like im making a model excited and when i try to show it i get ignored
#Journal of my life!
abstract merlin
wtf
its actually frustrating me
not the model
the person ignoring me
every fucking day
im so close bro
im tired of it
was this shit an act or something.
abstract merlin
im taking a break from modeling this
i got way too overwhelmed with personal shit
im crying so fucking hard rn
i forgot to save
abstract merlin
IM SO FUCKING PISSED RN DUDE THIS IS STRESSING ME SO MUCH
abstract merlin
finished it
abstract merlin
im hurt
really hurt
s
like this person is very special but i get ignored so much
then when i feel hurt they make me feel bad
i need help bro
its fine ill search it up
abstract merlin
I planned a date for something special
Feb 12
Well to me it’s special
It’s gonna change my whole life
abstract merlin
my confidence went extremely down
i dont feel supported at all
everytime i ask for help with a game it gets ignored
idk what to do
it just hurts
whenever i try to work on something big it gets laughed at
i want to give up but i cant
i really wanted this
what am i fucking doing
why doi still try
i shouldnt
im genuinely hurt terribly.
everyday is getting worse
i hurt people because i was hurt
abstract merlin
I’m exhausted
wheat wren
IM BACK
abstract merlin
HIIII
wheat wren
WHATS THE GAME ABOUT
wheat wren
I did too much
Are you happy with it tho
abstract merlin
Gorilla.
abstract merlin
Are you happy with it tho
It’s been burning me out honestly
wheat wren
It’s been burning me out honestly
Then why not take a break
wheat wren
ITS FINEEEE GO AHEAD KILL ME ILL JUST WATCH FROM HELL
abstract merlin
Then why not take a break
I will on Thursday cause I won’t be testing
wheat wren
Bro I told my little brother he was gonna be late for school and he hit me with the “Deer do not anxiously check their watch. The birds are not late. Man alone chimes the hour and alone faces the fear of time running out”
abstract merlin
chilly island
wheat wren
Side views ..
So what is this sorry I don’t do humans
abstract merlin
chilly island
wheat wren
I MEAN ITS REALLY GOOD THO
abstract merlin
wheat wren
THATS INSANE
abstract merlin
chilly island
abstract merlin
chilly island
wheat wren
That ain’t just a cake that’s the whole god damn cake factory
abstract merlin
chilly island
wheat wren
I CAME FASTER THEN THE PICS COULD COME ON THE SCREEN
wheat wren
Thank you for gracing my eyes
chilly island
So what is this sorry I don’t do humans
You do animals 😟
regal dawn
peta
wheat wren
chilly island
abstract merlin
Jjk 👍🏽
chilly island
JFK event
wheat wren
Now that’s crazy
Nah bro that ain’t crazy you know what is how fast I nutted to those photos
abstract merlin
Nah bro that ain’t crazy you know what is how fast I nutted to those photos
I’m shaking bro im unsafe
wheat wren
abstract merlin
Awww
abstract merlin
A meme I made with my art a week ago or so
regal dawn
A meme I made with my art a week ago or so
this is cruel
you guys are watching someone cry without doing anything
(same)
abstract merlin
I have a even worse one
regal dawn
where?
abstract merlin
wheat wren
Bro I accidentally made a kid cry while on a holiday
abstract merlin
He got traumatized and turned into a alpha
wheat wren
WHAT
regal dawn
He got traumatized and turned into a alpha
is that worse or bro was empowering himself
abstract merlin
He dead :(
regal dawn
aw shit
abstract merlin
Oh and I made art for @chilly island
wheat wren
How <:verysad:1116091513840082994>
So like he was being rude and mean To my friend who was the same age as him so I started talking bout his shitty hair cut 💇♂️ like bitch his barber should’ve dropped those scissors and razor liek his dad dropped him on the floor
abstract merlin
It was before I went more realistic
wheat wren
And then I slept with him
abstract merlin
So like he was being rude and mean To my friend who was the same age as him so I...
