Should use wich type of rose?

[astral vault]

why is it a "last" note

[vivid mica]

because its my last one

i am planning something big before i go

[astral vault]

why?

[astral vault]

where are you going?

[vivid mica]

somewhere up in the forest or maybe standing near a rail track

[vivid mica]

because ill prolly aint gonna be alive to send any more "sick" or "day off" notes

[astral vault]

why not?

[vivid mica]

what do you mean by that?

[astral vault]

why won't you be alive?

[vivid mica]

prolly because i will be dead?

im gonna make a letter before the big day

before i fuggin ran off somewhere and wouldnt be seen again,maybe ever

i just want to make people remember abt my weird stuff and wouldnt go to chose the direction on which i am going to

[astral vault]

why do you want to die?

[vivid mica]

and to make it more dramatic,i want to use a flower?

[vivid mica]

Depression haha

Its kinda like a "idgaf if i die" moment yk

[astral vault]

Do you know why you're depressed?

are there any specific issues in your life you could get help with?

[vivid mica]

ive seen people commit ||suicide|| right infront of me,i have been ||r8p|| 4 times,i have a lot of bad stuff happend to me

[vivid mica]

I hope my issues can be helped but...

i tried

it did not work at all

[astral vault]

you've tried going to a therapist?

[vivid mica]

tried to talk to a school psichiatrist,and that mf spread my issues around the school and now i feel more shitty haha

[astral vault]

I'm sorry that happened

are you a minor?

[vivid mica]

i dont trust therapist,ik they could help you but its kinda useless now haha

[vivid mica]

yea,im 14 lol

[astral vault]

have you tried talking to your parents about it?

[vivid mica]

ran away from home

the only parent i can contact is my grandma

[astral vault]

why?

[astral vault]

have you talked to her about it?

[vivid mica]

they dont want to help when i ask them

and more weird stuff that i rather not say

[astral vault]

I'm sorry

[vivid mica]

nope,never,i want to left her in the dark

[astral vault]

why?

[vivid mica]

i dont want to make her worried

[astral vault]

but she can help you

[vivid mica]

i rather dont tell her

just give me a reccomendation for a flower please bro...

[astral vault]

You should

telling someone you can trust about your problems will help you a lot

and if it's an adult they can get you help

[vivid mica]

i hope so too

[astral vault]

Please talk to her

[karmic seal]

(hey, dont mind me)

[astral vault]

?

[silver pier]

you’re so young, you have so much to live for

don’t cut your life short, this is just a season of your life

[vivid mica]

i hope so too

[silver pier]

start by making small things to look forward to

goals you want to achieve

[vivid mica]

tried those,failed

[silver pier]

talking to people helps, if you’re struggling w your mental health try talking to a professional

[vivid mica]

failed,news spread,more shit feeling

[silver pier]

sometimes things don’t work out the way you want to

but you have to keep pushing through

[vivid mica]

how?

[silver pier]

you only live once

[astral vault]

You should talk to your Grandma tho, if you feel like she is someone you can trust

[silver pier]

yeah, i agree with that

[vivid mica]

my rep is shit

[astral vault]

rep?

reputation?

[vivid mica]

i was once from a happy normal child to a damn failiure that always go near the street and tried to kms

[vivid mica]

yea

[astral vault]

You can change that

but you should try alone

Nobody deserves to suffer alone

You deserve a better life, and the first step is to reach out to people

[vivid mica]

i hope i deserve a better life too

[astral vault]

Anyone you can trust

[vivid mica]

its gonna be hard haha

[silver pier]

maybe if you talk to your grandma you can try medication for depression if you struggle w it

[astral vault]

You do

[silver pier]

it doesn’t make it fully better, but it’s a tool that helps

[vivid mica]

Trust me,i dont

i rather die ngl lol

[silver pier]

pick up new hobbies, be active

[astral vault]

everyone does, especially someone as young as you

[vivid mica]

tried some hobbies,failed too

[astral vault]

do you have close friends?

