abstract merlin Dec 25, 2023, 1:54 PM

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I am so hurt and overwhelmed

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No one understands

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I deal with this everyday

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No matter what holiday or special event happens

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I’m always in pain and something happens

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I got extremely hurt yesterday because I was accused and then overwhelmed again by stress

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I actually think my life is just pain

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That’s all that happens at this point

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I think I wanna end it today, when everyone is sleeping

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im balling my eyes out

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im so sorry

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im sorry to everyone i hurt

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im sorry to the people i let down

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im sorry dad.

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im sorry that i called the cops

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i had too

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I fucking had too

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im so drained

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im gonna ruin everything

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I know I am

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im the worst I hate myself i hate myself i fucking hate myself

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i need to relapse fully

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I fucking need too

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im ruin people’s Christmas

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im ruining their lives

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i probably made someone kill themselves from reading this

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im so fucking useless

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what am i supposed to do

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I can’t heal

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i can’t get help

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im not gonna keep telling my bf

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but he reads this

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so im risking my whole relationship on this fucking journal

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im risking so fucking much

hallow light Dec 25, 2023, 2:22 PM

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go to therapy, real one, not discord one

abstract merlin Dec 25, 2023, 2:22 PM

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I CANT

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I FUCKING CANT

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I BEGGED FOR YEARS TOO

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BUT EVERY TIME

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EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME THEY GASLIT ME

hallow light Dec 25, 2023, 2:22 PM

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go by yourself

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if you find somewhere free that is

abstract merlin Dec 25, 2023, 2:23 PM

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WHERE AM I SUPPOSED TOO?

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WHAT ARE THEY GONNA SAY WHEN THEY SEE A LONELY TEENAGER

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THEIR GONNA CALL CPS

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im so fucking drained rn

hallow light Dec 25, 2023, 2:31 PM

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what's wrong with cps

abstract merlin Dec 25, 2023, 2:31 PM

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they already seen me this week

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for my dad

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I don’t like them.

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it stresses me a lot more out

hallow light Dec 25, 2023, 2:32 PM

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wut

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I don't understand

abstract merlin Dec 25, 2023, 2:32 PM

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my dad got arrested for domestic violence

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some people had to ask questions

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cps was one of them

hallow light Dec 25, 2023, 2:33 PM

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abstract merlin my dad got arrested for domestic violence

mine didn't

abstract merlin Dec 25, 2023, 2:33 PM

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okay I guess

hallow light Dec 25, 2023, 2:33 PM

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next question, what's up with your mum

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you can't seem to talk to her about anything

abstract merlin Dec 25, 2023, 2:34 PM

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she gets mad easily

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like my dad

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her mom is very homophobic and doesn’t believe in mental health

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my mom doesn’t believe in therapy

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even if she did she would stall and stall

hallow light Dec 25, 2023, 2:34 PM

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if your school offers free therapy go there

abstract merlin Dec 25, 2023, 2:35 PM

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they don’t

hallow light Dec 25, 2023, 2:35 PM

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online is the other choice

abstract merlin Dec 25, 2023, 2:35 PM

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how

hallow light Dec 25, 2023, 2:35 PM

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can you practice searching for a bit?

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I can't search for you, because what services you have depends on your locale

abstract merlin Dec 25, 2023, 2:36 PM

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okay

hoary vapor Dec 25, 2023, 8:22 PM

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so

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What are you going to do about it?

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Only you can change things

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Start with that question in your head

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think about it whenever you feel down

abstract merlin Dec 26, 2023, 3:14 AM

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BRO THIS FUCKING PEDO IS SO PATHETIC

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not Tiny man

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Someone else

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BUT ITS EMBARRASSING

abstract merlin Dec 26, 2023, 4:29 AM

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I made a gorey drawing

abstract merlin Dec 26, 2023, 9:30 PM

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December 26th 2023

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Pew pew

abstract merlin Dec 26, 2023, 11:52 PM

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FUCK I NEED TO SHUT UP

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I TALK TO FUCKING MUCH

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WHY DO I DO THIS

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WHY DO I ALWAYS DO THIS

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I can’t fucking breathe

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I hate myself so much

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I messed up everything

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I ruined a thumbnail for my bf

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I screw up every fucking thing

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Everyone is turning against me

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I can feel it

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I’m having an anxiety attack

abstract merlin Dec 27, 2023, 3:14 AM

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smile.

abstract merlin Dec 27, 2023, 6:54 AM

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I got too attached again

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I hate it when I do

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But it’s alright

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I’ll be fine

hallow light Dec 27, 2023, 7:07 AM

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me too

abstract merlin Dec 27, 2023, 7:07 PM

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December 27th 2023

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my bf might’ve killed himself

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so i will too.

hoary vapor Dec 27, 2023, 8:05 PM

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abstract merlin my bf might’ve killed himself

no they probably have not

abstract merlin Dec 27, 2023, 8:40 PM

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He didn’t kill himself

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But he scared me

abstract merlin Dec 27, 2023, 11:50 PM

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I made a twitch schedule

neat patrol Dec 27, 2023, 11:53 PM

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abstract merlin I made a twitch schedule

This may seem rude if I'm wrong, but the streaming app?

abstract merlin Dec 27, 2023, 11:54 PM

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Mhm!

neat patrol Dec 27, 2023, 11:54 PM

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Oh alr

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You haven't gave up writing youre journal.

abstract merlin Dec 27, 2023, 11:55 PM

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Is that a bad thing?

neat patrol Dec 27, 2023, 11:55 PM

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And im really proud of u

neat patrol Dec 27, 2023, 11:55 PM

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abstract merlin Is that a bad thing?

