I wanted to draw and write novels for a long time. I been trying for 3 years and still no progress. I have no source of inspiration or motivation to do anything all I literally do everyday is being in my phone on tiktok everyday. I have no habit, and I know why this is happening to me, I have no talent and I get annoyed if someone says that I have talent after seeing the most horrible drawing that I did, because I know that I they are lying. And all the things I have written are mostly prologues from the same webnovel that I have working for a long time. And the only short story I did, was horrible. And dont tell me that it could be good, and to dont judge my abilities, other people read it, people who write, and said is bad. I really want to leave all my dreams of being famous and just after I graduate from high school. I just waste my days on the bed whit the phone or the ps5, and never go to college, and stay whit my family until I die. Or should I just off myself?
#Should I stop going for my dreams
bold crag
silver grail
Stay with your family and work on yourself
I deleted TikTok 3 years ago
I've felt better than before
Motivate yourself
Use your emotions for motivation
Make a story about your past
And mix it along with the future you want
bold crag
Motivate yourself
That is literally the same thing everyone tells me. The same thing every book about depression says.
Always.
bold crag
The same like you cant logic your way out of depresson.
bold crag
Nobody can motivate you
Its just that they always say the same thing.
bold crag
It's because you have to work on yourself to improve
I have tried.
silver grail
"I can't drive a car"
You have someone come and help you
"Press the throttle, brake, clutch" etc
They give you instructions to follow
bold crag
My family tried to help me. A lot of people have tried.
But its just that, I have never found help in my family, or in any person I know.
silver grail
It's because they can't help you
They can influence you
But can't help
Help comes from change in your heart and mind
Not someone trying to change you
bold crag
Thats why a person kills themselve. Because they have never found in their family, friends and in society.
pliant cape
I believe having a well supported family rather than a non supportive one would help with depression
bold crag
I believe having a well supported family rather than a non supportive one would ...
My family is supportive.
pliant cape
Well to be honest, if you want to write, you write. Nobody can tell you your not good enough because writing isn’t like maths, it’s opinion and imagination
Just because they don’t like it doesn’t mean nobody else will
silver grail
Yeah
pliant cape
You also said people who write said it was bad but the only way that’s a valid opinion is if they have done writing in college or university, or a successful writer themselves, if that is the case then of course they are going to say it’s bad because they have had much more experience, they shouldn’t have said it because it’s rude and not thoughtful but don’t get hang up on what they think, focus on your own work
bold crag
You also said people who write said it was bad but the only way that’s a valid o...
I just to make good, that are good; not making bad things thinking its good.
I want to be good. But I lack of talent and skill, I tried to learn, but it didnt work at all. Im just naturally bad at everything.
pliant cape
Talent is a social construct, it just means someone starts off with that skill. An example, I used to be terrible at piano, I gave up on it a few times, but after a couple years I got into it and I am able to play fur Elise
Life is about learning and improving, but you can’t learn and improve if you don’t believe in yourself
pliant cape
I want to be good. But I lack of talent and skill, I tried to learn, but it didn...
Your also not bad at everything, you shouldn’t put yourself down like that. That’s where depression starts, giving up on yourself
bold crag
I think already lost all hope.
bold crag
Life is about learning and improving, but you can’t learn and improve if you don...
Its just that the whole lots of things that I need to learn mess whit my head, even if I try to organize. Or try to take it step by step.
I really want to enjoy the progress, but its so frustrating all the time, that my mind just stops working. And give up at the smallest obstacle.
bold crag
Who in your family is supportive of your writing?
Everyone.
bold crag
The most important person to you
Everyone.
They dont help me, they just cheer me up.
I showed them some of my things, I think they lied that it was good. To not make me feel bad.
pliant cape
How do you know they lied, maybe they genuinely thought it was good
bold crag
How do you know they lied, maybe they genuinely thought it was good
Cuz they always say it.
For all my life they said that to me.
bold crag
Im too selfish.
mighty cradle
Maybe right now isn’t the time when you will achieve those dreams, maybe later on in life you achieve those dreams. But right now my best advice would to be to go to trade school and pick a trade.
@bold crag
bold crag
Maybe right now isn’t the time when you will achieve those dreams, maybe later o...
The hell is trade school.
mighty cradle
The hell is trade school.
It’s where you would go to become an electrician, or plumber, and other trades like that
Carpenting
Maybe you could even become a jack of all trades, master of none