TL;DR: habit of wanting to please people, to a harming degree where it’s impacted me as a person. Could somebody please help me? Thankyou.
SOME RANTING CONTEXT:
Hi! For a really long time now, I’ve been having personality issues due to my want to please, fit in and make people like me. This has gone to the point where I honestly don’t know who I am, what I find funny or how I speak anymore.
Because of my people pleasing, it’s led to me kind of zoning out of the past year and a half, desperately trying to get myself back together, but I’ve been having almost no progress, and have instead got stuck in the past, with the personality and mindset of somebody 2 years below my grade- and it’s really taken a toll on my education and wellbeing.
I just want to fix and be happy with myself, and not need to change despite the people around me. I just want to be myself, and still be a kid like I’m supposed to be. I don’t want to blink, and be an adult. I already wasted a year on this. I’m so tired.