idk however mental help is going

[dapper haven]

So far over the course of 3 months ive been diagnosed with depression and not much else has been done. ||Hot lines kinda suck tbh if i were truly suicidal I'm sure I wouldn't be here anymore or id have at least 1 attempt on me||.
||appointment after appointment with the hospital and seemingly no end to it ||
|| an attempt is becoming glaringly more tempting each day as it may just actually get the help i want||

[hybrid lark]

hey it takes time it really does i am very proud of u that u have a therapist but this can take time so trust the process and try to have fun

[dapper haven]

I havent checked this in a while but im not proud

Ive only grown to hate the system more

And want to go through with that plan i suppose i just need to find a way

To do so

[hybrid lark]

@dapper haven bro ik u can do it i belive in u ik the system is fucked but that does not mean you will fall to it you can do it ik it

[dapper haven]

i tried

to self harm by overdosing but the medicine was weak

the person on the other end of the phone didnt rly care but ig i just need to attempt better

next time

[dapper haven]

[vast pagoda]

Everyone goes through tough times when they feel depressed. Mine was the first year of college. What you need to do is enumerate all the things that you actually enjoy, and try to let go of the thoughts that get you down. Get out and explore and learn new things, meet people, or join clubs to keep you occupied rather than sitting around an feeling depressed. Anything that you don't have negitive thoughts about, try it, then reflect on that experience. Learn new things. The things that you have never experienced may just be your life's inspiration. Change things up a little. Don't let yourself get bored just sitting alone. At the very least go out for a hike and explore the nature around you. Use your time to find yourself rather than feeling sad. Challenge yourself and explore everything new. One of those experiences may become a future passion.

[dapper haven]

im fine ish now and i do go outside kinda bold assumption ngl

ive just been depressed most of my life