Nup

abstract merlin Dec 27, 2023, 11:55 PM

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neat patrol Dec 27, 2023, 11:55 PM

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And

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You have lots of memories in here awell

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Aswell*

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So

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I have a reward planned for u 🙂

abstract merlin Dec 27, 2023, 11:56 PM

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Ooohhh

neat patrol Dec 27, 2023, 11:58 PM

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Just a reminder to never give up on this journal, you've achieved something most ppl cant

abstract merlin Dec 28, 2023, 2:24 AM

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I’m a png tuber now

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abstract merlin Dec 28, 2023, 8:04 PM

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December 28th 2023

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My pc arrives in one day 🙊

shadow idol Dec 28, 2023, 10:51 PM

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Pretty sure this post has the most amount of people

abstract merlin Dec 29, 2023, 12:09 AM

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shadow idol Pretty sure this post has the most amount of people

Probably lol

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Unfortunately

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What the fuck is going on

hallow light Dec 29, 2023, 5:42 AM

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well, I would like you to review all the character development you've gone through since starting this

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and you know, if someone's saying the same negative things every day, then it's not working

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just want to make sure that's not you

abstract merlin Dec 29, 2023, 7:11 AM

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I’m really grateful for the support I’ve been getting

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I’m extremely mentally drained

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And I’m reaching my limit

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I’ve been to nice

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And I gave to many fucking chances

neat patrol Dec 29, 2023, 2:01 PM

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set boundaries for yourself..

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honestly I myself do not know how to..

toxic wraith Dec 29, 2023, 2:11 PM

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abstract merlin

Wait whats png youtuber?

toxic wraith Dec 29, 2023, 2:12 PM

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abstract merlin I’m really grateful for the support I’ve been getting

And hello again long time no see

toxic wraith Dec 29, 2023, 2:13 PM

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abstract merlin I’m really grateful for the support I’ve been getting

Were really really proud that you came this far rooHappy PeepoHeart

abstract merlin Dec 29, 2023, 6:31 PM

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toxic wraith Wait whats png youtuber?

Basically it’s someone who has a png of like art and uses a program to make the art talk and uses that as like their face?? (I’m not good at explaining lmfao)

abstract merlin Dec 29, 2023, 11:00 PM

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December 29th 2023

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Why am I like this..

abstract merlin Dec 29, 2023, 11:32 PM

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I don’t know..

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 12:03 AM

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im balling my eyes out

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are u trying to make fun of me lol

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it’s a funny joke I’ll give you that

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i don’t know you tell me, i just thought it was a joke

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dude I don’t fucking know

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this is my journal

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why are you writing in someone else’s fucking journal

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uh yeah it is

chilly island Dec 30, 2023, 12:19 AM

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<@&854409594063683595>

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What?

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 12:19 AM

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im a girl

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yeah

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ok

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you know you can make one of ur own right

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i really don’t mind

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it’s ok

chilly island Dec 30, 2023, 12:20 AM

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He’s start acting defensive and pretending he’s innocent because I ping mod

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Grow up

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You know damn wel what you was doing

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 12:21 AM

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yeah

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it’s ok

chilly island Dec 30, 2023, 12:21 AM

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How tf do you think that

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 12:21 AM

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i understand

chilly island Dec 30, 2023, 12:21 AM

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Im not

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For context some guy name cool dude was being a dick and when I ping mod for help he deleted all his messages

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 3:39 AM

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I think he left I can’t find him

chilly island Dec 30, 2023, 3:39 AM

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Yeah he definitely left

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No

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Found him

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@nocturne adder

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There you go

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 4:21 AM

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im so fucking mad

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every time i see a happy couple playing games and shit i start to get pissed, im happy for them but dude. i beg for that.

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im so tired

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i can’t believe im crying over it.

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 4:56 AM

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you can play games with people who aren't your partner

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 4:56 AM

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I can’t

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They’re always busy

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 4:57 AM

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also, that's a luxury

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 4:57 AM

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I beg in general for someone to talk to me every fucking day

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It’s so exhausting

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 4:57 AM

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most couples don't have the same gaming interests

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 4:57 AM

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I know

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 4:58 AM

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abstract merlin I beg in general for someone to talk to me every fucking day

I mean me too, but you won't realise how annoying it is when that actually happens

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for instance: mum

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 4:58 AM

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I don’t even talk to my family

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They don’t even like me

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 4:59 AM

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you really need a girl friend

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 4:59 AM

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Wdym

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 4:59 AM

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what I just said

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 4:59 AM

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I already do they’re busy as well

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 5:00 AM

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then there is no choice but to occupy yourself

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 5:01 AM

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I’ve been trying

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 5:01 AM

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life is mostly that

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 5:01 AM

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I don’t even know if they’re busy

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I think im getting neglected

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By mostly my closet friends

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It always starts so well then ends so terrible

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 5:02 AM

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also same

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 5:02 AM

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It’s one of the reasons why i have trust issues and social issues

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I keep sulking over the past

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I keep wishing and wishing

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But it’s never gonna be as good as it was

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I can’t even confront anyone or im seen as the bad guy

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They always EVERY SINGKE TIME turn it on me

chilly island Dec 30, 2023, 5:03 AM

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abstract merlin But it’s never gonna be as good as it was

You never know that it takes patience

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 5:04 AM

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chilly island You never know that it takes patience

Axen ive been waiting a year

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Ive been working my fucking ass off for over a year

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Im pretty sure it isn’t gonna get better

chilly island Dec 30, 2023, 5:04 AM

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You have to try and wait

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 5:04 AM

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You don’t understand

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And before you say you do you don’t

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I take care of everyone

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Except for myself

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Im the one that gets blamed

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Im the one who did this to myself

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And now im a bad person again

chilly island Dec 30, 2023, 5:08 AM

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No?

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 5:08 AM

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Eventually im gonna get it flipped on me

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Im getting punished for getting to happy

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 5:09 AM

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abstract merlin Ive been working my fucking ass off for over a year

I promise next year is going to look different

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I'm your next year

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 5:10 AM

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Its not.

