im just miserable

[digital geode]

so first of all, i kinda not hang around my friends in school anymore cuz they are making me feel bad and people are telling me to cut them off. so i did. now im alone and dont hv any friends. second, they didnt asked me what happened for 2 weeks 2 WEEKS, so i just decided, hey why dont i go tell them first, maybe they are just passive. now my idiot ass got left on delivered for 5 hours :D i hate school, im hiding in the bathroom stalls from now on. also, i think i overheard them calling me selfish in class. if yall want details of what happened i dont mind sharing tho. but someone pls tell me im doing the right thing cuz im fkin scared. it's miserable

[digital geode]

okay, so she just replied, she said tht she forgot to reply cuz she was doing her work. understadable. so now i feel selfish after trying to communicate w her. i feel like i was the bad one and i had misunderstood them? they didnt left me out on purpose nor did they say mean shit to me on purpose. they just do that. im not sure if i should ask them about the fact tht they were talking shit about me when i was gone tho... or the fact tht they hated me...

[weary cedar]

You should hangout with them to communicate, maybe they will share things like How they missed you, or the fun they had. If you feel good around they don't listen to people, they must be jealous. If you feel like you are just filler or disrespected you have to tell them. Don't lose friends.

[digital geode]

no, cuz they are making me feel bad. plus, i cant just go suddenly hang w them cuz im sure it's gonna be awkward. i love them but like, i dont know what to do

i tried to communicate w one of them last night and she went to sleep half way when we tried to communicate

idk if she's just replying cuz i asked her to, but she's kinda making me feel like she's not sincere at all

but most of the time i just feel like im overthinking it...

[weary cedar]

Understandable, and you also tried to clear your doubt. They aren't listening. You did right to cut off with them.

[weary cedar]

If she is really care about you, she will text you. But as you explained i don't think that she will text you back.

[weary cedar]

Yes you are overthinking about it. In good way, you are predicting all the possible scenarios which will happen. I hope you find solution what to do next.
You will make new friends, it will take time. Wish you the best.

[digital geode]

i dont know man, it feels like im selfish and self centered but i wished they wouldnt leave me out of stuff sometimes. idk if it's just they way i understand things differently, but maybe in their point of view, im the bad person. idk, i really dont know

[weary cedar]

It is wrong to think about ourself ? And you are understanding thing in right way, they didn't care about you. You tried to communicate, but it was one sided. Sorry to say but you have to move forward.

[digital geode]

i just feel miserable tbh... being a loner and stuff, yea, there's nothing wrong w being a loner. but it's different when u used to hv friends

[digital geode]

it fkin hurts, like it's bothering me and i feel like shit. im starting to think if im actually the problem cuz im literally friendless. idk what to do pls 😭

im just miserable

[weary cedar]

I lost my friends too, they faded.

And ik how it feels to be friendless, when u used to talk all the night with them, spending time together, sharing things. Now we have many things to share but to whom. Waiting for miracle to happen, in hope for them to be back.

[digital geode]

im sorry u hv to go through it too

it just hurts so bad for me. at this point i dont even know what to do

like im so lost rn

im trying really hard not to be bothered by it but i just cant

[weary cedar]

I can understand, its not easy to move on.

[digital geode]

Well yea, im just trying my best to ignore it atp

I cant do much anyways

[weary cedar]

Hmm,