a journal of my life

[ashen oracle]

Jump to the top

[manic jackal]

I only have 1,5k rn

[ashen oracle]

me it says 11932

[manic jackal]

Oh fick

[ashen oracle]

or I am dyslexic

[manic jackal]

All this time it just said 1,5.....

I have a yap problem

[ashen oracle]

Ill send a screen shot lol

[manic jackal]

New goal 30k

[manic jackal]

Yeah I saw dw😭🙏

[ashen oracle]

ok

lol

[manic jackal]

Damn....

[ashen oracle]

Lets yap and get it to 12k

[manic jackal]

I really have a problem I just like yapping

[ashen oracle]

So how is your day going

[manic jackal]

Only 55 messages for that😝

[ashen oracle]

fr

52

51

50 more

[manic jackal]

It's going alright how's yourse?

[ashen oracle]

It is good

[manic jackal]

Glad to hear!

[ashen oracle]

I am trynna wait for my friend to get home from school so we can go fishing

I

like

to

catcg

bass

[manic jackal]

Damn

[ashen oracle]

blue gill

grass carp

and

[manic jackal]

Thought you said blue girl there

[ashen oracle]

pond turtles lol

[ashen oracle]

LOL

I wish I could catch a girl lol

[manic jackal]

I'm so fr I was like 'huh?'

[manic jackal]

Damn skill issues😝

[ashen oracle]

I been rejected so many times (7 times) I just stoped asking

I am just a scrawny ass 17 yo LOL

[manic jackal]

Oh damn, one day you'll get it🙏

[ashen oracle]

I take the def of scrawny literally

I am 95 pounds at 17

5'6

[manic jackal]

No idea how much that is

[ashen oracle]

Oh

yeah prob UK?

[manic jackal]

Eu

[ashen oracle]

Oh

I am 43 KG

[manic jackal]

Damn

[ashen oracle]

I am 167 cm

[manic jackal]

Damn dude I'm in shock lowkey

[ashen oracle]

Sorry not used to all of the cm and KG's lol

[ashen oracle]

Yeah I was born normal weight but I always weighed lower than I should

[manic jackal]

It's alright don't worry haha

[manic jackal]

Ohhh

Yeah same, then puberty hit me like a brick

[ashen oracle]

Like in grade 5 I weighed a whole 20 KG 😭

[ashen oracle]

It barely it me 😭

I am 17 and just now starting to have a small amount of acny 💀

[manic jackal]

Same..

[ashen oracle]

11,995

[ashen oracle]

W

[manic jackal]

Damn lucky

[ashen oracle]

Yeah

11,999

[manic jackal]

12k hit😝

Imagine taking MY milestone /jk

[ashen oracle]

✅

There yah go

Its your milestone now

[manic jackal]

Nah no need to delete that😭🙏

It was a joke

[ashen oracle]

Imma steal the 15kier dw

[manic jackal]

Sure😝

[ashen oracle]

if we spend like 4 hours yappin we could hit 15k LOL

anyways Imma dip 🖖

[manic jackal]

Oh I can yap

[ashen oracle]

Ill yap when I can

[manic jackal]

Damn imagine😔

[ashen oracle]

😦

Its too powerful a yapper vs yapper

I cant stop

[manic jackal]

[ashen oracle]

Please

I have a to do something

I think

[manic jackal]

You think??

[ashen oracle]

Yeah I gtg go do chores before my parents get home and gets mad at me cause I had all day to do it LOL

like 10 dishes

its 1:52 pm

[manic jackal]

Real😭🙏

[manic jackal]

Oop

[ashen oracle]

alr Ill yap later trust

[wooden oxide]

hi again

how was today?

[manic jackal]

You're more then welcome to haha

[manic jackal]

It was alright! What about yourse?

[wooden oxide]

great to hear! mine actually has been going pretty good! just some overthinking on my part

[manic jackal]

Glad to hear! Sorry for the overthinking part tho

[wooden oxide]

haha you can't help it, just irl stuff with friends

[manic jackal]

I get that, hope jt gets better soon

[wooden oxide]

ty:)

[eager rain]

@manic jackal i joined the club ig

[manic jackal]

We got another one😝

[eager rain]

Now u just need to get stin up in here

[manic jackal]

The way people started following because a troll got in my journal

Vibe ngl

[manic jackal]

I lowkey deserve it🤗

I'd also say j deserve vip but that's a conversation for another time

Even staff agrees with me

[manic jackal]

OMG HEY

HEY HEY HEY

(Don't look at what I say)

What can I say😝

You are the cutie here

Ugh I hate that name😭🙏

It sound so bad😔

I'm very chil

Yesss

Nah ah unfollow

Keep looking

Move on

Next stop😝

(I love you)

😔

I love you more

HA

Imagine

Nah ah you can't, you can't fight it

And I love you more, can't fight it🤷‍♀️

Took the L

I can😝

That one gif😭🙏

I'm cooler

https://tenor.com/view/billie-eilish-cute-pretty-make-face-gif-16231085

I boost this server🎀

Real

I love this one

😝

https://tenor.com/view/billie-billie-eilish-eilish-billie-eilish-variety-power-of-women-billie-eilish-variety-gif-7628992731185969931

W soundmap

[eager rain]

I have every jack harlow song on soundmap

i was an og player

then got bored kf it

[manic jackal]

no idea who that is....