Crazy
abstract merlin
And then I slept with him
abstract merlin
Great im just extremely burnt out so I haven’t been the best today
I have so much to do
wheat wren
I have so much to do
Btw what site you gonna release the game on
And what devices is it compatible with
abstract merlin
Hopefully sidequest (it’s vr) and or github
wheat wren
abstract merlin
I’m also working on a game Axen is making
wheat wren
Hopefully sidequest (it’s vr) and or github
I’ll play it if I can then
abstract merlin
I relate
abstract merlin
Why tho
abstract merlin
I don’t either
wheat wren
Oh and im waiting for someone to art collab
I can draw a stick figure
abstract merlin
YAYYY
wheat wren
Does that count
abstract merlin
Technically
wheat wren
abstract merlin
wheat wren
abstract merlin
My kitten is suffocating me
wheat wren
abstract merlin
She’s so small
wheat wren
Awwwww
Someone promised me that when we grow up we would live together with all the platonic kittens in the world still waiting to grow up
abstract merlin
Her
abstract merlin
I love that pic sm
wheat wren
It’s so fucking cute Istg
abstract merlin
I would say smash but i ain’t gonna ruin the mood this time
SHE IS NOT EVEN A MONTH OLD
wheat wren
REALLT
abstract merlin
She meows but it sounds like a bark kinda cause of how short it is
She goes A-
Literally
abstract merlin
Crazyyyy
abstract merlin
Oh my
abstract merlin
Idk man ur on ur own
wheat wren
I’m gonna say it
abstract merlin
NO THEYRE JUST CHIBIS
abstract merlin
OH THANK GOD
wheat wren
AND MAHITO ESPICALLY LIKE IK HE DID A LOT OF THINGS WRONG BUT
HES SUCH A PRECIOUS BEAN
🫘
abstract merlin
Eh I don’t watch much anime I want to get into but idk how honestly
The only anime I watched is mha
The community made me stop watching
wheat wren
Damn yea I understand the things I would let gojo do to me is so down right horrendous no disgusting that if I were to say it then all the admins mods and even police officers with a 75000000km radius would ban me hunt me down and give me the death penalty
abstract merlin
Jjk seems good tho
wheat wren
It is if you ignore the fandom
abstract merlin
I like studio ghibli I assume that’s anime right?
wheat wren
Just don’t watch further then season 2 if you don’t want your heart to be twisted stabbed and destroyed
wheat wren
I like studio ghibli I assume that’s anime right?
Yep
wheat wren
Death note is great
abstract merlin
I kinda miss him
abstract merlin
He isnt dead
wheat wren
Oh
wheat wren
SO HERES MY LIST SORTED BY GENRE
abstract merlin
WHAT IS THIS SJSJDJSHSHS
wheat wren
Action
- Aot
Bro my memory won’t kick in sorry
But aot has an insane story
You there glitch
abstract merlin
I am so@tired rn I have to wake up at 05:30 to shower
wheat wren
Oh
chilly island
chilly island
I am so@tired rn I have to wake up at 05:30 to shower
Stop doing this to yourself
abstract merlin
Stop doing this to yourself
?
chilly island
Try to find a better sleep schedule
abstract merlin
I took 4 melatonins
They don’t work I told her that
So she wanted me to take more
And basically overdose
chilly island
This picture
chilly island
Sleep
abstract merlin
I’m trying
wheat wren
Merrily
abstract merlin
I feel powerless and gullible honestly
abstract merlin
I got yelled at but that’s ok
abstract merlin
I might sound weird but when my bf told me he was pansexual I was happy for him but I started eternally panicking
abstract merlin
was he already pansexual before u dated him
Not that I know of no
ocean tide
gm :3
ocean tide
e
abstract merlin
Long cat :3
regal dawn
Not that I know of no
u serious?
abstract merlin
Yes
regal dawn
well could you try asking him if he was already pan before dating you?
