I am ending it all soon.

[astral eagle]

Hi there. I hope you are ok?
||Ending your life|| is painful and actually ||attempting|| can be too. The fact that you have been feeling this way for 2 years is really sad but the fact that you are still here and fighting to survive is also really important to remember and validate. Cause I from my experience found it really hard to keep going as well for a really long time. For me I'm now quite a bit better as I have meds that are right for me and I'm in intensive therapy. I'm not going to say things will definitely get better or that you'll never feel this way again because I don't know that for a fact but what we do know is that everything changes and actually your situation and how you handle things will change cause that's a fact of life. I find the fact that I know that through maturity and experience I will change, even if it's just a bit, really reassuring. Cause even if things are looking really rubbish right now, they may not always look exactly the same. Sorry if that doesn't make sense but hopefully at least you'll know that I and many other care about you and want you to be safe. No one deserves to feel so rubbish and I wouldn't wish it on anyone ever.

[astral eagle]

I mean yeah
I survived for 2 years but like
I have been losing myself more and more and now
I just cant take it
I cant keep going on just suffering like this for my entire life

Also there is no way for me for get help like you

Why can you just assume that people care about me?

[astral eagle]

Do you live somewhere without accessable mental health services? Cause if you do that sucks and I'm really sorry.

[astral eagle]

Most individuals, especially others who have experienced poor mental health themselves, will definitely care about everyone else's struggles. Because they know what it's like to struggle in life so they'd never want anyone else to experience suffering like they have gone though.

[astral eagle]

Yep

@astral eagle
Sorry but

I am killing myself soon

I really cant take it anymore

Goodbye

[astral eagle]

Soon as in like right now today? Cause of that's the case you need to ring for help. Or go to a hospital if you have acted on the urges and are in danger.

[astral eagle]

Not today but in a few days

[astral eagle]

You know that you are still young. Why end it now? When there's a chance that things will change and that your life will become better. I've tried four times to kill myself, and none worked, trust me, it is painful. After the 4th, I gave up and just realized that I was meant to be here. It also isn't worth it at all. Please just focus on yourself and your well-being. As doing basic things like maintaining hygiene, eating regularly, drinking water, etc will go a long way.

[astral eagle]

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[astral eagle]

There is no way for me
Some people can have a better life
Some people cant
and I am one of them

[astral eagle]

You don't know that. You are blinded by the darkness to the point where you can't see any light

[astral eagle]

Remember when I said
"I will kill myself in a few days"
Well
That few days meant 3 days
It means
Tomorrow I am killing myself

Maybe even today

Also why are people worrying about me so much?
Having suicidal thoughts is not that rare here
I got like 2 DMs

[astral eagle]

Cause it's a really serious issue and people care.
They don't want you to ||hurt|| yourself and then be in pain. But also losing anyone to ||suicide|| is a real tragedy and no one wants that to happen.

[astral eagle]

Maybe
Just maybe
Some people will care about me
Then they will forget about it and move on after 2 days

I am killing myself tomorrow.

That fits better

[astral eagle]

I'm really hoping you don't and that you stay safe.
||Hurting|| yourself isn't a good solution for anyone. Even for people in a lot of distress, things can and will change. You won't be in the same place physically or emotionally forever.
Also I'm not sure it's sensible to not try to censor your title if you can. Not everyone will be comfortable seeing that, especially during their recovery. We don't want to trigger anyone if we can help it.

[astral eagle]

Well
I guess you shouldnt worry that much
I have no idea how I am gonna kill myself today but
All I can say is that
The 10 seconds of immense pain that I feel after I die is much less than the 70 years of just eternal suffering

I am killing myself today.

I am ||killing myself|| today.

[astral eagle]

Btw you cant censor titles

I am ending it today.

I am ending it all today.

[astral eagle]

Failing is just gonna make things worse. As I said I’ve tried 4 times and none worked. Save yourself the time and just focus on yourself. Things will get better if you just focus on yourself.

[astral eagle]

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[chilly holly]

@astral eagle hey, u alive?