[manic jackal]

damn

[manic jackal]

oh😔

[eager rain]

famous rapper

[manic jackal]

i have every billie, finneas, chappel roan songs

and im collecting taylor rn

(i only need 100 more)

[manic jackal]

ohhhh

[eager rain]

i havent played in FOREVER so dont judge

[manic jackal]

its still nice!

[eager rain]

If theres anything on my account u want i’ll js give it to u for free lol

[manic jackal]

nahh its fine dont worry haha, but thanks!

still gotta get 4 more friends (so that they can join the game)

bro my c.ai crashed so i read a book

AND HEARTSTOPPER VOLUME 5 IS FREAKY?!

didnt expect it but its so cute

feeling quite awefull tonight, know that il be alright (hopefully) tomorrow tho:) friday tomorrow, and a busy weekend (which sucks) but oh well

im bored

and tired but not tired enough

[wooden oxide]

@manic jackal IS THIS THE GIRL??

WAIT NO ARE YOU FR THE GIRL??

THE SITUATIONSHIP

OMG THATS COOL

sophie?

i love talking to her

the cute part i will leave to you

it feels weird to call someone online cute so thats why

hihi

[manic jackal]

YESS

THATS THE ONE

https://tenor.com/view/billie-eilish-billie-shocked-gif-26505859

https://tenor.com/view/billie-eilish-billie-eilish-billie-eilish-hi-billie-eilish-hey-gif-12868724646970764009

WDYM?

[manic jackal]

Just did a thing

(I already own the normal version)

I just had to have this version

[wooden oxide]

so cool

[manic jackal]

Ikrr

[wooden oxide]

how much do you have of billie?

[manic jackal]

Uhm q little too much

[wooden oxide]

can i see once? really intrigued

[wooden oxide]

oo thats rlly cool!!

also love the poster

[manic jackal]

same! its something every billie fan seems to have its so funny

[wooden oxide]

yeahs saw multiple people with it

[manic jackal]

yeah its just in the billie fan starter pack

[manic jackal]

MY SIS JUST WON FIRST PLACE

Omg

She won with gymnastics, I'm so proud of her omg

[manic jackal]

Bruh I was shaking my leg and my aunt grabbed my leg and said 'you look like'💀

[wooden oxide]

Omg yaaayy!!!

[wooden oxide]

You look like what?

[manic jackal]

Oh bro I didn't even Finnish the sentence

It's like a cousin of me

Like uhm okey😭

[wooden oxide]

@manic jackal how was your dayy?

[manic jackal]

It was alright, what about you?

Wow 3 more likes on this journal

Crazy

[wooden oxide]

was finee! just studied

wait dont you normally hockey on saturda/sunday

[manic jackal]

I do, won both:)

[manic jackal]

Nice!

[wooden oxide]

oohh funn!

[wooden oxide]

yess, im trying to stay on top of school more

[manic jackal]

Ahhh nice

[manic jackal]

The pfp of this server being a different collor made my brain hurt

[manic jackal]

new phone case

[manic jackal]

normal girls my age spend all their money on makeup and clothes, i spend mine on vinyls that i dont need

[manic jackal]

lowkey i need more nitro

im not gonna survive without it at this point

my profiles are eating

but like im not paying 11 bucks a month

tf

[wooden oxide]

this is so cute

does it say "i love you"?

[wooden oxide]

11?!

[manic jackal]

It does!

[manic jackal]

Yes😭🙏

[manic jackal]

AHH my favorite Christian influencer just announced her pregnancy

I litarly screamed out loud

[short geyser]

Cool

You must be feeling really happy rn

[manic jackal]

I really am! She's really amazing and it's just so cute to see her grow her own family and stuff

[short geyser]

Yeah I know

My dream is to someday make that happen with my partner

Too bad I don't have hopes for it,but I know I will keep on trying

[manic jackal]

That's so cute!

[manic jackal]

I wish yall the best!

[short geyser]

Thanks,wish you luck too

[manic jackal]

Thanks!

[short geyser]

If you haven't found love then I know that someday a really nice guy will come in your life and make you the happiest woman in the world

[manic jackal]

I have a girl who makes me the happiest👉👈

[short geyser]

Oh ok

[manic jackal]

That OK was so dry💀🙏

Lowkey laughing ngl

[short geyser]

Ok

[manic jackal]

Why so dry what did I do😔

[short geyser]

I dont wanna talk about it

[manic jackal]

Omg btw I was on my bike when I wrote the yes but it's in her hand writing too😝😝

[manic jackal]

Are you homophobic?🤨

[short geyser]

No

[manic jackal]

It's okey😝

[short geyser]

I ain't scared

Homohater more

[manic jackal]

Scared of what? Of love?