because changing while dating someone is just
abstract merlin
I don’t mind that much I still support him
regal dawn
like youre dating someone
abstract merlin
because changing while dating someone is just
Idk
Usually when I confront he gets upset
regal dawn
thats a bad sign
abstract merlin
I know
regal dawn
i really hope youll be fine
abstract merlin
Idk at this point we’ve been on and on so many times
He cried to me and told me he regretted what he did
I love him don’t get me wrong
But it’s hard to trust him
I’m just nervous all the time when i try to just ask if we can do something together
Because he usually ghosts me
I know that’s a bad sign
abstract merlin
But im also having anger issues a lot worse
So sometimes I yell at him without knowing and I immediately apologize
regal dawn
well from what you've been dealing with lately you are more likely to have worse temper
abstract merlin
Sadly :(
regal dawn
and the trust issues too
abstract merlin
He lacked communication with me the other times but he’s getting better
I’m proud of him for that
That’s a positive I guess
regal dawn
well a healthy relationship is important
regal dawn
but you guys seem to have lost that
abstract merlin
but you guys seem to have lost that
We’re both going through mental issues and we’re changing as well
regal dawn
well i wouldnt say that since younger people run their minds differently
abstract merlin
That’s unfortunate
He panics that is I’ll leave him when he is having breakdowns, he’s been having a bit of outburts
He doesn’t like talking about issues either
regal dawn
how old is he?
abstract merlin
So I can’t really help him but I still try to reassure him
abstract merlin
I’m sorry it’s hard for me to type im cold rn
regal dawn
not an issue
abstract merlin
you do your best thats appreciated
He knows I do
regal dawn
it reminds me of my younger relationships
abstract merlin
People tell me that they can see how hard I work
regal dawn
you arent supposed to
abstract merlin
I believe
abstract merlin
you arent supposed to
I know
regal dawn
young relationships are difficult too but i understand you felt lonely so you seeked it
abstract merlin
My last relationship ended so bad
abstract merlin
young relationships are difficult too but i understand you felt lonely so you se...
I don’t get validation or attention often and my other relationship at the time was so bad
I was trying to find a way to escape it
regal dawn
yeah i understand you
abstract merlin
She was such an asshole for no reason
regal dawn
i dont wanna interfere because i know youll learn until you become better
regal dawn
well changing in a way of
abstract merlin
Personality wise mostly
regal dawn
well could be from trauma
abstract merlin
That too
regal dawn
trauma can give wisdom
thats one thing i know atleast
even at my age i still lack the knowledge
im learning too
abstract merlin
I’m somewhat smart for my age
I have collage planning classes
Idk if anyone else has them in different states or country’s
abstract merlin
My parents always told me mostly my mom that I was mature and smart for my age
I am usually independent
I like being alone but not all the time
regal dawn
mhm in this journal you are able to handle yourself
but since you are alone you developed attention issues
you seek relationships
abstract merlin
The journal was a way to cope with trauma actually I like writing so
abstract merlin
Wdym
regal dawn
and us people just come by time to time like a visitor
abstract merlin
The journal?
regal dawn
yeah
regal dawn
no need
regal dawn
it did ive seen other journals
alright i got stuff to do
you're very smart you know dont fall into that hole you can be better than you were before
pain first before relief
abstract merlin
Thank you take care
It doesn’t take a hour to use the restroom.
I confronted him im terrified
He said he changed
I really hope so
If I have too for myself and my future health then so be it
But for now
I don’t want to leave him
But still
I’m starting to cry a bit im paranoid
I’m so tired of crying all day I have to make changes
regal dawn
He said he changed
in what way?
abstract merlin
He abandoned me 3 times he said he changed from that
I forgave him
But it still haunts me
regal dawn
very unstable person
abstract merlin
We’re both unstable especially me
regal dawn
you should not hurt yourself any further if you see no difference
abstract merlin
But it’s not an excuse..