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It’s just gonna get worse and worse until i just

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 5:10 AM

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that's not the spirit

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 5:10 AM

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I don’t have a fucking spirit anymore

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I lost it.

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 5:10 AM

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you don't listen to anyone do you

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two years ago, you know what I did when I met who seemed to be the 'closest friend of my life yet'?

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I sobbed, asking myself how my life was so miserable before

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then, you want to know what happened last year?

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 5:19 AM

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sure?

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 5:19 AM

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both of us left each other, not 'she left me I'm gonna cry', but both of us

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and you want to know what I learned this year?

solemn axle Dec 30, 2023, 5:31 AM

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hallow light and you want to know what I learned this year?

Do tell.

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 5:31 AM

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shh you ruined the tango, let her ping me

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 5:31 AM

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Sure

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 5:31 AM

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more like takes three to tango in this scenario 😆

solemn axle Dec 30, 2023, 5:32 AM

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I hate the tango

hallow light Dec 30, 2023, 5:32 AM

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but yeah I was trying to demonstrate that you gotta listen to the other person and also wait for them

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you're not the only one struggling

abstract merlin Dec 30, 2023, 11:41 PM

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December 30th, 2023

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It’s the same

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It’s a loop

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I can’t keep doing this loop

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If something doesn’t change then im cutting people off

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 12:31 AM

#

.

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ITS OVER

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WHY

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WHY ME

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WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO

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He’s gone again

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 1:07 AM

#

I feel a bit better

#

I calmed myself down

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 1:54 AM

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I can’t stop thinking about our relationship.

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We’re still friends

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And we will try again in three months

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But i will survive

#

It just hurts yk

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 2:29 AM

#

I like bojack horseman memes

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But im struggling

#

I’m struggling so bad

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 2:48 AM

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I’m trying not to beg

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I’m trying to be strong

#

I’m singing along to music trying my best to accept it

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I couldn’t hold it in

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I starting crying a bit

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 3:10 AM

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I can do this

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I knew this was gonna happen too

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But I didn’t say anything

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 4:53 AM

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here's something for the new years

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 4:53 AM

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I’m fine now

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 4:53 AM

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nice

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 4:53 AM

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You can dm me it

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If u want

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 4:54 AM

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Caligula's Horse - Salt

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that's the name

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 5:36 AM

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I feel even more empty

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 5:46 AM

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that's expected

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 5:46 AM

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Yeah..

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I just keep waiting

#

3 weeks is short but feels long

#

I’m gonna try to sleep before my depression and suicidal thoughts get worse

#

I miss him

#

Dude I am scared like my heart is pumping idk why

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I haven’t really ate anything yet

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When im stressed I can’t eat

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Like I won’t want too

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 6:18 AM

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eat

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 6:18 AM

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I literally can’t

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My body won’t let me

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And I won’t feel hungry

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This happened every time

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 6:19 AM

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if you can't care about yourself, why hope anyone else would do it for you

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 6:19 AM

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I don’t know

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 6:19 AM

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you are hungry, right?

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 6:19 AM

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I am incapable of caring for myself

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 6:19 AM

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hallow light you *are* hungry, right?

Very.

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But I cannot eat

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 6:20 AM

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I order you to grab a food

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 6:20 AM

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Why tho

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 6:20 AM

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because you're hungry

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 6:22 AM

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Fuck I can’t deal with the pain

#

I ate something and I feel worse

#

I fucking hate myself I can’t love myself I fucking can’t

#

I’m trying so hard

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But I can’t

#

I’m going through so much

#

It’s just too much

#

I don’t want to eat I don’t want to sleep I just want to disappear

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I fucking hate everything about me

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 6:38 AM

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take action

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 6:38 AM

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I fucking can’t

#

I’m crying and terrified of everyone and everything

#

This break up just made me a whole lot worse

#

Even if it’s not a full one

#

It still hurts

#

I’m trying to think positive

#

I’m trying to be happy for him

#

But it hurts so bad

#

I don’t want to tell him that

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I don’t think he is gonna read my journal tho

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 6:40 AM

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do you read your own journal, then?

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 6:40 AM

#

I do

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I barely made any progress

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 6:40 AM

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so you have read

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 6:40 AM

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Yes

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I always do

#

I can’t keep doing this off and on

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I don’t know if I can trust him or not

#

I don’t know what’s happening

#

I’m losing my sanity my mind

#

I’m trying so hard to hide it cause barely any of my friends are in this server

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I can’t get better can I

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 6:44 AM

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you can

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have you tried counselling here?

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I haven't

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 6:45 AM

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Idk how

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And idk what it is

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 6:46 AM

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seems like unavailable atm

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 6:46 AM

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Okay

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 7:09 AM

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I cannot stop crying it’s only 3 fucking weeks

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Why does it hurt so bad

#

The voices are getting louder and louder

#

I’m losing my sanity faster and faster

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I can’t. It hurts so fucking bad.

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Ok i need to shut the fuck up

#

This is just pathetic

#

It’s only three fucking weeks and im sulking like he died

#

Like bro come the fuck on

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What am I a fucking toddler

#

Oh shit I did something wrong

#

Why am I just sitting here crying

#

I need to start improving

#

In the end it’ll be worth it

#

Even if it’s a month or two it will be worth it

#

If he needs to heal he needs to heal

#

Why am I fucking crying about it

#

I need to accept it

#

Crying and sulking will only hurt myself

#

He’s human, he needs time

#

And I understood that

#

But as the day went on it hit me harder and härter

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I can do this

#

I’m strong

#

I’m not a weak toddler anymore

#

But I think I fucked up real bad

#

I need to breathe

#

It’s going to be okay

#

I’m making it a way bigger deal then it is

#

I’m gonna be fine

#

I can do this

#

I just need time

#

I got this

#

Even if it hurts

#

I have to keep pushing

#

I will heal

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I will fucking heal

#

I will be stronger than I ever will be after this

#

I fucking got this

#

I went through abuse for years

#

I can go through 3 weeks

#

Oh shit.