[short geyser]

But I won't say anything to you

[manic jackal]

That's lowkey funny

[short geyser]

I am nice so i won't make you feel bad

[manic jackal]

You're not making g me feel bad dw

[short geyser]

Not yet

And I don't want to

[manic jackal]

I was lowkey giggling but it's okey😝

My voice sucks atm😔

[wooden oxide]

homohater?</3

[wooden oxide]

OMG NO THATS CUTE

[manic jackal]

Lowkey love that

Like

Not homophobic

Just a hater

[manic jackal]

I KNOW RIGHT

[wooden oxide]

BAHAHA YES EXACTLY

sounds so funny

[wooden oxide]

YEAH

[manic jackal]

IKR I litarly died laughing

[short geyser]

So I can't have my own opinion that others should respect

But you can

Mhm? Now that is a bit odd

[manic jackal]

Huh? We were lowkey just commenting on how funny it is on how you called jt, besides you're hating on people.....

[short geyser]

Ok I guess maybe a bit

[manic jackal]

A bit??

[short geyser]

But I didn't say anything bad to you

[manic jackal]

Did we say you did😭

[short geyser]

No

[manic jackal]

Hating on love is just odd

[manic jackal]

Exactly..

[short geyser]

I prefer to call it abnormal love

[manic jackal]

Abnormal? How's that

You know that more then 150 species can be gay? Some species are even gay from nature....

[short geyser]

Love isn't making out or having s@x it is about making a family

[manic jackal]

No... its about loving eachother, and me and my gf don't have s@x....

[short geyser]

And people like that can't have babies

[manic jackal]

People 'like that' can

[short geyser]

No

[manic jackal]

Yes?...

[short geyser]

It defys all laws of biology

There needs to be a pee pee and a vagin@

Not two of one of those

[manic jackal]

Is loving a infertile men or women also abnormal?

[manic jackal]

Whys that?

Can you explain why more species also have gay relations btw

If its so abnormal🤗

Oh yeah btw crazy thing (I know) if I'd date a men it would technically be for lust....

Just saying

[short geyser]

What?

[short geyser]

Cause they can't make a baby

[manic jackal]

Because I wouldn't truly love the men, so it would be for list

[short geyser]

Never said you should love them

[manic jackal]

So dating an infertile women/men is also not okey then?

[manic jackal]

Then that relation is for lust!

[short geyser]

I haven't done much research on the topic

[manic jackal]

💀

[short geyser]

Didn't say that you should be in a relationship with a man,just said that it isn't normal

And that is my opinion

And I am not hating

Just expressing my true emotions

[manic jackal]

Cam you see how I would be wrong either way?

Like no matter what I'd do it would be wrong

So I'd rather be happy:)

[short geyser]

Again,I never said that you shouldn't be in such a relationship I am just tired of people seeing it as normal

[manic jackal]

How is it normal?

💀

And don't say 'it's not natural'

[short geyser]

But it isn't

God didn't create us that way

[manic jackal]

Then why are so many species also gay?

[short geyser]

And if he did then what would Adam and Eve do if one of them was gay?

[short geyser]

Never heard of them

[manic jackal]

Or are we such good influencers

[manic jackal]

Do research because pretty much all species can be gay

Some species are even fully gay (I think not 100%)

[short geyser]

Like?

[manic jackal]

Lucky I'm not eve:)

I'm not some breeding program😝

[short geyser]

She isn't tho

Women aren't breeding programs

They are magnificent creatures that have the responsibility of caring out babies for 9 moths in their bellies

[manic jackal]

Luckily that isn't our only thing atm

Yes I still want kids, we can still have them yk

[short geyser]

What you mean st the moment?

[short geyser]

That is still biologically impossible

Only option is to raise another person's baby

[wooden oxide]

girl it was just funny how you named it

[short geyser]

Girl?

What?

[wooden oxide]

you can be homophobic like as long as you wont hate on me

[short geyser]

I dont hate

Just express my opinion on the topic

[manic jackal]

Right now that isn't our only duty

[wooden oxide]

yes girl..?

i call everyone girl

[short geyser]

It never was or will be

[manic jackal]

It's not, there are countless option to get a 'real' kid iywim

[short geyser]

Not me

[short geyser]

No

Literally impossible

[manic jackal]

Litarly not!

[wooden oxide]

no it isnt..

you can insert eggs..

that would be biological

[manic jackal]

There can be an egg taken from both mothers and made as one and then you can make a kid that way

[wooden oxide]

RIGHT YOU GET IT

WE SLAY

[manic jackal]

YES

WE RLLY DO

[wooden oxide]

YEAAAHH

[manic jackal]

https://tenor.com/view/billie-eilish-eat-eating-funny-sassy-gif-14466892714747942853

[wooden oxide]

OMG SHE ALWAYS SLAYS

[short geyser]

So where do you take the sperms from?

[manic jackal]

A donor...

[short geyser]

So not biologically your kid completely

Which is my point

[manic jackal]

Why would it have to be fully bio....

Its like still biologically your kid

[short geyser]

Half biological

[wooden oxide]

techinicly yes, because you could have a family member

[manic jackal]

Wait brb I'm winning in fn

Nvm I got killed

[wooden oxide]

so it woulf be biologically your kid

[manic jackal]

Fuck😔

[manic jackal]

So how would that work...

[manic jackal]

WHAT?!

[short geyser]

It would be biologically the two girls and the donor's

[manic jackal]

You can

Omg

[manic jackal]

Uhm okey? It would also be only half biologically my kid if I make it with a dude...