regal dawn
the thing is
abstract merlin
you should not hurt yourself any further if you see no difference
He rarely hurts me
It hurts when I get lied too
I’m not a idiot
regal dawn
your friends would talk about his behavior being a red flag
regal dawn
and it goes the same for your side
abstract merlin
He’s changed
But
It’s not looking good
I’m trying to help him
I’m trying so hard
regal dawn
if he is not willing to help himself
it is a loop of negativity for you
it will end up you beating yourself up for nothing
regal dawn
you feel like that because of your worries in the relationship
abstract merlin
I’ve changed too
regal dawn
you constantly overthink
abstract merlin
I can’t help it it’s a habit
abstract merlin
Can I talk about my dad for a bit
regal dawn
but then when i age slowly i still do overthink but its about something else
abstract merlin
There’s something I need to get off my chest about him
regal dawn
go ahead
abstract merlin
He isn’t going to change, he went to rehab he went to jail he went to a mental hospital and isylum
He will never change
He traumatized me for so long
regal dawn
im really sorry to hear that you even have to deal with this
abstract merlin
I’ve been having nightmares about that night
For weeks
He has a court trail on the 21st
Idk if I have to go
But it hurts because it wasn’t him. That wasn’t my father.
regal dawn
well hes still your father but jesus christ that is way too much
abstract merlin
He hurt my mom
He hurt me
He hurt my whole family
But he’s my father
I can’t hate him truly
He told me he was trying
It hurts so bad to hear the pain in his voice
He knew what he done
When he gets help I hope he realizes how bad he fucked up
regal dawn
he will not realize it until he realizes that he lost everything first
if hes through the same situation everytime its walking the same path
abstract merlin
He has schizophrenia and he told me that one of his visual hallucinations (Greg ig?) was trying to hurt me and my moms ex husband was trying to sa me
He has auditory and visual hallucinations
regal dawn
and living with schizophrenia is very difficult
abstract merlin
Idk about psychosis
regal dawn
He has auditory and visual hallucinations
yeah its true not only visual
abstract merlin
But im starting to have symptoms not much tho
regal dawn
he can hear voices
abstract merlin
Yes
regal dawn
like randomly
abstract merlin
Yes
He can also see “ghosts” even tho he doesn’t believe in them
He’s a hardcore emo old school atheist
regal dawn
im not sure how schizophrenic people work but someone told me they usually see creepy stuff such as demons
like similar to sleep paralysis
abstract merlin
The look. In his eye when he did what he did
He was soulless
A blank expression was on his face when he was getting arrested
He saw me outside with a wrench
regal dawn
It would hurt me so bad to see my own father being arrested
abstract merlin
I was trying not to cry cause then he would act up
abstract merlin
It would hurt me so bad to see my own father being arrested
Not the first time..
regal dawn
because love is unconditional for family
you can lose your shit on your family members
but by the end of the day you always have a soft spot
abstract merlin
He didn’t have one
regal dawn
they are not friends that you just discard cause they did shit
abstract merlin
He is a ruined man
regal dawn
He didn’t have one
true
abstract merlin
I don’t want to risk my whole family on him anymore
I need him to prove that he’s better
I was holding fucking pepper spray he threatened to kill me if I spoke and or took videos for evidence
That night will haunt me for the rest of my life
He told me how he truly felt
He called his own daughter a pussy
Because I fucking asked for help
When I came home with bloody hands?
I’m a fucking pussy?
I fought for my friends
I did my job
I put my family first
What did he do?
Nothing.
He taught me to fight for my loved ones
I did.
Everyday.
I stayed alive for them I fought for them I protected them
I will never let him hurt my sister more than he hurt me
He was targeting my mom and me
But I protecting my sister
She is a child.
She doesn’t deserve this
This might sound funny but 2019s the joker reminds me of the night I still love the movie tho
I’m grateful for my mom and cousin
They protected me the most
Oh and my cousins bf
regal dawn
im glad that you still have family to actually love
but your father does indeed make it harder
chilly island
I hate your dad
regal dawn
a broken family is very different
abstract merlin
He’s the main reason why I have mental issues
He caused so much
He almost traded me for drugs
At fucking 4 years old
regal dawn
like just because you still have family it doesnt mean a fathers absence has no impact
abstract merlin
I didn’t deserve this
regal dawn
At fucking 4 years old
my god
abstract merlin
like just because you still have family it doesnt mean a fathers absence has no ...