#

No.

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Breathe.

#

Breathe.

#

Breathe..

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It will be worth it

#

For both of us

#

Hopefully we will come back better then ever

#

Hopefully

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It’s his choice not mine

#

But either way

#

I will fucking heal

#

I fucking got this

#

I might be sleep deprived and traumatized but that’s okay

#

I’m not alone

#

We promised each other to improve

#

So I will improve

#

Even if it means losing every person I know

#

I will fucking improve

#

I deserve to improve

#

After all the shit

#

All of the manipulation

#

I deserve love

#

Even if it’s from myself

#

I will be strong

#

Weither I like it or not

#

I’m strong

#

I want raised to be a coward

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And here I was

#

Sulking

#

All though..

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I love them with all of my heart

#

But I will still improve

#

He said he believed in me my friends said that I was strong

#

I fought for life or death several times

#

I FUCKING GOT THIS

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IM NOT WEAK

#

IM NOT A COWARD

#

IM NOT AN IDIOT

#

IM NOT ANYTHING

#

IM A FUCKING PERSON

#

IM HUMAN

#

IF PEOPLE DONT LIKE THAT THEY CAN GO FUCK THEMSELVES

#

I FUCKING GOT THIS

#

I CAN BE INDEPENDENT FOR THREE WEEKS

#

I WAS INDEPENDENT FOR YEARS

#

I fucking got this

#

I need to eat tho im in pain

#

Not rn

#

I’m motivating myself

#

Even if im going through mood swings

#

This might be one of them

#

But I don’t care

#

I will push through it

#

I will heal

#

I’m a good person

#

I fought for my family I did my job

#

I lived up to their name

#

All I have to do now is be happy with myself and my life

#

I’ve been doing cardio

#

I learned from my past

#

Did it hurt?

#

Fuck yes it did

#

But im still alive

#

Its not the end of the world yet

#

I have plenty of time

#

I know that im getting stronger

#

I know my weaknesses

#

I know myself best

#

I can take care of myself for a couple of weeks

#

But we’re gonna improve

#

We got this

#

If I was independent for years before this, I can do it

#

I still love him ofc I do

#

I love him with all my heart

#

But for now I have to take care of myself

#

Like I promised

#

I will still check up on him

#

And I will always love him and care for him

#

If I have to lose all my friends, the people I care about to take care of myself and the people I love so fucking be it

#

But im making sure that I won’t lose him yet, I don’t even know if I will

#

And if I do, I’ll get depressed

#

But

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I will heal

#

That’s what life is

#

Healing and protecting

#

If anything trauma makes me stronger

#

I learn from it and move on

#

I got this

#

Life is exciting in ways

#

Ways I never knew

#

I’m not even halfway

#

I feel alot fucking better

#

I should motivate myself more often

#

I’m too motivated

#

I gotta breathe and calm down im hyper

#

I’m kinda scared that he’ll break the promises

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 8:02 AM

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good

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 8:02 AM

#

Wdym good

#

About me being motivated?

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 8:18 AM

#

Oh fuck

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 9:31 AM

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I’m crying but it’s ok I’ll be fine

#

I don’t want to do this

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 9:32 AM

#

need an ?

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 9:32 AM

#

But it’ll be worth it

#

Sure

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 9:32 AM

#

go take it from that sentence

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 9:33 AM

#

Yayyyy

#

January 21st..

#

6 days before our one year anniversary.

#

It really hurts when I fully realize it

#

But I can do this

short ingot Dec 31, 2023, 9:53 AM

#

Journal of my life!

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 9:57 AM

#

Bro is literally me

#

I’m gonna try to sleep peacefully then wake up remembering everything but then trying my best to get better but failing after

#

I’ll still try

hallow light Dec 31, 2023, 12:27 PM

#

rest well

#

you know you're still pretty well off

#

I don't have a partner or a close friend that I can readily talk to

#

the streets outside are so calm I can even sleep here

#

and it's not that cold

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 3:54 PM

#

December 31st, 2033

#

Tomorrow’s new years

#

I don’t feel great

#

I feel the opposite of that

#

But I have to get used to it

#

I can’t do anything about it

#

20 more days

#

It’s so quiet

#

It’s too quiet

#

I’m just gonna sleep for 20 days

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 7:28 PM

#

I have pt get a flu shoot soon verysad

hoary vapor Dec 31, 2023, 9:25 PM

#

abstract merlin I have pt get a flu shoot soon <:verysad:1116091513840082994>

Dw they aint bad

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 9:25 PM

#

I have a extreme fear of needles

#

I have to get it by the ninth

#

Eh

#

I made an edit tho

#

I love this show

#

My heart is pumping hard

#

I’m scared but I don’t know why

#

It was this random feelings

#

Now he won’t leave my mind

#

There’s something wrong with my heart

#

Every time I think of the future or the 21st of January my heart pumps hard

#

It’s getting harder and harder to eat too not because of stress my throat is like closing

#

I’ll be fine

#

Seeing a doctor is too expensive rn

#

I just got motivation again

#

I’m just gonna chill today

#

Yesterday was a lot so

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 10:23 PM

#

Im happier

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 11:03 PM

#

I can’t really laugh

#

If I do the worst memory’s will pop up

#

Idk why that’s happening

#

My heart got worse

#

A lot worse

#

It’s beating extremely hard

#

It’s hard to breathe

#

It’s hard to believe that I’ll be alone for new years

#

I know I said I was strong

#

But it hurts when I keep realizing all of it

#

I’ll be fine

#

I have to get my heart checked

#

Please don’t cry.

#

The fireworks are scaring me nooo

abstract merlin Dec 31, 2023, 11:56 PM

#

I feel sick to my stomach I’ve been blank all day too

#

I don’t know if I can actually do this

#

Will he keep the promises.