[silver pier]

giving up does nothing

[vivid mica]

i tried to be active,always gets humiliated for no reason

[silver pier]

it just proves everyone right about you

[vivid mica]

true,thats why i give up

[silver pier]

who gives a fuck about what people think

there is always going to be someone who judges you

or who is better at something

but you have so much to live for

don’t give up now

[silk flax]

listen, you deserve to live, don't let what happened to you ruin your chance at a happy life, fight through it, fight through the depression

you will find happiness and people that love you

people that care about you

@vivid mica

[vivid mica]

ik some people care abt me

but what is the point of caring for me lol

i am pretty useless ngl :3

it is what it is ig

no one prolly would know if i died that much ngl

[astral vault]

no you're not

[vivid mica]

anyways im closing this sub channel,i have been given an answer by someone,thank you for cooperating and i hope you have a good life and i hope we can see again in the afterlife if there is an afterlife,goodnight and swet dreams and goodbye love.

[astral vault]

that's not true

[astral vault]

Please don't do anything drastic

[vivid mica]

sorry.

[astral vault]

people care about you

[vivid mica]

i hope so too

anyways

goodnight

[astral vault]

Please try talking to someone you trust

you dont know how much it'll help

[pulsar leaf]

WOAH THATS WHAT YOU WANTED ROSE SUGGESTS FOR??

[vivid mica]

damn,i cant close haha

[vivid mica]

yea?,why?

[pulsar leaf]

I THOUGHT IT WAS FOR SMTH NICE

[vivid mica]

it is

[pulsar leaf]

How?

[vivid mica]

i finally can be dead,my pain mentally and physically finally gone

idc if i go to hell,idc if i got burned in the future

[astral vault]

You can get rid of that pain in other ways

[pulsar leaf]

Well don't do it you seem like a cool person

[astral vault]

it's not the only way

you'll only hurt the people who care about you

[vivid mica]

haha,too late love,my note is done,i have marked it with my ||wrist blood|| and my ||neck blood||

just need the flower,thats why i was asking yall haha

but i have been given an answer

[karmic seal]

i might be able to help i think

[pulsar leaf]

DONT DO IT

[karmic seal]

prly the blue flower

[astral vault]

please just think about what you're doing

[astral vault]

not the time man

[pulsar leaf]

Cmon your 13 or 14 and you have the rest of your life to live

[karmic seal]

but they asked abt the flower thngy

[vivid mica]

eh sure.

[vivid mica]

hahaahahahhaahhahahahahaahhahahaahaahhaahhahaahahhaahhahwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

[karmic seal]

i dont think its the most ideal flower

[grim oyster]

Oh, hey again

[astral vault]

it's for a suicide note my friend, please read the room

[vivid mica]

hi

[karmic seal]

i did...

but they still asked abt the flower

[grim oyster]

How you doing? Hope you're doing alright

[pulsar leaf]

They aint

[vivid mica]

i hope so too,hahahaha

[grim oyster]

Yk, you're a cool person, i dont understand why you'd feel like you're a horrible person

You have value, you're amazing man

[karmic seal]

they prly dont, its jus the past, i think idk

[karmic seal]

srysrysry

[vivid mica]

funny joke man

[grim oyster]

?

[pulsar leaf]

It isn't a joke

[grim oyster]

I don't do comedy

[astral vault]

it's not a joke

[grim oyster]

I'm not funny anyways

[vivid mica]

anyways

[grim oyster]

Yeah, you should rethink

About

[pulsar leaf]

Just don't do it

[grim oyster]

All of this

[vivid mica]

do someone need my corpse?

[karmic seal]

amazing or not, there is always ups and downs, k?

[vivid mica]

for research or somethin?

[pulsar leaf]

You matter to people you don't have to do this

[vivid mica]

my dead body will be more worthy than my soulfull body haha

[karmic seal]

what use is a dead body

[vivid mica]

a lot tbh

[pulsar leaf]

Your soulful body is more worthy

[grim oyster]

Without a soul

[astral vault]

Please talk to someone

you'll only hurt the people who care about you

[vivid mica]

you can beat it,slice it,use itt for research,burn it,idk do whatever you want with my dead body,its consentual alr

[karmic seal]

there is like literally nuthin we can do abt this guys

its gunna keep on goin...

[astral vault]

Please stop talking

[pulsar leaf]

PLS DONT DO IT PEOPLE CARE ABT YOU

[karmic seal]

its tru tho...

[pulsar leaf]

@vivid mica ignore @karmic seal they have no clue what there talking abt

[grim oyster]

Shouldn't have said that

[karmic seal]

i kinda do bud...

[pulsar leaf]

Quite clearly don't if your encouraging them to do it

[karmic seal]

, i aint encouraging them, im trying to stop aswell

[pulsar leaf]

Well probably too late now

[vivid mica]

im sorry

[astral vault]

@vivid mica When I was your age, I lost a close friend. It is the most unimaginably horrific feeling in the world. Please, try to hold on for your friends, for the people who care about you.