He was never in my life i#until August
regal dawn
well
regal dawn
i could understand your issues deeper than that now
abstract merlin
He tricked me again
He stole from me again
He fucked me over again
Why did I trust him
I’m drawing my favorite dinosaur to calm down
abstract merlin
regal dawn
adorable
abstract merlin
I like how I rendered the tree a lot
abstract merlin
Bread dog
chilly island
Eat it
abstract merlin
neat patrol
Ýæůh
abstract merlin
Yay
abstract merlin
I think he was lying to me again
abstract merlin
The voices are back hurray
abstract merlin
January 18th 2024
I have to keep quiet to pleasure everyone else
I’m trying to watch joker 2019 but when he has outbursts and laughs it gives me ptsd
It actually scares me
I still love the movie other than that
abstract merlin
Binge watching Scott pilgrim again ❤️
abstract merlin
Made a thumbnail for a friend
abstract merlin
I don’t want to make him uncomfortable but I can’t trust him it’s too risky and im trying to get out of my comfort zone but I can’t
I’m in so much pain
But usually im in fear of him abandoning me for it
So I usually don’t talk about it to him
But when I’m at my limit it crashes down and I have a breakdown
I can’t keep hiding my fears from him
I find myself having breakdowns sometimes because im so scared of what’s gonna happen later not just with my relationship but in general there’s people hunting me down
I usually love getting close to him but recently I’ve been having worse social problems
I don’t know what to do anymore
I feel used and empty
I’m gonna get yelled at later
I feel like I can’t say anything about my feelings without getting yelled at
I love him so much but im so scared of him
He isn’t a bad person
He is one of the greatest
But he still hurt me in the past
I’m still healing
And he gets angry with that sometimes
So I get overwhelmed
abstract merlin
I keep apologizing cause I feel like I have too
I’m so sorry that I’m like this
I’m so stressed about what’s going on “behind the scenes” as he put it
We got into a bad argument two days ago
It really hurt me
It made my trust issues worse and it made my mental worse Everytime we argue it does that
I hate myself so fucking much too much I just want to love myself and be happy but I can’t I just can’t the voices are getting louder and louder
I can’t do this I don’t want to do this anymore im so tired of falling asleep crying
I have to kill myself at this point
I can’t be happy
It’s a objective for me to take my life
I’m scared that he’s gonna get mad at me for just feeling this way
I’m so fucking drained I’m going crazy
It’s not his fault
Please don’t blame it on yourself
It will hurt me more and it will hurt you as well
abstract merlin
I’ve calmed down but I’m still suicidal
abstract merlin
I’m so nervous rn
Like im cold and shaking violently
SOMEONE SENT GOTE TO ME OH JESUS
hollow saddle
wait what
abstract merlin
Someone sent me a video I thought it was a cute dog but it was a suicide video
hollow saddle
dear christ
how low do you gotta be to even have that installed on your goddam computer
hollow saddle
oh
abstract merlin
People are trying to start shit with me I’m not in the mood today
neat patrol
Twitter or watchpeopledie.tv
I WATCH WPD TOO LMFAO
abstract merlin
Funky town already traumatized me
abstract merlin
WHYYY
abstract merlin
Yeah 😭
abstract merlin
abstract merlin
Nah
abstract merlin
abstract merlin
So my mom yelled at me for wanted my cat I only had her for four hours and fell asleep for a while
abstract merlin
i feel scared ifk why
abstract merlin
i actually hate myself so fucking much rn
abstract merlin
Someone thats commissioned reposted my art without credit and claimed it was theirs
abstract merlin
I am on edge
I want to give up
I’m so tired of the fights
It’s making my health worse
I’m so hurt mentally
abstract merlin
Fuck me dude why.