#

I don’t know anymore it’s upsetting me so bad

#

I want to ask for comfort but if I ask or try to strike a convo I think he will get mad

#

It’s so lonely man

#

I’m trying to spend time with friends

#

But it still hurts

#

I got this right?

#

I’ll be fine right?

#

It’s only three weeks

#

I can’t stop thinking of him dude

#

It hurts

#

I’m a bit happier

#

I have silly friends

neat patrol Jan 1, 2024, 12:42 AM

#

It's 2024

#

Here in Australia

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 12:42 AM

#

Happy new years man

neat patrol Jan 1, 2024, 12:42 AM

#

You too

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 12:42 AM

#

I’m finna kms nooo

neat patrol Jan 1, 2024, 12:42 AM

#

2024 is boring

neat patrol Jan 1, 2024, 12:43 AM

#

abstract merlin I’m finna kms <:nooo:1187623708634914846>

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 12:43 AM

#

Idk

neat patrol Jan 1, 2024, 12:44 AM

#

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 12:44 AM

#

Idk what to work on

#

WHAT DID MY FRIEND DO LMAO

neat patrol Jan 1, 2024, 12:50 AM

#

😧

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 12:50 AM

#

TAHTS MY TIKTOK PAGE

#

verysad

neat patrol Jan 1, 2024, 12:50 AM

#

Im steal

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 12:55 AM

#

I’m stressed as fuck

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 1:15 AM

#

I need to calm down

#

I’m blacking out a lot

#

I keep sighing and sighing and getting more light headed

#

All of the memories is hitting me so hard

#

I want to do so much

#

I love it when he was clingy and got jealous im scared that after three weeks he would change completely

#

Im roasting my friends rn

#

Me fr

#

Jesus 27 reactions

#

Sob

#

Studio ghibli is so cute

hoary vapor Jan 1, 2024, 2:10 AM

#

abstract merlin It’s hard to believe that I’ll be alone for new years

Im alone all the time i guess you just get used to it gets peaceful sometimes but I get that pain you described you cant breathe

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 2:10 AM

#

No like I legit have breathing problems rn

#

I feel sad without him

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 2:41 AM

#

#

I’m practicing animation so I won’t have to be sad

#

#

#

Ugh.

#

I don’t know what to do anymore.

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 3:15 AM

#

I’m gonna go play vr with friends because im thinking negative

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 3:50 AM

#

I got made fun of and called obese

#

I’m fucking scared

#

Is it over fully.

#

What did my friends mean by “I sound obese.”

#

I feel so bad for both of us

neat patrol Jan 1, 2024, 4:14 AM

#

abstract merlin Studio ghibli is so cute

OMG SPIRITED AWAY LOL

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 4:14 AM

#

YEAH!

neat patrol Jan 1, 2024, 4:14 AM

#

That's Chihiro and Haku

#

However you spell their names

#

And those weird dust particle thingies

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 4:15 AM

#

I love studio ghiblis aesthetic

neat patrol Jan 1, 2024, 4:16 AM

#

SAME

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 4:16 AM

#

I just got done watching a movie from then idk what it was called

#

But it was this little girl that was a fish or something

neat patrol Jan 1, 2024, 4:16 AM

#

Once I was on a school trip/excursion to camp and we were kn a coach and we all watched howls moving castle

#

In*

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 4:51 AM

#

I don’t want to live in pain anymore bro

#

But I don’t want to make him more depressed

#

I fucking hate myself

#

Am I just bothering him

#

Am I annoying him

#

Is that all I ever did

#

I’m having so much trouble

#

I don’t want to be alone I try to be independent I really do but I am literally always alone I talk in only 2 server

#

When I calm myself down something triggers me again right after

#

So what’s the point in doing that

#

Am I doomed

#

Am I just doomed to live in this hell

#

I’m trying so hard for him

#

I really am

#

But im out of time and mental stability

#

I want to take a break

#

Like

#

From life

#

It’s not even the break up

#

It’s what happened for this past month

#

And technically we didn’t break up

#

It’s a break

#

This is just a tiny part of my shit life

#

It’s funny I really thought for Fucking ONCE

#

Just once

#

My life can be normal

#

BUT IM A FOOL

#

I have to act happier

#

But it’s obvious by now isn’t it

#

I’ll be fine

#

I need to stop whinning

#

Happy new year everyone

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 7:04 AM

#

I feel a lot better

hallow light Jan 1, 2024, 7:39 AM

#

good

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 7:40 AM

#

Yippie

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 9:22 AM

#

YOOOOO

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 10:19 AM

#

I’m so excited

#

I’m playing an relaxing game

hallow light Jan 1, 2024, 10:23 AM

#

me too

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 10:39 AM

#

I was playing a little to the left

#

It’s on steam but I used switch

#

I just finished it

hallow light Jan 1, 2024, 12:48 PM

#

I only know about it from youtube

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 9:04 PM

#

January 1st, 2024

#

I slept really good

abstract merlin Jan 1, 2024, 10:47 PM

#

I’m really happy

abstract merlin Jan 2, 2024, 2:59 AM

#

Today was great

abstract merlin Jan 2, 2024, 7:39 AM

#

DUDE MY FUCKING JEALOUSLY

#

We had and argument and it ended badly

#

I’m trying i know i say that shit a lot but i really am

#

But my trust has been fucked over

#

Several times

#

I have a lot of reasons why i have trust issues with him

#

I know it isn’t fair but I wasn’t even trying to do anything

#

I am just gonna shut up

#

I cant see that well

hallow light Jan 2, 2024, 7:56 AM

#

yeah you two are too similar

abstract merlin Jan 2, 2024, 7:56 AM

#

I’m sorry

#

I don’t know what else to fucking say

hallow light Jan 2, 2024, 7:56 AM

#

does he go to real therapy?

