TW self harm maybe?

[versed tulip]

Hi!! So I used to cut myself (only a little I only have like two permanent scars and they're little and not very visible) and I feel rlly bad that it's only two. Like of course I would prefer to have none, it would feel a lot better to be able to cut and cut without consequences but it just feels embarrassing that I only have two? I feel like it just screams "I only cut myself a little because I'm emo and i want people to feel bad for me and i think i have a hard life" so i don't know i just really want to start cutting again? Like I just need some form of relief it feels so bad, thanks for reading :3

[royal jay]

Why would u care about others people sympathy and attention ?

Be thankful that god gave u such a wonderful body of a human to live ur life

[onyx mica]

This stigma with Emos and goths cutting themselves needs to stop

Also self harm is a way for people who can’t feel anything to at least feel something it is not a form of making people feel bad for u

[royal jay]

THIS

[royal jay]

Im pretty sure people like those can feel, if not why would they cut themselves in the end ?

[onyx mica]

I’m goth and I only self harm bc I feel numb and need to feel an emotion or just anything. Also plz don’t ping me

But me being goth does not mean every goth or emo does the same thing

[royal jay]

Stop whining about a ping goddamn ur no child

[versed tulip]

hi i'm sorry if I'm not understanding correctly but how is this related?

[royal jay]

So for me u said u want to cut yourself in order to make people think about u and how bad ur life is

Or not ?

[versed tulip]

ohh no I'm sorry I meant to say that I was worried people would think I thought that haha, i don't think my life is hard in the slightest

[royal jay]

Well why do u cut yourself then

Im kinda braindead atm lol my bad

[versed tulip]

no it's okay!! i just do it because it makes me feel like I'm real if it makes any sense? I hide the scars and haven't told anyone because I think they'd just make fun of me haha

[royal jay]

So u Cut yourself to make sure u didn’t disappear out of reality correct ?

[versed tulip]

sorry I'm really bad at explaining things, I don't feel like I'm real most of the time but sensations of pain do help. I've recently found out that I am mentally ill apparently so that may be why haha

[royal jay]

Ye i am as well but not that I have the urge to hurt myself it’s more bc of people but Idrc about it I use it for personal advantage

If u like pain the gym might be something for u I’m not even kidding

The gym taught me so much things and it’s the fairest place in the world

• u automatically improve your body staminas and self respect + confidence

[versed tulip]

ohh okay thank you! I've been thinking about starting to go again <3

[royal jay]

Thats a very good decision

Proud of u if u actually take over control of life and try to improve