abstract merlin
ha no. blocked.
abstract merlin
i actually dont know it scares me
hoary vapor
hm
abstract merlin
BRO
hoary vapor
Ah
abstract merlin
he keeps begging for them
hoary vapor
Well police cant help much
abstract merlin
sadly ik
hoary vapor
Just report them to discord or something
abstract merlin
it was to scasre it a bit
hoary vapor
yeah
abstract merlin
idk why this keeps happening
hoary vapor
Turn off DMs from servers
abstract merlin
fr
abstract merlin
ha no. blocked.
eveyrthing under this and more
marsh knoll
eveyrthing under this and more
homie is wierd
abstract merlin
fr
marsh knoll
dog is a peto😂
abstract merlin
fr fr bro is trying do hsrd to get game
abstract merlin
I’m kinda thinking of taking my life currently im so overwhelmed with so many problems, it feels like my problems are pushing me back and promising to help me and fix me and they keep getting louder and stronger.
Idk how to explain it lol
marsh knoll
I’m kinda thinking of taking my life currently im so overwhelmed with so many pr...
ima be honst wat helped me was beer and learning a hobie i enjoy cooking
abstract merlin
ima be honst wat helped me was beer and learning a hobie i enjoy cooking
I have a drug problem already sadly and I want to learn how to cook
marsh knoll
I’m kinda thinking of taking my life currently im so overwhelmed with so many pr...
but im here to talk soo you can dm me if you like
abstract merlin
Thank you it means a lot ❤️
marsh knoll
I have a drug problem already sadly and I want to learn how to cook
oohh its really fun
but please dont do anything to yourself
abstract merlin
I’m trying not too I really am
marsh knoll
I have a drug problem already sadly and I want to learn how to cook
i used to be adicted to coke
abstract merlin
I’m struggling mentally it’s getting harder but I’m trying
abstract merlin
i used to be adicted to coke
I’m so sorry
marsh knoll
I’m so sorry
its ok dont trippp
nimble moth
@reissy
abstract merlin
He’s not here
nimble moth
sad
abstract merlin
He was in a diff server
marsh knoll
dox me rn
nimble moth
nope
abstract merlin
What just happened 😭
nimble moth
What just happened 😭
why do you even accept dms from randoms
abstract merlin
Turn off DMs from servers
I didn’t know that was a setting until he said this
nimble moth
okay lol
abstract merlin
Why did I wake up at 5.
abstract merlin
January 22nd 2024
Beautiful..
I’m sleep deprived as fuck
Me and my mom got into a fight im melting
abstract merlin
I love how my mom acts like a victim all the time
What the fuck is wrong with my family
The favoritism
The arguemehts
The manipulation
I so overwhelmed it’s a cycles
hoary vapor
Beautiful..
I like rain instead with a big city like gotham 💀
abstract merlin
I like rain instead with a big city like gotham 💀
I like rain too
nimble moth
I like rain too
I like girls ONLY
hoary vapor
I like girls ONLY
How is that related to rain?