#

(not on this discord)

abstract merlin Jan 2, 2024, 7:57 AM

#

Yes

#

Every 3 weeks

#

I believe

hallow light Jan 2, 2024, 7:57 AM

#

I used to go once every week

abstract merlin Jan 2, 2024, 7:57 AM

#

I never even said he was a bad person tho.

#

I wasn’t hinting at it or anything

#

I don’t think he’s a bad person

#

He is the opposite

#

How can he not see it

#

Why did i even say anything

#

This is like our 3rd argument

#

I don’t know how to get better but I’m trying everything

#

I think it’s too late for me

#

It isn’t my exs fault

#

It’s my fault for not taking action early

#

I was young and stupid

#

And i let him cheat on me so many times lmao

#

I don’t know what to do idk if I should text him or not

#

I’m gonna try to be positive

#

Me and my bf had alot of fun today

#

I’m so grateful for him

#

And i hope he knows that

#

My friends apologized for earlier when they made fun of me

#

I don’t really forgive them but they said it was a joke

#

And I’ve been getting better at my hobbies

#

I had the courage to block a toxic friend who’s been using me for months

abstract merlin Jan 2, 2024, 9:18 AM

#

abstract merlin Jan 2, 2024, 10:41 AM

#

Some memes

little ingot Jan 2, 2024, 4:10 PM

#

abstract merlin And I’ve been getting better at my hobbies

Thats good.

abstract merlin Jan 2, 2024, 8:20 PM

#

January 2nd, 2024

#

Pissed off

abstract merlin Jan 2, 2024, 11:17 PM

#

I’m stressed

#

Just a bit

abstract merlin Jan 3, 2024, 7:35 AM

#

chilly island Jan 3, 2024, 7:35 AM

#

SLEEP

abstract merlin Jan 3, 2024, 9:02 PM

#

January 3, 2024

#

I SLEPT IN SO LATE

abstract merlin Jan 3, 2024, 11:19 PM

#

Today was normal

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 12:08 AM

#

We’re back to this huh

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 1:45 AM

#

I’m just waiting for him

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 2:06 AM

#

My pc is actually arriving on Thursday

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 2:57 AM

#

He isn’t gonna respond

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 3:21 AM

#

It’s fine

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 5:46 AM

#

I’m going to sleep there isn’t a point in waiting anymore

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 7:24 AM

#

January 4, 2024

#

Pc arrives today

#

I guess it’s back to the same routine

#

nooo

rigid walrus Jan 4, 2024, 7:25 AM

#

abstract merlin # January 4, 2024

(2024)

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 7:25 AM

#

rigid walrus (2024)

Thanks

#

happy

#

Wait how many people read this journal

#

Jesus

rigid walrus Jan 4, 2024, 7:26 AM

#

abstract merlin Wait how many people read this journal

I’ve been lurkin around it🤔

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 7:26 AM

#

I feel bad now

#

I say a lot of depressing shit

#

I can’t help it tho

rigid walrus Jan 4, 2024, 7:26 AM

#

abstract merlin I say a lot of depressing shit

That’s okay! Don’t feel bad

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 7:32 AM

#

I cant sleep

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 7:53 AM

#

I tried drawing a paw

#

Now I’m finally tored

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 9:28 AM

#

I miss him

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 11:58 AM

#

I stayed up all fucking night

#

cry

#

I physically couldn’t sleep

abstract merlin Jan 4, 2024, 11:04 PM

#

my pc is here

abstract merlin Jan 5, 2024, 4:34 AM

#

idk what to say anymore

#

i keep getting depressed

abstract merlin Jan 5, 2024, 7:34 AM

#

I sleep now

abstract merlin Jan 5, 2024, 8:15 AM

#

Before i do enjoy a picture I took

abstract merlin Jan 5, 2024, 7:16 PM

#

January 5th 2024

abstract merlin Jan 5, 2024, 9:02 PM

#

Yeah

#

I love sky

raven hemlock Jan 5, 2024, 9:58 PM

#

abstract merlin Before i do enjoy a picture I took

SKYSBTHE BEST

abstract merlin Jan 5, 2024, 10:05 PM

#

FRRRR

abstract merlin Jan 6, 2024, 1:02 AM

#

I’m pissed off to the point where I cry

#

It’s funny

#

just fucking smile look what happens when you express anger

#

im overwhelmed

abstract merlin Jan 6, 2024, 1:34 AM

#

I’m so anxious rn

abstract merlin Jan 6, 2024, 1:50 AM

#

I feel bad.

abstract merlin Jan 6, 2024, 2:26 AM

#

I’m getting jealous ugh

#

im fine everything is fine

#

he isnt talking to me but thats ok

#

He’s gone again isn’t he

#

I’m in a lot of pain and this makes it worse but that’s ok

#

I forgive him

abstract merlin Jan 6, 2024, 3:48 AM

#

i think he’s actually gone now

hallow light Jan 6, 2024, 6:29 AM

#

play some games

#

if you allocate some time to do things, your perspective on the situation will change

#

basically just distract yourself whenever you're feeling flip floppy

abstract merlin Jan 7, 2024, 1:36 AM

#

Januray 6th. 2024

#

i give up on my dream lmfaooo

#

I’m overwhelmed again

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 12:15 AM

#

January 7th, 2024

#

He’s starting to barely talk to me again

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 1:19 AM

#

im pissed off again

#

im getting overwhelmed with so much emotion

#

it burns

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 1:44 AM

#

im a bit better i inspired someone

tardy tide Jan 8, 2024, 1:45 AM

#

we need update tomorrow

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 1:45 AM

#

wdym

tardy tide Jan 8, 2024, 1:47 AM

#

we need update tomorrow

#

of what happens

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 1:48 AM

#

in their journal or mine cause i always have updates in mine

tardy tide Jan 8, 2024, 1:48 AM

#

yours

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 1:48 AM

#

i always update

tardy tide Jan 8, 2024, 1:48 AM

#

tomorrow update yayayay

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 1:48 AM

#

DAMN

tardy tide Jan 8, 2024, 1:48 AM

#

ur cool glitch

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 1:49 AM

#

thank you

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 3:15 AM

#

im scaring away my friends and partner

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 8:00 AM

#

Wow..