[pulsar leaf]

Don't do it

[vivid mica]

i hope you can remember me someday hehe

[astral vault]

Your life will get better

[pulsar leaf]

It's obv people care abt you bc we are trying to stop you pls don't do it

[vivid mica]

imma try to buy the rose

[grim oyster]

If I can ask, what type of rose is it?

[vivid mica]

im sorry,i love you all.

[pulsar leaf]

Don't pls

[vivid mica]

blue rose

[pulsar leaf]

Your worth more than dying

[silk flax]

ending yourself wont make it better

[vivid mica]

i love you all

[grim oyster]

Ay, no need to apologize, we should do that honestly

[silk flax]

there is nothing out there

[astral vault]

Please, talk to someone. You don't understand how much a simple conversation can help.

[pulsar leaf]

Please don't do it

[silk flax]

at least let us help you a bit

don't leave

reconsider for a second

[karmic seal]

how can you help

[vivid mica]

thank you for trying to help me out, but it is what it is,i dont want to cover others people problem with my problem,please go to other sub channels and help other people. I love you,im sorry,goodnight.

[silk flax]

@vivid mica so many people care about you want want you to live, we've all typed out over 200 messages begging you not to do it

[astral vault]

oh my God just stop talking

[silk flax]

you're not covering anything

[pulsar leaf]

No we want to help you

[astral vault]

Your problems are just as, if not more important than other's

You matter

[karmic seal]

theyre offline...

[grim oyster]

Huh, alright then.. I really hope you change your mind, have a nice day man

Alright, we fucked up

[silk flax]

they won't do it

they'll be alright

[grim oyster]

We actually fucked up

[pulsar leaf]

Ffs

[karmic seal]

i fucked up way more.

[silk flax]

200 messages begging them, we did all we could

[astral vault]

let's check in on them tomorrow

[pulsar leaf]

Yeah

[astral vault]

I still hope they'll reconsider

[grim oyster]

You guys remind me to do that, I got so much shit to do

[pulsar leaf]

Same

They seem like a cool person

[grim oyster]

Including like, i have a few people i need to talk to irl

[karmic seal]

rly cool

[grim oyster]

About therapy shit

But I think this person's deal

Is a little..

Bit more important

[karmic seal]

ig so

[astral vault]

a 14 year old too

[grim oyster]

Oh, well...

[pulsar leaf]

Yeah they have so much of there life to live

[karmic seal]

yeah, ppl go thru like, a whole lot

[astral vault]

I believe they can get through it

[grim oyster]

She left the post

Fuck

[pulsar leaf]

They left the post

I'll leave it aswell no point being in it

[grim oyster]

What

Ok

[astral vault]

oh good

[karmic seal]

nice...

theyre gone from the thread..

no...

i dont know this person...

im too unbothered to try anymore anyways

its no use, they prly wont see this...

then go for it ig...

do you know this person personally?

[astral vault]

hey can I politely ask you to leave this thread? you haven't contributed anything positive

[pulsar leaf]

They ain't anymore they joined back

[severe berry]

hey tenshi

we love you

please stay

this may not help but i want you to know
its ok to be feeling this way

when life sucks so much its hard to convince someone to keep fighting on
but depression doesnt stay

frankly, i cant convince you to live on if you really want to die. and frankly, i dont think its fair for me to. someone can suffer so much to the point dying could be better

but i want you to keep fighting on

when you were younger, im sure youve had happy days

keep fighting for those

dont give up, you have people who care for you

those good days in the future may be uncertain, rare and little, but they will happen
eventually, your life will take a turn
fight for your loved ones
if you dont have any, fight for yourself
you need to know you are NOT an unimportant individual
i know you are talented, and how much potential you carry with you
dont undermine yourself like that :(
please push through

[pulsar leaf]

They said they were gonna do it hrs ago

[severe berry]

i just need her to read this

[astral vault]

I'm assuming they're japanese, and it's night in Japan rn so I'm hoping they just went to sleep

[pulsar leaf]

Same

[astral vault]

idk why I said assuming they are japanese

[severe berry]

they are

his my friend

idk his or her pronouns though but i dont think they care

[pulsar leaf]

The pronouns are she/her in her bio

[severe berry]

i saw

[karmic seal]

sry yall, got a little scared...