abstract merlin
I think im gonna throw up
abstract merlin
I just took one of the best naps
I love learning about laws and seeing people get what they deserve
chilly island
Spikes is awake too
Have you tried salamander soup it’s very good
abstract merlin
Have you tried salamander soup it’s very good
Shut
chilly island
And looks like you don’t have to by anything
abstract merlin
chilly island
All you have to do is put a knife in its back peal it’s skin then chop the mean get watter put in seasoning maby some veggies then cook the meat and put it in the soup then there you go
chilly island
ITS ETHER YOUR CAT OR LIZZARF THING
abstract merlin
NO >:(((
chilly island
THEN YOUR DOG
abstract merlin
NOT MY DOG :(
chilly island
GRRR
abstract merlin
YELLOW
abstract merlin
I’m trying not to fall asleep but I pass out uncontrollably
I@passed out at 2 pm I think
abstract merlin
I think Stanley likes his bucket idk (im starting to like the Stanley parable save me)
abstract merlin
My mom is threatening my sister saying if we don’t go to school she is going to jail and it’s making me panic
abstract merlin
Yay
abstract merlin
tw:blood
abstract merlin
January 26 2024
I had something planned tmr but my bf isn’t gonna be home so
Our 1 year anniversary is tomorrow
I was excited
It’s fine
I got more sleep than usual
So i guess that’s good
abstract merlin
i fixed my color settings its moreecontrasted and colorful now
today is starting peacefully
thats not normal but idm
abstract merlin
lo
abstract merlin
I rearranged my set up
I have a lot more room
Dusted the inside of my pc
Looks majestic rn
abstract merlin
dude
this is one of the worst days of my life holy shit
what am i supposed to do
why
just why
I ACTUALLY CANTDO THIS ANYMORE
IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF E=BEING OVERWHELMED
im sorry that i needed space
im so weak rn i cant think
i dont know what to do anymore
its only a matter of time before he replaces me too
i have been harrased for the back two days
ive been bullying myself for so long
people have been making sex jokes about me
people have beencalling me dishwasher and things like that
how many things can i take
im gonna try to calm down
abstract merlin
I couldn’t hold it in anymore
I bursted into@tears on a call
I didn’t mean too
I’m so hurt im too scared
I’m so Limited
I want to just disappear
I can’t keep living like this
I’m trying o fucking hard
Please let me die
That’s all i want at this point
worthy wave
who said sorry?
worthy wave
what happened?
abstract merlin
He keeps lashing out
neat patrol
THE NORMAL ELEVATOR>>>>>>
rose mountain
abstract merlin
I have been dealing with a lot of mental issues lately
I’ve been holding them in for the longest time
abstract merlin
THE NORMAL ELEVATOR>>>>>>
Yessss
My mom really just bought me 100 chicken biscuits wtf 😭
abstract merlin
well fuck lmaooo i cant get over a small problem what is going on lmao
pallid oyster
This is a cool idea
pallid oyster
people have been making sex jokes about me
Who
abstract merlin
This is a cool idea
Thank you, I appreciate it
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1bnCRgl76cgXK7vG1pIjjN?si=BCRIq8QETy-yH4k3aP_WQg&pi=u-8JXEezt-QUau Whoopi’s
pallid oyster
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1bnCRgl76cgXK7vG1pIjjN?si=BCRIq8QETy-yH4k3aP_W...
Pro
pallid oyster
Thank you, I appreciate it
❤️
abstract merlin
February 1st 2024
I actually have a appointment tomorrow
I mean it this time :(
I’m making coffee tho and finally gonna work on a book I like
abstract merlin
My day is going ok but nothing special
abstract merlin
give up
i fucking give up
parents having sex at 10pm while my dad is still insane
every fucking day
my bf isnt talking to me much anymore
rip.
abstract merlin
hope he has fun
abstract merlin
I’m so fucking tired
abstract merlin
I coughed up blood earlier and now im having a extremely bad mental breakdown
abstract merlin
I think he’s about to break up with me
My cat just got hurt thank god I noticed before it was too late
I’m gonna calm down before I do something I’ll regret
ok im good now
abstract merlin
ok
its over again
i feel so fucking used
idk what to say anymore its too late to add the date sorry btw
never trust anyone with your heart again
theyll do this everytime
im so fucking hurt rn i cant even think
i want to beg but i already tried in the past man it hurtas
abstract merlin
i feel alot better for now
abstract merlin
John Rhudy - 2024.
My fucking papa died so
That hurt to wake up to that.