#

My own best friend bro.

hallow light Jan 8, 2024, 8:35 AM

#

well that's a misunderstanding

#

don't dig into negative thoughts

hallow light Jan 8, 2024, 8:56 AM

#

plus I never ask my friends that because it feels manipulative

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 8:56 AM

#

There’s so much going on still

hallow light Jan 8, 2024, 8:57 AM

#

I get it. it's neuroticism.

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 8:57 AM

#

hallow light plus I never ask my friends that because it feels manipulative

He was treating me like literal shit calling me selfish when I talking about my problems

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 8:57 AM

#

hallow light I get it. it's neuroticism.

What’s that?

hallow light Jan 8, 2024, 8:57 AM

#

ok ditch him

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 8:58 AM

#

What’s neuroticism

hallow light Jan 8, 2024, 8:59 AM

#

search it up

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 8:59 AM

#

Okay

#

Yeah…

#

I’m actually about to cry he keeps turning into the victim making me even more overwhelmed

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 10:08 AM

#

I’ve calmed down a lot

#

I think about my future

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 11:05 AM

#

January 8th, 2024

#

Im glad im inspiring people

#

I’m mentally exhausted tho

#

I just want to calm down bcuz school starts tmrw

#

I’m still flabbergasted how many reactions this has

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 12:11 PM

#

I’m so tired but can’t sleep

#

I think im just gonna have to pull an all nighter

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 12:33 PM

#

I’m going insane

#

I’m so fucking pissed dude

#

I’m seeing things

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 12:55 PM

#

I feel like im on a acid trip

#

I feel high

#

But I know im not

abstract merlin Jan 8, 2024, 11:57 PM

#

is everything a lie

#

was i lied too this whole time

#

probably

abstract merlin Jan 9, 2024, 12:18 AM

#

im ok but i feel worthless and used

#

i should be getting the shot tmr

#

It was my fault wasn’t it

abstract merlin Jan 9, 2024, 4:34 AM

#

My confidence got a bit worse but im fine

abstract merlin Jan 9, 2024, 12:53 PM

#

January 9th 2024

#

I couldn’t sleep well

#

I’m gonna try

hallow light Jan 9, 2024, 12:55 PM

#

how much does it take on average to get into sleep from the moment you lie on bed?

abstract merlin Jan 9, 2024, 12:55 PM

#

A hour or two

hallow light Jan 9, 2024, 12:55 PM

#

that's normal for me too

abstract merlin Jan 9, 2024, 12:56 PM

#

I’ve been so stressed lately and I ruined my sleep schedule lol

abstract merlin Jan 9, 2024, 9:33 PM

#

im having a mental breakdown

abstract merlin Jan 9, 2024, 10:50 PM

#

my grandfather is in the hospital

#

i just got told

#

i can’t imagine him dying

abstract merlin Jan 10, 2024, 2:34 AM

#

Idk if i wanna work in the technology industry or animation industry

abstract merlin Jan 10, 2024, 2:54 AM

#

MAT PAT QUIT cry

neat patrol Jan 10, 2024, 5:35 AM

#

abstract merlin MAT PAT QUIT <:cry:894380188429860864>

abstract merlin Jan 10, 2024, 5:36 AM

#

I was also sad bro

abstract merlin Jan 10, 2024, 6:24 AM

#

abstract merlin Jan 10, 2024, 7:07 AM

#

OOOOO

abstract merlin Jan 10, 2024, 8:53 AM

#

I think im gonna have to stay up again

#

Idk why I can’t sleep

abstract merlin Jan 10, 2024, 11:23 AM

#

Yayyy

abstract merlin Jan 10, 2024, 12:19 PM

#

I love that drawing

#

AWWW

#

DID THEY REJOVE THE TEXT

#

January 10, 2024

#

Made eggs

abstract merlin Jan 10, 2024, 12:36 PM

#

jeez

#

dude im so excited for college

hallow light Jan 10, 2024, 12:52 PM

#

college

abstract merlin Jan 10, 2024, 12:53 PM

#

did i spell it wrong

#

mb

regal dawn Jan 10, 2024, 4:06 PM

#

colege*

#

colegge*

#

collge*

#

collage*

hoary vapor Jan 10, 2024, 9:02 PM

#

None of the spelling seems right lol

abstract merlin Jan 10, 2024, 9:57 PM

#

Lol

#

I keep falling asleep

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 12:41 AM

#

Furry snout thing

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 1:07 AM

#

I noticed that me and my bf are drifting idk if it’s on purpose or not

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 2:16 AM

#

I’m not mad at him

#

Just

#

Concerned.

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 2:51 AM

#

I feel like I can’t say anything or im the bad guy

hallow light Jan 11, 2024, 3:27 AM

#

no, it's part of growing up, to be able to stand on your own

#

neither of you are suddenly 'bad'

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 3:36 AM

#

^ very good point

#

you guys will grow up someday yk

#

it will hurt for sure but just remember its all a part of growing up

#

you'll be alright

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 4:08 AM

#

regal dawn you guys will grow up someday yk

I know

#

That’s terrifying

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 4:40 AM

#

very terrifying i know but understand you guys are still young

#

your goals and povs will change

#

it doesnt look like it would right now but it will be all of a sudden

hallow light Jan 11, 2024, 4:40 AM

#

the real terrifying part comes when everyone just thinks about money

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 4:40 AM

#

even i dont see shit coming

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 4:41 AM

#

hallow light the real terrifying part comes when everyone just thinks about money

top 10 people who only thought about m-

hallow light Jan 11, 2024, 4:41 AM

#

does that youtube channel make the list

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 4:48 AM

#

errr

#

maybe

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 7:43 AM

#

chilly island Jan 11, 2024, 7:50 AM

#

Sleep

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 7:50 AM

#

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 12:05 PM

#

Januray 11th 2024

#

I made eggs again

#

Idk when im going to school

#

Next week probably?