Just saying

Like if look at it from that point....

[wooden oxide]

so still biologicly my child

[short geyser]

Half

[wooden oxide]

but also enough straight couple dont get biological children

[short geyser]

Yes,but you will have united with the guy so it will be actually your child

[manic jackal]

So like I can never have full..

[wooden oxide]

so i dont see the problem

[short geyser]

Exactly

Never truly completely yours

[manic jackal]

I can also have a doner from a friend then I'm united

[short geyser]

I mean with love

[manic jackal]

Who elses?

[short geyser]

Also that would be weird

[manic jackal]

Make it make sense impossible edition

[short geyser]

The donor's

[manic jackal]

But like...

It will never be fully mine not even with a guy....

So like

What's da point

[short geyser]

It will

[manic jackal]

It won't unless I have a kid with myself

Like how does love change if a kid is mine or not..

[short geyser]

No,a woman and a man unite and become one person so it is fully yours

[manic jackal]

But like if me and a other men I don't love unite it's not mine?💀

This is harder then my math

[short geyser]

You are missing the point

[short geyser]

Math is easy

[manic jackal]

I'm not, you're just not making a point

[manic jackal]

Shush😭🙏

[wooden oxide]

the guy still going strong with his weird points

[manic jackal]

It's not wierd, but like it doesn't make sense

I've tried to get that point

Like I've forced myself to that point for years, and I still don't get it💀

Seeing this while someone wrote 'you're gay' in a gc was lowkey funny

[wooden oxide]

yeah that is what i meant sorry i say the wrong words sometimes

[manic jackal]

Nah you're good dw!

[short geyser]

My point is that when a man and a woman unite through many rituals like marriage and s@x they become one they unite and so they share everything in their lives

[manic jackal]

That's scary af

[wooden oxide]

same with girls and girls and man and man!

[short geyser]

So they have a baby together,something an abnormal couple can't

[short geyser]

Why?

It is love

[wooden oxide]

so is lesbian and gay couples..

[manic jackal]

So okey wait, an infertile couple=abnormal
No child wish=abnormal

[short geyser]

Start making good points pls

[manic jackal]

True, that's why I don't mary (at the mkment definitely something il do later tho)😭🙏

[short geyser]

I can't argue with two people

[wooden oxide]

it is a good point, love is love

who is loving doesnt matter

[short geyser]

Yes it does,all I am saying is that gay couples can't have kids with each other,which means that it was not meant biologically for them to be together

So that isn't normal

[manic jackal]

Once again explain gay animals....

[wooden oxide]

some people also can't get children, are they less deserving of love?

[short geyser]

How did you end up in that?

Never said anyone isn't deserving of love

[manic jackal]

Yall are confusing me

😔

[wooden oxide]

i said who is loving doesn't matter and you said it does becuase you can get kids or sum?? my own brain is breaking

im going to nap i think

[short geyser]

Then go

[manic jackal]

I gotta say this is the best argument I've ever had eith a gay hater, normally they just tell I will go to hell😝

[short geyser]

Nah,I ain't a sissy

I will stand my ground

Not curse you and then leave

[manic jackal]

And I will stand mine:)

[manic jackal]

Honestly I respect that😭🙏

[short geyser]

That's why I am having fun too

[manic jackal]

You don't see that often

[manic jackal]

I'm also lowkey enjoying this

[short geyser]

And you aren't saying stupid shit like the feminists I have debated with

Honestly feminism is wrong in this generation

It has completely shifted point

[manic jackal]

Not really? We still have to fight for our rights yk

[manic jackal]

Okg yes I absolutely agree with that

[short geyser]

Not really

[manic jackal]

Sadly yes really

But that's lowkey just the world

[short geyser]

Nah,women rights are the same as men rights

[manic jackal]

But yeah feminism isn't what jt used to be

[short geyser]

True

I hate modern feminism

And I support women

Just not stupid ones

[manic jackal]

Not all, some country still have many laws against women, not equal pays still, and much more sadly

[short geyser]

But in most they are regulated

[manic jackal]

I honestly totally agree, it's turned into men hate

[short geyser]

Yeah

[manic jackal]

True, but in America they are once again probably going to loosing some

[short geyser]

Don't start this

It is forbidden to get political

[manic jackal]

I am tho

[manic jackal]

Okey haha

Just stating the facts:)

[short geyser]

What were we arguing about?

[manic jackal]

How being gay isn't natural and stuff

[short geyser]

Oh yeah

[manic jackal]

😭🙏

[short geyser]

I can see you are a Christian

[manic jackal]

Yeah

Well lowkey losing da fairh

Faith

[short geyser]

So you can explain to me why it isn't normal

[manic jackal]

Why what isn't normal

[short geyser]

In the Bible it doesn't state about gay marriage

[manic jackal]

Yeah, so?

[short geyser]

And it has even a negative thingy about it

So from Jesus Christ's words we can understand that this isn't a normal thing

[manic jackal]

Actually these things are translated wrong

[short geyser]

How do you know that?

[manic jackal]

There was supose to be 'men and a boy shall not lie in a bed'

(Akka pedo)

[manic jackal]

Many sources and my friend translated!

