or work on related projects.

4:00 PM - 5:30 PM

: AI Study at Home

Dedicate time to studying AI topics, reviewing class materials, or working on AI-related projects.

5:30 PM - 6:00 PM

: Break

Take a short break to relax and recharge.

6:00 PM - 7:00 PM

: Dinner / Break

Enjoy dinner and unwind.

7:00 PM - 9:00 PM

: Cybersecurity Study or Exam Preparation

Use this time for additional cybersecurity study or focus on preparing for exams.

9:00 PM - 10:00 PM

: Review Day / Wind Down

Review the day's work, plan for tomorrow, and relax before bed.

toxic prism Jan 13, 2025, 6:38 PM

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Sigh

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Good night

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I am dumb

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Great I can't sleep now

raven echo Jan 13, 2025, 8:53 PM

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I dont mean this is in a rude way but does keeping a journal here help? Like with ur mental health?

toxic prism Jan 14, 2025, 12:42 AM

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raven echo I dont mean this is in a rude way but does keeping a journal here help? Like wit...

You can write down your wandering thoughts , you don't have to talk to anyone else or vent to someone else .

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You can track your habits

toxic prism Jan 14, 2025, 2:38 AM

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Day 6

toxic prism Jan 14, 2025, 6:22 AM

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toxic prism Jan 15, 2025, 9:17 AM

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Couldn't go gym in morning

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Day 7 of uni

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toxic prism Jan 16, 2025, 6:22 AM

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Day 8 of Uni

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Day 8 of gym

toxic prism Jan 16, 2025, 10:24 AM

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Yesterday I didn't go to gym in morning so had to give myself a lil punishment

toxic prism Jan 16, 2025, 2:09 PM

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toxic prism Jan 17, 2025, 4:55 PM

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Day 9 of Gym and Uni

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toxic prism Jan 17, 2025, 6:56 PM

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2 machines pwned today

toxic prism Jan 18, 2025, 5:50 AM

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toxic prism Jan 18, 2025, 12:48 PM

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I've been needing this journal less because I have been busy all day this whole month and will be next month because of finals . My friends on the other hand enjoyed the vacation which I could too . But I think I am trying to put my feet in everything and it's causing me to burn out

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My sleep cycle has been ruined

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I don't feel things

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I feel needy of people

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I need to break through this

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I should not be dependent or needy of anyone

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They always end up the same

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Why doesn't it get better

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Why do I always have to look down

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I feel awful

toxic prism Jan 19, 2025, 9:32 AM

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My honest reaction to all this

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https://tenor.com/view/my-honest-reaction-kumala-la-kumala-la-savesta-kumala-my-honest-gif-26073681

Tenor

prime rivet Jan 20, 2025, 5:34 AM

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I understand that relying on others can be challenging, and it's natural to feel uncertain about your worth at times. Life presents us with unexpected challenges, and our mental health can fluctuate, making everything feel overwhelming. But from our conversations and what I've seen in you, I want to emphasize that you are truly a kind and good person. It's important to hold onto the idea that, despite any imperfections or struggles you face, you still possess inherent value. Your worth doesn't diminish based on others' perceptions; it remains constant, no matter what. Remember, you are deserving of compassion and understanding, both from yourself and those around you.

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As I reflect on my personal journey, I recognize the importance of divine influences, represented by various gods and goddesses, in providing solace and comfort within our lives. It is essential for individuals to experience authentic happiness, particularly in the face of life’s challenges and adversities. It is my sincere hope that through their guidance, individuals will soon encounter more favorable circumstances in their lives.

toxic prism Jan 20, 2025, 9:37 AM

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prime rivet I understand that relying on others can be challenging, and it's natural to feel...

Thanks dude

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I appreciate you

prime rivet Jan 20, 2025, 9:39 AM

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You're very welcome, my dear friend! I sincerely wish for you that hope is just on the horizon, waiting patiently for you to discover it. It lurks somewhere in the vast expanse of the universe, like a gentle breeze, ready to embrace you and bring light to your journey. Keep your heart open; you never know when it might reveal itself.

toxic prism Jan 20, 2025, 11:47 AM

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I did My Bench Pr

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70Kgs

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Les go

toxic prism Jan 21, 2025, 10:10 AM

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Something feels off

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Idk how to explain it

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I love everyone of you

toxic prism Jan 23, 2025, 4:38 PM

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Dude i have test tomorrow

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i need to study

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but i am sleepy lmao

toxic prism Jan 25, 2025, 11:35 AM

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I haven't skipped a single day of gym or uni

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I feel a bit burnt out tho

toxic prism Jan 25, 2025, 1:47 PM

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Did 180Kg Leg Press Today

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Around 396 Pounds

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x6

toxic prism Jan 28, 2025, 1:51 PM

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120Kgs Deadlift

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My Pr

toxic prism Jan 28, 2025, 2:49 PM

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I am sad

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But it's fine

toxic prism Jan 29, 2025, 2:42 PM

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Random Vent

I become a person with no energy at all when I realise how bad of a situation I have . Then it's really hard for me to cheer up . And i usually try to push away people or stay out of contact for a while to spend some time alone. I have not yet found a solution to fix the problems I have, it's usually in my family but I am not helpful enough to them .

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Thinking about this makes me sad and angry as well but these emotions are of no help until I have some real solution

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But the feeling of guilt gets me everytime

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That i am not enough and I am not good enough

toxic prism Jan 30, 2025, 9:48 AM

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So , I was sitting with my thoughts and came to a conclusion. I need to work on myself like real good

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And I have been chasing

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And looking at how others have been doing well

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But I need to do it aswell rather than just appreciating it

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I can't be wandering all over and then at the end say , "I have done nothing for myself" , I have to improve myself and i have to work on myself. We alone can work on ourselves, nobody else would and why would they .

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Taking decisions which will actually effect my life and not just the moment am living in .

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To gain something I will also have to lose something

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And i think I have seen enough, enjoyed enough

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It's time to become the best

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I will think this through and will come up with a decision till the end of the day . That what goes out of my life right from tomorrow and what stays

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It's not that people don't like me

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It's just that I have nothing much to offer

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And I need to work on that

toxic prism Jan 30, 2025, 9:55 AM

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toxic prism It's just that I have nothing much to offer

Be it social skills or any other things

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It's time for me to lock in

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No FOMO is going to stop me from now on

#Journal