i feel like im not enough

[stable notch]

no matter what i do im never enough for anyone, im never anyones first choice and if i didnt exist absolutely nobody would care, it wouldnt change anything for anybody and i just mean nothing
i dont have it in me to do this anymore im so tired of not being wanted
i just want to be wanted by someone
i try so so hard, and still nobody wants me
i'm not "cool" enough for anybody, i dont fit in with anybody at all
im too weird for the popular girls
im too "basic" for the weird kids
i just want to fit in, i want to be wanted.
i just need someone to validate my feelings unlike any therapist ive talked to.

[sage kelp]

Hey, I know exactly how you feel right now. Being stuck in this mentality of "you're never good enough" or "you won't ever fit in" SUCKS. The thing is... Why do you have to fit in? Why don't you be yourself? If people don't accept that, then that's their problem and not yours. The biggest problem that I've had was letting that stuff stick to me and drag me to the ground everyday. You SHOULD NEVER do that because it ruins your mood all day everyday, makes you second-guess everyone's intentions, and most importantly, it feeds you lies. This is a coping mechanism of automatic negative thoughts and something that so many people struggle with. Something that I do is write down in my notes app all the different negative thoughts that my mind has made up over a week and take time to journal and create responses to these thoughts that build you up rather than tear you down. I know how depressed you feel right now and how hopeless and isolated you are, but you don't have to be. Your feelings are so valid, but if you want to overcome this depression, you gotta keep your eyes off of the ground and keep going. I know this response probably pissed you off since this is probably not the message that you wanted to hear, but I swear that I've been in your shoes and it does get better.

If you ever need someone to talk to, my DMs are always open (just keep in mind that I don't respond very quick)

[stable notch]

thank you so much this is one of the best nicest things anyones ever said to me

[sage kelp]

You're welcome! And if you ever need anything, don't be afraid to reach out!

[stable notch]

if i have any problems after school i might reach out !!!