I never thought I would see him dead he was so strong
He was apart of the navy, a police man, and retired when I was born
He was such a amazing man
They better not be joking
abstract merlin
I have court on Monday im making sure my dad goes back in jail
ocean tide
i don’t follow this often
but this is the most dedicated thing i’ve seen in this server apart from the daily stuff etc
respect :3
abstract merlin
February 5 2024
I might really like her idk chat
Also wtf 😭 (tw sexual themes)
abstract merlin
I just watched the finale of hazbin hotel s1 AND KWKSJZHSSHSHS
silk lake
My fucking papa died so
Wow I’m really sorry that really sucks to hear
abstract merlin
It’s ok!
chilly island
Also wtf 😭 (tw sexual themes)
He needs to stop dude he keeps coming back because all the girls keep leaving him
abstract merlin
dad told me to stfu and threatend me again
silk lake
dad told me to stfu and threatend me again
Do you have anywhere else safe to go?
abstract merlin
Do you have anywhere else safe to go?
No sadly
abstract merlin
Home schooled
silk lake
They can’t do anything?
abstract merlin
No :(
silk lake
Why not? Is it a legal thing not to pry in any private stuff
abstract merlin
Idk, but if it’s immediate danger I can leave
silk lake
Idk, but if it’s immediate danger I can leave
Oh
Well use that if ur in immediate danger ever
But for right now try to talk to family and or friends about it
abstract merlin
I do I called police twice I can do it again
silk lake
Especially family because maybe they can try to do something more
silk lake
I do I called police twice I can do it again
And they are doing nothing?
abstract merlin
They sent him to jail for a month and canceled any trails
silk lake
Only for a month that’s like insane
abstract merlin
I KNOW RIFHT?
silk lake
That’s like straight up abuse from what I’ve heard from higher up in the chat
abstract merlin
Sadly
silk lake
Yeah im really sorry ur going through all this it’s really horrible
chilly island
I don’t know how her dad got realesed
abstract merlin
It’s alright
chilly island
He needs to go to a mental hospital
abstract merlin
I don’t know how her dad got realesed
No evidence ig (there was so much)
chilly island
I do want you to have a dad in your life but he needs serious help
silk lake
Glitch, not to get in on anything personal only answer this if u are comfortable but does your father have any mental conditions?
abstract merlin
I don’t want my dad
chilly island
I understand
abstract merlin
Glitch, not to get in on anything personal only answer this if u are comfortable...
We both have schizophrenia (mines undiagnosed but I have serious symptoms)
silk lake
We both have schizophrenia (mines undiagnosed but I have serious symptoms)
That is probably contributing to his anger if he has medications try to get him to take them
chilly island
We both have schizophrenia (mines undiagnosed but I have serious symptoms)
Your very strong even if you have it won’t be that bad
silk lake
Schizophrenia is horrible form what I’ve heard
abstract merlin
That is probably contributing to his anger if he has medications try to get him ...
He has bad drug problems and anger issues
He’s narcissistic, selfish, greedy, and self centered
chilly island
Yes he is
silk lake
He just seems like a horrible person
abstract merlin
He is
chilly island
Trust me he is
silk lake
This is like horrible I can’t stress enough how sorry I am for u
chilly island
I do think anyone can change but goddamn
abstract merlin
Don’t be sorry, be grateful for your life! I want people to look at my life and be grateful that their life isn’t as bad (I hope)
chilly island
He has no redemption
chilly island
Don’t be sorry, be grateful for your life! I want people to look at my life and ...
I’m sorry your going through alot love
abstract merlin
It’s fine
silk lake
Don’t be sorry, be grateful for your life! I want people to look at my life and ...
That’s a pretty positive way to look at it, but still nobody should have to be the example set for the lesson
abstract merlin
That’s a pretty positive way to look at it, but still nobody should have to be t...
Yeah 
abstract merlin
kms
abstract merlin
Parents are going at it again
When he called her a bitch this morning
Guess he didn’t mean it
silk lake
kms
Yo?
Don’t do that you’re still a kid you got a lot of time to try to make your problems better
abstract merlin
I’m very overwhelmed
abstract merlin
abstract merlin
I’m hiding in the bathroom
Idk what is gonna happen but he starting forcing me to spam call my mom
neat patrol
Congrats:) I remember using I am sober but it didn't work for me, just know you can do this!!
abstract merlin