[short geyser]

We don't really know the true meaning

I guess then

And it can't be the only phrase where it states that

[manic jackal]

I think that's true yeah, but the bible was translated and written so so many times that there are so many mistakes in the bible, which that being gay is a sin is one of them:)

[short geyser]

I haven't read it unfortunately,can't find the real one

[short geyser]

You don't know that

[manic jackal]

Ohh I get that dw, I also couldn't tell you where you can find it

[short geyser]

It could be the words of Jesus

[manic jackal]

It's impossible that they always wrote the things good

[opal rover]

The bible has stayed the same even though it whas translated

Being gay isnt wrong

[short geyser]

We don't actually know that sadly

[opal rover]

Gay sex and marrieage just it

We do

[manic jackal]

Yep could be, but nuns had to write and translate a lot of it many times over and over again, so not there being a mistake in there is pretty much impossible sadly

[short geyser]

It could be altered a little bit

[opal rover]

The base stayed the same

[short geyser]

Impossible were the things Jesus did

[opal rover]

Why would god let it change

[manic jackal]

We don't know that, that's the hard thing

[opal rover]

We doo

[short geyser]

So nothing really is impossible

[short geyser]

True

[opal rover]

Translating it ourselces

[manic jackal]

Sure, but we both know that something being written for over 2000 years over and over again will have some mistakes

Which is honestly so logical

[opal rover]

It wasnt written over and over

There have only been translations

[manic jackal]

It was....

[manic jackal]

That where written many times to spread the word

Nuns litsrly worked to write the bibles

[opal rover]

Direct copys

Yes

[manic jackal]

Which is honestly so cool

[opal rover]

By translating

[manic jackal]

Yeah but there are definitely some mistakes in it, look at Google translate for example that has so many mistakes I sentences. It's so posable that the same thing happend with the bible

[opal rover]

Ofc it could be

Thats a program

If you know englush and dutch

[manic jackal]

A bot yeah, that should make less mistakes

[opal rover]

Who will translate bettrt

You or google translate

Yes but it does make alot of mistakes

[manic jackal]

Depends, but once again it's litarly so easy to make mistakes. It would be so wierd if there aren't mistakes

Why do you think there are so many versions of the bible?

[opal rover]

To reach everyone and because languege changed

And it would be unlogical

Why would god make that happen if hos goal is to teach people

[manic jackal]

No there are multiple versions of the bible in english

[opal rover]

Yes

In another text way

Of tekst opbouw

[manic jackal]

God* and God can't do everything. Because then he would've made us all loving and amazing and no fighting etc

[opal rover]

He can

Not true

[manic jackal]

No... there are litarly different words

[opal rover]

Yes

Ofcourse

But the core is the same

And god can do all

[manic jackal]

Why tf are we even talking about this

There can be mistakes and it's a fact

Why?

[opal rover]

God doesnt make mistakes

[manic jackal]

We're humans and bound to make mistakes

[opal rover]

But oke

[manic jackal]

Please listen what I say😭🙏

[opal rover]

Listen to cliffe knechtle

He awnser alot

[manic jackal]

I'm good

[short geyser]

My goat

[manic jackal]

LMG KS THAT THAT GUY

😭🙏

I know him he's crazy (he has some good points)

Help- he really is that guy

(I do want to say that he atleast explains what he means)

[opal rover]

He isnt crazy in any way

He liturly only shows love and carr

[manic jackal]

For me he is, once again in some ways tho

I respect him

[opal rover]

Oke

Good

Thats also with gay mariage

[manic jackal]

He's cool

[opal rover]

Even though its not allowed it doesnt mean you should hate them

[manic jackal]

Love the sin not the person:)

[opal rover]

I thimk its the other way around 🙃

[manic jackal]

God is our one and only judge, and if he apparently made a mistake with me then that ain't my problem😔🙏

[manic jackal]

Oh so like that's also a sin, hope you know that!

Love your neighbour and your enemy

[opal rover]

Yes

[manic jackal]

So don't hate

So hate the sin not the person

OH FUCK

[opal rover]

I didjt say i hate anyonr

[manic jackal]

Nvm I made a mistaje

[opal rover]

2 mistakes

[manic jackal]

Yeah no sorry made a mistak💀🙏

Hate the sin not the person

That's the one

[opal rover]

Yes

[manic jackal]

I've done some bible study😝

[opal rover]

Good

[wooden oxide]

are you two aruing about the translation of the bibl

bible

[opal rover]

We where

[manic jackal]

I still like it, just Christians that I don't really like

[manic jackal]

Yeah idk.. its even a fact that there are mistakes but ya know

[opal rover]

Sure

[wooden oxide]

yep i saw, tbh i believe it was translated wrong because it kept getting translated over years and years

[manic jackal]

Yes! But anyways

Yall I just learnt that granny smiths are made on accident

Couldn't live without then

I just saw people burning spaghetti on purpose because 'it's soft in some spots and hard and crunsy on the others' like that's my nightmares bro

[lyric granite]

the dedication....

[manic jackal]

the dedecation to what....

