chilly narwhal
decided to start a journal here!
tw: alcohol
ive been having a lot of memories which were hidden away brought back up in the recent months. mostly about my dad, who was an alcoholic and had severe anger issues. i haven't seen him in a couple years now, but he used to show up unannounced at our house after my mom had left him, which was very distressing. he was often yelling and slamming doors and whatnot, its resulted in me being very sensitive to loud noises now it got better for a year or so, but recently it's getting worse again. sometimes even just the car door closing sends a spike of anxiety though me. ive also been suffering with being around alcohol, mainly if people are drinking it, which poses an issue as im in university, and people seem to drink quite often. being around people who are drinking has ben tough, as i just worry they'll act like my father.
crisp ruin