#

I’m thinking of writing again like I used too

#

I used to write warrior cat type stories

#

Todays starting great for me

#

I’m happy

#

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 1:39 PM

#

Idk if im going to school moms confusing me

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 2:25 PM

#

im writing a story now

#

yay

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 2:28 PM

#

what is it?

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 2:29 PM

#

a story of a haunted mansion im so original/j

#

im bored and a friend recommended it so

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 2:30 PM

#

ah i see

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 2:30 PM

#

yippieeee

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 2:30 PM

#

well if it keeps you happy that's great

#

story is great btw

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 2:30 PM

#

i have not wrote in a long time

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 2:31 PM

#

you could consider that as your good hobbies

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 2:31 PM

#

noted!

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 2:31 PM

#

if you have more hobbies you can manage each one for a specific time

#

but you dont have to do all of it

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 2:31 PM

#

i might im starting to feel like i used too

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 2:32 PM

#

used to?

#

writing?

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 2:32 PM

#

liking the same things basically

#

like writiing

regal dawn Jan 11, 2024, 2:33 PM

#

then you simply love writing

#

keep going

#

!!

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 2:33 PM

#

SChappy

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 3:22 PM

#

I miss him

abstract merlin Jan 11, 2024, 10:30 PM

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I just woke up and someone wanted to argue for no reason

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 4:13 AM

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I can’t complain about something thats bothering me or im a bad person lol

regal dawn Jan 12, 2024, 4:28 AM

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you can just stay passive as you word it

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!!

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 4:29 AM

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I don’t know what to do anymore

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When I vent it’s wrong

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When I confront someone it’s wrong

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I have to pretend like im ok with everything

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If im not, ill have consequences

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 5:01 AM

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I think I should@just isolate myself at this point

regal dawn Jan 12, 2024, 5:18 AM

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abstract merlin When I vent it’s wrong

if you fear being judged by everyone for your vent you can vent in my dms (but later cause class)

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its up to you though

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 5:19 AM

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It’s not just here it’s irl or privately by my closets friends

solemn axle Jan 12, 2024, 5:19 AM

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regal dawn if you fear being judged by everyone for your vent you can vent in my dms (but l...

you got CLASS right now???

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 5:19 AM

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Time zones probably 😭

regal dawn Jan 12, 2024, 5:19 AM

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solemn axle you got CLASS right now???

yeah?

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whats wrong?

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 5:19 AM

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It’s midnight for me

regal dawn Jan 12, 2024, 5:20 AM

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abstract merlin It’s not just here it’s irl or privately by my closets friends

ok i understand

solemn axle Jan 12, 2024, 5:21 AM

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regal dawn yeah?

Nothing lol just time zones are crazy it’s 12:20 at night for me

regal dawn Jan 12, 2024, 5:21 AM

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ah i see its normal

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but its difficult to communicate cause of timezones ngl

solemn axle Jan 12, 2024, 5:22 AM

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regal dawn but its difficult to communicate cause of timezones ngl

True that.

hallow light Jan 12, 2024, 6:17 AM

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naw not that much in my experience

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I've got friends that are half an earth away

regal dawn Jan 12, 2024, 8:16 AM

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HALF AN EARTH LOL

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 10:10 AM

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WIP

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 10:42 AM

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I’m so proud

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 11:45 AM

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abstract merlin im bored and a friend recommended it so

Is this actually good

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Cause I have Motivation to continue

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 12:27 PM

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Doing an art collab (my half)

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I don’t like it that much

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 12:48 PM

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I rushed the background 😭

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The green one is hers the other is mine

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I just saw a amazingly terrifying drawing

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They had pure talent

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Today is starting out amazing

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I have hope for this year

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My sister is screaming and crying

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hallow light Jan 12, 2024, 1:17 PM

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motivation is good

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 1:50 PM

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Question

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What do u think of this drawing

hoary vapor Jan 12, 2024, 3:36 PM

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abstract merlin What do u think of this drawing

personally i'd make the eyes smaller

abstract merlin Jan 12, 2024, 3:37 PM

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I’ll note that

abstract merlin Jan 13, 2024, 9:21 AM

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jaunurary 13th, 2024

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yesterday was amazing

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me and my bf had a lot of fun

regal dawn Jan 13, 2024, 9:22 AM

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thats great

abstract merlin Jan 13, 2024, 9:23 AM

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My eyes kinda hurt lol

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abstract merlin Jan 13, 2024, 11:49 AM

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I’m crying rn lyinja passed away.

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Or cooking with lynja

regal dawn Jan 13, 2024, 12:09 PM

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wair that old lady?

abstract merlin Jan 13, 2024, 12:09 PM

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Yeah.

regal dawn Jan 13, 2024, 12:09 PM

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oh shit no way

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wtf

abstract merlin Jan 13, 2024, 12:09 PM

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She died on new years..

regal dawn Jan 13, 2024, 12:09 PM

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i didnt expect her to go

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man its still too early

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i watched her collab with some other creators

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and some of her content now i find out shes gone

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amen 🙏🙏🙏

abstract merlin Jan 13, 2024, 12:18 PM

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Rest in peace man..

abstract merlin Jan 13, 2024, 7:40 PM

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I’m in a lot of pain

abstract merlin Jan 14, 2024, 3:12 AM

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writers block cry

abstract merlin Jan 14, 2024, 10:37 PM

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Janurary 14th, 2024

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pissed off

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i want to bash my head in

#Journal of my life!

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