[lyric granite]

to here

[manic jackal]

oh are we talking about 12k messages again

[lyric granite]

yup

[manic jackal]

its so funny how often people say that

[lyric granite]

decided to visit again

[lyric granite]

i mean

its BIG

[manic jackal]

well hello:)

[lyric granite]

yoo

[manic jackal]

yep biggest one here(thats also still active as far as i know)

[lyric granite]

lowkey

i almost forgot

to re-visit

its a must for me

[manic jackal]

damn😔

i feel hurt/jk

[lyric granite]

sorry

[manic jackal]

😔

[lyric granite]

lmao i re-visited the server after breaking up with my gf

BUTTT

ill visit more

[manic jackal]

oh, im sorry to hear that

[lyric granite]

i swear

[manic jackal]

sure you're always welcome:)

[lyric granite]

ahh i dont need pityy

its fine

also it's your channel, i wont grab attention 😂

[manic jackal]

nah you're not grabbing attention dw

besides it keeps me motivated to write when people comment on my stuff

or just randomly yap back (thats the best thing)

[lyric granite]

i love yapping

[manic jackal]

SAME

if you havent noticed

[lyric granite]

lmaooo

[manic jackal]

[wooden oxide]

@manic jackal your statuses keep getting cuter

[manic jackal]

What can I say

https://tenor.com/view/billie-eilish-billie-lunch-billie-lunch-hit-me-hard-and-soft-gif-2751655838134758712

[lyric granite]

DEDICATION!!!

[manic jackal]

Duhhh😝

[wooden oxide]

[manic jackal]

I feel like absolute shit atm, I'm scared I'm gonna fall back which sucks.
I was apparently supose to come with my dad for some stuff for school I lowkey knew but I didn't knew that I litarly HAD to, so I didn't come with him. So now I just feel bad too

It's about all the school subject I will choose, but I already know it I have my mind set on it. And I just know that that's it

'Ok so the fun ones.' No dad, the ones I can really handle, the ones that my passion has and where I can feel myself freeer, but sorry for choosing something that's 'simple'

[manic jackal]

Bruh my dad is gonna give me 100 euro's if I pass this year😭🙏

Anyways, he now also sees that the 'simple' subject aren't that simple

[opal rover]

Wow u lucky

[lyric granite]

yooo

ay hope u get thru this

[lyric granite]

@manic jackal u alr?

[manic jackal]

Eh I wouldn't really call it 'lucky' I mean my parents are just desperate atm💀

[manic jackal]

I will don't worry:)

[manic jackal]

Very tired but yeah

[manic jackal]

I wanted to hug my mom, just idk. Now she's mad so I won't hug her today l. This sucks

Now I'm crying trying to hold it in so they don't see

Still did, il be going to school for an hour because of a English test after that il be going back home

I lowkey feel shitty going to back home again, but I just can't rlly handle school atm

[lyric granite]

js do it

!!!

[manic jackal]

I did:)

[lyric granite]

nice

[opal rover]

Lmao 😂

[manic jackal]

I am honestly so sick of my dad, he just totally attacked me saying, that I don't do anything on a bad day. Like yes dad, I cant even go to school me doing basic hygiene without a reason is rare af. Maybe look further into me and how I feel

[lyric granite]

@manic jackal

so

how ya doin

?

[manic jackal]

im doing alright:) wbu?

[lyric granite]

still below average

but im trying to heal 🙂

[manic jackal]

thats good:)

[lyric granite]

i think its been like

2-3 days

[manic jackal]

i hope it gets better soon

[lyric granite]

yup!:)

and thx

[manic jackal]

ofcourse!

[lyric granite]

so whats new?

anything special going on?

[manic jackal]

not really honestly

[lyric granite]

ah lol

same old stuff?

[manic jackal]

pretty much yeah haha

[lyric granite]

lmao

[manic jackal]

i feel shitty

and that pretty much sums up my feelings atm

[wooden oxide]

Awhh was today any better?

[manic jackal]

Not really but jts alright:)

[opal rover]

Mondays...

[manic jackal]

mondays? what about them

[opal rover]

Always bad days

[manic jackal]

eh not really for me its the sundays ngl

[opal rover]

Thats crazy 2 me

[manic jackal]

nah on sundays i stress because the weekend is over too fast

and then i stress so bad that i dont do anything

[opal rover]

Oh true i dont realy have thar

[manic jackal]

lucky😭

[manic jackal]

Guess who's sick again😝

The whole house minus my mom is sick, but I'm still going to school cuz I need to do art class

[leaden leaf]

Feel better soon Sophie

[manic jackal]

Thanks!

[lyric granite]

helooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

im back

hru?

[manic jackal]

Not the best wbu??

[lyric granite]

a lil better

why what happpened tho

(u dont gotta tell me)

[wooden oxide]

awh want to talk abt it? I’m here too listen

[manic jackal]

It's nothing dw

[wooden oxide]

alright!:)

[wooden oxide]

@manic jackal how are youu!

[manic jackal]

I'm okey what about you??

[wooden oxide]

yaay! Good to hear! did you do anything fun today? And im pretty good!

[manic jackal]

I played in bed and played fortnite, going to a first aid curus tonight tho😔

[wooden oxide]

oohh i think fun? Its cool to know first aid, were you free from school that you’d be able to play all day?

[manic jackal]

Yeah was too sick to go😭🙏

Didn't have a good balance and was nauseous

[wooden oxide]

awhh hope you got any better today?