[astral vault]

?

[karmic seal]

its k, not the big problem here

pls tenshi

[weak marten]

if she's seeing this, i really hope she understands how many people care about her

[pulsar leaf]

Same :/

[astral vault]

still not online

[pulsar leaf]

Oh : (

[astral vault]

please do not interact with me you are too young

[karmic seal]

rly hope she's fine

[pulsar leaf]

Same

[karmic seal]

yeah ig

[pulsar leaf]

I doubt they are tho😔

[vivid mica]

update: plan did not turn out well

the rope snapped and my cutter is not sharp enough to slice me to death

now i have bruises on my neck and some slices in my neck and between the upper bone thingy near the chest that usualy stick out

[pulsar leaf]

Pls don't off yourself

It failing is sign that you should die

[pulsar leaf]

Want me too tell you smth that'll change your mind abt offing yourself?

[vivid mica]

sure ig

[pulsar leaf]

I think abt ||killing myself|| a lot and I just get through it bc I know that I'll be happy in the future

[vivid mica]

damn

im really is more weak than someone that has the same thougts as me

[pulsar leaf]

I believe that you can get through it and live long enough to he happy in the future you just have to wait

[karmic seal]

no, no, no, its fine, everybody prly has a beginnng

[pulsar leaf]

So please don't do it

[vivid mica]

im rlly is useless haha

but hey

it is what it is

im glad yall are fine

[pulsar leaf]

Your not useless

[pulsar leaf]

You can translate 3 languages that's rly cool

[vivid mica]

yea,ik ik it sounds cool but its litterally the most basic shit ever

not only im basicly useless physically,im now weak mentally haha

[pulsar leaf]

It isn't tho? I don't even know 2 languages properly

[vivid mica]

but it is what it is

[pulsar leaf]

It's not you can make it through being suicidal and you can live long enough to be happy in the future I believe in you everyone in this server does

[vivid mica]

i have nothing to say

[vivid mica]

how?,ive been like this since 8 years old darling

i dont even know anymore

[pulsar leaf]

You've survived for 6 years you can survive long enough to be happy again

[vivid mica]

i hope so too

[pulsar leaf]

See that's the spirit don't commit suicide and just live and wait long enough

[vivid mica]

...

[pulsar leaf]

What?

[vivid mica]

idk anymore

i cant think haha

my brain is a mush

[pulsar leaf]

Just try your best to ignore the people trying to pull you down and make friends that'll lift you up

[vivid mica]

my neck is hurting,i might need to replace the bandage,and i might need to replace the bandaid near the two ones up the chest

idk anymore

if can i want to cry

but i cant haha

[pulsar leaf]

Ask your parents to help you with that maybe

[vivid mica]

i live alone

[pulsar leaf]

Oh at 14?

[vivid mica]

yea

i live in a apartment alone

i use my grandmas name to rent it out,so technically its my grandma's

[pulsar leaf]

Do you have free or cheap healthcare where you live or no?

[vivid mica]

free healthcare? yes

but i rather not to go there

[pulsar leaf]

Oh ok

[vivid mica]

its not because its shit or somethin,its litterally a good hospital

but i just have paranoia lol

[pulsar leaf]

Oh that's understandable

Bc I was gonna say go to the doctors or smth and ask them to help with the bandages

[vivid mica]

hehe :3

[pulsar leaf]

Just please promise that you won't attempt suicide again and you'll try your best to survive longer into the future and can be happy again

[vivid mica]

i cant really promise that big.sorry

but i will try my best

English,Japanese,Indonesian

[pulsar leaf]

See that's the spirit trying your best if you ever want to vent to some1 my dms are always open

[astral vault]

hey, I'm glad you're alright

we were worried about you

[vivid mica]

Indonesian is easy

i litterally speedrun that language in 2 months

[pulsar leaf]

I know quite a bit of Chinese

[pulsar leaf]

Wow that's impressive

[astral vault]

You're talented

[vivid mica]

Its not a talent

its litterally easy

[astral vault]

it is

[vivid mica]

im no joking

[astral vault]

you're smart

[vivid mica]

its litterally the easiest langauge to learn

[astral vault]

I've been tryna learn one language for 5 years now

[vivid mica]

i am not joking

[pulsar leaf]

I might try what did you use to learn it?

[astral vault]

it's only easy for you cause you're smart

[vivid mica]

Instragam memes

[pulsar leaf]

WHAT THATS IMPRESSIVE

I've know English my whole life and I suck at reading

[vivid mica]

bro,its litterally easy,im not smart bro. Why u suprised?

