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[potent badge]

Ive been planning this out for weeks now. I’m considering killing myself somewhere in August. No, i dont want any e-therapists to tell me it will be okay, things will change, it’s will get better etc etc. Its been like that for years, ive made a decision. Well, it may not work, but i wish it does.
Im just tired of living in this rotten hell called society. The loneliness and all the depression since i was a kid really affected me and my life. I guess i could say that i never received love. Not even from my own family. The only thing that kept me going was hope that it will get better, but oh well, it never did, never will. Honestly i never thought it would turn out like this, i always had high hopes for my future as a kid. I always believed, that maybe as i grow someone will love me and i wont suffer from loneliness every fkn day of the week. I wish i was already dead, instead of making this message, the suffering would end quicker. I don’t thank anyone for being there for me, no one ever had helped me through tough times or showed me simple care and love. I just want to get over all of this, i simply have no future. The scars, the mental illness, depression etc. wont get me anywhere in life. I choose to give up. Thats the only option. Thanks for anyone who reads this

[rugged vale]

The Pain The Suffering The Loniness... I Feel You. I Sometimes Ask The Question To How Much Longer?

But The Answer Is Simple That Every Suffering Has A Reason It Comes. I Know You Have Gone Through Alot And Now Have Started To Think To End It Thinking My Life Is Terrible And Look At Others How Much Better They Are Living Then Me. There Was A Very Beautiful Quote "A Smooth Sea Never Made A Skilled Sailor". Thats When I Finally Had The Answer To My Question That The Most Miserable People Are Those Who Are Living At Ease And The People Who Are In Better Condition Then Them Are The Ones Living Hardship. The Only Thing That Remains Is What Will You Choose To Be? @potent badge

1- Either You Become Depressed Like A Little Boy Over It And Absolutely Nothing Changes.

2- Or You Can Either Choose To Face You Problems Head On.

I Have Choosen My Choice And Now It Is Time For You To Choose.

[stray gull]

Dont kill your self $

your a funny guy broksi

also ill miss you mark

[potent badge]

Thanks for the effort and such a beautiful message, but the decision is made.🙃

Oh he left

[stray gull]

pls dont $

[potent badge]

Nah

[shadow orchid]

no dont bro

who else is gonna help me w logrithmics

ur chill

[potent badge]

Someone whos smart💯

[shadow orchid]

yea ur smart bud

pls sigma

dont

[potent badge]

Sarcasm wouldn’t stop the suicide i planned for weeks😭

[elfin grail]

Yet you're reaching out for help, so you'd prefer to have a better life than to end it, right?

The saying "Other people are worse off" doesn't hold much water when you're in a sucky situation, but it does make the point that life being "better" or "worse" is a sliding scale. We can't control the actions of the people around us, but we can shape ourselves into the person we'd like to be

[night raptor]

I know that I can’t do nothing to help you since I don’t know you, but, I’ll miss you. Even if we haven’t interacted. You seem like a great person.

[shadow orchid]

chat pls dont like im not trying to be sarcastic, like idk how to say it more emotionally so i try and like lighten up the mood. but i can tell ur a good person

[elfin grail]

I wouldn't claim to be an "e-therapist" or, frankly, all that smart, but I think I have some perspective to offer. Would you be willing to vc?

[potent badge]

Trust me, im like the worst person known to man

😭

[shadow orchid]

how

[potent badge]

Thanks ❤️‍🩹

[elfin grail]

idk man, these two things don't usually go together

You're probably a fine dude

[potent badge]

What

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[shadow orchid]

guarentee theres worse things bro like everyone makes like bad mistakaes nd stuff

[elfin grail]

I communicate better in vc, but basically I would consider bad people to be folks that don't consider the well being of others in their actions. You putting a crying face after saying you're the worst person known to man already shows more capacity for empathy than any frat bro I've encounted in college

[potent badge]

So youre assuming that a crying emoji has anything to do with my well being?

[elfin grail]

I assumed it meant you don't like the way you perceive yourself

[potent badge]

I was saying that im a bad person, i did bad things and i mostly hate myself

[elfin grail]

I don't know you, so you might be right. Whether you're a good person or a bad person doesn't change the fact that, at your age, you can still become someone better

[shadow orchid]

babes everyone does bad things and ik how hard it is and especially for yourself but you also have to realize thats humane. unless you like chucked a baby with progeria from a 5 story building then maybe thats super bad. but i genuinely dont think youre a bad person. it takes time to forgive yourself and heal

[potent badge]

At my age, I experienced things i didnt even see anyone experiencing in movies

[potent badge]

Thanks, but that doesnt change my views on myself❤️‍🩹

[elfin grail]

The past is the past, nothing you can do about it. What your future looks like is entirely up to you, though

[shadow orchid]

do u wanna dm me and talk abt it

i can help w like perspective

yk

[potent badge]

Thanks for all the care. really. I respect people like you, who try to help. But internet wont save me. I need to get help in real life, which actually might change something. Not by talking to people on the internet who i just met.

[shadow orchid]

and its a good thing u realize you would want help in real life