[manic jackal]

I did!

[wooden oxide]

yippiee!

[wooden oxide]

did you feel better today?

[lyric granite]

@manic jackal hru?

[manic jackal]

mentally, yes and now. pysically no

will probably stay home tomorrow again, i feel like i have fever but the thermostat says i dont which sucks

[manic jackal]

I am on fact staying home

[wooden oxide]

Awhh

Hope you get better

🫶🏼

[manic jackal]

Thanks haha

[manic jackal]

I texted a friend kf me and I asked her how she was etc and if something happened in her life yk normal talk

Then she asked what happend in my life and I said 'oh yk nothing much found a girl I really like tho' and I only got 'okay' normally she would've responded better idk wtf is up with her😭🙏

[wooden oxide]

thats weird

[manic jackal]

Ikr

[wooden oxide]

also also anything fun this weekend?

[manic jackal]

Eh depends if I stay sick haha if I don't then il have a sleepover

[wooden oxide]

oo fun! lets hope you get better than

[manic jackal]

Yeah!

[manic jackal]

rip to my nitro

oehh i keep my pretty colour

i miss it already

[lyric granite]

😭

[manic jackal]

im struggeling without my emoij's not funny

[lyric granite]

sorry

[manic jackal]

😔

[lyric granite]

[manic jackal]

i wanted to send billie crying

realising that i cant

[lyric granite]

NO

[manic jackal]

NO

MY GIF PERMS

[lyric granite]

sorry

[manic jackal]

NOOOO

[lyric granite]

hehe

[manic jackal]

stop im like gonna die

im debating to buy nitro

just for the emoji's

[lyric granite]

bro its a lil funny

u cant deny

[manic jackal]

no its not

[manic jackal]

im in denial

[lyric granite]

[manic jackal]

but like

i lwokey need 2 times nitro......

so like

(cant tell why tho its a secret)

valentines day is such a stupid day now i think about it

[lyric granite]

ye

[manic jackal]

christian left my journal

[wooden oxide]

Tbh what to you even celebrate? Not even my parents do it

[wooden oxide]

@manic jackal how was todayy??

[lyric granite]

@manic jackal yoooo

[manic jackal]

Heyy not too great how was yourse?

[wooden oxide]

awhh, what happened? and mine was okayish

[manic jackal]

I was able to play a hockey game but then my parents suddenly said no so that just sucked yk

[lyric granite]

damn

[manic jackal]

Jesus my dad just got mad at me because I put a slice of bread back like dude you can still eat it

[lyric granite]

damn

[manic jackal]

first off

made this

very cul

second

I REMEMBERD THAT SOFIA ISELLA IS BRINGING A SONG OUT IN 10 MINTUES

YEESSSSS

[manic jackal]

nvm

9 more hours

[wooden oxide]

NOOI

[manic jackal]

It's out now?

Idk but it's okey😝

[wooden oxide]

ONG YAYA

I LOVED IT

[manic jackal]

SAME ITS SUCH A GOOD SONG

[manic jackal]

I got a Valentine🤭

[wooden oxide]

OMG NO CUTEE

[manic jackal]

YESSSS

[wooden oxide]

ARE YOU TWO DOING ANYTHING FOR VALENTINES THEN?

[manic jackal]

IDK YET TBH

I also don't know what we can do tbh😭🙏

[wooden oxide]

Oh yeah long distence rightt?

[manic jackal]

Yepp

[wooden oxide]

awhie thats sad

[manic jackal]

💀

[manic jackal]

Yeahh

[ashen oracle]

http://ybgg2evrcdz37y2qes23ff3wjqjdn33tthgoagi76vhxytu4mpxiz5qd.onion/wiki/9/11_conspiracy_theories?lang=en 👍

Sorry My college class required me to talk about american consperacys

Not even joking LMAO

So I loaded up my TOR browser and I am surfing it for the most wild ass controversies

[wooden oxide]

A SCORE OF 8??

[manic jackal]

BHAHAHA YES

[manic jackal]

👍

I honestly don't know what this is but alrighty

[wooden oxide]

BAHAHAH

[manic jackal]

😭🙏

[limpid plover]

Yoo

[manic jackal]

Heyy

[limpid plover]

How are yall

[manic jackal]

I'm fine wbu??

[limpid plover]

Same

[manic jackal]

Nice

[limpid plover]

I aint good at talking 😭

[manic jackal]

Real😭

[limpid plover]

Fr

[ashen oracle]

Hey guys
lets have a debate
Upopular opinion: J Cole is better than Kendrick Lamar
Prove me wrong

[manic jackal]

First off, I don't think they like debates here. Second idk who thag is

[ashen oracle]

Aw but

Fine

Dang only 2,000 more messages?

When I last checked in it was at 10k

[manic jackal]

20k*

Oh waot

OHH LIKE THAT

Reading is difficult

[manic jackal]

Yes I don't yap all day

[ashen oracle]

I dont either

[wooden oxide]

would be funny if you did

but i think you wont have any subjects to yap about then

[manic jackal]

Oh trust me, I do

😝

[wooden oxide]

now im scared

what would you even talk about then

[manic jackal]

All kinds of stuff

I don't tell everything here😝

[wooden oxide]

exciting excting

[manic jackal]

I feel like you're expecting a lot of yapping now

[wooden oxide]

not rlly but at the same time sort of

[wooden oxide]

@manic jackal how was your day??