[astral vault]

learning a language in two months without professional lessons is really fucking impressive

[astral vault]

dont downplay your accomplishments

none of us could do that

[pulsar leaf]

Cause I'm not as good as you at it I'm pretty bad at learning new languages

[karmic seal]

hey @vivid mica ?

[vivid mica]

?

[karmic seal]

how are you today? In case nobody asked.

[vivid mica]

still feel like shit

[pulsar leaf]

You'll get better eventually dw

[karmic seal]

Don't worry, ok? I'm sure it's going to be fine...

[karmic seal]

can you try leave it to me this time?

[pulsar leaf]

Wha?

[vivid mica]

dude its fine,i can handle 5 guys :3

[pulsar leaf]

Lol

[karmic seal]

@vivid mica hey, listen here, even though you feel like shi, there is always going to be somebody that will look out for you, even if it doesn't feel like it

[karmic seal]

how humorous

[pulsar leaf]

@karmic seal can u dm me rq

[karmic seal]

sure

[pulsar leaf]

Ty

[silk flax]

Youre not useless

You’re a really cool person

Don’t attempt again

We were all worried about you, we wanted you to live

People care about you

[vivid mica]

i cant think lol

im gonna go to sleep,hopefully this is my last time sleeping peacefully,goodnight. I love you all.

[silk flax]

What?

Have you taken anything ?

[vivid mica]

sleeping pills

[silk flax]

How many?

[vivid mica]

i might accidentally overdose on them :3

[pulsar leaf]

Okie have a nice sleep ok it'll help clear your mind of bad thoughts and hopefully you wake up happier

[pulsar leaf]

WAIT NO DONT DO THAT PLS

[silk flax]

Go to the hospital, get your stomach pumped

[vivid mica]

i hope that happend

[silk flax]

Please

Just rethink

[fair scarab]

What

テト - EN/JP/ID　（日本） ↩️

[Reply to:](#1148983867080986715 message) dude its fine,i can handle 5 guys :3

[vivid mica]

nah its fine,aint my first time

[vivid mica]

only ate 10 when you only need to eat 2,no biggie

[pulsar leaf]

I hope you don't die from it ok?

[fair scarab]

I could too buy yk like gwhat

テト - EN/JP/ID　（日本） ↩️

[Reply to:](#1148983867080986715 message) dude its fine,i can handle 5 guys :3

テト - EN/JP/ID　（日本） ↩️

[Reply to:](#1148983867080986715 message) only ate 10 when you only need to eat 2,no biggie

😵

[vivid mica]

nah its fine,yall dont need to worry lmao

most normal night in my life lol

might be more peacefull than usual

[fair scarab]

I'd say you could take 10 I could 100% take 10 at the same time without problem (haha I'm so funny)

[pulsar leaf]

Dude this isn't helping

[karmic seal]

damn

[astral vault]

dude what

[karmic seal]

nothing now...

[astral vault]

Not trying to be rude but with the things you said yesterday I'm not sure you should be trying to help people

you were really weird in this thread

also why would you want helping someone to be "left to you"

[karmic seal]

yeah ig so...

[fair scarab]

I agree

[karmic seal]

i also agree

[severe berry]

theres a time for everything

[fair scarab]

i didnt know what the conv was about

⛧♰⸸♰⛧ ↩️

[Reply to:](#1148983867080986715 message) Dude this isn't helping

They were trying to od

Sebastian (she/her/they/them/it) professional goofypie ↩️

[Reply to:](#1148983867080986715 message) i didnt know what the conv was about 📎

oh

Emperor ↩️

[Reply to:](#1148983867080986715 message) They were trying to od 📎

im sorry

Yeah dw you didnt know

[karmic seal]

ts does od mean?

[fair scarab]

|| overd0se ||

SETH... ↩️

[Reply to:](#1148983867080986715 message) ts does od mean?

[karmic seal]

oh...

oh ty

[vivid mica]

Update: im fine, just ate somethin, startingto feel good (?)

[astral vault]

that's amazing

I'm proud of you that you got through it

[vivid mica]

:3

[severe berry]

really great
keep on going !!

[silk flax]

Great, knew you could do it

[karmic seal]

lets fucking gooooo!!!!!

[silver pier]

im happy you’re okay. 🙂

[vivid mica]

Thank you.