[manic jackal]

It was alright, what about yourse?

[wooden oxide]

good to hear!! mine was pretty good

working on a school arts project rn

[manic jackal]

me having to send my psygologist (old one) a aproval to send a letter about everything to my new one, so he had to read it my dad: ''hey here stands that you had exesive ||suicidal thoughts''||
me: yeah they say that when you have it nearly daily or multple times a week
dad: did you have that?
BRO WHAT?! WHY DO YOU THINK I GOT SEND TO PEOPLE HIGHER THEN THEM?!

i lowkey just felt shitty when he said that, like did you not take me serious before that or something?

[wooden oxide]

Don’t listen to him, you are valid and he just is doing dumb

[manic jackal]

Yeah just sucks but oh well

[manic jackal]

When your girl wants to go out with a friend and her ex and asks my opinion and I say I'm okey with it

But I'm actually just a jealous girl

But I'm trying to change that because also like who cares who she goes out with

Well I do care

But like

I don't want to be controlling so il let her go obv

[manic jackal]

When my old psychologist has said in her letter that I wasnt always too honest with her (with my ||suicidal thoughts for example||) but now I realise I'm also lying to my new ones

Whopsies

Whoopsies

[zinc urchin]

girl

[manic jackal]

NO

[zinc urchin]

BAHAHHAHA

[manic jackal]

YOU BETTER GO TOMORROW

Now you have to

[zinc urchin]

nuh uh

😝

[manic jackal]

Idc you're going

[manic jackal]

YES

[zinc urchin]

nuh uh

[manic jackal]

You wanted to

So you're going

[manic jackal]

Yah ah

[zinc urchin]

I didn't say I wanted to

[manic jackal]

I was so scared you where going tk find this😭🙏

[manic jackal]

You brought it up so that said enough:)

[zinc urchin]

i just ask about your opinion

my jealous girl

[manic jackal]

No I'm working on it okey😔

[manic jackal]

Well I'd still say yes

[zinc urchin]

😝

nuh uh

[manic jackal]

Yah ah

[zinc urchin]

girl i follow this channel

I'm up to date here

[manic jackal]

You didn't before

[zinc urchin]

🤭

[zinc urchin]

i did

[manic jackal]

This scares me....😭🙏

The way you can just read my whole life from a year back

You can read all the shit with my ex to

😝

[zinc urchin]

im lazy..

but

myabe

maybe

today

[manic jackal]

Fair enough

[manic jackal]

BHAHAHA GOODLUCK

[zinc urchin]

should I be afraid?

[manic jackal]

Depends...

But lowkey

Yeah...

[zinc urchin]

okay…

[manic jackal]

👉👈

It should be like

May till June when the good shit was

Ngl j wanna read it back too, wanna see how many shit I tried to talk good💀🙏

[zinc urchin]

NO

NO

BC YOU CAN DELETE THIS

RN

[manic jackal]

HUH

What

Why would I delete it😭🙏

[zinc urchin]

Idk

[manic jackal]

Nah I wouldn't dww

[zinc urchin]

honey i will be afk okay?

bc im reading

this

[manic jackal]

Okeyy I love you❤️

I absolutely love this poem,
It was written in WW| and was used as a torture for soldiers at that time, it would play for hours long.
It's about the war and what they saw and what the soldiers have been through.

I think that this is such a good example of 'art is supose to disturbed the undisturbed' or whatever it is haha

[zinc urchin]

IT BROUGHT ME BACK

AT TJE

START

OMFG

😭

[manic jackal]

BHAHAHAHA

[manic jackal]

this is btw a great example of the rabit hole
i like something, i want to know more and i cant stop till i cant find more information

still stand by this

look at me still helping others while i just said that i felt like shit

been wearing the top a lot still love it

we have reached the top

[zinc urchin]

🤭

[manic jackal]

hello

you skiped me

😔

[zinc urchin]

HELLO

WHAT

[manic jackal]

i said i love you and you didnt respond back💔

[zinc urchin]

HOW

WHERE

[manic jackal]

here

[zinc urchin]

OOO

SORRY

I DONT SEE

[manic jackal]

DONT SAY SORRY

[zinc urchin]

THAT

[manic jackal]

you're blind

[zinc urchin]

I LOVE YOU TOOOO❤️❤️❤️

[manic jackal]

[manic jackal]

YEEEY

[zinc urchin]

im blind tbh

XDDD

i have glasses

[manic jackal]

i know

[manic jackal]

i also know that

[zinc urchin]

im not wearing atm

so

im sorry

🙏

[manic jackal]

💔

[zinc urchin]

😭

[manic jackal]

lowkey im blinder when were playing fortnite

[zinc urchin]

BAHAHAHAH

[manic jackal]

i can never see who tf shoots

[manic jackal]

IM SO FR THO

il be searching them and in that time you already have 2 people down

rip

[zinc urchin]

girl you are help me to be alive

and one guy

just

[manic jackal]

im your slave

[zinc urchin]

staying